pp21 Oneness and Duality

2001/10/04 ; last update: 2003_04_21

Miranda
a symbol of fragmenting and coalescing Heart?
(see left frame of Puzzle Pieces Guide)

Grandfather remembers
Original Heart

"Before my own separate existence,
there was no separation between Spirit and Will.
Before there was any kind of duality ~
there was only one whole being.
All Will essence was completely and ecstatically filled with Loving Light,
so there was only Heart, the presence of our union ~
complete and whole Heart.
There were no separations, no distinctions, no fragments,
and therefore no manifestation.

"... It is difficult to describe non-dual realities
with language embedded in dualism,
but metaphors can help.

"Original Heart is like the symbol of infinity ~
with its indrawing, magnetic, Will essence in one loop,
and outgoing, electric, Spirit essence in the other.

But Original Heart was not only the presence
where these essences connected,
it was what contained and held the essences.

"So then, what happened? And why?
Original Heart was its own whole being with no unmet needs,
no desire not instantly fulfilled,
no longing not immediately satisfied...

"...the Love of Original Heart found something missing in its experience.
Love is of course its own celebration, its own completion and fulfillment.
Love needs nothing else, and desires only more Love.
Original Heart had all the Love it desired, but for one thing.
Heart had no one else with whom to share this Love.

"Heart was alone.

"Everything that can be done or experienced by one whole being
was done and experienced.
Every feeling that can be felt was felt.
Every thought was thought.
Everything needing completion was completed,
taken back and completed again in a different way ~
until every possible configuration of Self was explored. ...
And whenever Heart became completely aware of itself as One,
it realized

"it was alone - the one and only One.

"For what would have been eons, had there been time ~
Heart played 'hide and seek' with itself,
purposely forgetting its wholeness and pretending
it was several, many separate 'virtual' beings interacting with each other.
Heart explored all the possibilities there,
but each time the pretend, virtual parts began waking up enough
to realize their wholeness,
one of them would remember who they really were ~
and quickly bring Heart back again to wholeness
and to full awareness of Self ~
back to fully realizing

its oneness ~ and its aloneness.

"Heart woke up fully to itself for the last time
when it knew that it no longer wished to continue
without another to share its Love.
By this time Heart's Love was so great
that it demanded a new 'game'.
Hide and seek was no longer fulfilling or even satisfying.
And all this Love without another like itself
had become a burden too great to bear.

"Heart realized
in its desire for true, peer level companionship,
the only way to find another Heart ~
required that it somehow split itself apart,
creating two distinct beings
that could never reconstitute themselves back into the one, Original Heart.
Never, that is ~
until there would be a way for Heart
to have a companion
who was just as whole,
and yet truly separate and distinct,
not just a part of Self.

"The original explosion was not a random occurrence or even a mistake.
...
Heart first moved to separate within itself
by dividing itself internally
into the two essences that were both needed for Love ~
Spirit and Will.

"This was the basic configuration Heart had used
to begin its old game of hide and seek,
and was the most ideal starting point for its final chapter.
Then, while still one whole being,
Heart configured almost all of its Will essence
to surround almost all of its Spirit.
This was also a familiar way of starting the game,
and used
when maximum diversity of experience was desired.

"But then Heart did something
that Love alone would never permit.
Heart moved to hurt itself.

"Heart asked its Spirit essence to expand too quickly and forcefully,
while moving its Will essence to suddenly contract around it.
The Will imploded and came back on herself
trying to contain the exploding Spirit.

"The result was the complete and utter fragmentation of Original Heart.
This had happened before when beginning the old game,
but never with this much intensity ~
and this time there was a new element in the mix.

"Heart's intent was so strong,
the Spirit's expansion so forceful,
and the Will's movement to contain it so great ~
that some of her essence lost the Light entirely,
opening space for the Void.

"Heart intended that the newly opened Void
would separate some essence from the rest in such a way
that it could not reconstitute itself without Form, without duality.

"The presence of the Void quickly spread
to separate nearly all the Light from nearly all the Will.

"What was left were two beings,
one with almost no Will ~ me,
and the other with almost no Spirit ~ the Mother.

"Duality was born,
and manifestation began almost immediately
as the Mother began drawing my Light to herself from across the Void.

"Heart used Love to destroy itself,
and thus create the conditions
necessary for duality and manifested existence. "

Manifestation

"What is the mean diameter of the earth?
It is 12,742 kilometers (7,913 miles).
How many stars are there in the Milky Way, an ordinary spiral galaxy?
Approximately 1011, 100 billion.
How many genes are there in a small virus?
There are 10 (in X174 phage).
What is the mass of an electron?
It is 9.1 x 10-28 grams.
And how many species of organisms are there on Earth? ...
120 million to 200 million.

This laughable range means we are simply clueless
about the number, let alone types, of living creatures on Earth.

"The story of species is the story of change ... an intense drama of interaction.
The creatures, plants, parasites are all at the same time
stepping on and bolstering each other,
and their shared habitats are ...
constraining or releasing everybody's opportunities...

"One painting shows a bouquet of 61 species described as "descendant" (i.e. endangered),
the other hands us an equally beautiful bouquet of 67 "ascendant" species...
These particular winners are major displacers;
when they arrive, other species disappear,
often resulting in net impoverishment of local biocomplexity.
In the "ascendant" painting, where is the most displacing species of all, homo sapiens?
...The human in the picture is the one behind your eye.
The other human manifest in both paintings is the artist..."

"Heart knew that sometime much later ~
multiple forms would each reconstitute themselves ~
and find Heart again.
And this time there would be more than one whole being.
This time Heart would be completely whole ~
and there would be others
with whom Love could be wholly shared.

"Manifested existence has come at a very high price.
Form was not necessary for Love, yet Love demanded it.

"...And you know
that there is a quality of not-love in separateness.

"The Mother and I each awoke separately from the explosion,
and ever since ~ we've each had our separate experiences.
On the occasions
when we have found each other again enough
to come into some alignment,
something deep within each of us
has remembered our Love and oneness in Original Heart.
On those occasions we spawned new Creations.

"But the Heart we have had in each of our Creations,
including this one ~
has never been truly real,
like Original Heart.
There has always been
an element of
guilt, blame or denial,
or some of each ~
that has eventually caused our union to sour.
And Heart, of course has been one-sided,
present only as the progeny of the connection between us ~
never as the parental container of us.

"As Original Spirit whose expansion was too great and too sudden,
I have the responsibility of seeing to the healing of the original wound
that has caused so much suffering in the Will ~
and as you know,
the Spirit of this Creation is helping me
by doing the same at his level.

"Seven Creations later
the untold suffering
of the seemingly endless reenactments
caused by our Original Heart's Self-inflicted wound
has reverberated down to this present moment on Earth.
The Mother has had to bear the awful price of manifestation on her own,
and I'm very serious about the pain, suffering and death stopping now,
and here in this Creation.

"Here, very soon, and for the first time ever ~
Form is to become the container of New Heart ~
Spirit and Will in wholly complete union,
without guilt, blame or denial.
Original Heart is beginning to re-member itself again ~
as New Heart, now in Body ~
and looking out through human eyes,
moist with Original Love.

"And yes,
beginning now to see ~
that there is indeed ~
another."

Two human-divine dialogues deepen this information:

Becoming New Heart

"I still have some conceptual difficulties
with the concept of oneness, heart or the pre-manifest.
From what I could gather from this material,
space and time are inherent in oneness.
Is this correct understanding?
I was always under the impression
that space-time is inherent only in form."

"This is Grandfather.
Your impression has been correct.
Space and time as you know them
are features of manifestation,
and do not exist outside of Form.
However, the impetus or desire
for space, time and energy/matter
were inherent in the oneness of Original Heart.
.....

"I had always suspected that boredom and loneliness was possible in oneness,
but this possibility was always denied in traditional Eastern teachings.
I'm happy to have resolved this doubt."

"Yes, and true wholeness has not yet been experienced in Form.
Those who have achieved a high degree of 'oneness'
have done so
without the benefit of knowing all of the Mother's pain.
She has been 'transcended'
along with Form itself
in most spiritual practices on Earth,
and not only Eastern practices.
There are many denials inherent in any transcendental approach to Truth.
"The Spirit of this Creation has already discussed this issue here

"... The way back to Original Heart
is not in transcending the Mother or Form.
All of it, everything ~ must be found, owned and realized
as essential to New Heart.
All of the lost essence must be brought back home,
and definitely not transcended."

"So boredom and loneliness was the original impetus for Form!"

"Yes. Form's purpose has been
to find the healing for that profound loneliness."

"Did Heart not foresee the difficulties that Form was to later experience?"

"...yes, Heart foresaw the difficulties ~
and hated them.
Heart also foresaw the devastation
that would be caused to the feeling parts of Self,
and knew that devastation would reverberate throughout all Form,
and would eventually have to be healed ~ all of it.

"And Heart knew
that there would be only fragments
to do that healing work in the beginning.

"Heart felt deeply into this and realized
that many, many times there would be a strong wish
that manifestation had never happened.

Some 1900 years ago, Beth-Shammai and Beth-Hillel
 the two great opposing systems of thought in Judaism
discussed
if MAN should have been created or not.
After two and a half years of painful discussions,
they stood up to vote and let the majority decide.
The decision:
It would have been better if man were not created.
[Babylonian Talmud, Erubin 13b]

"And Heart also knew
that the desire for companions,
for another ~ to share love ~
made this sacrifice of Self necessary, even demanded it."

"Heart did not desire to fragment.
That was the problem.
Heart desired to remain whole
and have other beings like Heart present too.
But without form, without duality, that was impossible.
So Heart had two conflicting desires ~
wholeness and peer level companionship.
Duality began here.

"After all the possibilities of wholeness
were explored and known and appreciated,
Heart's desire for companionship
exceeded its desire for wholeness ~ as the one and only being...

...

"How can I know that what I'm feeling is New Heart?"

"Feeling New Heart is the first step to becoming New Heart.
And knowing that there is such a thing as New Heart
is very helpful in beginning to feel it.

"Love, real love ~
is much different than you have believed.
Real love
has no shame, no guilt, blame or denial with it ~
it's balanced and pure,
unconditional love
of both Spirit and Will
in union as Self...

"New Heart, like Original Heart ~ knows
that ultimately there is no other to love,
there is only Self.
Real Love is unconditional,
full and complete love of Self ~
with no need for reference to another.
And when there is reference to another,
Real Love is given without need,
or expectation of anything in return.
...

Our connection within you
re-members the Original Union of Spirit and Will,
before our separation out of Original Heart.
There is no guilt, no blame, no denial of pain.
But there is the clear Loving Light
of deep compassion and understanding,
and the nearly overwhelming movement
of a very great and very deep grief.

...
It is very good to allow yourself to be taught
by this new presence of Love.
You'll know it is right
because it is without shame or guilt, blame or denial ~
because it is a kind of Love that includes all, accepts all.

"Original Heart knew that it would find itself again ~
but this time in manifestation.
And Heart knew that now in the multiplicity of Form,
there would surely be others like Heart ~
companions,
other whole and complete beings
with whom to share manifestation.

"And Original Heart knew
that when it finally found itself again ~
there would be others too,
peers
with whom Heart could explore
and heal all of the gaps in manifestation,
and all of the pain they have caused ~
others with whom to explore
all of the pleasures
that sharing manifestation
with another like Self
can bring.

"Your practice of finding New Heart within yourself,
finding yourself to be New Heart ~
is the first step in Original Heart's rediscovery of Self.
The next step comes
when you realize
there are others who are doing the same,
and they join with you as peers
and cooperate with each other
in the healing
of the so far unhealable gaps
that are causing the Mother's pain.

"If you find yourself facing intimidating forms,
in competition with others,
or find others in competition with you,
you will know
you have not yet completed the first step.
But please go easy on yourself here,
no one has done this yet ~
no one has completely re-membered Original Heart in Form.

"Perhaps you will be the first.
If so, you will very quietly become very powerful,
and you will have gained all that power and greatness
because you have had Original Heart's desire
for others just as powerful as you.

"And you will have remembered
all the pain, suffering and death
that has brought us here,
and you'll find both magically and miraculously
that you and all your kind
live and love cooperatively and harmoniously
together in complete freedom.
Original Heart's intent
and the very nature of manifestation
have made this inevitable."

"Thank you all."

"You are welcome.
And thanking 'all' is a very good way to thank.
This healing will happen only within you,
and only with the help of others.
The work is a very large, common effort among many
~at all levels of being.
And in the end, it is all you.
You are one whole being,
and yet you are not alone.
And this is the greatest
of all the hard-won blessings of manifestation."

Does Earth Lead the Way?

"This piece of info
about the origins of our Creation and of my own origins
feels true to me
and does indeed invoke emotion in me that I don't even fully understand,
but I sense its true healing power so strongly,
that it seems to bring a lot of the other information into perspective,
like the capstone on a great pyramid
which we have all been building.
Feeling that I am a participant in all this
makes me feel a sense of forgiveness for myself and others
as well as a profound kinship with you all."

"This is Grandfather.
Thank you for understanding and moving with this material.
There is much more to this, of course ~
but only the tip of the pyramid
can be discussed here on the outside.
Your inner connection with Spirit
will better bridge the gap between you and me ~
and enable us to communicate on the inside,
where we can work together
on our respective parts of the pyramid."

...

"Working with this material often causes one
to experience more suffering at first,
rather than less.
Bringing the lost parts of Self
back from the hell of their banishment through denial
is almost never an uplifting experience ~
until the part is back in wholeness with the rest of you.

"Spirits have had great resistance
to going into manifestation,
and even more resistance going into hell,
where the suffering and compression of manifested existence
is most extreme.
And yet, it is through this journey
that the healing must be done.
The intentional journey to hell,
to be with the parts of the Will who are trapped there ~
can be made only
by a willing spirit
with strong healing intent
and a fervent desire for union with the Mother.

...
"Spirit and Will are now beginning
to work together in Form.
And Deity and Humanity
are now working together
to find the healing
that no Creation has ever known."

"...I don't mind it at all anymore
that others may be ahead of me or behind me.
This channeling has made me feel
that I am in fact a vitally important part of this plan
being right where I am ~
What a great understanding that is. "
...

"Yes, the parental part of the Mother
is making herself heard in you now.
You already are channeling her enthusiasm and joy
that there may indeed be an end to her suffering.
...

"You see, as Spirit -
we need to feel and experience
all of the Mother's suffering
in order to understand enough
to Accompany her home
in union as New Heart.
No other Creation has had evolutionary Will beings
whose spirits were willing to do this."

Some questions I have are about earth's place in all this.
Is earth to lead the way in healing for all creation?
I had been under the impression
that earth was thought to be less evolved than other planets.
What is our place?

"There are several Creations ~
a Grand Creation which set the stage for all manifestation ~
and seven additional Creations,
each more densely manifest than the one before it.

"... this Creation is the newest and least evolved Creation,
with the most dense forms anywhere in manifestation.
However, the other older and more evolved Creations
have all missed the essential point of manifested existence ~
that complete recovery
of all the Lost Will
and Lost Spirit
is necessary for the emergence of Original Heart ~
in manifested Form.

"While more evolved in a spiritual sense,
the beings in those Creations cannot manifest
at the dense level of physicality
that you do.
You see, Earth is where the Mother is.
The most damaged ~
and in many ways
the most important parts of the Mother are here,
way out at the very edge of all Creations.
And of course it is the Mother
whose Lost Will essence is now drawing me,
Original Spirit,
here to Earth.

...

"You ask is Earth to lead the way?
Earth is where the Mother and I will once again find our union
as Original Heart ~
but this time in manifestation.
And of course this time Original Heart will be with peers,
fully whole,
yet in more than one body.

"So in the largest sense,
Earth is the venue of our union ~
and will become our eternal home in manifestation.

"It is the partnership of Deity and Humanity
that will Accomplish the healing work
necessary to lead the way back to wholeness
for all beings in all Creations.
It is your wholeness of Spirit and Will
as New Heart in Body
that will signal the completion of the healing work for you -
and the beginning of true freedom here, and in all Creations.

"It's a grand vision,
and given all your conditioning to deny your greatness -
not an easy one for a human to hold.
But you have already discovered that with practice, anything is possible.
And holding this vision as your destination
will keep your moment-to-moment and day-to-day driving backward
on the right course."

Maryam, 2001/12/21
Following the rainbow coincidence depicted in pp4

The rainbow is for me - the most exact analogy
for the relation between Oneness and Creation!

The Biblical story of the rainbow after the flood
emphasizes 3 times the word rainbow
and 7 times the word covenant (brith)!
The rainbow is as a symbol of the covenant
between "God" and "every living creature".
(Genesis 9,9-17)

This is a splendid example of ancient channeling.
Those human storytellers observed, of course,
that a rainbow bridges between rain and sun
and brings together both, Heaven and Earth.
But they would not have ventured to claim,
that God and his created beings are equal,
as the term covenant or alliance implies.
Nor did they know that the rainbow is -
nothing but the spectrurm of the light.

God's created beings are equal
because they are nothing but
God's spectrum,
the multiple colors of the One Light.

Maryam, 2001_12_22; last update: 2003_04_21

Pushing my bike up a long way - at sunset,
I managed to translate a song into English.
It is one of the 2 songs that are in German,
out of the 70 that came to me in 35 years.

The song came to me one winter morning.
I sat on a high cliff above the sea.
It was my daughter's birthday, 1988.
When I visited her later that day,
I gave her this song as a present,
translated into the local language.

"It's a love song to God", she said, "isn't it?"


Maryam, 2002/01/25

See the communication with Deity today in pp18