The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.i.s.s.
as stated 10 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential PEERS
to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - as holograms - all of Creation!
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2011
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]



As the fruit of becoming whole = accepting all of myself, I desire:
to live and explore and evolve   L O V E   in my personal life
and to play my part in creating the conditions for Heaven-on-Earth
by radiating grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment
on the actors in my individual life-drama and on all human beings!

 
 

 

2009
-Scroll down - to read the inserts which exemplify
My study and application of "Abraham/Hick's" teachings
about learning "Good-Feeling-Thoughts
from November 29-December 2,2009
from November 10-27,2009 in "Michael on Right Use of Will"
continuation of the inserts from November 1-9, 2009 in "About the Books called Right Use of Will"
continuation of the inserts from October 16-31, 2009 in "The Mother's Eruption"
which is the continuation of the first inserts from October 1-16, 2009 in "I honor all their experiences"

 

2003/2011


The RIGHT USE OF WILL Books
Original INTRODUCTION to the Blue Book
and at the end of the page (please scroll down, down, down!)
Introduction + the first 3 pages of both -
the Violet Book and the Purple Book
both called: Original Cause

I feel, that the WILL,
which expresses as feelings, emotions, desires
is best represented by the element of water,
and I sense, that the personalized Will,
the Mother, or God's feminine aspect,
has some kind of a physical abode,
which is mainly focused in the Salt Sea,
the lowest, saltiest water on this planet.
.
On the day of
the American ultimatum to Iraq,
I spent 4 hours at my Salt Sea Sulfur Springs,
with my grandson/teacher Tomer Rosenzweig.
Two thirds of the shore had collapsed,
part of the springs had disappeared,
a new spring produced these dirty bubbles,
the water of the main spring now was sweet.

11-11-11 The Dead Sea was NOT elected
as the First "Wonder of the World"

In pp 14 I told how I encountered the Blue Book
Back to General Information about all eight Books

On 2003_04_19 I decided to gradually edit the Blue Book,
in order to deepen my understanding of its messages.


The only changes I'm going to make, are graphical ones to make reading easier.
I am also discerning between passages that are more relevant for me than others.
God's teachings will be interspersed
with my personal views of the Earth,
including its Waters and Deserts.
The photos I've begun to make in April 2002, when I received a digital camera from Uri, my son-in-love .
Especially important passages from the Blue Book - juxtaposed with the Hebrew translation - can be seen in ARARAT-HeART-Communication with Deity

2003_07_02-03
Since it was determined that I should close "Healing-K.i.s.s" until July 3,
I am postponing my learning and simply scan the book from page 20 onward.

On November 1, 2011, I felt,
that I should re-read and copy the second and third RUOW book, as much as linear "TIME" will allow., and juxtapose them with the first book,
while also copy the scanned printed pages of the first book into graphically editable texts, the words of which will then be "searchable" on Google.

RIGHT USE OF WILL

Healing and Evolving
the Emotional Body
Received by Ceanne de Rohan
Four Winds Publications, 1984

Dedicated to the Earth

Note:
The word Soul is not used in this book.
Instead the word Spirit is used.
The Soul is individualized Spirit,
but since Souls can disconnect from God and still exist,
He says He prefers to have the word Spirit used
to indicate the needed connection to Him.


Right Use of Will......................................1
Clearing Illness and Habits......................2
Free Will in the presence of Opposition..8
Limits on the Self.....................................9
Ego........................................................12
Discipline, death and Reincarnation
     Resulting from the Original Spilt
     of Spirit and Will...............................12
Inner Listening........................           ...15
Judgment Release..........     ..      .........19
Realities Precipitating toward Earth.     23
Emotional Release.............     ...     .....32
Right Use of Will as a Healing
   Power  for Yourself and Earth.     ..37
The Influence away from Free Will.. .42
Denials shared by Many....    .. ........44
The Feminine Principle...........     .....49
Sex and Children................    . ........50
Free Will between People...    .. ......55
Form and Graven Images..   .... ......61
Acceptance...............  ...............  ....64
Twists and Turns on Judgments  .  .68

The Land of Pan.....................74
Lemuria...................................94
Atlantis.....................................99
Drugs.....................................116
Understandings on Denial......118
Steps to Healing
     & Complete Recovery..      127
Intimidating Form....................132


"INTRODUCTION"

If this book is for you,
you will know it from these few introductory pages.
Realize it is meant to affect you
and is not meant to be just a mental exercise.
If this book is for you,
it will bring forth emotional release.
You need to allow this response
without harming yourself or others.


After the collapse of the shore I had to make a new path into the water

The unconditional love of the Spirit for everything that exists
has been understood on Earth for quite some time.
This, in fact, has been called Divine Love.
Now there is a need for another understanding on Earth:
that of Divine Will.

Most people on Earth have made a separation
between the Spirit and the Will.
They have felt their own Will was not acceptable;
that to love the way God loves,
they must eliminate their own feelings and opinions
and do what they have imagined is the Will of God.
An understanding is needed here:
the Will of God is not in opposition to the Will of the individual.

Because of the separation
that has been made in the consciousness of so many,
the Will has been excluded for a long time
from participating in the evolvement of the Spirit.
A definite lag exists on Earth
between the evolvement of the Spirit
and the evolvement of the individual Will.
It is now time for each Spirit
to recognize, accept and evolve this other part of itself.


Each Spirit is part of the Divine Consciousness
and each individual Will is part of the Divine Will.
Each person must take responsibility
for his complete being, and not for only a part of it.

The Spirit must accept its own Will
and evolve it in a loving way
rather than a punitive, non-accepting or unloving one.

The Individual Will expresses itself as feelings.
When the Individual Will feels the loving acceptance of its own Spirit,
it cannot fail to come into alignment with the Divine Will.

God has given each individual
part of His Consciousness with which to be aware of himself,
and part of His Will with which to experience himself.

Everyone now wishing to remain on Earth
must accept the whole being
and discontinue the denial of the part of the self
that experiences the Earth."

page II

Instead of denying your own Will in favor of someone else,
or in favor of what you imagine the Divine Will to be,
it is necessary now to realize
that denial of the individual Will has been a misunderstanding
which has resulted in a split in the consciousness of individuals on Earth:
The individual Will is not separate from the Divine Will any more than
the individual Spirit is separate from the Divine Spiritual Consciousness.
You need to realize this thoroughly and profoundly.

 

The insights presented in this book have been channeled from the highest source,
And have been practiced by those who have received them,
and have been found to work.
The understandings in this book have been received from God in the first person.

In the beginning,
the channeler could not, like so many others on Earth, believe
it was actually possible to hear from God,
so God spoke through the form of His close companions,
the Ancient Ones that Serve the Light.
Many psychics are accustomed to hearing from guides,
but few have acknowledged
that they can actually hear directly from God in the first person.


My shore in October 2002

2003_04_20

In the course of studying with the Ancient Ones,
the channeler became receptive to God's direct communication in the first person.
God wants it to be known
that He is open to and is willing to communicate directly

with any Spirit on Earth, who will open to receive him.
You need only to be receptive.
When you are truly open,
you will begin to experience a direct communication.
Anything you need to know is then available
because of the connection we all have with out Creator.

You will need to open to the consciousness of the Spirit
and the feelings of the Will to receive Him.
The Will has long been misunderstood
because the Spirit was seen to be the essence of the Body,
but the understanding is this:
the Spirit inspires, the Will responds to inspiration,
and together they experience in the Body.
Body is the manifestation of both Spirit and Will.
The Spirit, in fact, has only polarized itself in order to experience.
The Will is the magnetic polarity of the Spirit.

The splits in consciousness that have taken place on Earth
have created a situation
where the Will is felt to be disconnected from,
and not even a useful part of the Spirit.
However, Will and Spirit are the expanding limits of a connected whole.
Polarities need to be realized as evolving extensions of the same thing.


page III

The creation exists because it has both the Spirtual Essence which powers it
and the Magnetic Polarity which opens the space to receive it.
The same is true within each individual.
The Spirit and the Will are not meant to be separate from each other in any individual anymore
than the Spirituyal Essence of God is meant to be separate from His Divine Will.
Each Will is connected to the Divine Will,
and each Spirit is connected to the Divine Spiritual Essence;
and so, everything is one.

The understanding you need now about how to evolve the Will quickly is, in short:

express everything you feel,
and do not stop expressing,
emotionally and otherwise,
untill you have really finished.
You must not impose this on others that do not want it,
for just as it is not spiritual balance to deny yourself in favor of others,
it is not spiritual balance to deny others in favor of yourself, either.
Then when you have cleared out, truly, all emotional charge any given situation triggers in tyou,
you will have allowed release of old emotions
that have accumulated when the free expression of the Will was denied.


The earth cracks - October 2002

2003_04_21

Controlling rather than expressing the Will means you do not have acceptance for it.

If you do not have acceptance for it, you are not loving it.

If you are not loving it, you are denying it.

When you deny, you do not have all of yourself with you,
because you're not accepting all of yourself.

If you do not have all of yourself present with you in a loving acceptance,
then you do not love yourself unconditionally.
You cannot love anyone else unconditionally if you do not have all of yourself there to love them.
Unconditional love exists when all of you is loving all of that which you love.

Now many people have thought they were evolving into unconditional love on Earth,
but they have forgotten that they must accept all of themselves first.
There is no way around it.
If you do not totally accept yourself first,
you cannot totally open to anything else.


My Salt Sea shore in June 2002

The understanding needed next is:
when anything is denied and not accepted by the individual to which it belongs,
then this part of the individual is placed outside of his love.
In putting something outside of love,
you have fed another reality that has troubled Earth for a long time.

Because of its negative polarity,
most people have attributed the Will to the devil and darkness.
Everything negative has been assumed to be the trouble of the Earth.
You need to realize this is not true.

Darkness is the part of Creation which receives the Light.
Where you will not open to receive the Light, you have denial.
page IV
Denial does not allow the Light in.
This has to be resolved on Earth.

The problem with the free expression of the Will on Earth right now is
that it has been denied for so long
that its attempts to express itself
look out of balance,
and they are.

In healing your Will,
you must allow it to tell you
how upset it has become.
The understanding needed is:
in hearing from your Will unconditionally,
you have taken the step of accepting it,
wherever it is.

You must accept it in order to evolve it.
YOu cannot beat it into the appropriate shape.
It must be accepted as it is and then evolved.

The need to evolve the Will on Earth right now is great.

The Earth Herself is going to evolve
by clearing off of Herself and out of Herself
everything that has not been loving toward Her.
Just as She is doing it,
all those that want to remain on Earth
must clear out of themselves everything that has not been loving.

Denial of the unloving energy will not clear it.
You cannot just mentally insist that you are unconditionally loving.
You must really be there.
That means all levels of your being must be there.
You must accept all of yourself unconditionally,
bringing all the parts of yourself
within loving acceptance
and allowing them to evolve.


My pond - April 2002


 

2003_04_22

This understanding is needed now,
because the Earth has decided to stop accepting denial of Herself.
If any individual living on Earth is denying self,
it will be denying others, too.
No one who wants to continue on the path of self-denial or denying others
(no Spirit that wants to continue on the path of imbalance, in other words)
can remain on Earth.
Earth has been imbalanced to the point of feeling Her life is threatened,
and no more imbalance is going to be tolerated by Her.


One of my springs - April 2002

It is not a loving, nourishing, life-giving policy for individual Spirits
to be living in a state of imbalance,
but in saying this a threat is not meant.
Threat is felt to be there only if the person reading this
is pressuring himself to continue denying things.
Otherwise, the information is welcomed
as a release from the path of separation and struggle
that has beleaguered Earth ever since the beginning.
Yes, the major spiritual misunderstandings on Earth
have been there from the very beginning.

You need to realize another thing:
many spiritual teachers have tried to give the true teaching to earth,
and power-seeking individuals have eliminated these teachings
from the public domain.
Instead of wanting people to realize they could free themselves,

page V

these individuals have wanted people to feel
it was a very difficult struggle
and that they must have teachers.

In fact, in reading this book
and in trying out the understandings given here,
you need to accept responsibility for yourselves
and not try to find someone to teach this to you;
unless you have done as much as the book has to offer you,
and you still have strong direction from your own Spirit and Will
that you must seek out the people that have channeled this book.
Otherwise,
it is not necessary to have a teacher
to practice Right Use of Will.
You can really do this yourself;
it will empower the Will to do it.


You need to realize that emotional release is only part of what is needed.

The rest is that understandings must enter in where denial was before;

that acceptance must take the place of nonacceptance;

that openeness must come where you were closed.

If you have open acceptance,
you will receive understandings without fail.
If you have frustration and feel you cannot get the understandings you need,
you have not released enough emotionally.

When you release, you must not hurt anyone else or yourself to any extent.
This is mentioned
because many Spirits on Earth can do group release work
if they have complete understanding of what is happeninbg there,
and allow themselves to reenact situations
they have to reenact to be able to trigger themselves to release.
This release technique has to have definite lines drawn
According to what the participants feel is necessary.
Only do what is needed to trigger the emotional release which will relieve the person;

do not cause additional pain.


View from my Salt Sea Springs to Mount Yishai [Jesse] - April 2002

2003_04_23

In fact, direct harm is not necessary;
but someone may require triggering by another person acting as though he is going to do harm.
This is because so many people on Earth have received harm at the hand of others
and have not yet released or expressed the pain of this.
You need to realize something about denial now:
denial does not allow the release back out of what has been taken in.

If you take in and do not release back out,
your receptive centers get filled up,
and they can no longer receive clearly,
and finally, not at all.
This is the main reason why most people on Earth do not hear the Divine Impulses at present.

There is another fear present here on Earth,
the fear that so many have said they were receiving Divine Impulses
and have actually done harmful things.
You need to realize that they have not heard from God
page VI
if they have been directed to harm anyone else.
You need to realize another thing, too:
in doing it, Divine Wisdom has prevailed.
No one has been allowed to harm anyone
that did not have a need to experience it
to learn what they needed to learn.
One of the empowering factors in these understandings is
that you can release yourself intentionally
by allowing free expression.
This, then, eliminates the need
for any harmful situation
to come to you from outher reality.

This is an understanding
that is very necessary now on Earth.
People have thought
that karma brings a balance of payments.
You need to realize
that karma is not that simplistic.
Karma is meant to bring you into balance, this is true;
but not by bringing one experience
as payment for another in the past.
Karma brings balance
by attracting the experiences you need
in order to learn
what you do not yet know.

 

Mount Yishai waterfalls towards the Salt Sea [only when there is rain]

This is true;
but how are these experiences drawn to you?


 

2009

 

 

 

I follow my understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
  that - after 7 years - I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing pages.

2009
-Scroll down - to read the inserts which exemplify
My study and application of "Abraham/Hick's" teachings
about learning "Good-Feeling-Thoughts
from November 29-December 2,2009
from November 10-27,2009 in "Michael on Right Use of Will"
continuation of the inserts from November 1-9, 2009 in "About the Books called Right Use of Will"
continuation of the inserts from October 16-31, 2009 in "The Mother's Eruption"
which is the continuation of the first inserts from October 1-16, 2009 in "I honor all their experiences"
MY DESIRE TODAY


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

November 28 , evening – November 28, morning, Sunday
In my sanctuary at Arad

MY DESIRE TODAY

My desire is --
that Jonathan Shai, the male firstborn among my ten grandchildren ... ,
who today is recruited and recruits himself to the Israel Defense Forces,
may discover how to serve his community with all his heart and strength,
and learn and show that - according to the Torah, the teachings of Israel,
"Sacrifice of the FIRSTBORN" was abolished and replaced by SERVICE!


a video: Jonathan and Rotem, descendants from both peoples, victims and victimizers
singing/playing at the Memorial for the hero-victims of the Warsaw Ghetto, Oct. 2009

Before and after tonight's sleep I was led to read, what I never read before,
at least not from the beginning as now: the Siddur, the Jewish Prayer Book.
There I learnt, that the origin of the 'Tefillin' is not only in the Shma' Yisrael,
but also in 3 other passages, which demand to internalize certain teachings
by the daily physical act of tying the teaching on Body's head and hand,
one of them being: " Do   not   sacrifice   your   firstborns ! "
See more on the page of my song: "To redeem from victimhood I came" !!


"By chance" I came across "Renata, the Succayah's carpenter,
with my daughter Ronnit and her firstborn Jonathan", 1993 !


The teaching about "don't sacrifice your children!" is also implied in:
"Isaac's Binding" [Genesis 22]: unlike Jesus Isaac was NOT sacrificed!
and in "The Levites' Vocation": they don't get land like their brothers,
for they have to do the service vicariously for the other eleven tribes.

 And I, behold, I have taken your brethren the Levites
from among the children of Israel;
for you they are given as a gift unto the Lord,
to do the service of the tent of appointment.
Numeri 18:6

The teaching is given in a hidden, indirect, implied form,
since the belief, that humans can live only if part of us die,
 is so strong, that a Christian missionary in a tribe in Columbia in 1982,
when asked, why he did not STOP the sacrifice of the firstborns, said:
"If we would touch THIS belief, our work here had no chance at all!"
And it's THIS - in its depth - nobel belief, which propagates wars...
[See pp 25>Maryam, 2002_06_17> Arthur Koestler 1970 in "Haaretz":)
see also a page where I refer specifically to why most of the "Jonathans" recruit themselves.]
and as contrast: puzzle piece 31" Sacrifice what you don't want!
See more about the drive to sacrifice others as well as self ! in Song Game

May Jonathan discover: "I don't want to prepare and fight for Israel's security!
I want to serve Israel by creating the 3 conditions of Partnership,
so that wars and terror will fall away,
and I want to find self-worth and zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment
not by being "willing to march into Hell for a Heavenly Cause",
[Don Quichotte],
but by walking my own personal path of learning, creating, loving.
so that wars and terror will fall away. "


Today's e-mail quote - "Abraham" 2005

Hard work is not the path to Well- Being.
Feeling good is the path to Well-Being.
You don't create through action;
you create through vibration.
And then, your vibration calls action from you.
(This reminds me of Y. Amichai's song about the tree who "out of laziness became Deity")






 

 

November 29 , evening – November 30, morning, Monday
November 29 was not only the day of the drafting of Jonathan, my firstborn grandson.
it was also ~ in 2003 ~ the day I had chosen for beginning to carve out "Noah's Cave"!
The kaf-Tet be-November commemorates The United Nations vote to partition Palestine
Since then, 1947, even before the declaration of the State of Israel, the war is ongoing.
It was in Noah's Cave , where Haggai Lev had that vision, which made me understand,
that it will be through the Bedouins, the genuine sons of our mythical father Abraham,
that my vision about Peace-through-Desert-SPS-Hosting-Economy will first manifest.

MY DESIRE TODAY


My desire is - that soon, with or without my initiative or help,
the Bedouin People of Israel and Palestine, Jordan and Egypt
will move the engine of development
from the end of the train to its front
and combine the tradition of Abraham, the host in the desert,
with my vision about Peace through Desert-Hosting-Economy,
so as to carve out a worthy, independent living for themselves
and balance humankind concentrated more and more in cities.
Haggai Lev's vision - voiced in Noah's Cave above the Dead Sea, January 23-24, 2004

Between donkey and car - among the Bedouin in the desert of Arad: Haggai with little Sa'ad Al-Hameiseh

Coincidence this morning: A letter from an Egyptian Bedouin
Hundreds of images would suit this desire. But I chose this one- brought to me today.
Before I began to sculpt my desire this morning, I opened a mail  from Sinai/Egypt:
Mesabh , Ahmed Sawarka's cousin, who writes to my in Arabic -- on Ahmed's behalf -
and also with the interest - that I would recommend "Bamboo-Beach" to my friends,
sent a link to a Bedouin "blog" and in it  a video about a typical Bedouin gathering,
accompanied by a song which decribes making fire, baking bread, enjoying eating!

The initiator lives at El-Arish, like Ahmed, when he is not at "our" Red Sea Beach.
The video touched me, I felt a bit nostalgic ~ my superhuman work in Sinai 1996!

 


  See the my two dolphins
in Intro to Noah's Diary


                              Information about me:
    "Be honest ...................you won't loose anything,
   try to touch reality and don't live in illu             sions
   which will make you hate yourself
   And rely on God!" (translation into English: Christa-Rachel)
  

 


 

 

 

 



 

 

 

 

 

My firstborn granddaughter Elah dances, not in the army...

Abraham/Hicks: The Vortex p.98-103[continuation]

...Have you had the experience of behaving with someone
in a way that you had not intended?
It just sort of came out of you suddenly.
That was your experiencing the power of influence
from another's expectation.
Have you noticed the personality of a child changing
depending on which adult it is interacting with?
Cooperative and pleasant with one person,
and obstinate and cranky with another?
You were witnessing the power of influence
from another's expectation!

... No longer blame others with whom you share relationships;
acknowledge
that you are the attractor of your experience.
True freedom comes from that understanding.

... as you train yourself
into the good-feeling thoughts of your Source,
as you come into alignment with who-you-really-are,
as you learn to love yourself-
the others with whom you interact
will not be able to buck that current of Well-Being.
They will either love you back -
or they will gravitate out of your experience.


What are the Desired Characteristics of a Perfect Mate?

As you are moving through the details of your life experience,
you are continually generating new preferences
from the details of your new, current experiences.
That process never stops.
Those rockets of desire
are received and held by your Inner Being, in your Vibrational Reality.
In other words, every new experience causes you to amend,
in small and large ways,
your new version of the life you desire;
and your Inner Being never ceases to keep up with the new version.


Do Nature's Laws Not Govern Our Mating?

... Our interest in the subject of human relationships
is not because you need to adjust your behavior to ensure your survival,
because the survival of your species is not in jeopardy.
Our interest in human relationships is
about your survival in joy.

....
These are the most correct, truthful, accurate, natural things
that we know about you
as you are expressing through your physical form.

* You are extensions of Source Energy.

* You are physically focused
for the purpose of experiencing contrast.

* You are choosing to experience contrast
for the purpose of new ideas and decisions about your life.

*Those new ideas and decisions about life
equal the expansion of the Universe.

* The expansion of the Universe
is the inevitable consequence of life.

* When your physical life
causes the Non-Physical part of you to expand,
you must go with the expansion
if you are to experience joy.

* Joy is the most natural tenet
of that which you and we are.

* Relationships are the basis of your contrast.

* Therefore, relationships are the basis of all expansion.

* Therefore, relationships are the basis of your joy.

* If you do not find the thoughts that allow the joy,
you are holding yourself back
from who-you-have-become.

* Your relationships are your reason for your expansion.

* Your relationships are often your reason
for disallowing your expansion.

* It is natural to be in a state of joy.

* It is natural to be in a state of growth.

* It is natural to be in a state of freedom.

* These are the most important things for you to understand
about relationships.

[I'm reminded of the rose-song, which I rehearsed last week:
"O, who would inhabit this bleak world alone?"]

 

Abraham/Hicks: The Vortex p.103-105

What is Natural for Mating Humans?

... elimination of the contrast would stop the expansion.
Do not worry, for that will never be the case,
for the perfect balance of diversity has been very well established
and flows with the Laws of the Universe.
...
When your life causes you to radiate a request into your Vibrational Escrow,
your Emotional Guidance System
will help you find Vibrational alignment with it.
And finding that alignment is necessary
to your joyful fulfillment and expansion.
And no laws that are apart from that have any bearing on you.
...
Your laws are usually written from the perspective
of what is not wanted.
And so, many people spend a tremendous amount of time in argument
about which laws are right and which laws are wrong,
and, in doing so, hold themselves apart from their expanded perspectives.
And then they use the negative emotion that they feel
(which exists because of their separation from Source)
as their justification for their arguments.

When you no longer seek the final word on the rightness of your behaviors
and instead seek alignment with the Source within you
by finding thoughts, words, and deeds
that fill you with love while you participate,
you will understand that it is possible to live upon this planet
with large numbers of other Beings -
who believe and behave in a variety of ways- in peace.

When you are able to focus in such a way
as to allow your alignment with Source,
... then you will truly be free from the bondage
of attempting the impossible task
of getting everyone to agree on one right way.
One right way would lead to endedness.
Many right ways allow Eternal expansion.

 

 

 



Efrat & Mika in Efrat's home-town Acco/Acre
Acco lies at the Mediterranean Sea in Northern Israel, as El-Arish in North-Sinai/Egypt.
If this is not enough, today's work transports me also to the Red Sea & to the Dead Sea!

Abraham/Hicks: The Vortex p.104-107
The reason why people believe
that they need laws to control others around them
is that they believe that the behavior of others can negatively impact them.
but when you come to understand
that nothing can come into your experience
unless you invite it through thought,
then you understand
that you can release the impossible task
of trying to control the behavior of others
and replace it with the much simpler task
of controlling the direction of your own thoughts.

We have come to remind you about the Art of Allowing:
The Art of Allowing your Vibrational alignment
with all that you have come to be and to desire.
... If you will put your attention
toward understanding and applying the Art of Allowing,
you will live in joy
regardless of what others are doing.
Just remember,
during the time you are giving your attention to those who are not joyful,
you are not practicing the Art of Allowing.

Will Feeling Good Always attract Good-Feelers?
Questioner: Is it a good idea for me to look for a mate
who makes me feel good about myself?

Of course.
When others hold you as their object of attention
and feel appreciation at the same time,
it would feel very good toyou,
because they are in alignment with their own Source
and are flooding that aligned Energy in your direction.

That always feels good to both the flow-er of the appreciation
and the recipient of the appreciation.
But do not let your feeling good
be dependent upon someone's positive attention shining on you.
Show yourself that you can connect to the Non-Physical stream
whether you are being held in someone's positive flow
or not.
You have your own Connection,
and when you practice it often,
you will always be able to maintain your balance;
whereas,
if you wait for another to be in alignment and focused upon you,
then your good feeling is dependent upon what somene else does,
and that person may not always be in alignment,
or you may not always be his or her only point of focus.

The reason why most relationships are much better feeling
when they are new
is because in the beginning,
both partners are more inclined to look for the positive aspects in one another.
Since your relationship is new,
you are not yet aware of one another's flaws,
but as time goes on,
it is common to begin seeing more flaws
and to be making less effort to be optimistic in your expectation.


Couldn't Anyone Become My Perfect Mate?

 If there were only two people on the earth,
the experiences of contrast that you would have lived
would be so limited
that your desires would not be very evolved.
However, under those limited conditions,
your desire would also be limited,
and so you would very likely be rather happy with that limited Being.
...
Fortunately, you have a much larger, more cooperative playing field
to draw from.

 

 

 

 

 

As to Abraham/Hicks: The Vortex
I have now reached the page in the book
from which on October 1, 2009,
I moved from studying by reading and pencil-stressing
to studying by quoting and graphically editing
what is relevant for my life in "Abraham's" Teachings,
sometimes even interspersing my own thoughts,
when they were "in contrast" to the Teachings.
From the beginning - I paralleled the quotes
by sculptures of "MY DESIRE TODAY".

I interrupted the sequential quoting on October 25-26, 2009
when I reached the chapter about practical "Tools", p. 192,
and decided to once again read the first 100 pages,
this time quoting and editing them on these web pages..
"Maybe I'll feel less ambivalent towards these "tools",
if I'll have studied "Abraham" more and applied it more!"
I'll now return to the page, where I stopped on Oct. 25-26
and quote more of "The Focus-Wheel Process",
though I still suspect that there may be enormous denial,
just like at the time when I learnt "Rebirthing" in 1985-86
with Louise Hay's so-called "Affirmation-Process".
A young teacher, Demian, told then:
"I work as a taxi-driver
and at a time, when I wrote some 1000 times on a page:
"I love my mother!"
I began to notice,
that I was quarrelling with every female client!"

I took several photos of Mika on a merry-go-round
in order to exemplify "Abraham's" metaphor


 

 

 

 

 

 

November 30 , evening – December 1, morning, Tuesday
In my sanctuary at Arad
Wanting to focus on a DESIRE connected to my brother's birth on Nov. 30, 1942, Germany,
I wondered and wondered: what do I desire? Suddenly at about 7 AM, while still in bed,
my eyes were "forced" into the direction of Eberhard's painting: The State of Israel

MY DESIRE TODAY



My desire is
- that my dead brother's prophecy 40 years ago
will now manifest
and this through the presence of the "Seven Thousands
which "I leave in Israel,
all the knees which have not bowed unto Baal,
and every mouth which hath not kissed him" !!
[God's promise to Eliyah in 1.Kings 19:18, see in SongGame: My Three Peers]


This is a photo from the time, when the painting was in my bus,
squeezed into the roof window, which I never opened anyway,
because of the foldable palmfrond-penthouse on top of the roof.

It was only once, that Eberhard (with his wife Heidi) visited me in Israel.
as a result of my self-victimization towards my husband: s. 2001_12_07
Perhaps he would have come to me every year- until his death in 1970...

 And this is what he prophezied , when he handed me his painting for me:
"This is the State of Israel with all its achievements, technical and otherwise.
It will cause itself a lot of darkness, lightenings and thunderbolds.
But out of Israel itself there will finally come the light.

It was to be his last painting in his life!
See my mourning today, 40 years later!

From my sculpture
"brotherhood">2003_01_07
....And like in a caleidoscope -
all the pieces
fall into a new place: maybe -
it was that mutual "Greek-Latin-Resentment",
which forced and forged
the closeness between us?
[this image appeared
in the tiny size
of the slide-show
on the morning-screen
on Nov. 25, right frame
and my explanation.]

 

 

 

 

 

 

December 1 , evening – December 2, morning, Wednesday
At Arad- later traveling to Shoham
From evening to morning my desire concerned Ayelet and my younger son's family.
Suddenly pain-fury pierced my brain, following a doc about "No Bread in the World".
This was in such contrast to "Abraham", that I decided to dedicate my desire to this.
But! when I opened the computer, the tiny image showed my granddaughter Ayelet!

MY DESIRE TODAY


My desire is - that my children
may choose small steps
that will give them "a breath"
- instead of insisting on
'the problem has to be solved'

- for instance, as I suggested,
that they hire a pupil-teacher
who will - every day- sit
with their daughter and help
her to make her homework.


In a rare photo of my entire clan of 16:
taken on my 70th brithday, 2008,
the family of Micha, my youngest,
is in the center,
Micha, Arnon, Ra'ayah, Ayelet
(above me, Mika and her dog)

In 2007,
when Micha's family was
on a holiday abroad,
a camera error produced
a mystical image of~~
Ayelet
in the snow
and
with a huge shadow
in the sunny sky above
...


An image of 2003,
taken on one of the weekly
"Grandma-Days"
shows a typical situation:
Arnon comforts
his sister.


There is NO image
of how Arnon
lets his sister
bother and annoy him,
and not only
with words...


The sculpture above shows, what I re-learnt from
"The Focus Wheel Process" or "The Merry-go-Round" metaphor
in "Abraham's - The Vortex".

"Re-learnt", for I have learnt this many times before.
How often on this webpage have I quoted ,
what was channeled to me in 1988, without me having asked for it!:

"People have to be given small steps to turn their lives around.
Things that are within their immediate grasp.
She must always give thought to what is their next step
as an individual or as a group
and help them see the next step,
something that can be obtained rather than shooting for the stars.
Depression will result from this
and falling back into old habits and lack of motivation."

And a song from an old movie about Franciscus of Assissi,
which I recently rehearsed,
says the same:

If you want your dream to be
Build it slow and surely.
Do few things but do them well
Heartfelt work grows purely.

Day by day,
Stone by stone,
Build your secret slowly.
Day by day,
You'll grow too,
Simple joys are holy.

If you want your dream to be
Build it slow and surely.
Small beginnings, greater ends,
Heartfelt work grows purely.

If you want to live life free
Take your time go slowly.



But while copying "Abraham's"
The List-of-Positive-Aspects
 and
The Rampage-of-Appreciation Process
I must constantly think of a doc I saw yesterday
about a new book, called:
"No Bread for the World"
with darker warnings than I ever heard before
concerning the hunger that results already and will result much more
from the Climate Warning and Mankind's Destruction of the Earth.
Since our Partnership work in the late Seventies was blessed to receive money
for our course for "Partnership Facilitators"
from a German branch of the organization called "Bread for the World",
I wonder, "Abraham",
if we should not be warned by "NO Bread for the World"?
You say, there are enough resources for everyone, and I believe this.
But doesn't unlimitedness lead people to abhorrent behavior,
for which they - among other dire results - will only hate themselves?
And isn't the limitedness of resources, or any limitedness
a way to know ourselves and to become creative, too?
"Limitedness" as another aspect of "contrast"?
The man, who wrote that book, could easily make the Focus-Wheel-process.
Then he would feel good personally,
but would he have fulfilled his vocation towards his world community?

I would have no problem with "Abraham's Teachings",
if it would be stated clearly and honestly:
These teachings are the truth, they are Law,
but they are not all there is to it.

Except for the sudden surprising ending of the systematical book
(the rest of the book is the transcription of a workshop)
and we remain joyously incomplete
there is never ever a doubt,
that The Law of Attraction is the only truth we have to learn about.

What I see inside my eyes and my brain,
is a mother, who cannot stand any longer, so weak is she,
and in her arms a little child,
dying - slowly, excruciatingly slowly - from hunger.

Is this resistance?
Am I now "spit out by my Vortex"?


 

 

 

 

 

 

Akko 2008: Efrat's mother prepares Pesach

Abraham/Hicks: The Vortex p.192-194

The Focus-Wheel-Process
[After having explained the metaphor of the merry-go-round:]

"During the course of your normal day,
you will come across many things that,
as you see them or remember them,
will cause an activation of resistance within you.
It may be some unpleasant thing you read about in the newspaper,
or something that someone says to you;
but when resistance occurs,
you will always feel the pang of negative emotion.
Often you cannot stop what you are doing right then
to deal with newly activated esistant thought,
but we do encourage you
to make a mental -or better still - written note about it"
My employer's attitude toward me makes me uncomfortable.
He doesn't appreciate the contribution that I make here.
Now you have a subject for tomorrow's Focus Wheel segment.

So yesterday, while lying in bed,
you released resistance before sleeping.
During the night, you released all resistance.
And when you awakened,
you deliberately kept the resistance-free zone going by basking for a while.
You had breakfast and showered and brushed your teeth,
and now you plan to sit for 15 or 20 minutes
to clean up any pieces of resistance
that are lurking in your thought processes.
And the very best time to do that is while you are feeling good.

As you read your note about your perception
of your employer's attitude toward you,
you will reactivate the resistant thought.
So, take a large sheet of paper and write at the top of it:
My employer's attitude toward me makes me uncomfortable.
He doesn't appreciate the contribution that I make to his business.

Now draw a large circle on the page.
then draw a small circle in the center and 23 small circles around it,
positioning them like the numbers on the face of a clock.

Whenever something happens in life that points out to you,
with great clarity, something that you do not want,
an equally clear awareness of what you do want
hatches within your awareness at the same time.

By focusing upon your belief
that your employer does not appreciate the contributions that you make,
an equal desire is born:
I like it when my employer understands the depth of my interest
and the contribution I make to the success we are all having here.
Write a version of that inside the circle in the center of the wheel.

Now, like the merry-go-round in the playground,
you must find a way to get on the wheel.
If your resistant thoughts are spinning too fast,
you will not be able to get on.
The wheel will just toss you off in the bushes.
So try to find something that you already believe that matches, in some ways,
what you felt when you wrote the words in the center circle.

You may think:

* My boss does appreciate me.
(Off in the bushes.) You really do not believe that - not now, anyway.

* My boss doesn't deserve me.
(Now you are not even trying.)

Keep focusing back on the words in the center of your Focus Wheel.
It will help you to feel the activation of beliefs
that you already hold that match that sentiment.

* My boss wants his company to succeed.
(You are on the wheel.)
Write that at the 12 o'clock spot on your wheel.

* His company was well under way when I joined.
(You have not solved any problem here,
but this statement is something that you believe,
and it does somehow make you feel better.)
Write that at the 1 o'clock spot on your wheel.

* There are aspects of his work that I really enjoy.
(That is true, too, and now you are gaining a bit of momentum.)
Write that at the 2 o'clock spot on your wheel.

 

 

 

 

Ayelet and Mika at Mazkeret Batya, 2007?

 

* I really enjoy it when my boss and I are clicking.
(That is true, and it feels good.). 3 o'clock spot.

* We both can feel the synergy of our collaboration.
(More momentum~~~ now you're rolling.)
Write that at the 4 o'clock spot.

* I have felt my boss inspire a new idea in me.
(Now you are off and running. Your resistance is gone.)
5 o'clock spot.

* I am certain my boss has felt me inspire a new idea in him.
6 o'clock spot.

* I think we all realize that we are all in this together.
7 o'clock spot.

* I would not want to be without this job.
8 o'clock spot.

* My boss often asks me to lead projects and direct others.
9 o'clock spot.

* It is obvious that he has trust in me.
10 o'clock spot.

* I am happy to work with him.
11 o'clock spot.

And then, in the center of the wheel -
right over the top of what you had written before, around the edge of it,
or all across the page - in bold, confirming letters, write;
I know my boss sees my value.

You have moved your Vibration to a new place on this topic,
and therefore your point of attraction has shifted,
and your relationship to your Vortex has shifted.
That is Deliberate Creation at its best.
IN this one short process,
you have released resistance,
improved your relationship with your boss,
brought yourself back into alignment with who-you-really-are-
and you have entered your Vortex.
And now that you are inside the Vortex -
you are looking at your world through the eyes of your Source.



The List-of-Positive-Aspects Process

Now that you have released your resistance about your employer
and established a higher, resistance-free Vibration about this topic,
it can be of tremendous value for you
to keep this resistance-free ball rolling for the purpose
of really establishing your new Vibrational base and point of attraction.
In other words, let us milk it for a while
and get all the value we can from the momentum you have going.

So now that you are in alignment with your Inner Being,
make a list of the postive aspects of your employer and your work
from the perspective of Source.
from inside the Vortex, this is an easy process to do.
And the reason we encourage you to do it is
because there is great value in being inside the Vortex.
And so, the longer you can stay here, the better.

Now, turn your paper over and write, as a heading at the top of the page:
THE POSITIVE ASPECTS OF MY EMPLOYER:

* He cares about his business.
*He is deliberate about who he hires.
* He often jumps in to help with a project.
* He smiles easily.
*People like him.
*His business is financially sound.
* He got the ball rolling before he hired any of us.
* He always makes payroll, and on time.
*His business teadily grows.
* I'm glad that I work here.
* I like what I do.
* I really like this man.

This list may go on even longer
[or part of it definitely wrong, as in the case of Micha, my son!]
because in your alignment, you are very clear-minded.
And so, you will feel the words flowing easily onto your page.
You may later be surprised by your flowing compliments of somone
who is often annoying, but remember:
in this moment,
you are seeing your employer through the eyes of Source.


The Rampage-of-Appreciation Process

Now if you are really wanting to firmly stake your claim
on your newly acquired higher Vibration about this topic,
move on to this final process: The Rampage of Appreciation.
Move to another, clean sheet of paper and begin writing and/or speaking your appreciation for your employer:
I appreciate ~~~
~~~ his beautiful car
[to appreciate someone for his car - now this I find ridiculous!
But I go on quoting the ridiculous with the valuable appreciations!]
~~~ that he puts money back into his business.
~~~that he often buys our lunch.
~~~ our beautiful work space.
~~~ the scope of this business.
~~~where it is going.
~~~ the potential we all have in working here.
~~~ the contribution this business offers to the world.
~~~ the flexibility I have here.
~~~ his eagerness to learn.
~~~ how he loves good ideas.
~~~ his wonderful laugh.
~~~ his dedication to his business.
~~~ the stability of his business.
~~~ the work he offers me.
~~~ the thrill of adventure.
~~~the opportunity to expand.
~~~ the contrast that helps me expand.
~~~ my Guidance System that helps me keep up with my expansion.
~~~this world.
~~~ this wonderful time of technology.
~~~my life!

What Life Is Like, from Inside the Vortex

... As you pay attentin to your emotions,
and reach steadily for the best-feeling thoughts you can find,
you will move into your Vortex whenever you desire;
and the more often you are there, the more often you will want to return -
because life from inside the Vortex is sublime.

Your point of attraction will be such
that only things that are wanted will flow into yur path.
The people you encounter will be perfect matches to your highest interest,
and you will not rendezvous with those not up to speed with who you are.
You will feel vital and alive and clear-minded and sure.

You will find the best in others, whether they see it or not.
And your appreciation for life will ripple through your body
in the form of thrilling sensations
as you focus upon the objects of specific appreciation.

But occasionally, even often, you will remember or observe
something not up to speed -
and your Vortex will spit you out.
But do not be alarmed,
for you have deliberately emerged into an environment of contrast
for the value of the new idea that is always born from contrast.
....
Now that you understand the whole picture ,
you will find confidence and ease in the Three-Step Process of Creation.
When something occurs that causes you to ask
(since you now understand the Vortex, and how to get in),
you will no longer writhe in the discomfort of powerlessness.
No matter what unpleasant problems you may encounter along your way,
an improved desire or request will emanate from you,
and its solution will amass
as all cooperative components assemble,
waiting for you to enter the Vortex,

You do not have to explain this to anyone else;
and , in fact, even if you try, they may not understand your words.
But it is our promise to you that, through the reading of this book,
you now do understand your relationship with the Vortex -
and through the power of the example of your joyous life experience,
others may be inspired to want to know, also.

We have enjoyed this interaction immensely.
There is great love here for you,
and we remain joyously incomplete.

Abraham


Addition on April 8, 2010 and March 30, 2011:
HEALING DESIRE PRACTICE
This very concise advice from "Process Coaching"
[based on Right Use of Will and Godchannel]
complements what's missing in "Abraham"!
Healing Desire Practice
This practice will enable you to access and heal
both the core of the desire and its edge.
Desire is the energy of true Will.
Desire is the deepest and juiciest kind of sentient energy,
and as such has been seriously judged against and denied.
These wounds in the energy of desire have rendered it ineffective
in drawing what is desired into manifestation.


[I'm copying this here on March 30, 2011,
and it reminds me of the new info, which I read about the Cathars [see my pilgrimage in 2001]
(following a thriller, which I tolerated to watch because of its connection to the Cathars' Treasure).

While the Catholic Church is demanding the denial of desire only from priests, monks and nuns,
the Cathar church demanded the abolishion of marriage, reproduction, sex from all members!)


The healing of desire happens
when we bring unconditional loving acceptance to its energy in the body.
When the desire energy is healed and whole,
its magnetic sentient nature will naturally draw to you what is desired.

This practice makes it easy to reverse the conditioning against desire
and to bring your love to desire's sensate presence in you.
Here are the steps:

1. State a desire and feel into it.


March 30, 2011 - see my correspondance with the Channelers of Godchannel about Sexual Abuse:

I desire to know, how I can heal the distorted sexual desire of pedophils etc. inside myself!


2. Locate the feeling of the desire in your body.

In the throat!

3. Feel into the energy of the desire and describe it as warm, cool, tight, loose, etc.

Stringent!

4. Are you comfortable with the energy of this desire, just as it is?

No!

5. If not, do judgment release and/or deep denial release until you are comfortable.


I feel, that my kind of desire - for other people and for the world -
is not covered in this practice!


6. Is this desire loveable?
When you find it so, bring your loving acceptance to the energy of the desire,
just as it is~~~ unfulfilled desire.
Allow the desire energy to feel bathed in your unconditional loving acceptance of it, just as it is.

7. When you have communed deeply with the desire energy, ask yourself,
"If there was something not okay with this desire, what would that be?"
(State what would not be okay.)

8. This is the edge of the desire, and it is an integral part of the desire.
Find where in your body you feel the energy of the edge of the desire.

9. Feel into the energy of the edge and describe the energy to yourself
as warm or cool, tight or loose, still or vibrating, hard or soft, etc.

10. Release denial energy or judgments if necessary, a
nd/or do whatever other practices you wish to help you
bring unconditional loving acceptance to the energy in the edge of the desire.

11. Return to the core of the desire and give your unconditional loving acceptance to the energy of both the core and the edge of the desire together, the whole desire. This radical acceptance by consciousness
empowers the sentient desire to more easily draw what is desired.

12. Keep exploring and healing using your intuition
until there is full acceptance for the desire just as it is, including all of its edginess. (Use the Deep Practice if necessary.)


You can get assistance with this practice (or any practice on the site)
by arranging a free sample telephone coaching session.

Deep Practice for Healing to Wholeness
....this technique makes it much easier to work in present time
with triggered emotions and physical issues. ...Instead of following the ancient imprinted programming to get away from unwanted feelings and sensations by escaping into the mind (and its torturous thoughts about the feelings), we're now taking control of our own attention so we can focus on what we're feeling in the moment, staying present with and feeling into uncomfortable or previously unwanted feelings.... We take conscious control of our own attention to focus on the feeling and feel into it, where it is in the body. This is a practical application of consciousness in the service of sentience.

Many traumas have a shock component that often presents as numbness, 'spaciness,' wanting to sleep, etc. Depression is another example of a present-time experience of the shock associated with past emotional trauma. The shock that came to protect us from having to feel too much pain during the original trauma has become part of the imprint, and this still-present shock has usually prevented us from fully feeling the feeling before escaping into the mind.

The solution here is to simply feel under the shock, feel under the numbness. Say to yourself, "Now I want to feel the feeling that the shock has been protecting me from." Feel under the blankness of the shock and experience the feeling.

This practice is a good way to find and release otherwise hidden denial energy. The technique addresses all of the layers of the original trauma and its reenactments, including the roots at the deepest transpersonal levels.

The Practice
1. Feel a 'bad' feeling (either emotional or physical).

2. Locate it in your body.

3. Observe the feeling with curiosity, and begin to feel into the feeling. (As the Healer observing the feeling, you are separate from it. You're not becoming the feeling or identifying as it.)

4. Notice how the energy of the feeling feels in your body. Focus on the sensations of the feeling. Does it feel more hard or soft? Is the energy moving or still? Tight or loose? Is it warm or cool? Sharp or dull? Is there pressure?

5. As the healer, your attitude is that you want to know more about how this feeling actually feels in the body. In this way you are like the loving parent who wants to feel all of the child's pain so you can know what to do.

6. If mind comes into action here, if there are any thoughts or judgments, simply refocus on the feeling and feel under the thoughts and judgments. And then continue feeling into the feeling with interest and curiosity.

7. Ask yourself, "Am I comfortable feeling this feeling just as it is, without the feeling having to change in any way?" If so, skip step 8 and continue with step 9. If another feeling (such as fear) is preventing you from being comfortable, do this practice from the beginning with that feeling first, and then come back to the original feeling.

8. Release denial energy: If you are not comfortable with the feeling just as it is, ask yourself, "What kind of denial release would help me be more comfortable being with this feeling?" Do either a judgment release or deep denial release.

9. After any judgments or deep denial in the feeling is released, feel back into the feeling and notice any changes. Now while feeling the feeling, imagine a small child you once were is feeling this feeling. It's okay to just make it up, the child is only a metaphor for the feeling.

10. When something comes to mind, ask yourself: Is the child indoors or outdoors? Is the child standing? Sitting? How old is the child?

11. Now, in your present adult body, go on the scene and be there with the child. Get down to their eye level, and say "Hello." Open your arms and heart to the child and let them know you love them, just as they are.

12. If the child would like, pick them up and hold them. Allow the child to feel your love and acceptance for them, just the way they are. It's okay to take time here and enjoy the experience.

13. When the child is feeling your love, take an observer position so you can see there are two of you there, the child and the grownup. Now go into the position of the child. You are in the child's body.

14. You are little, and your grown-up self is loving you. Now feel what it's like to loved... just the way you are.

15. To finish, as the grown-up... look into the eyes of the child and see their beauty, innocence and greatness. And when you are ready, the adult holds the child so close you absorb them into yourself, one whole being. Rest in the love as long as you like.


continuation of
"My daily Desire"
in
The RIGHT USE OF WILL Books
Original INTRODUCTION- second part
Quotes from the Appendix to "The Vortex"
Transcript of a Law of Attraction Workshop
in
The RIGHT USE OF WILL Books
Original INTRODUCTION-second part

 

 

 


On November 1, 2011, I felt,
that I should re-read and copy the second and third RUOW book, as much as linear "TIME" will allow, and juxtapose them to the first, the BLUE BOOK.
Below I "managed" to insert (maximum space: 1300 kb!) the introduction and 3 pages of each of the two books. In time I'll add links to the content titles.

The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything
The purple, third RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1987]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the REFLECTION LOST WILL HAS to GIVE
Dedicated to Red in all its Manifestations

THE FIRST CREATION ......1
THE SECOND CREATION .....7
THE THIRD CREATION ......17
THE EMERGENCE OF HEART.......25
THE EMERGENCE OF THE FATHER OF MANIFESTATION ........33
THE EMERGENCE OF THE PLANETS AND STARS OF THE CENTRAL UNIVERSE ......39
THE EMERGENCE OF THE ANCIENT ONES THAT SERVE THE LIGHT ......40
SELF-DOUBT......42
THE DEMOCRATIC COUNCIL......43
THE APPROACH OF THE MIND VERSUS THE APPROACH OF THE INTUITION ......45
GOING FORTH WITH SELF-DOUBT ......47
THE EMERGENCE OF THE GREAT ARC ANGELS ...... 49
THE APPEARANCE OF LUCIFER ......50
THE EMERGENCE OF THE LESSER ARC ANGELS ......51
THE EMERGENCE OF THE FIRST ORDER OF ANGELS ......55
THE EMERGENCE OF THE SECOND ORDER OF ANGELS ......60
THE EMERGENCE OF THE THIRD ORDER OF ANGELS ......62
THE EMERGENCE OF THE FOURTH ORDER OF ANGELS ......63
THE PLATEAU OF REST AND SOME UNDERSTANDINGS
                            WHICH HINDSIGHT GAVE ME THERE ......64
THE EMERGENCE OF THE SERAPHIMS AND THE CHERUBIMS ......73
THE EMERGENCE OF THE SPIRIT POLARITY OF THE RAINBOW SPIRITS ......86
SPIRIT AND FORM GO INTO CONFLICT
                            AND APPEAL TO HEART FOR BALANCE ......94
THE EMERGENCE OF THE WILL POLARITY OF THE RAINBOW SPIRITS ......102
THE TRIUMPHAND RETURN HOME THAT ALMOST TURNS SOUR ......107
EARLY ATTEMPTS TO HELP SPIRITS THAT WERE HAVING TROUBLE ......110
THE ANGELS' EARLY MISUNDERSTANDINGS......117
SOME UNDERSTANDINGS NEEDED NOW THAT COULD NOT BE GAINED THEN ......120
AS I TURN TO HELP THE ANGELS, THE MOTHER HELPS ME TO HELP MYSELF ......126
THE MOTHER SUGGESTS
                            THAT NOT ALL SPIRITS ARE SPIRITS OF THE LIGHT ......129
EARLY ATTEMPTS TO HEL THE ANCIENT ONES ......131
GIVING HELP TO THE ARC ANGELS ......133
EARLY ATTEMPTS TO HELP THE ANGELS ......138
SOME UNDERSTANDINGS
                           THE SERAPHIMS AND THE CHERUBIMES NEED NOW ......142
SOME UNDERSTANDING ON THE KARMA OF THE RAINBOW SPIRITS ......149
SOME JUDGMENTS THAT NEED RELEASE NOW ......165
FRAGMENTATION INCARNATING INTO SUCCESSIVE GENERATIONS ......169
SOME UNDERSTANDINGS ON THE ROLE OF SEX IN FRAGMENTATION ......176
SOME UNDERSTANDINGS ON DEATH ......181
GLIMPSES INTO SOME OF THE UNDERSTANDINGS NEEDED NEXT ......186
DENIALS EMANATING FROM THE GODHEAD TOWARD THE SURVIVAL CHAKRA
       AND SOME REFLECTIONS OF THESE DENIALS.......1
LUCIFER TRIES TO TAKE MY PLACE.......27
SOME UNDERSTANDINGS ON HOW THE WILL BECOMES LOST........37
THE HEART SPIRITS ASK FOR HELP.......45
THE SPIRIT POLARITY AS CAUSAL IN THE CREATION OF LOST WILL.......50
THE MOTHER TURNS MORE TOWARD FROM THAN SPIRIT..........6
HEART SPIRITS POLARIZE TOWARD THE GODHEAD........59
CHILDREN IN THE ROLE OF HEART OF THE PARENTS........62
HEART DENIES THE MOTHER........63
SPIRIT AND HEART PUSH WILL AND BODY AWAY.......67
GAPPED FEELINGS AND SEXUAL INADEQUACY.........75
LUCIFER TRIES TO FILL THE GAP.........77
BODY MOVES TOWARD SPIRIT......80
BLAME......83
DENIAL SPIRITS......86
DENIED BLAME AND SELF-SACRIFICE WIDEN THE GAP
              BETWEEN SPIRIT, HEART      AND WILL, BODY......88
SEX IN A STATE OF DENIAL ......90
THE FATHER OF MANIFESTATION EXPERIENCES HIDDEN DENIALS ......94
THE MOTHER SEDUCES THE FATHER OF MANIFESTATION ......98
THE EMERGENCE OF EARTH ......100
SPIRIT FEELS DRAWN TO RETURN TO THE GODHEAD ......105
THE WILL IS ABANDONED ON EARTH ......107
THE GODHEAD CELEBRATES ......108
THE GODHEAD AND MANIFESTATION WITHOUT THE MOTHER ......109
HEART SHARES SOME FEELINGS
               ABOUT THE IMBALANCE BETWEEN SPIRIT AND WILL .....112
THE FATHER OF MANIFESTATION BRINGS BACK THE MOTHER ......114
DENIED WILL MAKES A BRIEF APPEARANCE IN THE GODHEAD ......120
DENIED WILL CANNOT REMAIN IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LIGHT ......126
THE MESSAGE OF THE SERAPHIMS AND THE CHERUBIMS ......128
THE MOTHER FEELS SHE HAS NO RIGHT PLACE ......130
THE EMERGENCE OF THE GOLD LIGHT SPIRITS ......131
GAPPED RAGE ......146
THE EMERGENCE OF THE WARRIORS AND THE WAR IN THE HEAVENS......148
SPIRIT TRIES TO REDUCE THE POWER OF NEGATIVITY ......152
SPIRIT GOES FORTH IN THE HOPE OF BRINGING PEACE TO CREATION ......155
SPIRIT LOOKS AT THE MOTHER WARRIORS ......157
SPIRIT FACES THE FATHER WARRIORS ......161
THE MOTHER WARRIORS AND THE GOLD LIGHT SPIRITS ......166
THE WARRIORS CONTINUE TO BATTLE ......167
SPIRIT LIGHT APPROACHES THE RONALOKAS ......171
CONCLUDING COMMENTS ......181


The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything
The purple, third RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1987]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the REFLECTION LOST WILL HAS to GIVE
Dedicated to Red in all its Manifestations

INTRODUCTION

p.I
I know that you have at some time said to yourselves, "If there is a God who has any power, then why is it the way that it is on Earth?"

The ways in which people have answered this question to themselves have consisted mostly of rationalizations designed to help them feel better able to accept what their true feelings do not want to accept. Lost Will is the reason why things are as they are on Earth.

In the beginning I had feelings I did not know I had. Now that I know I have these feelings, I must accept them as part of Myself, and no longer say that God is not feeling angry when He is. I have many feelings I am now owning, but I would like to focus on anger first because anger has been judged against more than any other emotion in Creation.

I have said for a long time that I am not angry and have never been angry. When men have said that I am an angry God, I have not liked it, nor have I liked the things that men have done to try to appease Me. If anything, the anger I saw around Me made Me more angry, and yet, I have said that I am not angry and that God does not get angry. At other times I have said that I really wished I had never created man; so sinful are his ways.

The misunderstanding here needs to be cleared up now. I have had, and still have, great anger, but it is not the kind of anger that men have feared that I have.

The only anger that has been seen on Earth is anger that is laden with judgments against it and acted out according to these


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judgments. When men have said that I have anger, and I have seen the pictures of what man on Earth knows as anger, I have not then been able to agree with man that I had this anger.

I had an image of Myself that did not include this anger, and so, Lost Will has held the anger that I said I did not have. I have long since let go of what made My anger look like anger has been looking on Earth, but I lacked understanding as to why that kind of anger has been held present in the Will for so long.

The Spiritual essence is not magnetic; it is electric, it moves quickly, and does not hold onto anything for long. The Will, on the other hand, has never seemed to move certain things out of itself. I have felt the magnetic energy to be maddeningly slow at times, and too frenetically fast at other times. The magnetic energy has not had the balance I have found to be so necessary to longevity and immortality. I have blamed the Will for not getting rid of the things that I have found are not beneficial to living. If the Spirit knows that certain Body habits produce death sooner or later, then why do the emotions desire these things?

I have pondered this problem with the Will for so long, that Body has felt maybe it is meant to die. Death has been especially hard for Body when it has enjoyed serving the Spirit and has not wanted the partner-ship to end. It has even seemed at times as though the Will has deliberately drawn death into the Body just to oppose Spirit, which has desire to live forever. Spirit has found that the Will has the power to kill the manifested Body, but did not believe the Will had the power to kill the Spirit Itself.

I have recently recognized that Will also has the power to kill Me; it's just that I go last, after everything else. Lost Will has had the desire to kill Me because I have not accepted it and given it the light it needs in order to live. Lost Will is not wrong in having the desire to kill Me, because I would have continued to ignore Lost Will if it had not thrown this reality in My face.

I had ignored Lost Will for so long that I had convinced Myself that it was not even a part of Me. Even though a place in Myself kept telling Me I was wrong, I had Myself quite thoroughly convinced that there was evil in My Creation, and somehow, I was going to have to defeat it. Even the part of Me that told Me I was wrong did not have the understandings I am going to give now.

One part of Me said that I had a devil in My Creation, who was My adversary, and that I had to defeat him because I would never have peace as long as he was present. The other part of Me


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said that what I perceived as "evil to be eradicated" was actually a necessary part of Creation, and that I must learn to live with it because it provided the counterbalance I needed. One side said I couldn't live with it and the other side said I couldn't live without it. One side set Me up to feel like a potential murderer, and the other side made Me feel like I was going to have to sacrifice Myself. I had aversion to either side prevailing, but I could not see for a long time any way to bring the two sides together in any way that really had validity.

I saw spirits sacrificing themselves in the name of love to an unloving and uncaring evil, and I saw the spirits that marched forth to fight this evil suffering the same end. I even saw spirits that tried not to take sides getting overrun by evil for no apparent reason.

I had to watch this for a long time in order to understand it; for so long, in fact, that I had guilt over the spirits that were having to sufffer through it. I have found now that I am almost too late to heal it. I have a massive healing job on My hands and may not even be able to do it without the help the Manifested Spirits can give Me.

Even though I now know this to be true understanding, I am still having trouble getting anyone other than My own Heart to take Me seriously.
I must take the responsibility that is mine for the problems I am having in getting the Spirits to listen to Me, and to know that it is God they are hearing; however, the Manifeted Spirits must now take responsibility for themselves also.
I have responsibility for having projected images of Myself as God, including the one that said I have no anger as men have anger. I fell prey to any things that threatened My feeling that it was alright that I was God. Guilt and the evil I had to face, without realizing where they had come from, were two of the big ones, although there ae many more that I cannot list here.

The Manifested Spirits need to take responsibility for having looked upon the images of Myself that were passing through Me, fixing on the ones they liked, and refusing to look at anything else about Me.

One of the images the Manifested Spirits have most liked to fix upon is one that lets them out of their own responsibility by giving it all to Me. I'm supposed to be the one that has all the answers and the power to fix anything no matter what it is.

The other polarity says that there is no God consciousness
[Introduction to the Violet Book continued below in both frames]






 
INTRODUCTION

p.I
I have given two books previous to this one and it is My feeling that it is not possible to understand this one unless you have read the others. If you are the sort of reader who skips the introduction, you will not find everything you need, so now is a good time to change that habit.

There are a lot of things moving on Earth right now and a lot more are going to move, if you want to move with it, do not hold back the feelings you need to allow now. Feelings give movement to Creation. Without feelings, there is no desire and without desire, vibration would stop. Vibration is life and so it follows that you must have desire to have life.

There is no reason on Earth that spiritual teachers should instruct you to let go of desire except that they are holding old images of Me that do not know how to live and readying you for death while telling you it is life everlasting they are readying you for instead. If you cannot allow desire to lead you into pleasant experiences, you may be heading yourself for Hell without realizing it. Desire has been told by guilt that it is not possible to both feel good and be good, especially where sexual energy is involved. Love has intent to be good and does not need a guilty conscience telling it that it is not being good enough. Guilt criticizes without giving forth a feeling of love toward those it is criticizing.

Guilt is God in My place on Earth right now and needs to move out so that My light can move in. You need to allow your magnetic centers to move so that they can release the guilt they


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are holding present and allow My light to come in. You have been seeing what guilt does when you hold it present but you have not recognized it. I am giving you the understandings you need now to recognize guilt and be able to let go of it if you so choose. If you choose guilt over Me, you need to know what that choice means for you also, so that I have done My job of letting you know what is going to happen in My absence. Formerly, I have allowed guilt to co-exist with Me, but no more. Guilt is not loving and I have decided that I can no longer tolerate unloving presence in My Creation.

This statement of Mine is going to terrify many people who aren't sure they have the ability to tell the difference between love and guilt, or to love without guilt telling them how they should do it. Many others who see that this understanding is right will meet their terror when they try to practice moving guilt out of their lives. Most people cannot fully understand what guilt is unless they receive the understandings I am giving now. Guilt can be such a subtle thing that it is not possible to know all the forms it can take without feeling the
Lost will that needs to move now.

This book is subtitled "The Reflection Lost Will Has to Give," because the first step is to see it. You need My help, because although you have been seeing it, you have not recognized what you have been seeing. Some have already pointed out reflections of the self in others, and some have said that the things most denied in the self are the things most hated in others. I want you to look at this more deeply now. Recognition of the problem needs also the understanding of how to heal it so that you do not have to continue to face the reflection you are now facing on Earth.

I have given these understandings in many ways that have not gotten across to you and so I have to insist that you not let yourself read past any point that triggers you or stirs even the slightest emotion. When you feel anything, put the book down, go into your feelings and allow as much movement as you can. Do not allow talking about feelings to control you here. Allow breathing changes and noises. Allow Body to respond to what is happening with whatever movements it needs to make. Give in to more emotional movement than you have in the past. It is the holding patterns in the magnetic, or emotional body, that are not allowing these understandings to penetrate deeply enough to make the vibrational changes that can alter the ways you are living and dying.


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It is not possible anymore to let you go on as you are. The "high-tech' replacement of the Will is only going to give you a little time in which to heal this, and if you do not move when you can, it will be much more difficult later. You are the one deciding how much pressure you need to move by how much you resist the movement.

I do want to repeat that this does not mean that you need to be pressuring others because you are afraid that they are not healing themselves, or allowing you to heal.
I would like to get this understanding across now: Others are not going to take kindly to pressuring from you if you have not first moved in yourself what you feel needs movement in them.

So many times I have felt that I sound like I am almost contradicting Myself in My attempts to explain this without having My explanations look like rules. You cannot take the form of what I have given in one situation and seek to apply it to situations where it does not apply. You must have a feeling for the essence of the situation. If not, it does not matter what approach I take; you will not get the understandings involved. The understandings to have present with you now is that it is not possible to give you a rule for every situation you are going to meet, nor would it be desirable;

that's why I have given you a Will instead.

In the next part of the story you are going to see how following My example, and sometimes trying not to follow My example, gave you the misunderstandings you need to heal now. Most people are also laden with additional misunderstandings because they did not understand the example I was trying to give, or tried to make the example fit situations in which it did not apply.

Please open to receive what I am giving now.


    End of Introduction of the Purple Book

 
The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything

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or power other than what is manifest in man himself. Neither one of these images are correct; but the ways in which these images are correct and the ways in which these images are incorrect has to be seen in light of the understandings I need to give now.

Because I have tried to give these understandings many times before and have not been able to get them across, I must point out that understanding them is dependent on you opening to receive them. If you have intent to understand, you will not fail to get the understandings you need, even if you have to go through fear, anger, doubt and even terror and rage in the process of coming to know whether these understandings are right or not. I know that these understandings are right and I want you to feel whatever emotion you need to feel to know in your Will that these understandings are right. I do not want you to accept these understandings because someone says it is My word.

I have to introduce material you have not wanted to look at. I had an aversion to looking at it Myself, but I had to look in order to understand how to heal it; and more than that, I had to experience the feelings involved in order to know whether or not I had true understanding of the forms I was seeing. This meant that I had to experience the situation; I could not project My view-point of My feelings unto it. When I have not really experienced the situation, I have failed to heal Lost Will.

And what is Lost Will? To get the understandings on what Lost Will is and what it means to Creation, I had to go back to the very beginning, long before the spirits manifested individual consciousness. I had to understand why I had felt all along that something was not right within the Mother. She had fear from the very beginning and I had to understand why, and I had to understand in terms that wold help Her.

I had tried to heal the Mother of fearing all the time and had had little or no success. Many times I thought I had healed Her, only to have a reversal take Her down again. I finally figured out that it must be something She held in Her magnetic field that did not allow Her to take in My light and hold it. I hated Her for this, although I originally denied My hatred. I have to own this hatred now that I have realized it is not wrong to hate what She has been holding, although it was not right to hate Her for having held it.

The Will has been holding death and the guilt that told Her that She had to make a place for everything. The feeling in the [continued in right frame]

 
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Will now is that it cannot hold death and guilt anymore. The Will must be healed now. The pain the Will has experienced from holding death and guilt is unbearable, and it cannot go on living if it has to hold death and guilt any longer. I realized quite some time ago that the Will needed to let go of death and guilt. I could not understand why the Will continued to hold these things when it had been made clear to Me that the pain of holding them was unbearable.

I finally realized that the Will has a difficult time ridding Itself of anything it is holding because of the magnetism involved. The process the Will has for clearing itself has been given no acceptance, and so, the Will has not been able to clear.

The Will has to be allowed the freedom to go through its process now. The Will has to be allowed to express as much emotion as it needs to express to generate enough vibratory power to move death and guilt out of itself. The strongest emotions the Will is capable of generating are the emotions the Will needs to generate to be able to move death and guilt out. Because death and guilt have no consciousness that guides them to their right place, they must be put in their right place by a force that is greater than the hold they have on the Will's magnetic field.

You can easilty see by the number of people that believe death is inevitable and that guilt is necessary to have conscience that their hold on the Will is nothing to scoff at. You have to understand that it is almost impossible to heal the Will at all, and the longer you wait, the closer to impossible it is going to become.

Some spirits still have no ability to understand what I am saying, and these spirits should not be pressured by anyone wanting them to heal. These spirits either have a process you do not yet understand, or they are spirits that need more experience before they will understand that the Will must be free. You must feel within yourself to know whether these teachings are right for you now or not. If you have a continuing great resistance to this book and do not believe it is right, you probably have another process for healing, or you are a spirit who needs to go outside of Me [????????] to learn what is involved in sustaining life and whether or not you desire to have life.

I have said earlier that I will be as merciful as possible [????????] in how I proceed [????????] to put [????????] everyone in their right place and I intend to be. You need to understand that going outside of Me is just the experience the Mother has sought to save the Manifested Spirits from having to have. She still has fragments of Herself that [continued below in left frame]
The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything

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are living outside of Me, and She is barely able to stand healing what they have gone through; however, if you cannot accept these teachings from Me now, you will have to gain the experience needed by going outside of Me. Mercy in this case means that if you have aversion to freeing the Will, the Will that wants life now will not accompany into the experience, because this Will has no more desire to feel what it feels when outside of Me. You will have consciousness for as long as you need to have it, to see what you need to see, but you will not be able to feel very much at all. You must not think that this lack of feeling means you have mastered the experience of going outside of Me. If you have feelings now that love will be missing, you are not wrong, and you will have to decide whether love is important to you or not, for without it, life everlasting is impossible.

If you decide that you want to go on living, you will have to be rescued by the Mother, and you will have to beg Her to come to you and to forgive you for not respecting Her in the first place. Everything else said on this subject in the other book was the Mother influencing the channeling in an attempt to bring more mercy and more time forward for the Manifested Spirits. I let Her do this because She needed more time to understand and so did you. What you must understand now is that time has run out. I can give no more. The maximum time allotment has been given. I cannot wait any longer to heal the Will that has desire to live.

And why would the Mother, who has suffered the pain that must now be healed in the Will, want to beg for more mercy for the ones that have denied Her? Because the Mother could not bear to feel that She might cut off someone who might still turn toward the light. The Mother has also had to deal with guilt around this issue. For one thing, She did not want God to be seen as a fanatical dictator telling others how they must live. Guilt around My power has made unloving dictatorships on Earth reflect the judgments involved.

I also had guilt holding Me back on these two points for a long time, but I have come to understand that the loving thing is to have guilt move out and to then give the Manifested Spirits the lessons they need.

Reality is that the Mother does not like it because She has such aversion to the experience of being outside of Me and because She has aversion to having to go back out there to rescue anything; but She does understand now that I am right on this point and She has aligned with Me on it. Once My Body aligns [continued in right frame]

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with Me it will happen. Body is not yet quite aligned with Me on this issue because some of His essence will go outside of Me to give form to what happens there, and He does not like it that We have to go to such great lengths to let some spirits learn what He feels they should know already. The Father of Manifestation, who is My Body, is enraged over this and still feels guilty that He is enraged. He is still letting guilt tell Him that it is unloving to put some spirits out, but I have seen that He will soon align with Me.

Lost Will seeking life needs to know that it is not going outside of Me. Lost Will has already been out there and is not going to remain there unless it has no desire to live anymore. What is going outside of Me is Spirit polarity essence that has shown Me it does not love the Will and does not intend to open to its healing. This essence has lived "high on the hog" while its own Lost Will has struggled for life at the subsistence level. This essence has always insisted that the Lost Will created its own reality and had the same chances and opportunities the Spirit had. The Spirit essence that has to go outside of Me has always insisted that it is right, and has turned a deaf ear on all pleas from the Will polarity for help. This essence will at first notice little change in its life when it goes outside of Me, until it tries to feel something.

If you have questions as to what the Lost Will is and how to heal it, you need to read all the books I am giving now because I cannot give you a simple and short understanding that will help you. I must tell you, though, that Lost Will has been possessed by unlovingness and forced to do its bidding. This is how evil got started in My Creation. The amount of unlovingness there is on Earth tells you how much Lost Will has to be healed. But amount is not all there is; the feelings held in the Lost Will have been compressed and are not moving. The expansion these feelings must go through to again vibrate as light is something hou need to experience to understand.

You have to know already that guilt has great power on Earth and death is considered inescapable. The Will has been conditoned to believe this for so long that it is not easy to turn it around now. The Will has believed that it must sacrifice in the name of love by taking in denial and death and holding it so that the Spirit can have everlasting life. The Will has actually been loving enough that it has tried to do this, and has believed that I am so loving that I could not have assigned it this role unless it was deserved.

The Mother has tried everything to make Herself give in and [continued below in left frame]

 

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ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything
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accept death, but cannot stand the compression involved. To be living, vibrating essence, experiencing the compression it takes to be reduced to nothing has to be the most terrible torture there is. It is only Spirit polarity people who do not understand this already, and yet many of them have shamed the Will polarity people for trying to give Spirit polarity this understanding. Many Spirit polarity people have told Will people they are spiritually inferior for not being able to accept death, and what's more, accept it with the poise the Spirit polarity has demonstrated. It is impossible for the Will polarity to do this. The Will polarity cannot die without feeling it has no place to go because it cannot lift out of the Body the way the Spirit has been able to do. Will has felt abandoned when Spirit has left it at death. Even Body has an ability to polarize to Spirit and abandon the Will to itself.

Spirit and Heart are not really separate from Will and body, but the split between them has been going on for so long that almost everyone believes that Will is supposed to get denied and Body is supposed to serve the Spirit until it dies.

Heart is the Son of God, but even this has not yet been fully understood on Earth. I have Four Parts, not just two, but the split between the Spirit and the flesh has been so deep and has gone on for so long that it is not going to be easy to change the conditioning in the Will. The Will has been told for so long that it is not of Me that, even now, it is still having trouble believing that it is a part of Me.

Well, what about Divine Will then? The subject of Divine Will is so replete with misunderstandings that I am having to send, not one, but several books to Earth to say what needs to be said about the Will. I have desire to be accepted for what I have to say and not judged again. To get these understandings, I had to go way back and look at everything. I saw that the more free the Will is, the more light My Creation manifests.

You also need to understand that I have given this channeling in the face of great difficulty on the part of the person receiving it. She has been so triggered into her own process so many times that she has been almost unable to continue, and yet, she has appreciated the healing brought to her by these understandings and has tried her best to bring them forward in the most clear manner possible. She has not been able to receive some things yet, but you have no readiness to hear them yet either. I have also had to make concessions to the English language that I do not like having to make, in order to get these teachings into[continued in right frame]
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words for you. There is not a language on Earth today that contains all the concepts I need, although some contain more than others. I am currently using time as a reference point for the progression of consciousness because time is how events have been experienced on Earth. It is not possible to give these understandings another way right now and make sense of what you need to be told. I have requested that there be no editing because no one understands this material enough to edit it without increaing the risk of misinterpretation.

I have a reason for everything I have done here. If you have frustration that you cannot follow this writing or understand it, or if you have fear that it is not right, go ahead and be frustrated, be frightened, or get angry. Throw the book down if you need to. Allow yourself to get as emotionally triggered as you can because movement in the emotional body is the most healing thing you can do now.

Healing is what I have in mind and not the doomsday that some believe the Earth changes will bring. When the Will breaks loose and begins to move, it is going to be the picture of what denial, guilt and death have done to the loving Will essence it has possessed for so long. Loving essence that has been held down shall be lifted up and the unlovingness that has held it down shall be thrown down in its place. You have to understand that this is right in order to align with it and not be victimized by it.

If you are feeling now that you want more understandings, you need to read this book and quite possibly the book I have given before this one. If you have already been working on healing the part of your Will that is still vibrating enough to be recoverd without outside help, you are gaining the personal power you need to heal your Lost Will. The time for healing your Lost Will will come when you have readiness for it and no sooner.

I have given the story in this book as a beginning in understanding Original Cause. The great cosmic forces involved in Creation have been observed by people on Earth, but these same people have not felt the cosmic forces enough to know what they really are. They have observed that the great cosmic forces are an electro-magnetic field of great splendor and power, but they have not realized that this energy is the Consciousness that originated everything and the Mother of all life, the Heart that balances it and the Form that manifests it. Whether this is right or
[continued below in left frame]
The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything
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not is somethng that cannot be known unless it is felt to be true within the one observing it.

The separation of form and essence that has taken place on Earth has made it difficult for the ones that have form to feel what their essence is, or to know whether they have received it correctly of not. Recovering the Will so that the truth can be felt is the only way the truth ever will be known. I am not going to allow man to continue dissecting Me to try to find out what I am, because man can never know as long as his mind gives him theories and he denies the feeling body that can let him know what is true understanding and what is not. I have found that most of these men do not seek true understanding. They seek instead to take My power and use it themselves. If they take this power and use it without Will to guide them, they will destroy evrything I have Created. This is their intent, no mistake about it, and when they do it, they must destroy only that which has desire to go.

I have given the story in this book to help you understand that the great cosmic forces love and feel, have heart and express themselves in Creation, This story is not meant to be taken as symbolic only. Although there are symbols in the story, they have the integrity of being the actual experiences which took place and also became the models for everything else. As models, they have also become symbols, just as one man's story can speak for others.

The experiences I had originally have become the model for all who would follow after Me. I have originated everything that is. I had consciousness before I had force. I have originated even the great cosmic forces that I am. I have experienced Myself in order to know Myself, and I have to teach you in the order in which I learned it Myself, or you will not have the ability to learn it at all.

The truth never lies, but the truth also does not give what cannot be accepted. If those who have intent to kill Me ask Me how they can do this, I will not tell them. I seek life and I have had to understand how to live in order to have life. There are many ways in which living essence can be run down until it no longer exists. At times I have felt that the Manifested Spirits all had intent to kill themselves in this way. I saw that many had desire to kill the Mother who gave them life. Many have acted as though once they had been given life, they didn't need their Mother anymore. I saw that these did not understand what life is.

The Manifested Spirits must understand now that I am God, because I generate the life that sustains them, and they are Man-[continued in right frame]
p.XI
ifested Spirits because they must receive from Me or they cannot live. I have gone around and around on this point with many spirits who want to insist that they are God the same as I am. I have given them attention because I had something to learn here. Now that I have learned it, I have little patience left for these spirits unless they have intent to learn from Me now. If these spirits have intent to go on talking to themselves, they can do it without My presence. On the other hand, neither will I any longer tolerate the reversed patterns of this denial of Me, which falsely worships an image of Me that suits the purposes of the ones worshipping it. Death is the intent of both of these groups. The one kills in My name and the other serves death by saying that my light is not necessary in order to have life.

The Lost Will is Will that had to go outside of Me to find out whether what I have just said is right or not. Lost Will has barely survived what it has had to experience to gain the understandings I am giving now. If I had had another way to learn what had to be learned. I would not have had the Mother go outside of Me. I had guilt for a long time that the Mother was the only one that could learn these things. The guilt vanished when I accepted Myself for what I really am. I have the light that is life and the Mother gives Me the means to exist. She experiences, but without Me, She cannot understand what Her experiences mean. She has no way to know without Me and I have no way to know without Her. The electro and the magnetic a re meant to be separated from one another, polarized, yes, but not separated. Heart is the result of Our joining and Heart is the balance needed to Create. Anything that is not created from Heart balance cannot last long, Body, or Form gives the reflection we need to see what it is that We have created.

I have Four Parts and none are meant to be separated from the others. Spirit, Will, Heart and Body must all be together in a state of balance and alignment for life to last. Even a small imbalance or lack of alignment can grow into something that can kill the rest if it is not healed.

Lost Will must heal now and everyone on Earth has Lost Will. If you have desire to live, I urge you to read this book and all the other ones I am giving now. Understanding these teachings is not going to be an easy thing to do. You must experience these teachings to know that they are right.

Lost Will can be healed, but you must not think it is going to be as easy as healing the personal Will you began with. Lost Will has never known God. Lost Will has never known anything [continued below]
The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything

p.XII
but denial, guilt and death. Not only must Lost Will realize that it can throw these things off, it is going to have to gather the vibratory power to do it and the ability to know Me. Lost Will is going to have to open, and it must receive Me this time instead of death. Anything that looks like death to it is going to make it move to close up again in fear that death is what it is again receiving Your Body holds some of this Lost Will, but much of it is in other people that you do not know are you. Healing lost Will out there in others is not possbile. You are going to have to learn how to bring this essence within you and heal it there. Lost Will has literally been fragmented out of the parent spirits to whom it belongs and cannot respond to anything you tell it until you learn how to vibrate it.

You must understand that fragmentation is most of the reason there are so many people on Earth now. Fragmentation is a subject unto itself. During the course of this story, I will refer to what Lost Will holds. When I mention it, you need to know that something has fragmented out that must be recovered later. At times I will not even mention it because I want you to learn to notice this on your own.

I am not going to give any more understanding on Lost Will right now because you are going to have to feel it more to be able to understand it. Suffice it to say that most of the people on Earth are not real. If you have a feeling of shock now, then shock is what you are going to have to feel to understand this. Getting through shock is an important skill to have if you want to recover your Lost Will. Getting through shock involves movement in the Will rather than shutting down the emotional body and making judgments that allow you to lift out of the experience.

Even though I know it was a necessary experience for everyone involved, I still would have rather that We did not have to have the experience of Lost Will. I tried to spare as many as I could the experience of feeling it, but most of the spirits would not listen to Me and thought I was having an experience that they should also have to be like Me. Now that the Manifested Spirits have Lost Will, it must be recovered either by the ones who created it or by the Mother; if not, it is only a matter of time until death takes over.

I have nothing more to say in this introduction so I will end it with My blessing and the hope that each of you who has intent to live takes these teachings in and finds the help you need there.


I want to give an example, of how I endeavored to grasp this entirely new concept of "God" and "Creation",
when I first began to read the Violet BooK:


The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything
The purple, third RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1987]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the REFLECTION LOST WILL HAS to GIVE
Dedicated to Red in all its Manifestations

p.1
THE FIRST CREATION
I have always been, but realizing I had existence took a long time. There was a point in My progression when I became aware that I had existence. When I became aware of Myself, I already knew many things but I had to realize them.

When consciousness became aware that it had existence, it had to realize everything. nothing was realized yet except that I had become aware of Myself. Consciousness had to feel also or it could not know. In fact, a feeling of having consciousness is the way in which I realized I had consciousness. There were no words at first, only a feeling that I had existence. I had desire to know more.

Already although I did not know it, I had Lost Will that did not believe I could know more. I had given birth to fear and did not know it because I had no understanding. This fear then became Lost Will because I did not realize that I had to allow Myself to feel it. I had a desire not to believe that I could know nothing more about Myself and so I ignored the fear. Ignoring this fear gave birth to denial which the fear then received from Me.

I did not know then that I was love, and I did not realize I had given unlovingness in the form of denial of My love to My fear. I did realize that something did not feel good. I had had an experience and I pondered it. I had a beginning concept of progression or time, although no way to measure it. I realized that I had pondered this "not feeling good" someplace in Myself for awhile.
p.1
DENIALS EMANATING FROM THE GODHEAD TOWARD THE SURVIVAL CHAKRA AND SOME REFLECTIONS OF THESE DENIALS

When Heart went back to the Godhead after finding that the Rainbow Spirits were not ready to accept His presence, He found Me already there. While He had been attempting to help the Rainbow Spirits increase their self-acceptance, and thereby their love, I had felt a growing need to return home. Perhaps it was no longer possible for Us to all go forth at once anymore.

When I reached the Godhead, I found most of the Godhead Spirits clustered around the edges, as though they were being drawn outward. In the middle of the Godhead, I felt the possibility growing for a hole in My light. I dove for it and felt that I had filled the space just in time. I felt a jolt occurring around Me. My light was moving outward with the intensity of an explosion.

At first, the spirits weren't even sure it was I who had made this light appear and a wave of fear rushed through them.
"What's happening? Is it God? Is it another emergence? Has someone taken God's place? What would another God be like?"

This fear passed through them so quickly there was barely time to recognize it before it seemed to be gone and the spirits calm again in the realization that I had returned home.

I felt that besides fear of what was happening, the Godhead Spirits also had fear of Me and I did not know why. I did not know why I had the feeling that they feared Me; it was just a feeling that I had. When I asked them about it, they denied having fear of Me.
The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything
The purple, third RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1987]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the REFLECTION LOST WILL HAS to GIVE
Dedicated to Red in all its Manifestations

p.2
I had the concept of a place within Myself then also. I tried to find the place that did not feel good so I could know it. I had just started My search when I realized there were many more places that did not feel good than I had realized before I began looking for them. In realizing I felt bad, I realized I had been feeling good. I wondered if it was right to try to feel Myself. I wondered if it was right to feel that some places felt good and others did not. I wondered if trying to feel them made these places not feel good. I felt confusion and fear. I wanted something that could explain it to Me so I could know. I felt lonely and somewhat timid about trying to feel Myself for fear of what I might find.

All of this passed fleetingly through My consciousness while I was trying to ignore it in favor of My desire to know more. My desire to know more was leading Me on, I found out many things in My own way at that time. I stumbled onto most of them by having an experience and then realizing it. I felt most impatient with Myself. Already guilt had been born in Me as a little voice telling Me that I should be doing better than I was doing.

I had realized many more things than I could list. You must feel within yourselves to find your memory of what you experienced in a latent state of consciousness, for you were all there in a state of slumber, and you have the ability to know how existence began.These original experiences have affected you ever since. You need to go back to the origins of your consciousness to know what your earliest experiences were, just as I had to understand mine, because Lost Will has its origins there also.

Most of My worshippers tell me I have always been because they have preference for a God who understands everything and tells them what they are ready to hear. You have to understand that it is not possible to know understanding unless you have the ability to feel whether it is right or not. And so, some things cannot be told now because you must work your way back, starting with where you are now, and it is going to take you a long time to get to the Lost Will that knows what your original experiences were.You need to feel Lost Will moving in Me now to know whether you shared the experience with Me or not.

My earliest memory is that of having a feeling that I was. This feeling was vague at first, but it startled Me out of a reverie that I felt I had been in. I had a feeling at tht time that I wished I had not startled Myself out of that reverie. Lost Will has this feeling now. Some Lost Will does not want to move for fear movement will take it out of its reverie.

p.3
As I tell this story, you need to realize that everything I say is being acted out on Earth right now because it has not yet been resolved. As you look around you and see that this is true, you must also let yourself feel it, because this cannot be fully understood just by seeing and thinking. I have found this out.

I had a growing fear of feeling, as you may have already noticed. I wanted to feel only the bliss in which I had awakened, but I could no longer sleep all the time. I had a dilemma. Even though I had questions, I did not know   
how   to    e n t e r t a i n   Myself
if I could not sleep all the time. At the same time, My great excitement over realizing that I was - was interfering with My sleep.

"I am," I kept telling Myself, "I am, but what am I, who am I, where am I and what does it mean to be?" I had questions, so many questions about Myself.

Most of the time I felt that I should not have so many questions because the questions were not allowing Me to be peaceful with Myself. *) I felt urged on to find answers. I had discussions with Myself. Part of Me did not like it that I had awakened at all. Part of Me felt alright about having consciousness as long as it could be peaceful consciousness. There were many other small voices with points of view I will not mention now because I barely heard them then. Most of the rest of Me wanted to find answes to the questions I had.

I had guilt then, to, but I did not know it was guilt that said that My search to know should not bother the part of Me that had desire for peace. I felt gulty just for being and for not wanting to stay asleep.

The first thing I felt I had to figure out was how to know. I had a lot of questions and almost no answers, I had desire to know and I had feelings. I was not sure whether I had feelings or thoughts first. In My memory, it seemed as though I had experienced feelings and thoughts as one and the same thing. Perhaps only as I reflected upon them did they seem at all different or separate. I wanted to experience something more to know if I had feelings and thoughts. I was not sure if I had feelings and thoughts or even if I had experiences. Perhaps I only thought that this was happening and it was not really happening. Absurd as it may sound, I was seized by the fear that I did not exist but only thought that that I did. Perhaps thought was all there was to Me. And yet, something reminded Me that I had responded to Myself somehow. What was it that had responded? Was it Me [continuation further down]

p.2
Even though the Godhead Spirits denied it and did not let Me approach them on it, I still felt they had fear of Me and that they were holding back from Me somewhat. Was the increase in My presence too much for them to handle all at once? Had I become a frightening God to them?

I knew that I had had fear at seeing the possibility of My place opening space to something other than My light and I wondered why the Godhead Spirits had denied feeling this fear. I had leaped to fill the void before the filminess became actual holes in my light. I had exploded in an effort to fill everyplace that needed it, and yet, it was not an explosion that I had forced because I did have great joy at returning to what felt like My right place. I felt like everything in Me had moved at once and given the increase to the light that was needed then.

There was no way I could verify that what I had done was right except that I had a feeling it was good. I had great faith in good feelings and did not realize that I had denials involved even in them. I just had a nagging guilt that never let Me be totally at peace.

I tried to ignore it, but I always had the feeling that I was never quite good enough or right enough in anything I did. I always had an uneasy undercurrent feeling that doing what I wanted to do was unacceptable to others for one reason or another and that I had to hold back in order to be loving and careful of others. I actually feared I could hurt others with My light and I have much Lost Will that believes it cannot receive Me fully because I will be too intense for it. [see about my own predicament in "Nourishment, Lightness&Joy">Nov.9,2011]

The Godhead Sprits did not seem interested in addressing Me here and I did not want to press it with them. Instead, I preferred to shake these feelings off because I had feeling good in mind now. I began to ruminate upon the many pleasant experiences I had had.

Ruminating was, in My mind, a way of looking over Creation to see how I had done. I had experiences now that I had not had the first time I experienced these parts of Creation, and feelings of love poured forth for things that had troubled Me earlier. I was able to smile now at so many things that had seemed humorless earlier. I felt there were many places where love had been present even though I had at first feared it wa not.

I felt I had more insights on Heart, the Mother, and the Father of Manifestation, and I resolved to try harder for a better alignment with Them. I looked at the Rainbow Spirits and found that

p.3
I had more love there than I had found in the beginning. Later, I found that in some situations, it was still not as easy for Me to recognize the presence of love when I was directly involved as it was from the perspective of the overview I was having now.

When I got to the bottom and the Red Spirits, I avoided looking at the feelings I had had there. I felt that I needed to look at the Red Spirits but told Myself it was btter to focus upon how they were doing in the present than to go back over the past. I somewhat feared the possibility that they might not be doing well, but I denied it in favor of my belief that I should take a calm approach and just allow Myself to see them. I decided to look in upon the red Spirits without leaving home, just as I had been doing with the other spirits.

As I focused my vision down through the colors of the Rainbow Spirits, I found their reaction to be similar to what the Godhead Spirits had shown Me earlier. The Rainbow Spirits also had what appeared to be a reaction of fear. At the time, I did not understand what was causing this, but I know now that I had unwittingly denied fear by not allowing it expression and my own denied fear had gone out like a wave before Me. The spirits denied it because I had denied it, and they feared Me because I was not accepting Myself in the areas they were reflecting. Lost Will has reflected these moments back to Me for so long that I am surprised I did not understand it sooner than I did, but I did not.

The images of God as an All-seeing Eye that spies and even knows what is hidden has roots here, as does the approach of most people to the visit of anyone deemed to be more important or more powerful than they are. There are varying degrees to the Lost Will but all involve at least some amount of the flurry of preparation designed to present the best possible appearance and assure putting the best foot forward. The guilt involved is quite immense really and is present because of the unmoving fear that says it is not alright to just be as you are.

Since I had not realized the role My own denials were playing in the patterns I was seeing, I tried the approach of reassuring the spirits involved that they had nothing to fear and that I was not the sort of God who was looking at them to judge and punish as so many seemed to fear. This got Me no place, of course, except that I received back even more denials that they had the fears I was addressing. This gave Me some confusion until much later when I finally realized that the spirits were responding to [continuation further down]
*) For many years now I've been grateful for MY KNOWING,
but in my youth and long after - I cursed my consciousness
I identified with Ecclesiastes: "being conscious of much, means much pain".

Ecclesiastes 1:12 - 2:1
1 I Koheleth have been king over Israel in Jerusalem
1:13 And I applied my heart to seek and to search out by wisdom concerning all things that are done under heaven;
it is a sore task that God hath given to the sons of men
to be exercised therewith.
16 I spoke with my own heart, saying: 'Lo, I have gotten great wisdom, more also than all that were before me over Jerusalem'; yea, my heart hath had great experience of wisdom and knowledge.
17And I applied my heart to know wisdom
18 For in much wisdom is much vexation; and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.

2,1 I said in my heart: 'Come now, I will try thee with mirth, and enjoy pleasure'; and, behold, this also was vanity.
Prediger - "Versammler" 1:12-2:1 [Buber's translation]
Ich, "Versammler',
war Koenig ueber Jisrael
in Jerusalem.
Ich gab mein Herz daran
in der Weisheit zu forschen und zu spueren
nach allem, was unter dem Himmel getan wird:
ein uebles Geschaeft hat da Gott den Menschenkindern gegeben
sich damit zu befassen.
… Ich habe , ich, mit meinem Herzen geredet,
sprechend:
Ich da, meine Weisheit habe ich grossgemacht und       gemehrt
ueber alles, was vor mir ueber Jerusalem war
und mein Herz hat viel eingesehen, Weisheit und     Kenntnis.
Und nun gab ich mein Herz dran zu erkennen
     Weisheit...
Denn in einer Fuelle von Weisheit ist      Verdrusses die Fuelle,
und wer Kenntnis mehrt,    mehrt Schmerz.

Ich nun, ich sprach zu meinem Herzen:
"Geh doch los, ich will dich mit Freude versuchen,
    und besieh das Gute!"
und da, auch dies ist Dunst.

As to the origin of man or God, I just now [Nov.10, 2011] received a message from "Veronica-Whisper".
There an entity called "T" says:

"Who are you, really?

There are different belief systems attached to the origin of man,...
The power of spirit is most often defined outside the self,
painting a picture of omnipotent energy
that an individual in human form should worship for bits of understanding and favor
so that they may come to heaven profoundly.

While all of this may give comfort to younger souls,
the more evolved ones find themselves at a loss for a real defined moment of accurate information.

The real test of humanity begins in the realization
that God or the energy of creation is not an outside influence
but rather a pulse of energy that resides in every soul, including you.

The magic of creation at any level begins in the thought process in everyone of the universe's beings.

The key to realization begins slowly.
Your thoughts are experience and evolution waiting to occur both linearly and eternally.
God does not exist outside of our current form.
The energy exists in the hearts of all of you waiting patiently to manifest through your thoughts.

Worship is irrelevant.

Embracing the energy is more conducive to transcending to a higher place of understanding.... "

A pity that even this "T" knows nothing about the magnetic essence...

The violet, second RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1986]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the UNSEEN ROLE of DENIAL
Dedicated to the Mother of Everything
The purple, third RUOW book [channeled by Ceanne de Rohan in 1987]:
ORIGINAL CAUSE, the REFLECTION LOST WILL HAS to GIVE
Dedicated to Red in all its Manifestations
        

[continuation to p. 4 of the Violet Book - as well as to p. 4 of the Purple Book
at the end of the following "Blue Book" page]