The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries


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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

[see more in "My Life's Harvest"]

JACOB/YA'AQOV - WRESTLING WITH HIMSELF
Second Page

 

Ya'aqov and Esav - The Story [Gn 25; 27; 31-33]
Most of the anonymous illustrations are from "Medieval Illuminated Manuscripts"

Three times the younger bypasses the elder,
cheats, deceives - to grab the firstborn-right.

The struggle already began in Rivqah's womb
and was so bad, that the mother wanted to die.
Then, after the first twin, Esav, was born -

"his brother came out, his hand grasping Esav's heel,
so they called his name:
Ya'acov/Heel-Holder...."

[Gn25:26]


When the lads grew up,
Ya'aqov once manipulated Esav,
who came home from the field hungry,
to sell his firstborn-right for a boiled stew of lentils.


This right would become valid with their father's death.

A sophisticated game of deceiving his father on his deathbed brought him this right.
Though Esav had played his own active part in Ya'aqov's game [Gn 25:34],
his pain and rage [Gn 27:34] will tear my heart, whenever I read this:
"he cried out with a very great and bitter cry, and said to his father:
BLESS me, me also, father!
He said: Your brother came with
deceit and took away your BLESSING,
He said: Is that why his name was called
Ya'aqov/Heel-Sneak?
For he has now sneaked against me twice:
My firstborn-right [
bekorah]he took,
and now he has taken my
BLESSING [berakah]!"

Phillip Ratner poured his identification into the sculpture of Isaac blessing Esav:


Ja'aqov blesses Yitzhaq....
See the emotionless idyll in the old painting
as contrasted to Phillip Ratner's body language....



The deceit did not bring Ya'aqov the hoped-for results: Esav will kill him.
The stealing of the bekhorah and the berakah leads to berikhah = flight.
6 times Ya'aqov is mentioned as the one who flees, Ya'aqov the escapist,
three times with regard to his brother Esav [Gn 27:43; Gn 35:1; 35:7],
[twice long after he had already uprooted the enmity from Esav's heart!]
and three times with regard to his uncle Laban [Gn 31:20; 31:21; 31,22] ,
to whom he had fled from Esav, because he had no choice,
but from whom he fled in turn, when he wanted to return,
though there was no necessity whatsoever to return by fleeing.

He has to flee and to suffer exile, slavery and ~~ being deceived himself:
 He serves his uncle Laban seven years for Rachel, his younger daughter.
But what he discovers in their bridal bed, was Leah, whom he despised.
"Now in the morning:
here, she was Lea!
He said to Lavan;
What is this that you have done to me!
Was it not for Rahel that I served you?
Why have you deceived me?
Lavan said:
Such is not done in our place
giving away the younger before the firstborn!"
[Gn 29:25-26]


Ya'acov's Wedding-Feast - since no artist so far has dared
to paint Ya'acov's shock, when he discovered Leah in his bed...
Deceived
and
Deceiving

Ya'acov puts peeled rods in the animals' drinking-troughs
to make the beasts bear spotted young to his advantage.
After 20 years of slavery Ya'aqov [Gn 30:25-31:22] wants to return home.
And he wants to return rich.
He uses his sneakiness again and succeeds with getting rich,
but returning home turns out to be much more difficult.
He manages to get away from Lavan.
They set up a standing-pillar to designate the boundary between them.
"witness is this pillar,
that ... you will not cross over ... this pillar to me"
[Gn 31:52].

It meant, that
Ya'aqov had burnt his bridges and could never go back.
But could he go forward?
Wasn't there a brother who wanted to kill him and rightly so?