The Purpose of HEALING - K.i.s.s.
as stated 10 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential PEERS
to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - as holograms - all of Creation!
Intro
to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2012
and Overview of its main libraries
SEARCH on both websites: Healing-K.i.s.s. & ARARAT-HEART
[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "FIND"]
As the fruit of becoming whole = accepting all of myself,
I desire:
to live and explore and evolve L O V E in
my personal life
and to play my part in creating the conditions for Heaven-on-Earth
by radiating grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment
on the actors in my individual life-drama and on all human
beings!
Back
to "HOME", water from above merging with water from below,
which symbolizes that this is the time for SPIRIt and WILL
[feelings] to unite in BODY'S HEART on EARTH
April 15, 2012
To my 3 children, to my 10 grandchildren and to my 3 children-in-love,
let us sound, let us sing and begin with the
30 songs created for YOU !
"Everybody
gets lost on your site!!" Yes, let yourself get lost, let yourself
be guided
to what may be helpful to YOUR learning to live
[K.I.S.S. ='Keep
it simple, Sweetheart'!
is meant to make me and you laugh
about my manner to complicate things .....]
4 pages, first created in 2003,
to which I added my practising
towards OUR Hebrew website www.shemshem.org
"Shamayim-bli-Shi'amum"
Since May 5, 2012,
the new website is ~~~struggling~~~ online
May 5, 2012 - World Liberation Day
It took all these months
till the p e e r s and partners,
who are meant to create this website,
matured.
This included me, Rachel. Until then, from Febr.
20, 2012 till 2012-04-07
I'd been given yet another "outlet"
for my need to sculpt what I experience,
by following the thread of K.i.s.s.-log
2008
My last sculpture was created
towards April 15, 2 0 1 2,
the day of my "Exodus" from sculpting on Healing-K.i.s.s.
ENTRY Sculpture to HEALING-K.I.S.S. in
2001 and 2002
The
present,
evolved "God"
tells us:
"The path that you seek,
the right path for you, is no path at all.
You will make a new path
that is uniquely your own."
On the background
of a glorious sunset
above the Ramon-Crater
in Israel's Desert, 2002
"My plan for you,
that you become whole,
that you become
who you truly are,
that you do it your way."
Though my path is
uniquely my own ,
there is a guideline for anyone's path towards becoming whole
and towards becoming who
each one truly is:
to let myself feel full-filled by feeling
what I feel,
releasing any judgment
about what I feel,
while VIBRATING = breathing - moving - sounding
it,
so that I'll be capable
of accepting
what I feel.
For only if BODY
does its part
in the partnership of FEELING+CONSCIOUSNESS
in the HEART in my BODY, can there beTOTAL S E L F - A C
C E P T A N C E ,
can I become
whole, can I be
who I truly am.. so that I can create my life and love as I wish .
I set up
"Healing-K.i.s.s." in June 2001, in order to study "GODchannel.com",
which for ME is still the most vital nourishment for living and loving
my life.
But since 2002 more libraries created themselves,
for example these three:
M
E E M 2002 SONG-GAME
2007K.I.S.S.- LOG 2
0 0 8
MEEM 2002
- 50 Pages
Moving
Evolving
Emotions
Manual
During
50 successive days in summer 2002
I chose specific scenes from my daily life,
- with images, sounds and written utterances -
to exemplify, how I move emotions
SONG-GAME
2007 : 365 PAGES[+1]
with about - so far - 450 songs in Hebrew,
English,
German, Arabic, Swedish, French + a
song in Russian
O v e r v i e w s: * Bat-Adam's
Songs - Alphabetic Index
Three Different Approaches
to Introduce Healing-K.i.s.s
to "My Potential Peers"
This first sculpture
[from .integration2003-2006]
originally epitomized
my last effort to manifest in the exterior world
- till January 2006.
I re-used it in order to trace my
interior path
of "Healing Myself and Creation into Wholeness" - 2006 till
2011
L I B R
A R Y July 2003 - July2006
Three more Attempts to realize
my Vision of Peace
through Desert Hosting Economy in Israel-Palestine:
Living my Dream
and
Training Dreamers
to Live Theirs
The
image symbolizes the pages
which were meant to assist me
in realizing my new assignment.
After 2 years of "rest" with flat and family,
I suddenly got a message,
that I should continue with the realization
of my Vision of Peace
through Desert Economy.
This would also mean, or so I believed,
that I should close HEALING-K.I.S.S.
But soon enough I felt the need
to cope with what I experienced
- by sculpting words and images
I closed Healing-K.i.s.s. on July 4, 2003, with the sculpture of a
gift from my grandkids. and added, in October 27, 2003
two new parts to Healing-K.i.s.s.: "Noah's
Ark" & "Noah's Shore"
Since 2003_11_13 this vision became even deeper rooted in my experience
of AU-schwitz-Birken-AU
an
ancient and ongoing sorrow with which I can live only
by dedicating my life to transforming the pain
into healing work.
In
the past this work strove to create a situation,
in which representatives of traumatized peoples would
grow
from
ANNIHILATION and HUMILATION
through
HEALING FEELING &
LEARNING SELF-ACCEPTANCE
to
SELF-RESPECT & SELF-DETERMINATION
This
was my purpose on November 13, 2003.
Five months
later I came to understand,
that nothing will manifest on "Noah's Shore",
until the Desert People all around the Dead Sea will take the lead.
[see
"a Story in Pictures"]
Thus a third "project"
and a third location of "Noah's DeadSea Vision"
emerged in April 2004 : "The
Mount Ararat Evolution"
Again I felt the need to close HEALING-K.I.S.S.
to new creations:
"Since I am on the threshold of grasping
the core of my vocation in the exterior world,
I want to dedicate all my love, creativity, experience and time to
interacting with people,
the people and peoples whom I came to empower,
to help them transform victimhood into self-determination.
"Whatever "Driving Backward"
I'll still have to do, to heal denied feelings and ignored
Body,
I shall do so in daily face-to-face interaction with my potential
peers and partners.
My website may serve as a means of communication with other dreamers
or not.
For myself it will serve as a rich well of information and memories
to nourish me.
For so often I forget what I quoted or reported or sculpted and need
to learn again.
"My website Healing-K.i.s.s. will also provide me with a playground
for my creativity:
whenever I feel like modifying or clarifying, completing or deleting,
an entry of the past 3 years,
I'll do so, as long as it won't pressure me or interfere with my live
interactions with people."
But some months later,
in October 2004, the opposite happened.
I set up an additional website: www.empower.co.il/ARARAT
I didn't know then, that "ARARAT HEART",
too,
would be nothing but another arduous lesson,
the last one... ,
which came to teach me, that there cannot be any blessing in
manifesting dreams in the exterior world,
as long as the lack of self-acceptance of myself and of my potential
partners
does nothing but increase the un-wholeness of things and people on
Earth.
At the end of this turbulent year 2006
of making the transition from exterior manifestations to learning-healing-creating
on Healing-K.i.s.s.
and of experiencing the 2nd Lebanon War combined with the
almost fatal accident of Mika and Efrat,
there appeared a new "mission" - being PRESENT with my daughter-in-love
and my tenth grandchild,
whenever Immanuel, my firstborn, would be on long flights as a pilot
of El-Al.
The commuting between Arad and Shoham
(3-4 hours stressful traveling) did not disturb my Healingkiss
work.
On the contrary - the "commuting" between my "holy
al-one-ness" and togetherness with my family
balanced the emotional motion of my "ocean" and also cross-fertilized
both of my life-styles.
My
fantastic photo
of the Salt Sea from "Noah's Cave"
serves as background for an anonymous artist's creation
of the animated universal symbol of peace
which is based on the myth about Noah
and the end of the Great Flood: Genesis
8:11
At the end of two relatively
cosy years, on Dec. 24, 2008, a hacker destroyed my websites and added a device
to destroy them automatically, if they should be reconstructed.
The message from
my Cosmic Self: 'Cease to manifest new Creations
even on your websites!'
When my genius son managed to resurrect my sites, I, indeed, stopped
to create new pages,
yet inserted not only "Driving Backward" documents but even
new creations -on old pages .
At the
end of two more "cosy" years, on Dec. 20, 2010 a
series of events concerning my family as well as my close friends
brought to my awareness,
that I had to limit my interaction with
both, family and friends, even further,
and even part from Grandmotherhood in the same manner as I once parted
from Motherhood.
The same is true for my "action"
- already restricted to creating on Healingkiss. On Febr. 14, 2011, I renewed
my vow to no longer document/sculpt my healing-feeling-living,
but to integrate more of my past, especially the treasures of the
last 10 years,
and make this huge experience the basis for growing into the frequency
of the 5th dimension.
2012_01_29
This vow has not been kept!
Though in a much more restricted way,
I DID document/sculpt my healing-feeling-living. How
often have I quoted: [from Godchannel>Free
Will] When you are relying
entirely on your Will
and her mate, loving Light, for inner guidance
and no longer planning a future
or believing
what your imprints and conditioning have been telling you
about what you must do
and what you must protect yourself against ~
you are doing the work."
I didn't get that this advice pertains also
to "planning what NOT to do".
I am now ready to vow, that I won't plan, what to do or what not to
do,
but that I shall "rely entirely on the
guidance of my Will and my Light".
A Second Approach to
Introduce Healing-K.i.s.s.
to "My Potential Peers
"
On January 1,
2009, I sculpted yet another view on my life - in connection with
the "command" of a new Lekh-Lekhâ
,
This view is still resonating with me on January 13, 2010, and on
March 21, 2010, and on February 28, 2011,
except that the Lekh-Lekhâ
from my creating, learning, healing through my 2 websites has been
gradual, not abrupt. I desire, that from now on, the year 2011, I'll heed God's
advice to "cease manifesting
new creations"
and to stick to "Driving Backward
into the Future" - to the 10 years of my websites and its
treasures! I des [My Lekh-Lekhâ
= my 'Going to Myself' in order to be
'a blessing for All'
as viewed on Jan. 1, 2009 appears mostly on
.index.July 2003]
is purely dedicated
to healing into wholeness,
and nothing else
matters more to you,
you are ready to take responsibility
for healing yourself
and all of Creation.
"When
you are relying
entirely on your Will [feeling,desire,
intuition]
and her mate, loving Light
[consciousness],
for inner guidance,
and no longer planning a future
or believing
what your imprints and conditioning
have been telling you about what you must do
and what you must protect yourself against
~
you are doing the work."
A short history of my 10 years' creation
on computer and Internet
Following
the strong encouragement of Immanuel, my son, [see
the 16 main actors in my present drama - in 2001]
or "Grandma
of Ten" 2007-2010
to establish my own website,
reinforced by his patient teaching of the skills I needed,
and crowned by his and his wife's contribution of the mystical homepage
animation I began with Healing-K.i.s.s.
in June 2001.
In
May 2004,
after three years of work on "Healing-K.i.s.s."
~~~ of creating~~~ learning~~~ healing~~~
I viewed its vast tapestry
as a TRIPTYCH with a blurred CROWN above:
Driving Backward
into the Future -
70 Years of Living
Between April and October 2005 ,
when I was still vacillating between creating in the outside world
and focusing on my interior and exterior "Healing into Wholeness",
I accumulated a limited library of 21
sculpted pages called "LEARN
and LIVE" which from Sept.
8, 2010, my late ex-husband's
birthday in 1922, till Febr.
20, 2011, my mother's
deathday in 1985, served for "Closeups to my Past,
Finetuning to my Present, Nourishment for my Living -
- which enhance and enrich my experience of "Mika's Heaven on
Earth" "
Two years later,
2007_04_23
the
kaleidoscope of my life appeared re-shuffled.
I was savoring a new view of
my Presence and my Past,
my Humankind and Myself,
grateful for yet another phase of Fruition
Structure of HEALING-K.I.S.S.
- as perceived in 2009 -
including a second website: ARARAT After 10 years of almost
daily creating and playing, learning and healing with the help of
Healing-K.i.s.s.,
I find it a bit ridiculous, that in 2007-08 I wanted to point out
a "structure" behind the websites' content.
And yet during the weeks of trying to at least present that content
in somewhat systematical overviews,
I finally- on March 13, 2011 - played the kids oracle:
"Leaving" or "Deleting"? Answer: "Leaving!"
"Leaving", of course, has
a double meaning.....- what else is new with "oracles"???
Singing&Sounding SongGame 2007 with one or more songs for
365 days
Throughout
the year of 2008 there was just one ongoing
Sculpture: K.I.S.S.-L O G
on the last of the
366 days of the year 2008, I believed that K.i.s.s.-Log 2008,
this library of 11555 files (in the formats:
.htm, .jpg, .gif, .swf) was meant to become
the great finale of my systematical sculpting-documenting my living
and learning, healing and creating.
From then on any creating should have been accidental not systematic
- without pressure to complete. Of course ,
, in time I regressed once again to "sculpting with words",
- see the overview of 2009
and from
October 2009 till March
13, 2010 I even "surrendered" to work on three systematical
threads.
Since on August
1, 2009I
began with the sequence of "Mika's Heaven-on-Earth", inserting
it along the SongGame of 2007,
and since my strangely staged voyage
to France & Ireland, in June 2010, felt
like a succession to the
Walk-about-Love in 2009,
I "forgot" about the double advice: "Cease
creating new manifestations" , and instead "Drive
Backward into the Future"! Now, since February 20, 2011,
I'm determined to only re-create, what I created in the Past!
I feel FREE and
FULL-FILLED
if I lovingly feel and vibrate everything feelable
without ignoring, denying or holding it captive
by judgments, beliefs and habits
A third Approach to Introduce Healing-K.i.s.s. to
"My Potential Peers"
The
Website HEALING-K.I.S.S. was set up in June
2 0 0 1 While
ARARAT-HEART,
Sept. 2004, closed with
Mika's birth 2005_12_20, Healing-K.i.s.s. continued in
Jan. 2009 with a new Intro on this page!
Most of this Intro, including a kind of biography
and an overview of the main inserts of 2009,
was transferred in order
to keep the Intro light!
[for since 2009 I'm
no longer "meant to" start new pages! and
a page should never exceed the size of 1300 kbs!]
In
2011,
as in 2009-2010,
I go on re-employing "old" pages
with "Finetuning
to my Present in the Presence of my Cosmic Self "
"Everybody gets lost on your site!!"
Yes, let yourself get lost, let yourself
be guided
to what may be helpful to your learning to live !
[K.I.S.S. ='Keep
it simple, Sweetheart'!
is meant to make me and you laugh
about my manner to complicate things .....]
On this day, 26 years ago, my
mother died in my arms,
a date which closes the theme "Promise Body not to die",
for which I first set up a
page in 2005, which now [on Febr.
24] seems to be the last one where I've inserted daily entries
of my Present.
On this day I completed to unify all 1402 pages of Healing-K.i.s.s.
- by topping each of them with a header, which epitomizes my LIFE.
As to this Introduction to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2011 and the Overview
of its main libraries, I'm in the process of reconstructing both.
The following tables and their order are intended to make it easy
to access all main folders on the Internet. But I'll remember "Abraham":"You will never get
it done, nor can you ever get it wrong!"
All
these"Introductory Pages",
are still valid and relevant
though sculpted in 2001 -updated
in 2011
2009
- 2011 Intro
& Overview
to my 2 websites This
is the page, which you are studying right now
It still bears the original file-name:
.index-2004-triptych- [in
2004 "triptych" referred to the e libraries
of My Life's Harvest 2001-2003, s. below] Much
of the - still
relevant - "Intro & Overview" appears
now in.index-July2003
The five files which
I once named ".integration" are,
since Febr. 2011, enhanced by an exemplary non-linearcomposition of two periods in my life: 1978
and 1991
.integration2003-2006 L
I B R A R Y
July 2003 - July 2006
Three more Attempts to realize my Vision of Peace
through Desert Hosting Economy in Israel-Palestine
The
present,
evolved "God"
tells us:
"The path that you seek,
the right path for
you, is no path at all.
You will make a new path
that is uniquely your own."
On the background
of a glorious sunset
above the Ramon-Crater
in Israel's Desert, 2002
"My plan for
you,
that you become whole,
that you become
who you truly are,
that you do it your way."
Though my
path is uniquely my own ,
there is a guideline for anyone's path towards becoming whole
and towards becoming who
each one truly is:
to let myself feel full-filled by
feeling what I feel,
releasing any judgment
about what I feel,
while VIBRATING = breathing - moving
- sounding it,
so that I'll be capable
of
accepting what
I feel.
For only if BODY
does its part
in the partnership of FEELING+CONSCIOUSNESS
in the HEART in my BODY, can there beTOTAL S E L
F - A C C E P T A N C E ,
can I become
whole, can I
be who I
truly am.. so that I can create my life and love as I wish
.
PUZZLE PIECES GUIDE 2001-2002
or G O D H A S E V O L V
E D
.pplistPUZZLE PIECES GUIDE
2001-2002 .pplistpreface
-Preface to Puzzle Pieces Guide .pp1 - Driving backward .pp1b-Driving Backward to
Retrieve Goodness .pp2 - Peer Companions .pp2b- Peer Companions .pp3 - Moving Emotions .pp4 - Identifying Triggers
.pp5 - Trapping Will .pp6 - Releasing Judgments .pp6b-Releasing Judgments
.pp7 - Total Self-Acceptance .pp8 - Understanding and
Choosing Experience .pp9 - Driving Backward to
Retrieve Goodness .pp10 -Denial of Will
.pp10b-How God started
to feel and to deny .pp11 - All of Creation .pp12 - The Goal: To become
Parental and Whole .pp13 - Feel all there
is to Feel .pp14 - God's and my Will
and Desire .pp15 - Guilt&Blame
are the same .pp16 - Reality reflects
Denial .pp16b- Reality reflects
Judgments .pp17 - How I learnt Moving
Emotion Techniques .pp17b- Moving Emotions:
Sound .pp17bb-Sound + 17bbNote:
Heart .pp17c- Moving Emotions:
Breath .pp17d- Moving Emotions:
Body Movement .pp17e- "Releasing"
Emotions or Moving & Evolving
them? .pp18 - Good and Bad .pp19 - Body's Illness and
Aging
.pp19b -Body's Death .pp20 - Everyone a Hologram .pp21 - Oneness and Duality .pp21b-Fragments and Fragmentation .pp22-Perception and Projection
.pp23
- Loving Hearts' Denials .pp24 -Lucifer and Ahriman
.pp25 -Denial Spirits and Asuras .pp26- Redeeming Lost Will
.pp26b- Redeeming Lost
Spirit
.pp27 - Movement of Lost
Will
.pp28 - No overriding, no
letting override
.pp28b- No overriding,
no letting override
.pp29 - Reclaiming my Power
.pp30 - Unconditional Love
.pp31 - Sacrifice what you
don't want .pp32 - Doing the Healing
Work .pp33 - Greatness and Grandeur .pp33b-Reflection of Denied
Greatness & Power .pp34 - Communication with
Deity .pp35 - Following Will's
and Body's Lead .pp36 - September 11, 2011 .pp37 - Gaps and Eruption
of Gapped Rage & Terror .pp38 - Unconsciousness,
Amnesia .pp39 - Deity and Manifestation .pp39b -The Process of
Manifestation and Creation .pp40 - Cease Creating New
Manifestations! .pp41 - I Create my own
Reality .pp42 - Victim and Perpetrator .pp43 - Self-Victimization .pp44 - No one needs Correction
or Punishment .pp45 - I need you to feel
how I feel .pp46 - Love&Light&Joy&Peace??? .pp47 - Mary and The Mother .pp48 - Rage and Terror .pp48b -FEAR .pp49 - Ego .pp50 - "Let Consciousness
Serve Sentience!" .pp51 - "Laughter -
the Final Stage of Healing" .pp52 - Loving and Healing
Sexually .pp53 - JOY .pp54 - Light's Way to Dwell
in Hell .pp55 - Heaven on Earth
Le
a r n & L i v e 2 0 0 5 Learn&Live-Overview Learn&Live1
- And honor all their experiences Learn&Live2- "Listening to Heal Fragmented Will" Learn&Live3- "Meeting the
Needs of the Emotional Body" Learn&Live4- The Gap Learn&Live5
- Happiness is not the same as Joy Learn&Live6
- Dealing with Emotions Learn&Live7
- Dealing with Emotions Learn&Live8
- Dealing with Emotions Learn&Live9-"And
your movement in Body will
begin to manifest the Creation
and Love
your Heart has always
desired." Learn&Live10
-"eternally safe
to be and to play -
Manifestation is meant to be a play-
ground,
where being and doing are fun" Learn&Live11- "Acceptanceis the EssentialMedicine" Learn&Live12- "It is learning
to be in your bodies,
and
to celebrate your physical existence
on
this beautiful planet." Learn&Live13
- The Eye Movement
Exercise - an Angel
Message
on healing emotions.
Healing
the Divine Feminine Force Learn&Live14
-"we
are able to become the unifying
song of the hymn of
creation." [Yehudi
Menuhin' Vision] Learn&Live15
- JUDGMENT RELEASE-"...Guilt
erodes the sense of self worth and
makes
it very difficult to feel feelings
that have been infected by it ..." Learn&Live16
-Promise Body not to die Learn&Live17- Vivation : The Skill of Happiness Learn&Live18
- Experience the Power of Sound Learn&Live19- Thanks to Water-Gratitude & Love Learn&Live20
- BLEEP Learn&Live21-
Edith Stein versus Rachel Bat-Adam
or SELF-SACRIFICE versus Self - ACCEPTANCE
MY
BOOK
The Books scanned-marked-bundled Bundle1
starts with my present English translation
of the Hebrew entry: the gist of the
Books in a nutshell. Bundle
6 includes a new heart-wrenching sculpture in English about
what I see as the HOlOCAUST of BETAR, in the year 133 A.D.! Bundle
13 includes Franz Rosenzweig's understanding of
"Y H W H" ,
and my connection to the work of my father-in-law. Bundle
16 includes that each individual is a
hologram and has to say: "The
world was created for MY Sake",
and therefore : "If
I am here everyone is here",
and "whoever keeps
one soul alive, keeps a full world alive"!
.intro-old - Original Intro
to the German book;
Original Intro to the
Hebrew book .books-entry
- The German & Hebrew books:
original entries .content
of book - contents &
links to all chapters, in English .digests
-Summaries
of the chapters
in
the German Book and in the Hebrew Book .English
Summary and Digest -
[6 pages] .German
Preface and Summary .Synopsis
-SYNOPSIS of EVENTS, PERSONALITIES
and LITERATURE, which
play a role in "All Israel are Guarantors for Each Other" .index
- Index of names and issues .abbreviations- of 132 ancient sources and
of 132 modern studies .app
to "Cain & Hevel" - "whoever
looses one soul"
Preparing for it - unawarely
- between 1984 and 1989: .Abraham's
Bus-Steps ! "NEBO-LET-GO"
July 2006, parting from manifesting it on the exterior plane
!
Inte-GRAT-ion
- into GRATe-FULL-ness2007
Introduction
to the three Pathes [+ Song-Game]Overview
of the Three Pathes "Firing-the-Grid
on 2007-07-17" Almost all of these pages - like almost all the pages
in the libraries above - are enriched by sculptures and compositions
which keep being created ever since January 2009,
i.e. since the time when I was advised by my Cosmic Self to
not open any new page, nor letting any page exceed the "weight"
of 1300 kilobytes.
Many pages have been reused since 2009,
and the content of the added inserts are rarely listed here.
This content can only be reached through the links which appear in
relevant contexts or via "Search"
see
"You will never get it done,
nor can you ever get it wrong!"
This
was MY FOCUS also in
2010 ! In 2011 this is still MY FOCUS
My
focus : exploring & exemplifying
how each-one can discover and live
the Condition for 'Heaven-on-Earth' which
I define as:
'Feeling Grate-full, Feeling Zest-full, Feeling Full-filled'
as ongoing vibration of "HEART" breathing
in "BODY"!
To be able to live this, the first assignment is: "Learning
to feel better requires
that you become better at feeling"
H E A V
E N O N E
A R T H "Consider a world where everybody enjoys every experience
they ever have
and consistently create experiences to satisfy all parts of
themselves.
It seems reasonable to call such a world Heaven
on Earth.
To the extent that any of us do not experience Heaven
on Earth we are obviously
making something wrong.
We all take a quantum leap toward Heaven
on Earth
when we realize, if only intellectually, that we are responsible
for everything in our experience,
that everything is the way it is to satisfy our conscious
or unconscious desires,
and that once we stop making something wrong we are free to
change it as we will.
Surrendering fully to the task of manifesting Heaven
on Earth is tantamount
to already being there." [anonymous]
See
now - 2010_10_05, how - in a song - I've "upgraded"
and epitomized my life - beyond linear time
Since January 1, 2009, I am following my understanding
and new lekh-lekhâ
that - after 8 years - I should no longer create new
pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that
on existing pages.
A
good example is the continuous series of my experience
with
"The Walk about Love 2009", inserted in 99
"Godchannel" files .
A compilation of inserts in other files was moved to
'July
2003'
as well as a kind of intro to Healing-K.is.s. - attempted
in 2009.
The greatest experience during "the Walk"
is the feeling that the Biblical prophecy in
Malachi
3:16 (close
to the end of the translated Christian "Old Testament")
- which I put - in 5 languages - above all
the K.i.s.s.-Log 2008 pages since Aug. 15, my 70th birthday
-
is b e c o m i n g
f u l f i l l e d however hesitantly and
falteringly!
az nidberu yir'ee
YHWH ish - el - re'eehu
~~~~~ va-yaqshev
[YHWH] va-yishma'
Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other, ~~~~~
and he listens and he hears [Arabic]
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu , ~~~~~
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
~~~~~ und er lauscht und
er hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre
~~~~~ il entends,
il ecoute
click! In the desert - with an injured finger
- amidst two of my friends among the Walkers from abroad,
who joined us Israelis,
Thomas - 22 - from Leipzig, the town where
my mother was born in 1909, and Emanuel - 20 - from
Italy, who bears my
firstborn's name.
May 14, 2009
As strongly - clearly as I heard the message:
"Join the Walk!",
on Febr. 22,
as clearly and strongly I heard the message: "Leave
the Walk!", on May 2 !
After having healed feelings, I joined the Walk to share insights,
on May 11.
But -back in my two castles,
Bet-Nehemia and
Arad
- there is still much to integrate and
to apply. You
can follow my learning-healing-creating on the background
of my edited Godchannel files.
July 30, 2009
Healing and integration -
as documented in 99 files on Healing-K.i.s.s.- are
completed. The
message, that I should no longer open new pages, is now extended:"Keep
photographing to a minimum!" Just like reporting
on my days in a diary (K.i.s.s.-Log
2008!) - photographing in its five stages means:
witnessing and documenting my life,
i.e. rendering intensity and depth to experiencing, learning
and healing, creating and loving, by:
1) focusing on a scene, person or object,
2) transferring the photos to the computer and choosing what
is valuable.
3) Cropping the pictures and editing size and quality
4) Creating compositions of the images on chosen pages.
5) Later re-opening or even re-editing of pages
Except for the first stage, all this implies much work, which
prevents me from dedicating myself to other work.
There is other work to do now, and as of today, July 30, I
have an idea of what is asked from me,
but it can not be put into written words yet.
January 13, 2010
I
still do not know, what the work is, but I am in no hurry
to find out.
More space, more time free of exterior experiences, seems
to appear.
I am breathing,
embracing each moment and I am ready & prepared.
March
21 , 2010 Since
March 13 it is clear, that no exterior action or interaction
is awaiting me ,
now that I'm free from my inner oppressors.
I am free to lovingly relate to those
feelings and body sensations
which I've been judging or denying or ignoring since the beginning.
It seems , that My Spirit and My Will have become whole and
one,
playing in the movement of embracing and challenging each
other.
My free Will
and my free Spirit
create pleasant circumstances and situations.
I am, therefore, free of a life of personal "functioning"
or personal "coping".
I am free to feel and think deeper into the richness of each
moment of my life
at this time on this planet, with my co-creatures in Nature
and my co-humans.
Mind-full-ness Grate-full-ness
Zest-full-ness
Full-fill-ment
are the goal and the way, ~ are the breathing in and the breathing
out.
February
20 , 2011
Again and again: "Laughter
is the final stage of healing"...
It took me another 15 months to follow the advice
(see above July 30, 2009),
to keep photographing to a minimum,
and to heed God's pleading "to cease creating new manifestations"
.
It's only now that I truly limit my photographing
[compare the Mika-pages since Jan.
2011 with previous
pages]
and - after another 6 weeks - to
also limit my verbal sculpting,
I'm now able to totally focus on "Driving
Backward".
If I, Bat-Adam, am so slow to apply the messages, that resonate
with me,
how do I dare to still judge other people and humankind altogether?
Mika
(4): "I'm
making the Sea!"
( by scattering pebbles on the kitchen floor)
August
8 , 2009 After inserts of new experiences in old
pages, which - in their content - were somehow associated, I,
today, started a new continuous series ,
this time not like "The Walk about Love" - along the
chronology of Godchannel files~~~~~~~~~ but along the
365 dates of my 2007 Song-Game I
shall re-employ song-page after song-page for
exploringthe
evolution of my youngest grandchild,
a starchild whose assignment for this planet seems to be: to
demonstrate by her own living & doing,
how to playfully create from moment to moment, thus feeling
zest-full & full-filled>Heaven-on-Earth.
Grandma Dancing alone in what was then
Mika's garden, on Oct.
31, 2008
Grandma moving Mika, sitting on a frisbee, around the house
with a broom
at Shoham on March
13, 2010
When I reached the end of "Learn&Live
16" on February 20, 2011 [remember , I'm limiting a page to
1300 kilo-byte!]
I felt, that I was mature enough to let go of sculpting any new theme
.
My purpose is now
to re-new, to re-learn, to re-create the messages of 10 years work
on my websites.
The first relearning/recreating was inserted in "My
Training for Wrestling with Tomer" (2003):
May
6, 2003 I now totally went
out of my mind,
first because I have that electricity trauma since my accident
at 15,
second, because Alon was an expert in building such cycles,
so why didn't he act as his brother's keeper,
third, because the grownups had deserted me despite my quest,
but most of all because of my utter stupidity of chasing around
instead of being there - focused, loving - with my partner Tomer.
I didn't change. I only learnt to surrender
to the fact,
that my "Loving Heart"
creates such terrible situations.
And I learnt to cope with this in cooperation with Tomer.
I was not the good, wise grandmother of the fairy tales.
I was Tomer's partner-in-torment and he was mine.
February
18, 2011: I confess, that I still
["Kineret summer 2010]
haven't learnt my lesson.
But remembering that dire incident, while
re-reading this sculpture,
I suddenly believe,
that "to be whole" doesn't mean to be free of flaws
and blunders,
nor to be free of pain-attracting judgments like I need
to be good,
If I am aware, accepting, responsible for my flaws =
not their victim,
then I'm"whole" and also the "lessons" will
become less and less.
February 19, 2011: "responsible" means,
that instead of judging myself and regretting my mistake,
I face the results and convert the frightful into the fruitful,
as I do with any situation, that was staged by my Cosmic Self.
Some things you're not letting happen
right now
because the timing isn't perfect for you.
Some you're not letting happen
because you are very aware of where you are.
But all things, as they are happening, are happening in perfect
order.
And if you will relax and begin saying, "Everything in its perfect time.
Everything is unfolding.
And I'm enjoying where I am now, in relationship to where
I'm going. Content where I am, and eager for more,"
that is the perfect vibrational stance.
SONG-GAME
2007 
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which came to teach me,
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