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InteGRATion into
GRATeFULLness
Singing&Sounding keeps me Sound
Dunkel die Waelder und der Himmel blau
Only the dark forest and the clear sky know my pains
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Finnish folksong When I was looking for a song for today and wanted it to be a German one, I suddenly remembered this song, learnt at school more than 50 years ago. I could not find it in any of the folksong-websites. It is not even in the book, in which - in 2000 - I gathered all the songs I've learnt in my life and do remember, because I keep singing them. This one, obviously, didn't need to be noted in writing, since it is part of my heart, though since 1987, the year of my first desert experience I exchanged my love for dark forests- by my love for the sunny desert.... |
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Andern erzaehle ich nichts von meinem Leid, |
Others I don't tell about my sorrow, |
2011
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En-JOY-ing
and growing with Mika and my Family following the documentation "Mika's Heaven on Earth", inserted since Song Game 2007_01_01 |
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June 28-July 3, 2011,
continued
from the last weekend with Mika
Coping
with the problem of all humans - the problem of self-worth
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on my sculpture in "Nourishment>Body is the Healer" on June 30,
2011]
| Mika, 5 1/2, will enter school in 2 months and her mother learns "parenthood as a matter of miracles" and about how to not fall into the trap of former generations, which equated the worth of a human being with his achievements. If you are not successful, if you are not better than others, then you are "no good", you are "not worthy". That this is changing now in the world, is truly one of the signs, if not the main sign, that "Heaven-on-'Earth" is close, The article , which Efrat studied, pointed to a 15 year old song, which puts the message of "I am what I am and I am alright" in the singing mouth and throat, eyes and movements of a little girl: |
lyrics and tune: Shai Or [means "gift" "light"] Chorus: "I almost, almost, almost fell deep down into a hole of shame but a moment before I began to fall I suddenly felt the feeling~~~ and I remembered ~~~ that ~~~. exactly exactly as I am - it is good that I am whole. I'm not lacking anything and I am allowed to love myself!" |
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On November 12, 2012 , another
video was published,
this time with young people, who cope with C.P. disability
On January 5, 2013,
a disc with this and more "songs about
self-acceptance"
appeared on the World Wide Web
During my rare 5-days togetherness with all three -Mika
often grasped both my devices, the digital editor and the camera.
I never use the option "movie", and do not even know, what button
to press for it, but Mika knows no technical problems.
The problem seemed to be : "Mika,
stop making movies, you are using up the battery!"
But the real problem came up, when I tried to transfer
the files from camera to computer.
I, as usual, indicated "All", instead of wisely
transferring first the stills and then the movies.
At one point the computer got stuck so badly, that I needed all my wit to
succeed in closing it.
This procedure deleted all pictures and movies, which I and Mika had taken
on Shabbat,
mainly those of her and my splendid 4 hours togetherness in the pool
- inside and outside.
What I DO remember, is one of the dialogs in between swimming or making fun
together:
"Savta, do you know, why I am a friend of the sun?"
"A friend of the sun?"
"Yes, because the sun is be-ma'araekhet ha-khallal - in
the "System of Space"
and I love ha-khallal
[the Space] ! I always wanted to be an astronaut".
To compensate for the loss of my photos,
I studied the 8 surviving movies step by step with the slowest of motion,
cropped what I found memorable and created the following compositions:
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Mika: "Now I want to make a movie of Nella"
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 Immanuel |
Mika: "Now I'll
make a movie about all the town!"
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Now Mika figures out how to make a movie of herself (16 seconds!)
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While moving the camera in front of her face, she
sings: "cool, cool, cool, cool -
[Imma's] birthday on Tuesday"
In the late afternoon Immanuel has
rested enough - from sickness and "Masterchef" -
to watch the first program on TV [the first audition], which Efrat had recorded
for him.
I - and partly Efrat - watch with him again, in the
hope, that he will tell us details associated with what appeared on the screen.
Mika tries to keep to herself in my/her room, but at one time she surprises
us with that cute costume and gives us a big show.
[this was my most favorite skirt ever,
the remnant of an Indian dress, which was already worn-out, when Gabriela
gave it to me, while I was in India in 1998.
When the holes all over the skirt had become too embarrassing, I stuck it
into the drawer where
I'm gathering all kinds of rags suitable as costumes for Mika]
The way Mika wraps the cloth around her neck and
shoulders - (see
when I bequeathed it to her) - is truly ingenious.
The same is true for her idea of making a movie. I fetch my camera and make
a few stills,
but Mika takes the device, places it - with ease - on a table and lets the
movie run..
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"Cool, cool, cool, cool - birthday on Tuesday".
In fact, the celebration of Imma's birthday- July
5, 2011 - will be on Monday,
because on Tuesday, Abba will again be busy for 20 hours with "Masterchef".
Imma doesn't hide her wish from Mika: "A
poem which you create yourself!!"
Both she and I had the feeling, that Mika was a bit pressured by this desire.
The happier we were, when the poem came out of her heart and mouth
"by itself",
as she said later.
We were - as so often - lounging on my bed and making "body-fun".
For some unknown reason, I let her hear something on my recorder.
It was then, that she decided: "I shall
make the song for Imma NOW!"
Except for 3 tiny advices along the recording,
the creation is hers!
Abba printed it out on 2 copies and she carefully
"illustrated" them.
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 I, too, am among the family this time, from left to right: Imma (queen), Mika, Grandma, Nella, Abba Mika to me: "Since you like sunsets, I painted your dress in the colors of sunset." How on earth did she manage to mix the colors of "Tushim"? |
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Why
2 prints with the same song? So that Mika had the chance for an additional
illustration, called "Mazal Tov", Good Luck! When I wanted to photograph the first painting, the wind blew it up and let me see its backside, above the second painting... 
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You cannot continue to beat the drum of things
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I had asked: "Is
there something you want from me?" "Nothing material!"
she said.
So, back in Arad, I proposed to divide 45 thanksgiving into 5 times , at 9
AM, at 11 AM, etc.
to be expressed by her via phone with my guidance and always with the addition
of a wish for the coming year,
so that her brain would become wired to "thanksgiving" and thanksgiving
will become an attitude, as it is with me.
There was some stumbling, some tottering, some resistance, but by the end
of July 5 I felt I had reached my goal!
I also send her images from a book , which
I had intended to buy for her:
Ruth Bar-Zohar: The Picture Album of Grandma Ruth, illustrations by Hanna
Alisa Omer.
But after having read
a critical review , I wrote, that I wasn't sure, if the book was right.
She answered: "Exactly after I read this review, I'm curious!"
Continuation of "En-JOY-ing
and Growing with Mika and my Family" in SongGame
2007_09_12