The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries


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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

A magnificent full rainbow appeared above the barbed wire of the once deadly fence,
when 57 people from 8 nations crossed this gate to BirkenAU on November 3, 2003.
Outside - under the birches, then bare and bleak, since any leaf would be instantly eaten,
women and children were herded together before being sent to the close gas-chambers.
Inside - the remnants of Crematorium IV, blown up by the "Sonder-Kommando" in 1944.
It was at a time, when 400 000 Jews from Hungary were exterminated within 2 months.

Those who were forced to do " the job " were mostly Jews from Salonikae in Greece,
who started their life-span of three (!) months "fresh", i.e. not yet emaciated by hunger.
"If someone refused, the head of his wife would be knocked into the fire and burnt."
Witnessed and told to me today - 2003_11_28 - by Helena Hammermesh~~ in Israel.
 
"We were four women in the camp resistance,
Three of us worked in the ammunition factory.
It was the women, who were hanged,
for they had smuggled the materials
to the Sonder-Kommando
for making the bombs.

"Tell the world, Rachel, save Jewish dignity!
We were not sheep dragged to slaughter,
we were human and we were humane."


Already in 1986 I taped Helena's stories
about the small lights in the darkness,
resistance and support for each other,
self-respect and self-determination.


AU-schwitz-Birken-AU

Retreat - November 2003_11_3-10
 
The rainbow joins earth and sky ~ merges rain and sun,
and displays multiple, distinct colors of the ONE Light !
It is the sign of the Covenant between YHWH and Noah,
that never again will there be intent to blot out humans.
But there was this intent! There still are such attempts!
                "God" and  Wo/Man need to heal, grow, evolve,
                   towards aligning with the Rainbow Covenant.

 

 


NOAH'S VISION

     
  Grief and Grace  
  Preparing in Israel   Marian's Auschwitz-BirkenAU
  Preparing in Germany   Marian's Drawn Memories I-II
  Preparing in Polish Krakov   Harmeze - Harm&Harmony I-II
  Preparing in Jewish Krakov
  Christa-Rachel's List
The Ashes Pond I-II  

 

 

 

 

OUR  VOICES'  SHOFAR  around  the  EARTH

2003_11_17- last update; 2009_06_18

 


The Ashes' Pond

The few things, that deportees were allowed to take with them,
probably always included photos of their loved ones
and of experiences in their lives which they cherished.

Some of these photos survived and are exhibited on two immense walls.
This photo and its title makes me cry even now - me a grandmother of nine
(since Dec. 2005: of ten!):

"Schoen wie die Lewone
und werden uns alle in Freuden,
gesund und stark recht bald wieder sehen.
In Liebe, Euer Enkelkind bis 120."

"Pretty as the Lewone (yiddish for moon) ,
and shall see each other again very soon,
in joy, healthy and strong.
Love [from] your grandchild until 120
."
[Jewish birthday blessing, a ccording to God's promise in Genesis 6,13]


Did we give them breath and sound and movement for a few moments?

Our program announced "Services", Jewish Service, Christian Service, Buddhist Service.
Until the recent years I've been almost a freak of Ceremonies, many of which I've conducted myself.
The first day I didn't want to go to any service.
I was glad, Renate Rose suggested to sing,
and she taught me and Ruediger and Maja [=water in Arabic and Hebrew] some songs with messages that truly resonated with me, like this one:

Take this Moment
...
(Listen to the song in Song-Game 2007)

Take the time to call my name,
take the time to mend
who I am and what I've been,
all I've failed to tend.

Take the tiredness of my days,
take my past regret,
letting your forgiveness touch
all I can't forget.

Take the little child in me
scare of growing old;
Help me here to find my worth
made in God's own mould.

Take my talents, take my skills,
take what's yet to be;
let my life be yours, and yet
let it still be me.


But the next morning Yanina said to me:
"I was told, that we missed something yesterday."
The Christian service is a walking along stations of a "Via Dolorosa".
We understood, that the Polish people had started to apply the Fourteen Stations of the Cross to specifi locations in BirkenAU.
Pater Manfred, who had improved on the choice and order of these Stations, led us that day to the seventh, eight and ninth station,
and we were reading meditations
which "come from the land and the Catholic traditions of the parishes of Oswiecim and Brzezinka,
that for many years have kept alive the memory of the victims of the concentration camps of Auschwitz and Birkenau..."

The twelfth Station was the Ashes' Pond.




There was a time, when I couldn't hear the sound of a train, without sensing as if physically tortured,
And I would look at the moon and scream: "How dare you to still shine, who you have watched all this."
But I never put the responsibility on God, even though my image of God then was like that of most people.
I told elsewhere on this site,
that I was deeply influenced by Dietrich Bonhoeffer's call "to grow up", "to come of age",
to become "muendig" in German, the official term for reaching the age of 18.
"Muendig", from the noun "Mund" = mouth.
I have my own mouth now
to scream "AU.... AU",
not to involve "God" here.
If to involve God, then why only in AUschwitz-BirkenAU?
Is it O.K. for your God to watch the billions of "little" victimizations and perpetrations every second on this planet,
and only when it comes to Auschwitz, he is suddenly accountable?

Bonhoeffer ( see puzzle piece 1b, and Song-Game 2007 ) taught me,
that God has created me in a way that I must live "as if God did not exist",
based on a sentence in Medieval Latin: "Utsi Deus non daretur".
i.e. as totally, wholly, entirely, absolutely responsible for my life and for the world on which I depend.
Bonhoeffer, a German protestant pastor and professor of theology, wrote this during his 2 years in a Nazi prison.
He was executed a few days before HItler left his game on this planet...

I couldn't take part in the readings and prayers,

but I felt an overflowing love for those, whose ashes had mingled with the water.

And if there had been any need to strengthen my determination of giving them breath and sound and life,

it would have happened there at the pond


I imagined them all in the image of Yanina's mother.
Yanina had - shortly before - found a bird's empty nest...

"Will there still come days in forgiveness and grace" - sung by Hava Alberstein in Poland on Holocaust Memorial Nov. 16, 2008