just before opening the computer and seeing your mail
I saw the last part of the scientific 3 SAT program "Nano"
Electrodes were put into the brain of a lame man,
sodass er "mit Gedankenkraft", den Computer bedienen kann.
[so that he "by power of thought" can use the computer].
It's only one of many, many moments per day,
when I feel so over-priviledged by simply everything called "Life",
that I can only bear this by GIVING THANKS
for a multitude of "things" and "processes", that work beautifully,
throughout my day and night.

I want to share with you, what Efrat said to me,
when she, for the first time in 12 days,
had the strength to talk to me on the phone
(I don't know, who held the handy, if her mother or Immanuel).
"I'm more and more grateful, that Mika stayed alive,
I don't understand, why this had to happen to MY body,
and at a time of war,
but I have understood almost from the beginning
why it had to happen to my child:
'You were not whole and happy with the child!
You were terribly depressed, you were in doubt,
so I ("God") wanted you to witness Mika's birth a second time
so that this time you would be wholly happy.'
And now, when I sink into pitying myself,
Mika "feels" it, (though 20 km away)
and cries in an unusual, strange way.
Then Immanuel calls me:
"We know that you feel terrible right now."

Immanuel affirmed this strange phenomenon,
when he talked to me later.

I tried to select for you only the very best photos
of the many (taken with my son Micha's discarded digital camera)
when they were here in Arad just 12 days before the accident.
Immanuel, Efrat, Mika had been here for the first time some weeks before,
and since Efrat liked it so much
(she hadn't visited me ever in Noah's Cave or at Rakhaf or at Arad)
that after a few weeks they came again, this time with Alon and Tomer.
[only Elah still does not want to have anything to do with me.]
Shortly before they came, Immanuel also made a little video,
on which Elah "dances" Swing with her tiny sister.
To see her dancing with her arms and legs in the air,
and sometimes trying sich aufzurichten [to lift herself up],
is even more moving now
when I imagine her to be "tied down to the ground"
(a line from one of my favorite songs)
"but she is so brave, it's hard to understand",
says her father.

The accident and the war are not the only experiences in my life,
but the "rest" is "fine-tuning" into feelings and experiences,
for which 99.9999% of humankind are not free,
having to invest all their energies in simply surviving.

July 21, 2006: from my diary

The following passage - in the same diary entry -
refers to "Nebo-Let-Go"

July 22, 2006: Diary

As to the biblical quote in the third line see my song

"June 1982, first week of what we chose to name
“SHLOM HAGALIL” Galilee’s Peace (what a sad laugh!).
My beloved partner for life thought
it is the right thing to do so without even been called,
as at that time he already retired after many years of service,
he instantly replied the ‘call to the flag’ as we say.
See yesterday's song in my Song Game 2007

He paid with his life
together with hundreds of losses in both sides.
Eventually, all those precious wasted lives – made no difference!
Here we are 24 years later back at square one."
[Hagit Ra'anan, Peace Worker in Israel, in an e-mail to all her friends, July 2006]

July 23, 2006: Diary
It came to me then, that I do have to take responsibility for the fact,
that this is "happening to me", like I did with personal events so far.
Let me quote it again - in a different color:

Particularly since I know one small answer to it:
I am not whole myself,
which is proven by not owning my very anger and fury
concerning the warring people on the one hand,
and the "peace and light and meditating" "lightworkers" on the other hand.

[This ritual, to which the following "Communication with Deity" refers,
is based on the ancient Aramaic "Unity-Blessing".
I do it with physical gestures and visualisation, moving through my body, between earth and heaven.

Remember, what your pupil Irene made you understand in Berlin 1986
concerning the Qabbalat Shabbat ritual or the function of any ritual:
"Auch wenn ich nicht nachdenke, mir nicht jedesmal der Worte bewusst bin,
so ist das Ritual doch etwas, was mich haelt, "durch-haelt",
bis ich der Worte gedenken kann."
WE desire and recommend, that you do this version of "yikhud" especially,
whenever you feel your anger against warmongers and lightworkers

"Last night in our Peace Vigil meditation group,
we were asked to hum.
Instead of chanting the OM as we usually do,
we were asked to focus on the mmm only.
This has an incredible healing effect.
I visualized this mmm which we sounded for about half an hour,
going as a blanket of sounds and vibration all over the Middle East,
soothing the tension and suffering that is occuring there.
You may wish to do the same". [Maggie]

Malkita and Mika, cast in plaster ,
escape from the war to Malkita's sister
in the center of the country

To Diana in Israel

On August 2, 2006
I come for the monthly "Grandma Day" to Mazkeret Batya,
about half an hour east of Rehovot.
Ra'ayah, my daughter-in-love, takes me to Shulla's house,
and Micha, my son, [in the car]
fetches me from there towards the evening.

The accident of Mika and my daughter-in-love
and the second Lebanon War
were not the only historic events in July 2006.
There was also my "Nebo-let-Go" ...

She does not know of her own accident

She does not seem to suffer

       She plays and lives

You must start to get it
into your mind, so it will slowly get into your body knowing, that the war-mongers and the light-workers are YOU.
Moving , sounding, breathing all this anger about war-mongers and lightworkers
is now leading you towards true self-determination .
Through your beautiful ritual of melting baraka and charisma in your Heart,
which vibrates body
by sounding , moving and breathing,
you connect with the transpersonal desire
of baraka and charisma

As to your worry and guilt
that you still cannot
"sense the energy",
[see Nourishment:
Body is the Healer]
and that you often
do this ritual
rather mechanically
and that you even have
to force yourself to do it:
Remember, what your pupil Irene made you understand concerning the Qabbalat Shabbat ritual, in Berlin 1986:
Auch wenn ich mir nicht jedes-mal der Worte bewusst bin,
so ist das Ritual doch etwas, was mich haelt, "durch-haelt", bis ich der Worte gedenken kann."