2007_08_31-FULLmoon-FULL-FILL-ment-1

The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
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FULLmoon FULL-FILL-ment
2007_08_31: last update: 2007_09_15

One day - August 27 - among the 3 days of the Quartet's "Grandma-Camp in Arad".

a slow-motion presentation of how "Conditions for Heaven-on-Earth" are created....

dedicated to Micha, my son and Arnon's & Ayelet's father, on his 41st birthday today.

Page 1

The day before it had seemed, that there was little action, except for going to the swimming pool.

In the morning Arnon and Itamar invented a caliper
for Itamar's geometric-astronomic drawings.

In the evening Yael and Arnon made music together
and were joined by my landlords' kids, Lior and Amit.

Later Arnon transferred the music "The Daughters Nechama",
which he had chosen for my birthday, from a DVD to my computer.

Finally, when the little ones, Lior & Amit, were gone,
we walked into the night with Itamar's telescope,
but found nothing spectacular.
An e-mail widely circulated in Israel, about "a second moon",
Mars coming so close to the moon as to appear as big as the moon,
proved to be false, as I had expected.

But in hindsight I see, that the main "action", that prepared us for the Day of the Full Moon, was this:
Ayelet, 60 years my junior, cried twice ~in great pain~ that she wanted her parents to take her home.
The first time - 4 PM - the other three succeeded in supporting her until she was done with her tears.
But after our nightly moon-walk ~ they did not succeed and sadly gave in to her calling her parents.

"I want to go home, I want to go home, I want to go home!"

The parents promised, and the other three were sad:

"What shall we do without Ayelet?
Isn't she a part of our Quartet?"

Little did we know, that the real lesson was awaiting us the next day....

Maybe, the butterfly on my velvet curtain, which I watched with Lior&Amit,
pointed towards a transformative experience on the Day of the Full Moon?

From my diary, August 27, 7 AM
written before the kids woke up,
trying to cope with shame& fear:

At 14:30 Micha called: "why can't I reach you, whyYYYYY?"
"Because we were in the pool until half an hour ago, and anyway Ayelet is alright, it's just her pattern!"

"Just her pattern", he repeated,
not convinced, not pleased with my judgment.
At 4 PM – again a crisis with Ayelet.
At 6 PM- Ra'ayah worried, but relaxed when I told her, how all the four of us helped Ayelet to let herself be comforted.

When we went to the observation point to watch moon and Mars, I was tense, all the time trying to amuse Ayelet, so she wouldn't slide into her yearning, but when we were back home and had our supper on the oval table amidst the sweet mattress-camp, she started again, so the kids helped her to cope until she would reach her parents , who were away.

Then she went inside with the phone, and we could hear, that she conveyed utmost distress.

Later there was an exchange of SMS messages between Micha and me, so she wouldn't hear, and when I sent her to brush her teeth together with Yael, I called him.

And it was then, that I did not listen to Micha's worry, but said bluntly:

"I think, Ayelet is big enough to see her problem in a broader perspective: Forcing you to fetch her, she does not only work against her own self-interest, but she causes damage to us in Arad, who need her for our togetherness, and to you!" (meaning: "to you who cannot enjoy 3 days of being with yourselves").

"You shouldn't judge her so harshly, and I hope you didn't tell her these three things".

I felt guilty and tried to water it down:

"It's also Yael and Arnon who keep telling her, how much they depend on her being with us."

"Yes, but without blaming her and causing her to feel guilty, I hope".

I made myself agree with : "not causing any guilt". But am I truly mature to deal with Ayelet's behavior without causing her to feel guilty? Not at all!

And this fact endangers my joy with the quartet . I only want these days to be over…

I'll try to benefit from my cellphone-camera again and let myself at least witness, what will "happen" today .
Please let me learn my lesson, I'm ashamed to tears…

August 27, FULL MOON

The Four had again slept on my veranda on mattresses
and when they started their day with cornflakes and making a kite,
everything was "normal":

But then:

"When do we go to the pool?" said Itamar.

"I am not going to the pool!" said Ayelet.

"You are not going to the pool?"

A thunderbolt!

"Now you have serious work to do!" I said to the other three.
"I cannot let you go to the pool without me and stay with Ayelet,
nor can I go with you and leave Ayelet at home ."

A terrible conflict of interests.
"Interests?" or "Ego?"
It didn't matter.
We had a huge lesson at hand,
since - unlike most people, peoples and governments on earth -
the terms "to give in", "to succumb", are not in our dictionary
nor the terms "to impose", "to override",
nor the term "to compromise".

Arnon and Yael started to talk to Ayelet,
Ayelet cried, someone brought toilet-paper.
Itamar tried to escape the situation.
Though he was the most eager to go to the pool.
I had to push him several times to play his role in the drama.

And indeed, a drama started to unfold,
in which each one had to learn and to heal something.

And when after three and a half hours we were "done",
a gentle process led towards intimate togetherness and exhilarating joy.

On the pages 2 to 7
the Quartet's work of tears can be felt in the left column
and the jumps of joy and togetherness in the right column.
Their walk to the pool and back from the pool,
and their walk to the desert and back at night
symbolize the movement of our FULLmoon-FULL-FILL-ment.
The 12th page, after Ayelet's departure, celebrates the Trio.

First Stage of the drama:
Ayelet, what can we three do, to make you want to go to the pool?

Second Stage:
Arnon, what is it that you have wanted to tell Ayelet about yourself for seven years?

Third - short - Stage :
Yael, what is it, that you want to tell Arnon about not succeeding in helping him?

Fourth stage :
Itamar, what is it, that you want to ask from Ayelet so as to benefit from "Grandma Camp in Arad".

Closure:
Ayelet, how do we have to relate to our Ego?

And these images - not posed, not intended - shall comfort us through the process of tears.
They were taken about 4 AM in the pool, when balance returned and with it joy and love.

Ayelet and Yael

Arnon and Itamar

The Quartet