The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries


[If you look for a word on this page,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"


 


Biographical Sculptures

Grand mother hood
Yael's
52 weeks or 365 days
of her seventh year

2003_05_11-13 ; Fourth of four Pages
First Page~~~ Second Page~~~Third Page

 

Our Pesach Exodus April 22, 2003

Unlike last year,
when the puzzle of 16
was whole,
and my three children,
three children-in-love
and nine grandchildren
were gathering in my flat
for the "Seder" of Pesach,
this year
only Micha and his kids would join me.

This is the family version of last year's Haggadah,
prepared by Ronnit and Efrat,
partly based on my own extensive Haggadah (1976),
and - how strange - ornamented with a shibolet!
I kept my copy with the shibolet,
and while it was lying around towards Pesach,
Tomer photographed it on one of his last days.

This allowed for something special:
to not theoretically learn together from a book
[the Haggada]
at some festive dinner table
in a comfortable safe, secure, room,
but to actually "walk this talk" ,
the commandment that
"everyone has to consider himself
as if he went out from Egypt".

Nor would we eat a boring, bought mazza,
but would prepare and bake and eat real unleavened bread,
which in my understanding symbolizes
the letting go of being a slave to security.

"Micha, Arnon, Ayelet:
we shall go-out and live the Exodus from Egypt!"


Since I wanted to have as much authenticity as possible,
concerning the bowl for the dough, the jug for the water,
the bags to carry everything, and even my Bedouin dress,
I left the camera behind.

But then our Pesach was so wondrous, so moving,
that I regretted badly, to not have taken a physical memory with me.

From this regret an idea was born,
which outweighed that loss by far and high:
We would repeat this Exodus,
and this time with the whole quartet.
After all, Pesach is celebrated not for one, but for seven days!

Since the last day of the festival fell on a Wednesday,
[which means that the parents were not at work, and the family wanted to be together]
the quartet was supposed to be with me the afternoon before
and not stay for the night, but be fetched before the Eve of the feast.

Micha agreed to come earlier and to do that exodus a second time.
Since it had poured with rain 2 days before,
we had a hard time getting the fig twigs to burn.
But everything else was such a fantastic experience,
that I'm sure, the idea to leave my camera at home,
was that of an "angel"!

[See the images which I skipped here, on the last page of 23 pages - a Good-Bye Gift to my 23 years of Grandmotherhood - in the sequence of "The Life of Ayelet, which Ayelet has not known"

"Going-out" from Egypt meant, in this case, to just cross the road up to the Titorah,
which wasn't very desert-like then, but looks wild and dry two thirds of the year.
It's a skill to know, HOW to blow, to set a lazy fire ablaze
 
A fire is kindled, flour, water and salt are kneaded to a dough

 
I had stitched a special sac, in which the dough could be carried in the (blooming) "desert".
 


Now both, Yael and Arnon, shape the dough into a mazzah, [if baked in ashes, it's called "libbeh" in Arabic]
 
 
The ashes are hot and ready to enwrap the mazzas from bottom and from top
 
Now the bread is ready. Micha shakes off the ashes
 
 
Is this "Khnaebah", who stretches out her hand for bread?
 
 
 
Micha is not enthusiastic about the result, but Yael finds it delicious

 

Celebration of Bread and Water

There is bread to eat now, but is there also water in the desert?
As if it had rained so late in the season especially for us -
a receptacle in the rock next to the fig-tree retained water.
The kids called it "the pool of the ants" and played with it.

 



Yael - the last one - walks in the direction of Jerusalem.
While in Exile, Jews used to say at the end of Pesach:
"Next year in Jerusalem!"
May Yael, may we all, heal ourselves towards
"Next year in Jeru-Shalayim of Shalom!"
'Shalom' meaning 'wholeness' and therefore 'peace'!

 

Completion

I've started Yael's page
with the movements of the earth
in relation to the sun.
As I taught her the structure of time,
I needed to teach her
the directions in space.
What is east, what is west
what is north, what is south?

Itamar and Yael wanted to know.
They saw the sun setting in the west,
but they never saw it rising in the east.

So we agreed
that after another night at my place,
I would wake them earlier
to make them see where the sun rises,
over the Jerusalem mountains
in the east.

And, indeed, they got up easily,
and we walked up the Titorah again,
their cerials and milk in my backpack.

Before we left, I asked:
"Where should I braid your hair, Yael?"
And she said:
"On the Titorah".

Itamar took the picture.




Finale
to Yael's birthday with grandma

After the story of Khnaebah and the shibolim,
and the visual journey through Yael's 7th year,
an event occurred - a strange surprise:

Mugrabi, the owner of the cows, came!


I rarely have visitors (this is my choice),
and there came these 2 Bedouin Arabs,
Mugrabi, whom I know, from Ramleh,
and Ibrahim, his nephew from Daburiya,
in the middle of Yael's birthday with me!
We drank the "zutah" tea he had brought
and exchanged news about the Titorah:
would he be allowed to come to the Hill,
and let his cows graze to prevent a fire?


As always he jokingly wants me to join him.


He always worries about my
"economic situation".

This time he was more serious,
"We could make pittahs
[again: "bread"! ]
and sell them in a tent."

I needed to show him who I am.
I told him about a secret prospect for myself,

"Rubbish! Where's the money in that?"
"But it's not money I want to earn!"
"Nooo?"

I said as if joking, to make it light and easy:
"No! I have to do only what God tells me to do!"

We were cheerful, and Yael enjoyed it too.

"Let Yael and me dance the peace-song,
and you'll photograph us!"




Was this sudden visit on Yael's birthday a sign?
a message concerning my first wish for Yael,
the wish for peace for her country?

Towards sunset my daughter called:
"The surprise party is ready, Yael's 3 friends have arrived."
On our way to her home, I asked her:
"What's the name of your girl?"
She knew what I meant.
She thought a little and said:
"Khnaebah."

"I can see her now clearer.
She really is seven years old, like you.
I believe, there actually is a Khnaebah!
For who could invent or remember such a difficult name?"


The happy tumult of welcoming her
did not make her forget the shibolet.
I fastened it to the frame of her bed,
and when I lifted her to see it,
[her bed is above Itamar's],
she was glad:


"Yes, there it's beautiful."

[See two drawings of Yael at the end of "Marian's Memories" in "AUschwitz-BirkenAU"]

See the page "Little pain, fly to the moon", e.g. the entry of March 2011



2013


The correspondence with Yael about coping with Evil towards her experience in Holocaust-Poland, October 2013






On November 3, 2013, after her journey to Holocaust-Poland, Yael wrote