pp3

"He is safe,
and he is not hurting.
You, however are hurting.
Your grief and rage
need to be
experienced,
expressed
and released."

"How you really feel
is what needs expression
and in the most natural way possible. Let this,
temporarily, at least, exclude lengthy speeches
and emphasize guttural sounds.

" In view of this, understanding is that the definition of love needs to be expanded to include emotions that have been labeled 'negative'."

"One of the biggest problems
for the Will
has been guilt telling the Will
It cannot just move
as It needs to move
and understand Itself later.
What Will has to learn now is
that It cannot explain Itself
until It has moved enough
to know.
The expectation
of having to explain Itself first
should not be put
upon the Will,
It is the gap
that requires this."

"If there has been no relief,
there has been
no true movement.
Working on pain,
feeling pain,
and expressing pain
in various ways
are part of its healing,
but 'moving' pain
means a transformation
in the pattern
that brought it there
in the first place.

"This is the Mother.
Spirit,
I have so much to tell you.
I will share in bits and pieces
so we can both process.
But be advised ~
I will not hold back.
I can take responsibility
for my emotions,
own my behavior,
and not project.
But I need to describe
how I feel.
I need you to know
how I feel.
I need you to feel
how I feel."

"Allow sound -
even your breath
or a tiny sound at first,
to bridge another gap in you
which is
between the feelings you have
and the expressing of them
that you do....
[until you reach]
the wailing,
terrified,
deep wretched crying
of heartbreaking,
that will let us know
HEART is coming to life
in the gap.....

"Giving hatred movement
is not going to be easy,
especially when it has to move without hurting others.

"How can real hatred move without hurting others
when hurting others is
what hatred has always
held as power
and the way of intimidating
and getting rid of those it hates...

"...hatred is rage
so compressed
that it wants to lash out
at whatever looks
like it might compress it more.
Hatred is rage
that feels impotent
to make any change.
...

"If you have no place
to express emotion
that feels safe from the fear
that another person
is going to move to stop you,
if there is no place
you can howl
and stomp
and scream,
then you need to notice
that rage
is not your starting point;
fear is,

"and fear
does not have to be very loud when you move it.
It can be done in your room, alone,
with your face in a pillow
and your music turned up
loud enough to cover it.

"This is your starting place and more will open to you as you progress in your own process.

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"If you don't already know
you have the feelings
I am talking about,
then you need to look at
guilt,
pride
and shame.

"The pressure you have had to exert on yourself
to keep the lid
on what you are holding
has been immense.
Where you've pressured yourself, you've made yourself
hard and dense.
You believed
making yourself dense
was what made you strong
and was your best defense.
You equated softness with vulnerability;
...
"there is reason to move this because feeling it
without healing it
is too unpleasant to feel..."

"You must not impose this
on others that do not want it,
for just as it is not ... balance to deny yourself in favor of others,
it is not ... balance
to deny others
in favor of yourself, either."

"Then, when you have cleared out truly all emotional charge,
any given situation
triggers in you,
you will have allowed release
of old emotions
that have accumulated
when the free expression of the Will was denied."

......
...It is not necessary
to have a teacher
to practice Right Use of Will.
You can really do this yourself;
it will empower the Will
to do it...
If you have frustration
and feel you cannot get
the understandings you need,
you have not released enough emotionally."

"... When emotions are flowing, the will is open
and Desire can work her magic
of drawing into manifestation whatever is willed,
including wholeness,
abundance and
full self-realization."

"This is the way it could be,
but is not yet.
Desire has been bound up
by a huge backlog
of repressed and unmoving emotions and pain.

"It is primarily
the presence of guilt and blame that causes emotions to feel bad.

"The problem with this method is that it ... keeps
whatever is feeling bad
cut off from the rest of the being."

"This is the fundamental issue
that underlies
every problem in Creation, and every problem you experience.

"Releasing judgments
against yourself
for having bad feelings,
and against the feelings themselves for being bad,
[addition in the updated version:
and releasing the three other forms of denial energy]
unbinds the magnetic essence, and it becomes free to move. "

This fourth and final step is
to parent yourself
[updated version of this line:
to become fully parental
to yourself]
by supporting and nurturing
the emotions
that you have been unconsciously holding down,
by bringing them out of denial
and allowing them to move
in the Light of love and acceptance."

"...Emotions, especially
the most difficult ones,
are needing
to be felt and expressed."

"...we will explore
how you can find
the best ways for you
to express
and release held emotions.
[updated version of this line:
and move with
your previously held and denied emotions.]

"As each newly freed fragment
of your magnetic/Mother essence
moves to rejoin the rest of you,
more loving Spirit essence, more loving Light
is drawn into you.

This is the true process of 'enlightenment,'
and not a lifting out of desire, emotions
and bodily sensations
as some 'spiritual' teachings suggest.

"The increase in loving Light then makes it easier for you
to retrieve the next fragment of lost emotional essence,
and so on
as you heal
into wholeness."

"that [old: the work of Spirit in]
releasing judgments
against self,
emotions
and the expression of emotions
is the single
easiest and
[missing in old version]
most powerful way for Spirit
to help frozen Desire find movement again.

"Following that would be
a more full experience
of the rage
which turns to raw energy
in the absence of judgments
or the sense of its own rightness.

"Finally, with the space clear, there's another,
this time much deeper,
movement
of the original fear or terror."

"But you cannot
just move your emotions without your spirit's help.
Think ~
let loving mind inform your Will
when it is safe to move,
and when it is best
to show only
the strength of your loving spirit.

"As you know,
it is not safe to move emotion in front of those
who attack Will.
You are good
to be parental to yourself
in these places,
and act protectively
with yourself
and with your children
and grandchildren.

"You need to start, for now,
with you nurturing you
and through opening
to this acceptance for yourself
in you,
you will make a place for My Light to come into you ...

"You need to give up and give in, not to the outer reflection
that is pressuring you to feel
like you have to fight all the time ...

"Surrender has been talked about in many spiritual teachings,
but ... I am not talking about surrendering your Will.

"I am talking about surrendering to your Will
and letting it express
as it needs to.

"This can be a frightening concept when your mind
has been in control for so long,
but I do not mean
becoming mindless
and letting
unevolved emotion
run your life.

"I mean allowing your emotions direct expression
as much as possible,
in a safe place,
until you know them
and see how they fit into your life.

"By direct expression I mean
as free of words
as possible
and as free of acting out
as possible;
just moan
and wail
and sob
and scream
and tremble
and vibrate
with the feelings
in the way
they want to express themselves in you.

"I feel
like I cannot go over this enough.
Even though you were born
at this level of expression
[a baby screams and cries and trembles],
...you received, very early in life, all of the judgments against this form of expression...