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 The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

See below this Godchannel message:

The photos of the "WALK ABOUT LOVE 2009" ~ continued from~ Mother Teachings: "And dance this pain through you~~~"
accompany
my graphical edition of the Godchannel files
in the chronological order in which they were given.

 

1999/02/28
studied again on 2006_02_26 following the answer that came up,
when searching Godchannel for "patience":
"And I say to myself as much as to you all,
let us please move along with patience and sensitivity
as we drive backwards more fully into WholeNow,..."



Healing Class III Discussion 5

Who is the Healer?
New Heart Emerging


Who is the Healer?

Forgive me for looking to you for relief.
I have tried, I tried today to hear that voice within,
and all I hear is the sounds of the battle.
It's been going on for so long that sometimes I forget it's there,
but the past two days, it's all I can hear.
The battle between them.
I am the battle field,
and I have been trampled and gored,
pierced with a million different weapons,
blood has poured deep into the gaping holes
of my once green and fertile hills and valleys.
I have been razed and gouged,
burned and defiled,
over and over in the war between them.
They have tried to rip me apart
and in trying to please them both,
I have ripped myself apart.
How is there healing for this?

At my core there is a feeling of no peace.
With this bomb constantly blowing up inside of me,
I don't know how I have managed to appear whole.
It's a cover,
like a layer of sod being dropped on top
of the wasted landscape of my body.
I've managed to get hold of a few key parts,
and holding them in shaky hands
it has appeared that things are okay.
Even now, some part of me is telling me
that it's not as bad as it feels.
I just need to hold on,
it will feel different tomorrow.

Will it?
Or will I just find a way
to turn down the sounds of the battle again,
a way to keep pretending
I am not being ripped apart inside by the poles
that have my puny life in their grips,
that have always had me,
held me prisoner,
waging their battle inside me,
while whispering their love for me.

"Yes, it will feel different tomorrow.
And today's feelings will return again the next day.
And this kind of pattern will continue
until the poles are united.
However, there is something new here
that you may not have noticed.
When you are aware of the two poles,
you are not identified with either of them.
This is the most important and most difficult step in the healing,
to be aware of both poles at the same time.
You are now in a position
that will enable you to do the healing work
that was impossible
when your awareness included only one pole."

I want to believe this will end someday.
But it has always been this way,
and what would there be, if not this?
I have tried, in my way, to make them both happy.
I have fought on both sides,
worn both uniforms,
pledged my allegiance to both of them,
and loved them both too.
I love them both. I want them both. And I want peace.

"You sing the ancient song of Heart, the mediator and the healer.
And you feel the ancient despair of Heart's relative powerlessness.

You have 'superiors' over whom you feel you have no power,
and yet it's you who are the battlefield
and you who suffers through the battle."

That is why I have tried so hard to make my own marriage work.
I want resolution, forgiveness, peace.
Maybe if I can bring it to my outer life,
I can find some way to bring it inside of me,
to the core of me,
where my desire struggles with my mind
in ceaseless, repetitive and heart rending battle after battle.

quoted on homepage3
"Trying to make a marriage work is
what the Mother and I did for a long time.
It couldn't 'work'
because neither of us felt
we could be our true self
while also pleasing the other.

Neither of us was whole in our own right,
both of us were fragmented.

Becoming whole is the first priority after survival.

"Your marriage will 'work' without any effort on anyone's part
when you are whole.
In the meantime it may be easier
to focus on the healing work
that is happening with each of you in your own way.
Support each other in your healing
and the marriage will be stronger for it.
You know this already, but it doesn't hurt to repeat it."

I cry and I cry over never having known myself,
what I might have been, if things had been different.
And I even rejoice in the knowledge that things are changing,
maybe my daughter will have peace in her life,
maybe even in her world.
I would save her from my fate if I can.

But for me, I only want to love myself ~
to feel peace where there has been only war,
to come together, where I have been ripped apart ~
to desire nothing more than what I can have.

This feels very far away from me right now,
yet as long as I breathe ~
I will hold on, shaky or not,
and try to forgive myself for emerging where I did.
I didn't know ~
I stepped into the middle,
sacrificing myself,
my life, my desire, my body, my love,
for all time.
I made a mistake.
Now I want to make peace.
Peace is my desire.
Can I have it?

"Yes, peace will come.
And much more ~
all the rest of what you desire,
including what you've believed you cannot have.
Peace however, may not be the first sign
of your healing or your wholeness.


pp12
Your emergence was right,
stepping into the middle was right,
and making mistakes has not been wrong.

Judgment release will move you closer to the truth here.

 

"A new era in the healing process is upon us.
Soon you will be finding yourself in the middle still,
but with the power to bring the poles together.
Or rather, help them find their alignment.
You can have your heart's desire
when you make yourself parental
to both your mind and your emotions.

 

"But how can this be?
After all, Heart is the child of Spirit and Will.
How can the child be parental to its parents?
The answer is in who you are,
and in the fact
that you are a relatively recent development
in the evolution of Creation.
You are a human being.
There is a secret power for healing in Creation,
and although you don't know it yet,

you hold the key to it.

 

"Where the key fits
is the place in your awareness
that knows and accepts both poles,
the place where you become the balance point.
As a human you have both Spirit and Will essence.
And this essence you have,
all of the essence you have ~ is yours.
Spirit belongs to you. Will belongs to you.
They are both yours,
and the final stage of the healing will begin
when the child becomes the parent
and gives help and acceptance to the cosmic forces
that brought her into manifestation.

 

"In your quest for healing and wholeness
you have a powerful ally,
the master healer of Creation.
Her name is Body.

Or is it 'his' name?
Either way,
Body is the key to the healing,
peace and fulfillment of desire you seek.
Body knows how to heal Creation,
and soon you will find that power within you.

2006_03_18; My greatest desire for my personal self is,
that I may think, talk, act, live in a way
that my Body feels comfortable and wonderful
with every breathing in and every breathing out.

 

pp17c
"The running energy practice
is the immediate solution to the issue you first mentioned
of not being able to hear me within,
and this practice is a long term foundation
upon which you can base your healing process.
As you practice
drawing upon the Mother's energy from below
and mine from above,
our presence in you becomes more obvious and 'real'.
If at first the exercise seems only mental and 'visual',
slow it down a bit and remember
to use your breath as suggested ~

and in a very few sessions of practice
you'll be able to sense and move the energy.

 

"This energy you are running has been called 'etheric' energy
and is in fact, the energy of Body.
As you bring Body and Body's energy into the healing mix
you will find a new willingness in Spirit
to pay attention to what Body has to show us about healing.

And in this way the key to the healing ~
and to the peace for which you've been searching will come to you.

 

pp12
"Mediating between the poles,
accepting and honoring them both this is the healer.
In your status of human being,
you are Heart in Body mediating Spirit and Will.
You are Will embracing Spirit
in the dance of Creation
as Heart is held by Body,
and you are one being.
And when you are responsible
for achieving and maintaining this integrative awareness,
you are parental to all of your parts,
you are the healer.

 

"Then at this new level of reality,
which of the four parts of Deity are you?
The answer to this
and to the finding of the key
will be in the next lesson in the healing class,

'Body'."


New Heart Emerging

Channelers' note:
The following contribution is in part a response
to the contribution and channeling posted directly above.
We have added links in the contributor's text
to relevant material in other pages on the site.


I remember as a child in this lifetime when others asked me:
"What do you want to be when you grow up?
What do you want to do with your life?"
And I remember feeling
an uncomfortable mix of dread and excited possibility
in realizing I didn't know who I was or who I wanted to be.

I felt guilt's pressure telling me
maybe I should be like Mom and/or Dad and do what they do ~
or like friends who seemed to know clearly what their path was ~
or maybe aspire to be like the famous ones
(actors, musicians, politicians), in the limelight and helping others.
And although I never seemed to know with certainty
who I was or what I wanted to be,
I sensed within me some deeper purpose
waiting in wimp-like caution to be born.
And now, after years and lifetimes of experience,
my evolutionary learnings are awakening me to my own greatness.

 

I feel I can say now with healing-born confidence
what I have been drawn to be since the beginning:
"I want to be who I truly am, the Heart of Manifestation ~
and I want to completely heal my shattered fragmented world-self
into balanced love-aligned wholeness."
I tingle with aliveness speaking these words aloud,
remembering who I am,
taking responsibility for my creation.
I am the host of the spirit and will essence here in this body ~
and in owning and healing my denied selves,
I say aloud that I am the Song of Heart ~
the Heartsong singing!
This is who I be in my becoming.
Parental to myself.

 

I choose to come forward here and now in this way
because, although imperfect and not fully loving yet,
I feel ready and conscious enough to do so.
From the ashes of original heartbreak
I arise and am healing to be New Heart.
Both the Father and Mother of Manifestation's guidance and movements
within me and here on this site
has been nothing less than Grace ~
this work of diffusion and redemption is so self-empowering ~
and I feel deeply grateful to all of us
who are moving now from and into the Center to heal creation.

 

The pains and imbalances we share are still great ~
but great too are our intentions, desires and actions
in this healing dance.
Be brave, dear Hearts, and be true ~
for it is in me and in you
that our ancient dreams are being born
and our innermost desires are becoming manifest.
And I say to myself as much as to you all,
let us please move along with patience and sensitivity
as we drive backwards more fully into WholeNow,
becoming peers in our joint creation,
remembering how to sing and dance our heartful songs.

I follow my understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
  that - after 7 years - I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing pages.
Since March 2009 I've been "synchronizing" the chronological process of the Godchannel.com files
with the chronological process of my photos and - if there should be time - observations of the

"Walk About Love"

continuation of April 26, 2009 - Dancing everywhere... latest update of this page: July 29, 2009

 


Such beautiful people are holding hands in the morning-circle, like : Thomas (France), Hamutal and Lior Mor


We begin a very long walk on a beautiful day.
On the other side of the highway: Bet Nehemya,
where I slept the last three nights at my eldest son's house.

 

This trail I've walked before - in winter and alone...

Louise (South-Africa) and Orian are walking in front of me and Alona

 

 

 

 

 

The outskirts of Bet Nehemya , i.e. the street, where my children rented a house for a year.

Louise, Orian, Alona

 

Bet Nehemya in the background - Talli in the foreground.
Talli was ready to tell me the detailed story of her experience at the "Peace-Conference" at Bil'in.
We managed to not be interrupted for an entire hour,
though I did take some photos of the beautiful landscape.
Still the last part of the story I later heard from Tom

By now there are huge gaps between the Walkers.

We reach the area of the Israel National Trail,
which I had "studied into depth" before I knew anything about the Walk about Love.


 

Talli, Michael Rosenzweig, Gabriel (USA)

 

I am still listening to Talli about the "Conference for Grassroot Resistance",
in which so many of the Walkers took part,
thus splitting off from the main body yet another time...


A strange synchronicity:
When I (on May 22, 2009)
- with inserting the photos of the Walk in chronological order,
following the chronological order of the Godchannel files,-
reached the page "I'm enraged", which follows this page: Healing Class III, Discussion 5,
I realized,
that it was already "occupied" with photos.
But what photos?
The photos of my hike to a destroyed Arab village,
north of Bet Nehemya, along the "Israel National Trail",
on February 18,
4 days before I learnt about The Walk about Love,
and 9 days before I joined it in Eilat!
And though I believe, that The Walk about Love - which is still in an embryo state,
should not yet be exposed by well-meaning Walkers to a peace-conference in Palestine,
I did agree, to what Talli said so strongly:

"Bil'in is a baby of the Walk about Love".

The continuation of the photos of the "Walk about Love" skips the 3 Godchannel files "I am enraged"
and goes straigt to the File: Guide to God's Classes