The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

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InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Singing&Sounding keeps me Sound


I haven't yet loved enough

2007_07_18


See K.i.s.s.-log March 19, 2008

Updated with a new version
on January 29, 2009

lyrics&tune:
Naomi Shemer

 

lyrics adapted to my own life
Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam

In the study-year 1978-79
I was allowed -
in the framework of my teachers College
to teach a class
"Mutual Support" or Co-Counseling.
At the end of each meeting
we used to dance and sing this song.
I dare to say about myself,
that I did all this,
what the singer would like to do in his life.


With these very hands I haven't yet built a village,
I haven't yet found water in the middle of the desert,
I haven't yet drawn a flower, I haven't yet discovered how
does the way lead me and where I'm going

Ay-ay-ay, I haven't yet loved enough,
the wind and the sun are on my face,
ay-ay-ay, I haven't yet said enough
"and if not now, then when?" *)



I haven't yet sown a lawn, I haven't yet erected a town,
I haven't yet planted a vinyard on all the limestone hills,
I haven't yet done everything with my own hands,
I haven't yet tried everything, I haven't yet loved enough.

Ay-ay-ay, I haven't yet loved enough...

 

I haven't yet established a tribe, I haven't yet composed a song,
snow has not yet come down on me in the middle of the harvest,
I myself have not yet written my memories,
I have not yet built the house of my dreams

Ay-ay-ay, I haven't yet loved enough...
*) a quote from the famous saying
of the ancient sage Hillel,
which has also become my own slogan,
for my life and for "Partnership":
"If I'm not for myself,
who will be for me,
but as to myself - who am I?
And if not now, when?"

In K.i.s.s.-Log 2008_03_19 I analyzed my life's DOING according to this song, for "I did all this"!

"with these hands"
"I did it all",
"I tried it all"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 




photo by
Mona Yahia
1979/1980
about a year
before throwing
my wedding-ring
into hte Kinneret.


Today, on 2009_01_29, I am re-phrasing the lyrics themselves - so they may suit what I lived:


With these very hands I did build a village,
I did invent water in the middle of the desert,
I did plant a flower, I did discover how
does the way lead me and where I'm going

Ay-ay-ay,
But I haven't yet loved enough,
the wind and the sun are on my face,
ay-ay-ay, but I haven't yet loved enough
"and if not now, then when?"




I did establish a tribe, I did compose a song,
and yes snow came down on me
in the middle of the harvest
I did build the house of my dreams since long,
I even did write already my memories,

Ay-ay-ay,
But I haven't yet loved enough,
the wind and the sun are on my face,
ay-ay-ay, but I haven't yet loved enough
"and if not now, then when?"





I've sown a seed in the hearts of my people,
I have planted a vinyard all over my world,
I have done everything with my own hands,
I have tried everything,
and yet I haven't yet loved enough.


Ay-ay-ay,
But I haven't yet loved enough,
the wind and the sun are on my face,
ay-ay-ay, but I haven't yet loved enough
"and if not now, then when?"

 


to former song to next song



2010 - Mika's and My Heaven-on-Earth


Mika "gives treatment" - she says - to our "old" olive-tree on "Crane-Piazza"

Mika seems to remember Re'i Benjamin, Tamir's and Hilah's baby, from beyond ...
2010_11_15   Heaven-on-Earth
"...Manifestation is meant to be a playground where being and playing are fun" [Godchannel]

 

 

November 14-17, 2010
Abba left the night before and I'll stay until his return 4 days later






I suggested to play a game with the stones,
which Mika had gathered
at the beach of Alon's Navy ceremony
and with her "Gogussim",
these strange artificial kind of UFOs.

"Yes, let as make them fight each other."

She looked at me, knowing rightaway,
that I would not be pleased with this idea.
I don't remember if I said anything,
but she had a different, a grand idea:
"One from the one side will step forward
and point to one on the other side,
whom he wants as friend."

I praised her and thought,
that a real good game could be developed
out of this idea.

But strangely - after we began,
she immediately sidetracked me
to something else.

What was wrong?

I asked her several times,
but she continued to evade me.
Perhaps she didn't know herself.
But till now I'm puzzled,
why she wouldn't even try out her idea?
She, who constantly experiments
with something new?


"You look like a fairy!" I said,
when Efrat came down, dressed up for the event,
which she had organized for the dance-business
of her boss (once my foster-child) Levi Bar-Gil.
"Yes like fairy Fiona!" said Mika. [see in Learn&Live


When Imma was gone, and supper-time had come,
we made our special recipe: "Aya-Lia"!
See SongGame 2007_06_10 and 2007_05_22

But this time something went wrong:
Efrat had given me the new green pan,
which was supposed to fry even without fat.
In any case she gave me a fat - s p r a y !
I used it, and the first Aya-Liya came out well.
But after each additional one the pan got burnt more.
Not only Efrat was "not pleased", when she later saw it
("it's Immanuel's baby! How could this happen!")
but I had the impression,
that it damped Mika's Aya-Liya enthusiasm a bit...

She suggested to eat on the veranda (no winter!)
Even Mika doesn't look as pretty as usual,
when eating Aya-Lia, leave alone Grandma,
of which she made 10 photos one after the other..

 

 

 

Monday, November 15, 2010

I didn't know, if Mika ever paid attention to my sowing during her breakfast.
Until this morning, when I said:
"It seems that I'm finally done with this extremely difficult seam."
The white rigid tulle with the even more rigid golden "medals" on it,
bought by Efrat and Mika on the market at Bangkok some time ago,
- together with another cloth of the same tulle, but red and silver,
really got on my nerves, and I regretted to not have taken it to Ra'ayah,
when we were there 3 days before,
and let her sow it by machine.
But now Mika conveyed, that she liked my sowing
and didn't like it, that the following breakfasts would be without it.


  






In the afternoon there was a little drama:
Gil'ad, a kindergarden mate
who was supposed to come Mika,
didn't ,
and his mother neither apologized,
nor was she even available on the phone.

Mika was terribly sad,
and Efrat - and even I - took it to heart.

So Efrat decided to take Mika to a feat in town.

Before we left,
Mika invented this pretty game:
The wooden box
(the only part of a "babutchka" with 3 dolls, that is still around),
with a tiny orange in it
plucked by Mika on the way to kindergarden,
placed on a piece of cardboard (which I had saved for her),
presented a birthday-child!

In Israel, a child on his/her birthday,
is seated on a chair,
and the chair is lifted up by grownups
as many times, as the child is old .

This is what Mika did with her "child",
lifted it up carefully
and congratulated it!
 

 

Then,
when we sat in the little restaurant in town,
a miracle happened:
Not only did one of Mika's mates, Yael, pass by,
and not only did Yael agree to visit Mika the next day,
--- what was astounding, was,
that this girl is the uncrowned queen
of Mika's kindergarden society
[how pathetic,
that matters of status matter already at that age!]
and had never before visited Mika,
nor had Mika been invited by her!
Have a look also at the crystal-ball,
and see the story
 
Continuation of Mika's "Heaven-on-Earth" in November 2010 - in SongGame July 19 , 2007