The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

A magnificent full rainbow appeared above the barbed wire of the once deadly fence,
when 57 people from 8 nations crossed this gate to BirkenAU on November 3, 2003.
Outside - under the birches, then bare and bleak, since any leaf would be instantly eaten,
women and children were herded together before being sent to the close gas-chambers.
Inside - the remnants of Crematorium IV, blown up by the "Sonder-Kommando" in 1944.
It was at a time, when 400 000 Jews from Hungary were exterminated within 2 months.

Those who were forced to do " the job " were mostly Jews from Salonikae in Greece,
who started their life-span of three (!) months "fresh", i.e. not yet emaciated by hunger.
"If someone refused, the head of his wife would be knocked into the fire and burnt."
Witnessed and told to me today - 2003_11_28 - by Helena Hammermesh ~~ in Israel.
 
"We were four women in the camp resistance,
Three of us worked in the ammunition factory.
It was the women, who were hanged,
for they had smuggled the materials
to the Sonder-Kommando
for making the bombs.

"Tell the world, Rachel, save Jewish dignity!
We were not sheep dragged to slaughter,
we were human and we were humane."


Already in 1986 I taped Helena's stories
about the small lights in the darkness,
resistance and support for each other,
self-respect and self-determination.


AU-schwitz-Birken-AU

Retreat - November 2003_11_3-10
 
The rainbow joins earth and sky ~ merges rain and sun,
and displays multiple, distinct colors of the ONE Light !
It is the sign of the Covenant between YHWH and Noah,
that never again will there be intent to blot out humans.
But there was this intent! There still are such attempts!
                "God" and  Wo/Man need to heal, grow, evolve,
                   towards aligning with the Rainbow Covenant.

 

 


NOAH'S VISION

     
  Grief and Grace  
  Preparing in Israel   Marian's Auschwitz-BirkenAU
  Preparing in Germany   Marian's Drawn Memories I-II
  Preparing in Polish Krakov   Harmeze - Harm&Harmony I-II
  Preparing in Jewish Krakov
  Christa-Rachel's List
The Ashes Pond I-II  
 

 

 

 

OUR  VOICES'  SHOFAR  around  the  EARTH

2009_10_16
In memoriam Marian


 

2003_11_21

Marian's AUschwitz and BirkenAU

On our first way to the double concentration camp of AUschwitz-BirkenAU we passed a sign:
"Harmeze" .
"What is this!" I asked Yanina, as if haunted by something.
She said: "It's just the name of a village, I think."
But the letters    H   A   R   M   had already imprinted themselves in my mind and soul.
In English these four letters mean "damage or injury",
In German they imply even more pain:
"Harm" means "deep sorrow".

Then, one evening, the group was brought to Harmeze.
We were to see Marian Kolodzieja's Labyrinth.

And - a wondrous coincidence - Marian and his wife and companion Halima were there too.
Later I learnt, that they lived in Gdansk-Danzig, 7 train-hours away .

We had about two hours and I was so taken by the experience,
that I suddenly knew, where I wanted to spend the two days after the retreat,
which I had wisely scheduled beforehand, guessing
that I would need to take the time "to wait for my soul to come after me."
I boldly asked, if I could spend these two days in the monastery, next to Marian's paintings.

Later - on our twosome visit of the labyrinth - Pater Stanislaw quoted someone who said:
"This is the real Auschwitz".
We both agreed on it.


This theme - the barbed wire fence and the cross represented by the fence poles - recurs in the paintings,
and so does the theme of the old Marian, the survivor, carrying the young Marian, the prisoner and slave, on his shoulders under the cross
Or the young Marian leading the hand of the old Marian in painting his memories.



Marian and his beautiful wife Halima


The Poles among us like Andrzey (left photo) and Pawel (right photo)-

 

and those Israelis among us who spoke Polish like Yanina -

had the chance to listen to Marian's comments and stories directly.
One story was translated to me:

"Marian Kolodzieja" isn't the name he was born with.
It so happened that a perpetrator wanted to use his skill for drawing something,
maybe a birthday blessing or a love-letter (could they love???)
The extra soup he got for this work he shared with another prisoner.

Later, when he was in the death cell awaiting his execution,
that prisoner happened to be responsible for "the archive".
He managed to push the document of the soup-sharer's death-sentence always underneath the pile
until one day he succeeded in replacing it with the "Identity Card" of a Number already executed.
"It means that I actually don't exist anymore.
I adopted the name of that murdered man: Kolodzieja (pronounced Kowodzieja)."

What I now - in sculpting this story - don't understand, is,
if the Nr. 432 - imprinted on so many figures in Marian's painting - is the original or the adopted number?
But does it matter?

 

Then, on my last night,
for two hours alone in Marian's "Labyrinth" with Pater Staniswav Stoi,
we pondered over an idyllic scene, placed above one of Marian's gruesome paintings.
The idyll showed Marian, the prisoner,
mowing grass with a skythe
and digging a pond.
"It's German propaganda", said the priest, with anger, grief and disgust.
And though he came to live in the monastery only a month earlier, he knew:
"There were small natural ponds dispersed around here in Harmeze.
The villagers of Harmeze were expelled and a subcamp of Auschwitz was erected
The first prisoners like Marian were brought to Harmeze to dig out fish-ponds."


Whenever the priest mentioned Harmeze, it sounded like the Hebrew Khaermêsh.
I shuddered.
Khaermêsh means "skythe", in German "Sense".
And the connotation was the "Sensenmann", the man with the skythe,
the personalization of DEATH in the old legends.
Harmeze - harm and Harm and DEATH...


"But who would do the fishing here and who would eat the fish,
definitely not the prisoners."

"That's the whole point: there was no real interest in the prisoners' work-force.
There was no need for most of the things, the slaves were forced to produce.
It was just for the sake of torture.
If they had been interested in getting any real work done effectively,
they would have given the slaves water, food and sleep."


I couldn't help remembering a famous Guru in India,
who demanded from his followers (some 20 years ago),
to shovel a huge hill from one side to the other...

I had never thought of this possibility.
After all there is "Schindler's List", for instance, which proves,
that people could be saved, if work vital for the German Reich could be done by them.

But Marian's mowing with a skythe and digging fish ponds proved the priest's point.

And this aspect of torture made it all the more vivid to me,
that the "Endloesung",
the ideological concept of extermination,
was not the main thing.

If yes, gassing all newcomers immediately would have been the only efficient way to Accomplish it.
There was room for 2000 people, a whole train, in one gas-chamber.
True, the burning of the corpses was more cumbersome
and to Accomplish it, some slaves needed to be kept alive for the Sonderkommando.
And some others for exploiting all the belongings of the murdered, including their hair and gold teeth etc

"Desinfected Laundry" and Protheses of the Handicapped
were only two of orderly piled up utensils of the murdered.
Most of this colossal amount of plunder
- like the hair of the women and these protheses
probably never found consumers, even in a time of war...

They could have gassed the people in their clothes and with their hair intact.

No economic interest demanded to strip them naked and shear them like sheep.

There again was only one interest:

the kick of humilating and torturing living co-humans.

The kick was desired as compensation for the rich skala of feelings,

which are LIFE
and which had been first ignored and denied like in ordinary people,

and if a rest was left, then this rest was systematically erased, blotted out.



"What do these holes in human shape mean?" I wondered with the priest.
"Probably, the nothingness of those numbers, like the negatives of clay sculptures."


 

For the sake of uniting
the Holy-One-Blessed-be-He and his Shekhina
(Divine Presence in female gender)
to unite Y-H with W-H in complete/whole unity
in the name of all Israel and let's say: Amen.
These Aramaic words are said
before blessing over the fulfillment of
certain kinds of commandments.
YHWH is the so-called name of God,
but is actually a verb: he who happens