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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in
learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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channeled on 99/02/27
Mother Teachings
Thanks for Nothing
this one time I, Christa-Rachel
Bat-Adam, allow myself to change the title into:
"and
dance this pain through you~~~"
I am sure you will consider me just another
raver.
I am going to say it. I hate you god and I hate myself.
You are not here to help.
It seems you lied when you promised it would be different this
time if I opened to you.
What kind of a fricken promise was that?
Where is the release you promised?
I hate you for lying to me again and again.
How do you even imagine there could be any trust
when you just keep up your cruel ways.
I am in bad shape, so full of hate and rage
I feel like offing myself because I don't care anymore.
So here's one your loosing
but then again it was probably your intention in the first place.
"Daughter, please diffuse
the light in your belly...
the bright harsh hateful light that rants at you from within.
We are here with you.
We are not closed to your pain.
I am so sorry that it hurts so bad you wish to be free...
but my dear daughter there is
no freedom through death.
I have tried that, I have tried all forms of
escape,
I have hated and burned, and hacked myself into bits and pieces...
you are a bit and a piece...
and the pain is no less when
it is broken off and alone.
Real relief can only come when we can find our own vibration needs.
I am within you...
I am leading you toward healing,
ask for gentle healing,
and listen to the impulses in
your own body for moving sound,
and dance this pain through you~~~
then soften the light inside of you
and open its boundaries so that it cannot remain hateful within
you.
"Underneath everything
you condemn yourself for,
underneath the layer of guilt
that keeps all feelings from healing,
is the experience of true heart~~~
go back through all experiences to find the heart which is trying
to express itself~~~
even experiences of abuse and
great wounding have a broken hearted pain in their center~~~
returning and restoring heart brings relief.
I have hurt you in so many ways~~~
God has hurt you in many ways~~~
and the pain of our broken heart did not allow us to see this
for so long.
We wish to love you now~~~
we wish for you to experience
this love inside of your own body,
and through your own life path.
Recover your own heart through searching deeply
beneath the guilt
which tells you, wrongly, you have acted without love~~~
find your true self, and you find us there as well."
The Mother of Brokenheartedness
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I follow my
understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
that - after 7 years
- I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing
pages.
Since March 2009 I've been "synchronizing" the chronological
process of the Godchannel.com files
with the chronological process of my photos and -
if there should be time - observations of the
"Walk About Love"
continuation
of April 25, 2009, dancing at Tel-Hadid; latest
update of this page: July 29, 2009
As if Mika had not stopped to dance
on Tel Hadid:
after her shower in the evening, already in her pyjamas,
she began to dance wildly to some inner music....
May 21, 2009
What congruence or synchronicity between this
Godchannel page -
- a communication resulting in the divine advice to DANCE -,
and my work on the photos of that day at Tel-Hadid,
after that second Trance-Dance-Festival, so loathed not only by
me:
The photos - both at Tel Hadid and at Bet-Nehemya- show dancing,
I want to add some more photos from the Pesach-trip to Los-Angeles
of my two dancing granddaughters.
Elah, in fact, is almost a dancer by profession:
The next morning, Sunday,
April 26, I join the Walkers in time.
I rejoice in the Morning-Circle, as always,
especially when I know the names of the people:
Michael Rosenzweig, Yuval Segev, Gal Mor, Gabriel (USA),
? , Harm (Holland)
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