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"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

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The photos of the "WALK ABOUT LOVE 2009" ~continued from~ Godchannel.com: Discussion of the Urantia Book
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Discovered on Godchannel.com and edited on Healingkiss on 2005_01_17
Studied again: 2006_02_13:
Though I don't smoke, I identify with the message about moving "hopelessness".


How can I get my power back from addiction?

Hi God, I want to thank you
(and the people that are making this web site possible)
for this fantastic opportunity to connect with you in a more real manner
and to connect with people of like mind.
Finding this site comes to me as a beautiful gift.
Thank you.

My main concern these days is healing my addiction to marijuana.
I would like all the help you can give me.
How can I get my power back.
I have discovered many of the denials and judgments that keep me addicted.
But apparently not all. What else is there?
One judgment I have a hard time seeing as a judgment is
that I cannot get the same state without the drug.
Is that so?

 

"Yes, it's generally true that the substance will be necessary to get to the same state.
However, other states of higher awareness that feel even better are awaiting you,
and your judgment may be preventing you from experiencing them now."

 

If I feel like getting high, then is it my will that wants that
or have I created a false will out of my denials?

 

"'Getting high' is what your will, the magnetic essence within you, wants.
It is your desire.
The Mother wants union with my Light,
and drugs have been a way for her to show you this.
Continued use of a substance, however, is counterproductive.
It creates a dependence on the substance and undermines your will, as you have discovered.
The real purpose in using the drug is to model the state you desire,
and now that you know the state, the challenge is to find it again without the drug."

 

If so, how do I end this denial and get back my true feelings.
On the other hand, if it is my will that wants this,
then do I have to accept this and go from there?
That is, do I need to accept this part of me that wants to get high
and move any feelings around accepting this?
Is this what you mean by practicing Right Use of Will.

 

"Yes, accepting what is is the first step to changing it."

 

The most difficult judgment I face is that I cannot evolve my will if I smoke marijuana .
Is that true?

 

"Your will doesn't need evolving so much as it needs freedom.
Smoking marijuana is not the problem.
Being addicted to it is the problem,
because it limits your freedom
and because it undermines your will,
making you feel weak and unmotivated to change."

 

There is obviously a gap within my self,
but after all this time trying to heal this,
I am feeling extremely hopeless.

 

"The hopeless feeling is very important,
and getting to it may be worth the pain that's brought you here.
This is the feeling that is now most in need of movement within the Mother."


Sometimes I wonder if I should use some control to quit.
In other words, I feel that it is guilt (or unloving light) telling me
that it is not right for me to quit.
But I am afraid of denying my will by making the decision to quit.



"This is a manifestation of the undermining.
The way out of this is to make a decision
to find a way to unite the Mother and me within you
that is not dependent upon using a substance.
When we are in union within you,
there won't be a feeling of something lacking,
and there won't be a desire for anything else."

 

If it is unloving light telling me to get high,
why couldn't I use some control to quit.

 

"In many cases, this is true.
However, with you and most of those who are doing this work,
it's not unloving light, but an undermined will telling you to get high."

 

I don't know whether it is my will that wants to smoke marijuana
or a false will I have created out of my denials.
Intellectually, I feel inclined to believe
that I have created a false will out of my denials
and that when I get high,
my true will is denied under all of the guilt.
However, I am afraid
that using control and discipline will not really heal this
and will not be honoring my will.

 

"Self control and self discipline are of course functions of spirit essence,
and when used against the will, are not honoring it.

 

Why does part of me feel like it needs to smoke marijuana?
How can I release the need for it?
How do I honor the part of me that wants to get high without denying the part that doesn't and vice versa?
Do I need to honor this as part of my self, or is it just a "fold" I have taken under the weight of my denials?

 

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I studied this discussion again on 2009_05_07:

About a week ago I asked Gil Sason,
the organizer of "The Walk about Love":
"Somebody just said to me:
"This is a group in the cloak [ma'atefet] of drugs and 'happy-happy'!"
How many people among us smoke - according to your assessment?

"At least 50%".

Until then I could tolerate this fact,
though I know, that people smoke,
because they don't want to feel.
Now - after I left "The Walk",
I feel different - disgusted and hopeless...
Especially since Gil himself
- i- in the morning circle at Neve-Shalom on April 21-
expressed his grief about
"people leaving their smoking utensils on the table
without even hiding them,-
...people who came to visit us last night, left with disgust."

But Gil does not see, how the trend of "drugs and sex"
is partly the result of the confusion between walking and sitting,
especially sitting in "festivals" ,
and the erroneous notion of "Openness"

"let's expose The Walk about Love to the world
and let the world invade us en masse!"
[in Hebrew I would call this "pritzut"!]





I follow my understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
  that - after 7 years - I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing pages.
Since March 2009 I am "synchronizing" the chronological process of the Godchannel.com files
with the chronological process of my photos and - if there should be time - observations of the

"Walk About Love"
continuation of April 4, 2009 ; latest update of this page; July1, 2009

 

Lior Oren still feels ambivalent: to stay with the Walk about Love or to join the Walk to the Westbank?
Towards the evening she and Gabriel will decide- with my blessing - to expose themselves to the experience on the Westbank.

For the very first time it is not freezing cold.
I can even open the openings of my tent and enjoy what I see.

... and what I hear: Yoel's Didgeridoo from my tent

The servers - today Erez, Parastu, Gabriel, Michal Saslon - dance before they serve us food

During breakfast-lunch I still hadn't known Nicole - I only took her pretty picture.
Then while sitting in the field and doing some work - perhaps with Gabriel and Lior or one of them -
suddenly this woman came along, proudly showing the completion of her knitting work.
"I am Nicole from Australia", she introduced herself,
and ever since we had the deepest of communication with each other.

 

 

After several intense communications I wanted to be alone
and walked into a direction where I imagined this to be possible

But the contrary became real:
a family of black Bedouin - sitting over there in the forest - waves to me ardently: "Come to us".

A mother with five of her six daughters sat around the fire,
while the sons and children roamed around

 

 

Daniela joins us and listens to the interesting tales of the women

Then a grownup son came in and took over .
A pity, that I won't have the time to remember and tell the extremely relevant conversation with him.
While I was talking with him, I discerned
that the women and children approached a circle of walkers
and began to sing and dance with them.
I photographed them by zoom:


Though "the Son" didn't follow my urgent invitation to join "The Walk" , if only for one day,
he did come later that night and join exactly that circle of Walkers,
whom I had asked - after the family was gone - to open their eyes in case he would turn up.
And though I was already asleep, they did indeed, recognize him in the dark and invite him.
I hope, this son, whose name I cannot recall, will have become stronger in his sovereignty (ribbonut):

"Before you came, Maryam, I asked my mother about your tents down there:
'doesn't this remind you of olden times mother ? Wandering and sleeping in tents?'
Now I see, that our time has come.
We've been sitting aside for a hundred years, until you (civilization) made your experiments,
now it will be our time."


 

The next morning, Sunday, April 5, 2009, we are about to walk again.

This time the "weekend-sitting" was good - since despite some visitors - we were isolated from the world.


Shai helped me to repair the metal bow of my tent

 

It will be a long walk today, and - for a change - we manage to set out relatively early!


 

 

Continuation of the photos of the "Walk about Love" in the Godchannel file
"A Course in Miracles"