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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in
learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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Mother Expression
Thank You
Thank
you for the Mother expression pages on this site.
I feel comforted knowing I am not alone in having difficulties
with things
like trying to channel God,
and have appreciated the suggestions offered and the sentiments
expressed.
The first time I found these pages and read this material
I was moved into huge release of despair and heartbreak, rage
and grief,
and it was just what I needed.
Getting down into these most denied parts of the will
has been terribly difficult for me to do,
yet it has to be done,
and the healing I feel from this release is showing up
as more confidence, clarity and focus in my life and healing path,
and an increase in joy.
Once again, thanks to all
who are willing to share their deepest feelings in this way
so that we all can benefit.
I would
also like to say something
about God's warning to pieces of the Mother who log onto this
site.
The very first time I visited the God Channel
I had a physical reaction that felt like an anxiety attack.
My energy revved up to a level
that for me was quite uncomfortable and stressful.
I recognized the feeling immediately,
as several years ago I felt something quite similar
when my own spirit pushed my will
to move much faster than she was comfortable doing,
and I had a breakdown under the pressure of it all.
I was
glad to see the warning posted, and have taken it seriously.
I visit this site when I know
I have plenty of space and time
to move what I know will inevitably be triggered,
and I space out my visits,
giving myself lots of time to rest and recover my balance between
each visit.
This warning is proof to me
that God does care deeply about me,
and does not wish to see me get hurt again.
I thank
you for that God, and for so much more.
I know that you already know that God,
but I want to say it out loud, for all to see and hear.
I have listened to much bickering and hair splitting about the
words you use,
and the many interpretations people give to them,
but my feeling is,
anyone who has been in hell, as I have for so long,
and has had to feel and hold what the Mother has had to feel and
hold,
understands what you are trying to do here in pulling yourself
together,
and understands your intent is Loving,
for they have received healing from it,
if they are willing to open to it, and to You.
I know
that your warning is not a judgment of my vibration, or of me,
but sincere concern for my well being and comfort
while engaged in the rigorous process of healing all my parts
and eventual achievement of the balance point.
I am more than willing to listen to you on this point,
since my own feelings clearly back this up.
I also
want to say that as I have progressed in my healing,
and continued to visit this site,
my physical symptoms have decreased,
and I am more able to stay present, and for longer periods of
time,
however, I still have intense emotional movement triggered on
a regular basis,
and need to be careful that I move at a pace that facilitates
my healing,
rather than pushing myself to move faster than parts of me are
comfortable moving.
I do not
want to encounter resistance to using this site from within myself
because of overdoing it~~~
as I have found a lot of help here and wish to continue.
Once again, my thanks and love to all who participate and contribute
to this site.
It is truly a LIFE saver.
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I follow my
understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
that - after 7 years
- I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing
pages.
Since March 2009 I've been "synchronizing" the chronological
process of the Godchannel.com files
with the chronological process of my photos and -
if there should be time - observations of the
"Walk About Love"
continuation
of April 11, 2009 - from Ein-Karem through
"All Nations Cafe" to Nitzanim Beach; latest
update of this page: July 27, 2009
A bus is rented from the 10000 NIS, which
"the Walk" is about to earn
by doing hard labor for two days after a Boombamela
festival of 20000 teenagers
We reach Nitzanim Beach at night, set up our tents at a compound,
which is "safe",
work all day , April 12, and April 13,
and the meaning as well as the pain and joy of those days will
have to be told later...
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['later' on Healing-K.i.s.s.
usually means 'never',
but now on July 27, I want to at least recall,
what I saw as the meaning of this terrible cleaning-up:
What those 20000 youngsters left behind -
and I won't even start to mention
what kind of things that included
.....................................................
is symbolic for all the feelings,
which are left behind
ignored
denied
unhealed
by humankind in general
and by the Walkers-about-Love
in particular...]
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With Matan, the son of an Israeli father, Chanan,
and a German mother, Susanne - driving to the site to be cleaned
by our sub-group
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Michael (USA) and Emanuele (Italy)
Michael and a person [who
, in 2013, requested to be removed]
2011_07_21---
2013_10_07 DELICIOUS
DELETION
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Dear Christa
Rachel, My photograph is still appearing in the google
search images on line, it is the first image that comes
up, do you know why? and why it hasn't been removed yet?
It has been some time now, please would you help? Thank
you
Dear Christa Rachel
I am writing once more to ask please if you could remove
the photograph of me from your website .I have tried to
communicate with google but it is difficult and so I need
it to come from you, the type in the google information
says to contact you directly. Many thanks
Christa-Rachel's
answer on Oct. 7, 2013: you can omit the "dear"....
checking everything again, I grasped,
that even if no name appears underneath an image,
the name is still registered in Google, and therefore
the image appears.
I'll now remove the 2 images which I found on Google
[not in my own Search!],
and you'll have to detect in due time, if they really
disappeared.
May you please notice, that the pretty image- you and
Michael- was not photographed by me,
but "tagged in Michael's Facebook lbum , as I was
announced via e-mail":
Why don't you get it,
that it is no mistake of your Higher Self,
that even after all your and my efforts to delete you
on my website, you still appear there?
Have you so little trust in the drama of your life,
which you yourself are staging,
that you panic because of what an image of you
might do to your jobs or your relationships???
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2010-04-10~~~2013-10-07
DELICIOUS DELETION
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The same threesome - Michael and
the person who requested to be removed
and Igal - but 3 weeks earlier - in the desert
Yuval Segev to the right, Michael (USA) above
At first Gil'ad Shai (remember
Shittin???), the boss, organizes us in small groups,
something I've always yearned for - small groups amidst the large
group.
But it only works for a few hours....
Tamar, Dana's mother, who had walked with us for several days,
brings us goodies.
Her younger daughter - a copy of Dana - is with her, but Dana
herself is not with us.
To the right: Carmel - To the left Parastu and Michal Sason (I
think)
Have a look - and then nothing has to be said....
Almost "cleaned"....
"Let's at least clean the space inside
the Morning-Circle", I plead!
But not a single person joins me, when I bend my back and pick
up what disturbs the sight of my eyes.
Perhaps they were all too exhausted and nauseated of what we had
to pick up second after second, minute after minute...
 
Ieva (Lithuania) and others underneath a "merkabah",
a Star Tetrahodron, with a fish in it
The noise from some other festival further north
is such, that I take my things at night
and walk as far south as possible and try to sleep with the soothing
sound of the sea...
Since not much can be shown of these two
nights and days,
(and I forgot to take a picture of our fantastic cook, Eldad Yanai,
the son of two very good friends in the past : Dov Yanai and Orenia
Yanai )
[the links that were attached
to these names, don't work, but see below: 2013]
I want to delight in this one scene of gladness, drumming and
dancing,
in which also Lior and Emanuel (Italy) and Michael (USA) were
present....
 
Emanuel and Lior (behind her Chanan) and Michael
(on the image below)
to my regret I don't remember the name of the crowned dancer,
Is this Evi (Hungary) to the right of Lior?
On all these pictures the sea appears in the background.
One of the good things at Nitzanim Beach was, that I could finally
swim, several times a day.
The Walk about Love prevented me from taking advantage of my subscription
for
the pool in Arad.
On one of the two mornings I entered the Sea with a walker called
Hagai, known to me from some "deep" talks.
I would not even have remembered him, if I hadn't seen the two
words: "Hagai escaped" in the block,
in which I - on each new day - noted as many people as possible
from among those whom I knew by name.
I now (July 27, 2009) cannot
recall that man's face, nor the content of our talk, nor the reason
for his escape.
But I do recognize a little - very rare - feeling of contempt
for him and the - rare - judgment: "coward"!
There also is a faint question: why did I waste my time and energy
on trying to help him with his life?
But what is much more relevant is that I had totally forgotten
about him.
For this shows, how often it happened on The Walk about Love,
that the level of communication was such,
that before the Walk I would have remembered it as something outstanding.
With the people of the Walk such communication
was "ordinary"
and that's what made the Walk "outstanding".
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