InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
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Mother to Daughter: "Tell me, how could I have been so wrong?"

2007_06_29

Christa-Rachel

lyrics, tune and performance: Etti Ankri my translation added on July 30, 2008 my recording added on August 13, 2008

Etti Ankri

Addition on 2007_07_14 from the Godchannel File:
Loving Spirit Finds a Lost Part of the Mother

....
"I go to her with tears in my eyes,
yearning in my heart for my love to be felt by her, received by her.
Slowly I approach, not wanting to disturb her.
She is in the reverie of her suffering.
Yet who am I to disturb her,
to pretend to know what can ease her pain.
I offer myself, my undying love and presence, to her.
I want her to know that I love her.
I will not poke at her pain, her shame.
I come to ease her burden,
to honor her being,
to help her reclaim her lost honor.

"Yet something new must be nurtured here
and she is my guide of what love can birth.

.....

"I come to her as she cowers away from me,
afraid of what else has come her way.
I come with tears in my eyes,
wanting only to comfort her,
to let her know that all is not lost,
because I have found her.
And surely we can slowly, gently, at her pace,
bring back something worthy of being, worthy of living.

"... I will stay and bring here to her a gentleness of love
that asks only to be received when and how it feels good to her.
And hope that she can forgive me for all I have done,
and all that we have lost.
Through her, real love has a chance to be born anew."

[To deeper understand this message, see puzzle-piece 35 Following Will's and Body's Lead]

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2010

Mika and her friends: "I want to know all the children of the world" Here she prevents Keshet (=rainbow) to run towards the road with its cars. Mika and the World: Here she follows the TV reality series: A star is born The last event was too late for her to stay up. When - first thing in the morning - she asked me: "Who became the Star? " and I told her: "Diana!" she said: "I'm glad! I wanted her to win! But Ohad (one of the 3 finalists) --- he didn't feel hurt, did he?" Previous Composition 2010_09_29 Heaven-on-Earth "...Manifestation is meant to be a playground where being and playing are fun" [Godchannel]

Continuation of a family reunion on the Eve of Simchat-Torah at Acco, Sept. 29, 2010

Finally Grandma Mirjam, [who is exactly my age] sits down, but even then the interaction with Mika is mainly "do you want to eat this or that or that!"

One aspect of the togetherness gave me joy:
Before we all parted, I heard Efrat saying to Na'ama,
her brother's daughter and a year older than Mika:
"You were really fantastic with Mika today!"
This was a wondrous contrast to
what I heard about Na'ama or even witnessed myself...
The one who had to pay the price, was Ido, Na'ama's brother.
There was no room or space or chance for him with the girls.

All the pictures were taken by Efrat in her parents' bedroom with the TV-set, while I - in the livingroom - was with the men, father and sons, trying to at least challenge them and make the togetherness lively, even if I could not make myself understood

What can I comment about the facial expressions here?

Once Mika felt or was hurt and cried and enjoyed grandma's hug

October 1, 2010
We came back to Shoham past midnight.
At 9:30 the next day Immanuel brought me to the highway, from where I use to hitchhike home.
As usual, nobody drove south, and so, once again, I entered a car , which was going towards Jerusalem, in order to get out at Latroun junction.
I sat next to this girl and to this dog. Except for my question about the name of the dog and her answer we did not talk, but we loved each other..

While [Sept. 27, 2010] I was so moved by the re-discovery of "ki mi baz [despises] le-yom qtanot", I happened to hitchhike with this girl and her dog "Baz" meaning: "falcon"! See my new song!

October 7, 2010
Immanuel flew to London for 2 nights and 3 days,
I did not need to come for so short a time (Efrat!).

Though there would be much to say about this time "al-one",
(some hints can be found in the "Wetterbericht " Sept.30-Oct.10,
and within and around the 42 days of "The Wave of Gratitude"),
I now,
after I've completed sculpting my experiences with Mika,
shall be "in meinem Herzen", "in my heart".
May the few pictures of my environment
which I couldn't help photographing
radiate from my heart...

It is significant, that my passifloras blossom on the background of my neighbor's car?

The summer season was over before I realized it!
I always wanted to take photos of this splendid sight.
Finally I did so from across the pool, [it was no longer allowed to swim inside],
See the pretty insert in the "Wave of Gratitude", Day 27, Oct. 4, 2010.
It was only today, Oct. 7, that I asked the secretary of the pool about the purpose of this "building".
"It's empty!  waiting   to   be  hired   by   someone   who   wants   to   do   massages   or   other   therapies !"
For the first time in all these 5 years I bothered to actually approach the "building" from outside.
To my immense surprise, and even shame, I discovered, that it wasn't a building at all.
It was a TENT!
Not a tetrahedron, like the model of the tent of my Desert-Economy-Vision,
but a form not less intriguing: a hexagon!
I, now, can discern this also on the picture taken from across the pool, 3 days ago!
(guess the high buildings of the town behind it!)

How come? Why? did I miss this "twin" of my vision????



Today I looked inside - old men were playing ping-pong -
I saw the roof, enchanted by the play of light and shade,
created by the branches of the trees outside....