The
Purpose of HEALING - K.i.s.s.
as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential PEERS to
HEAL ourselves
into WHOLEness,
and - as holograms -
all of Creation!
I
focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning
to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
As
I said -
today my only goal is:
to heal myself into WHOLENESS,
and, since every one is a hologram,
to heal our planet, even --Creation!
I do this by learning
daily ever more:
- to accept my emotions and feelings;
to relate to my Body as to my partner.
.....
It's the same with anger
and pain and shame etc.
If these and other so-called "negative" emotions
are not "moved" - physiologically
they'll stay in Body
until Body cannot take it any longer. Then Body will get sick,
or create an accident,
or a violent attack,
and even die.
We would not die, if we
would let Body do its job
of screaming and crying, trembling and sighing.
Watch a baby who experiences
discomfort or pain
and you'll know how to start, theoretically at least.
Never let a day pass by,
without using a trigger,
to have a good cry.
Maryam,
2002/02/13
Before
the rise of an unseen sun,
under an umbrella and fierce rain
I crossed the already noisy street
ran through the dull artificial park,
marched with elation up my path,
viewed the town from my garden
- took a deep breath and ran back.
With my feet dried I kneel down at my computer, and lo! "Yahoo's Insider Message" that
appears on my screen every morning
welcomes me today with:
Say
it with Feeling
Put the emotion back in your messages
with Yahoo! Messenger's choice of 24
emoticons.
Say it with a smile, a frown, a wink or a whisper!
Don't let the feeling and the fun get lost in the typing.
Express yourself instantly.
Once I marched
for days on end
or at least from morning to night.
Now I do not have the patience
not even for a short hour a day,
to walk for the sake of walking,
to see only a little more than what people "see"
when passing by in a car, a train, an aeroplane.
A new "Zeppelin" will soon be on the market,
to let us fly low and slow and see.
It's elating to see the world from above,
but for how long? how often?
What I need
now in my life,
is to stoop down and be near,
to take 3 times a day 10 minutes,
and see the inside of what I see,
and the constant Changing of Same
between dawn and noon and sunset,
between autumn, winter and spring,
under the rain, the clouds, the wind,
and a caressing or maddening sun.
Is this why
my splendid rented flat,
with its vast space for my dancing,
is located next to a small wild hill?
A10 minutes walk in all directions
between roaring roads all around!
But it's enough for stooping down.
I still lacked my own path, though.
So I tracked a smart winding route
and utilized the rain of the last days
to walk up and down and to and fro,
once even with my 4 little ones,
treading the grass with our feet,
removing old thistles and stalks,
bypassing the red spring flowers
up to one of the ancient terraces.
This I transformed into my garden
by just breaking away or uprooting
the ugly stalks of all kinds of shrubs
-remnants from last summer's blaze.
Isn't this
poetry?
Isn't this Moving Emotions?
How suitable, that my intended first application
of yesterday's joint creation of me and my son
will be to now insert at the entrance to every pp
the doubly rotating throat chakra sound button.
And
now see, what I found:
ES
GIBT KEINEN WEG
NUR
GEHEN
THERE
IS NO WAY
JUST
WALK
"It's
the small things that let the world function",
is the subtitle of a documentary series
in 3SAT.
If trees, elefants, humans would be wiped out,
the earth would still live and regenerate itself.
But if the 2000 kinds of microscopic creatures,
(that comprise over of a million of individuals),
which live on/in in the piece of earth I stand on,
would be exterminated, the earth would be dead.
Maryam, 2002/03/24
I wish I could explain the difference
between unevolved and evolved emotion:
"Surrender has been talked about in many spiritual
teachings.
... I am not talking about surrendering your Will.
I am talking about surrendering TO your Will
and letting it express as it needs to.
This can be a frightening concept
when your mind has been in control for so long,
but I do not mean becoming mindless
and letting unevolved emotion run your life.
I mean allowing your emotions direct expression
as much as possible, in a safe place,
until you know them and see how they fit into your life.
By direct expression I mean as free of words as possible
and as free of acting out as possible; just moan and wail and sob and scream
and tremble
and vibrate with the feelings ..."
Maryam, 2002_05_27
continuation of pp7, 2002_05_27
No sooner had we healed the trigger between
us
than she attracted another one - of the same kind.
She peeked into the room, where the boys saw TV
to say 'Good-bye', but they hardly lifted their eyes.
She blurted words of pain and marched to the
door.
Alon felt something. Frightened he went after her.
She gave him a hug, before she entered the car,
but he felt, that it wasn't real.
Dedicated to children
she has not born:
"Good Night", Alon."
But when she says "Good Bye"
after an exhausting weekend
trying to replace their father,
they hardly lift their eyes.
By the time, we came back, our heads hung down,
even Tomer wanted to understand, what happened.
Half an hour of deep sadness, and crying on my part.
Then:
Alon threw himself on the mattress in the other room
and started to discharge heavily. "Enough!" and "I
can't any longer!"
all the while crying and kicking his feet
and banging his elbows against the wall.
I just sat there beside him for a long time,
sometimes stroking or massaging his body,
which made him kick& bang more violently,
communicating to him, that I would only leave,
if he asked for it explicitly, (which he didn't).
After a time, that seemed endless to me,
he jumped up and ran to my cell phone.
"I'm going to call her, but not from here."
He ran down the stairs, to the parking lot.
When he came back, he was relaxed,
but obviously not yet "done", and said:
"Now I want to write a letter to Dad."
I left him alone with my computer,
When he wanted me to correct his spelling,
I could see how clearly he had understood,
- his own pain as well as the pain of Efrat.
Now he was at peace with himself,
and the boys returned to their mother,
more exact - to their mother's home,
because their mother wasn't there.
Elah had to put them to bed.
This is an example of how the situation of a
trigger
may be beneficial not only for the triggered person,
but for those around him/her.
All kids of my eldest son are, what is called,
"problematic",
the result of a marriage that "should never have happened"
and of a post-divorce situation of the worst kind.
But who are we to judge ourselves or others
for choosing the circumstances of our movie
and the actors, who will best help us to learn?
In every one of these grandchildren I see -
the manifestation of the horrendous denials
which helped me to physically survive
my childhood, my youth, my marriage.
On this background
Alon's sequence of healing actions
makes me gasp with admiration.
Maryam, 2002_06_13
When I was a kid, I used to say:
3 themes of conversations bore me:
cars, wines and football.
Some years ago a young man convinced
me,
that I should get interested in football: "It's, maybe, the only
situation,
where men are allowed to express emotions!"
Still, I could not even muster enough
patience
to watch a game with Jonathan, my footballer.
The last 2 days my mind cracked open a little.
First I saw a deeply touching documentary
about how ten thousands of boys and girls in an African slum
are taught football,
since otherwise they would be lost to drugs and crime.
And then the images in France and especially Argentine!
No political, economic or social disaster of a nation
has ever produced such expressive faces,
such unveiled movement of emotions.
Argentina's Mauricio Pochettino (R) jumps
over Sweden's Henrik Larsson at the World Cup Finals in Sendai June
12, 2002.
Argentina's Hernan Crespo lays on the pitch as Sweden's [sportsmen]
celebrate
.
Argentine soccer fans react
while watching Argentina lose to Sweden
in a bar of Buenos Aires
Now that I've completed this sculpture,
there are tears of compassion in my eyes.
A main judgment against footballers and their fans
- that they escape from coping with the real problems -
has melted away.
The magnetic Divine Feminine force expresses itself through emotions and through
the physical plane.
Feelings are intense now because great healing is underway.
Some people are ending lifelong relationships,
leaving
projects that they have faithfully given their all to,
experiencing death
of loved ones,
and facing uncertain futures.
They may be feeling great
fear and trepidation
about politics, health, and the future of earth.
Wounded feelings from childhood are coming up to be healed
in everyone.
There are feelings that need to be healed now.
This is necessary
for the transformation of consciousness in the physical body.
In flowing into these feelings, sometimes memories surface
that feel violent.
They have so much pain associated with them
that the
programmed instinctual reflex is to do everything to avoid feeling them.
It feels like life itself is at stake...This is a true panic attack.
Everyone has experienced panic and these feelings are
surfacing now to be healed.
Emotions heal through flowing.
Use eye movement to relive the tragic event, if you can remember it.
Relive the memory
over and over until all the feelings associated with it have time to
flow.
If you cannot remember anything, but just have the feelings,
flow
with them using eye movement and deep breathing.
These are times when overwhelming
feelings are coming up to be healed.
KEEP BREATHING.
Deep rythmic breathing is the foundation of holotropic breath work.
Just as a woman breathes while giving birth, Sept. 5, 2010
keep breathing when panic feelings come up.
In addition to deep breathing, use eye
movement
and stay focused on the feelings for as long as it takes
for good feelings to return.
Usually this happens quickly.
Traditionally when panic
attacks happen~~~
the old
paradigm of shutting DOWN the feelings IMMEDIATELY takes over.
This has been accomplished
through medication, alcohol,
diversion, disassociation, denial, magic, hypnosis, etc.
Break the habit and STAY WITH THE PANIC.
The panic passes in SECONDS~~~
BREATHE and use EYE MOVEMENT,
and use every bit of will power and
mastery
to stay with the feelings
and to FEEL THE FEELINGS through.
Conscious flowing is how feelings heal.
This is important,
everything depends on GETTING THROUGH
THE FEELING
and NOT AROUND IT.
Flowing is how EMOTIONS heal,
denial just
makes them unconscious
and the body stores them as tension and stress
in the musculature.
Use eye movement and deep breathing
instead of giving
into disassociation
or destructive acting out.
It is wonderful when panic
comes up. [Sept. 5 , 2010, what, if Mika has started
to be in panic of the lift in her house,
without any reason known to us grownups,
and then "stages" an actual incident with the dog, that justifies
this panic?
Someone from another floor ordered the lift and its doors closed,
while Efrat, Mika and the dog were inside, but I, with the leash in
the hand , was still outside!
When I finally could join them downstairs, Efrat told, how Nella jumped
to the ceiling of the lift,
thus tearing the leash, while the handle of it stayed with me outside.
I didn't understand, how she managed to prevent Nella from being suffocated
in the collar.
Efrat herself was still trembling, when she tried to convey that terrible
experience to me and others.
Mika then had nightmares, and when Efrat said at some occasion:
"Mika, you must pray, that our program of
flying with Abba to Bangkok will materialize!"
she said: "No! I'm praying that we shall
NOT fly!
For if we would fly, we would have to use the lift in the hotel!"
Efrat said, that - unlike in her house - in the hotel they could easily
use the staircase.
But Mika's panic continues to show in all situations which have to do
with the lift in the house.
What can I do to help children to "use eye movement and deep breathing"?
]
By healing these emotions, the Divine Feminine Force is healed.
By healing the emotions of the dark dark wounding, the body is healed.
...
The next time feelings become unbearable,
stay with the
feelings
no matter how painful they are,
use eye movement and keep breathing.
The feelings heal so fast it is amazing.
What am I experiencing/feeling?
Where am I feeling it in my body?
What is it like to be with the feeling just as it is?
How does that feel to the feeling?
What would this feeling say if it could speak or express non-verbally.
Would the feeling like to express anything more?
What does the feeling want?
Give yourself what the feeling wants.
How does that feel to the feeling?
the last 3 lines are misleading, at least with concern to what I want to
learn since March
13, 2010:
to not surrender to my feeling's desire for "action and teaching"
as a path to feel zest and fulfillment.
Back to 70 Puzzle Pieces Guide which
helps me to learn and to live that"God
has evolved"
.pplistPUZZLE PIECES GUIDE 2001-2002 .pplistpreface
-Preface to Puzzle Pieces Guide .pp1 - Driving backward .pp1b-Driving Backward to Retrieve
Goodness .pp2 - Peer Companions .pp2b- Peer Companions .pp3 - Moving Emotions .pp4 - Identifying Triggers .pp5 - Trapping Will .pp6 - Releasing Judgments .pp6b-Releasing Judgments .pp7 - Total Self-Acceptance .pp8 - Understanding and Choosing
Experience .pp9 - Body the Master Healer of
Creation .pp10 -Denial of Will .pp10b-How God started to feel
and to deny .pp11 - All of Creation .pp12 - The Goal: To become Parental
and Whole .pp13 - Feel all there is to Feel .pp14 - God's and my Will and
Desire .pp15 - Guilt&Blame are the
same .pp16 - Reality reflects Denial
.pp16b- Reality reflects Judgments
.pp17 - How I learnt Moving Emotion
Techniques .pp17b- Moving Emotions: Sound
.pp17bb-Sound + 17bbNote:
Heart .pp17c- Moving Emotions: Breath
.pp17d- Moving Emotions: Body
Movement .pp17e- "Releasing"
Emotions
or Moving & Evolving them? .pp18 - Good and Bad .pp19 - Body's Illness and Aging
.pp19b -Body's Death .pp20 - Everyone a Hologram .pp21 - Oneness and Duality .pp21b-Fragments and Fragmentation .pp22- Perception and Projection
.pp23
- Loving Hearts' Denials .pp24 - Lucifer and Ahriman
.pp25 - Denial Spirits and Asuras .pp26 - Redeeming Lost Will .pp26b- Redeeming Lost Spirit .pp27 - Movement of Lost Will
.pp28 - No overriding, no letting
override .pp28b- No overriding, no letting
override .pp29 - Reclaiming my Power
.pp30 - Unconditional Love .pp31 - Sacrifice what you don't
want .pp32 - Doing the Healing Work .pp33 - Greatness and Grandeur .pp33b-Reflection of Denied Greatness
& Power .pp34 - Communication with Deity .pp35 - Following Will's and Body's
Lead .pp36 - September 11, 2001 .pp37 - Gaps and Eruption of Gapped
Rage & Terror .pp38 - Unconsciousness, Amnesia .pp39 - Deity and Manifestation .pp39b -The Process of Manifestation
and Creation .pp40 - Cease Creating New Manifestations! .pp41 - I Create my own Reality .pp42 - Victim and Perpetrator .pp43 - Self-Victimization .pp44 - No one needs Correction
or Punishment .pp45 - I need you to feel how
I feel .pp46 - Love&Light&Joy&Peace??? .pp47 - Mary and The Mother .pp48 - Rage and Terror .pp48b -FEAR .pp49 - Ego .pp50 - "Let Consciousness
Serve Sentience!" .pp51 - "Laughter - the Final
Stage of Healing" .pp52 - Loving and Healing Sexually .pp53 - JOY .pp54 - Light's Way to Dwell in
Hell .pp55 - Heaven on Earth
