puzzle piece 21
Oneness and Duality

Original Mother
remembers
Original Heart

"There was One.
There was US All.
There was you and me
and everything else,
every being,
good and bad,
loving and unloving,
we all were together as oneness.

"Yes, you know that.
You've heard it
from a thousand gurus
as they led you back
into pain and destruction.
They've told you
its all the same,
still all One ~
separation still an illusion. ...

"But ...
there is a deeper reality here,
and it is full of pain.
We are no longer One.
We are many.
We are separate,
and yet we are connected.

"We agreed
to create ourselves into many
...
to first create two.

"I, the piece of Mother
who speaks now,
was near the head of the Will side.
To prepare for our separation,
he and I,
we twisted at the center of ourselves
to create two parts of one whole,
with a tether in between.

"This twist was not unpainful
to the Will side.
We had never known pain before,
no words were present to articulate pain.
Yet even now
I remember that pain.
The pain of being
without light.
The pain of needing to be fed
what little light I could get
through a thin tube at my center,
this was what was left of
Original Heart,
this thin crossover place of energy between Spirit and Will.

"We, you and I and all of us decided to do this,
when there was only
one of us
to decide.
This is what is spoken of as
your parentalness.
You chose this
just as much as anyone,
or anything else in existence.
There was only One
to make the decision,
and we all made it together.

"But we had no idea
it would bring this incredible pain
that still reverberates
throughout our essence.

"Will then began to feel excruciating, suffocating pain.
...
We, all the Will polarity,
had never felt anything
without light present.
We didn't even recognize
this experience
as feelings.
And worst of all,
we felt that this experience
was eternal.
We did not know that
with separation,
time was now in existence.
We had only known eternity,
and pain was not the eternal feeling we wished to have.

"Compared to pain
of present experience
this would be like ~ the pain
of holding your breath
and not knowing
if you will ever breathe again.
It was not
the real evolved pain
like we have now.
But even so,
we in the Will
judged against pain,
against any and all pain
for forevermore.

"And Spirit,
as far as I can understand,
felt no pain,
felt almost nothing
without Will
to bring feelings
into order and meaning.
So Spirit felt at peace
in face of all this.
...

The Mother remembers more
of Original Heart

"I have these other memories
of my origins as well.

"In Original Heart
I was alone,
but I was whole.

" I had a thread of self
which I looked down upon.
It flowed from myself
out into the void
and was connected to Him,
to The Light,
as I called him then.
I had no awareness of a time
of not being able to feel him through this thread,
this place of connection,
like an umbilical cord
which attached us
in our infancy of evolution.

"I had a feeling
of separateness,
but of connectedness.

"We had chosen to separate,
to know each other
apart from each other,
and the flow of Heart
which connected us
felt good to me.
I called to him.

"He drifted for a long time, seemingly unaware of me.
I was eager to feel him and look at him, and be seen by him.
I was anxious
to experience us apart,
and yet close.
I pulled, I yearned,
I felt out to him
and I knew
he was not the same as I.
It excited me.
He was different,
and I longed to understand
this difference.

From a dialog

I guess my basic query here
has to do with the established fact that God is love.

"I am everything else
as well.
In the state of complete union and oneness,
all else dissolves
into this cosmic love,
otherwise there is duality, there are forms and fragments.
The divine purpose in duality
is to create the conditions for evolution and change.
Since I am evolving, I have other attributes as well.
Grandfather, however,
who is pure Spirit,
experiences only oneness and therefore is only love."