Unsculpted drafts
[In order to come to grips with my TOO MUCH,
too much I experience, too much I want to sculp t= re-create
on K.is.s.-Log, too much I want to complete on previous pages,
I've decided to take the bull of shame by the horns and insert
a frame for "texts in grey" ,
which are utterly raw, even in grammar, the use of words and
spelling.
My non-English readers - if there should exist readers at
all - may forget, that English is not my mother-tongue ....
About a story from an
old tape ("Welt des Klangs", World of Sound):
It rains and after 7 years of meditation the student comes
to the master to hear his wisdom about all he has gone through.
The master asks: "where did you put your umbrella, to
the left of your shoes or to the right?" The student
doesn't remember.
"Then go back and meditate another 7 years!" "Because
of such a slight mistake?"Aren't there things more important
than an umbrella?
"Not to know, where your put your umbrella, is not a
slight mistake!"
About "scobel"
- Komplexe Welt - A Complex World,
: I should dedicate the entire day to studying that program
and all that can be found about it on the Internet.
I want to link at least to the
video
About watching"be-tipul" - an episode with "Talia"
and one with the couple-in-separation and their child. - I
was again frustrated with the lack of intervention on part
of the therapist, but even more with the very conflicts -
of course, they reflect what many people live and for them
it's probably very good to observe themselves through this
program. But for me it's too much "the old world",
crude hatred, crude jealousy, crude "Cain". It doesn't
help me in my "fine-tuning".
I'll check the other 3 encounters, and see, if they are more
"in tune with what I need for myself".
About my letters to Yael,
my granddaughter, to Deqel, her tutor, to Martin, my brother-in-law
in Germany, to Lior Oren, my starchild, to Ra'ayah, my daughter-in-love,
to Immanuel, my son,
About the program "Konfu"
and my harsh judgments
About the program "Polygraph"
and Shelley Yate's sentence, quoted on Kisslog July 18::
"Second, do all that you do with
the utmost honesty and integrity.
It will facilitate deeper more meaningful relationships
with more open communication."
[This rule is not only banale, it is only partly true:
utmost honesty and integrity are formidable triggers for people
and not at all facilitating more open communication.]
A sentence in the program "Complexity" points out,
what "Spirit" calls "Beware of Reversal":
We invented the DDT, believing, that now our seeds would grow
undisturbedly,
and had to find out how much we poisoned the world and ourselves.
13:34 Before I run to
the noon -pool
At 13:08 I remembered, that I wanted to watch a program about
a woman rabbi (13:00-13:35), but the TV opened on Channel
2, the Friday program of Rafiq Halabi about the Israeli Arabs
(I should watch this regularly), about a Bedouin family not
far from Arad.
I didn't know what was more important, but when I switched
to 3 SAT, I was fascinated by those women rabbies... One told
- when referring to the burden of responsibility as a rabbi
- that she likes the Talmudic pun about what a leader should
be:
a "m - l - kh" or a "l - m - kh"? a king
or a a clown. When the "m" is the first letter,
it points to the 'moakh' - the brain - before the 'lev', the
heart, and sometimes this is necessary, but on other occasions
the "l" should be the first letter, i.e. the "lev"
should guide the brain!
There was also a Bar-Mitzva pupil of a woman rabbi, who, after
having read his parashah, gave his drashah, in which he said,
that he didn't believe in God because of all the evil things
on earth: "even a little task like making peace he can't
perform". I loved this boy, and I loved that rabbi who
had no problem with such defiance in her synagogue.
I completed the pages
July 19, 20, 21 and - almost - 22, so many feelings! So much
still missing.
20:00 A fantastic doc
about people who make films about nature, for instance butterflies
and birds.
It was fantastic not only because of the magnificent images,
but also because of the creators, especially a woman Gisela
Sixt and a man Ulrich Lieber,
who were epitomes of people who experience everything that
will define people in "heaven-on-earth"
- excitement and full-fill-ment , joy and love and grate-full-ness.
Moreover these people live and work in the area, where I grew
up, and speak actually Schwaebisch- the Suebean dialect.
"mei mudder hot gsaid: bish halt a neigierigs ma'le"
- my mother said: well. you are a curious little man by nature.
Drei Menschen eint der Blick durch
eine Kamera. Und ihre Liebe zur Natur. Der eine ist Profi,
die beiden anderen sind Amateure. Sie haben ihren jeweiligen
Blick auf die Natur, auf die kleinen Wunder, die aber - wie
überall im Land - Teil eines größeren Wandels
sind. Professor Ernst Waldemar Bauer ist bekannt als Fernsehmoderator
der Reihe "Wunder der Erde". Er sucht die Schätze
seiner schwäbischen Heimat, das Gold von der Alb. Ursula
Sixt aus Berglen ist die "Mutter der Schmetterlinge":
Sie dokumentiert das Wunder der Verwandlung, vom Ei bis zum
schillernden Falter in faszinierenden Großaufnahmen.
Ulrich Lieber aus Giengen an der Brenz ist der neugierige
Entdecker: Von Kindesbeinen an ist er bei Pflanze oder Tier
immer wieder fasziniert vom Wunder der Schöpfung. Die
drei Filmer erzählen von ihren Erlebnissen und Geschichten.
I keep thinking of those
two clips - on two different days - about two Israeli competitors
at the Olympic Games in Beijing,
a swimmer (27) and a - now I can't remember the term in any
language - a surfboat with a sail on the sea (19). The woman
said swimming was the most boring sports and she couldn't
wait for the Games to be over and no longer having to be in
the pool at 6 in the morning and do what she hates: train!
.The boy on the sail-surfboard said the opposite, that he
enjoys every day anew. I understand both, since I also tried
my hands and feet on a sail-surfboard , when Micha had one
25 years ago in the Tel-Aviv Marina. But as to swimming, I
don't compete, I don't even swim in one line, I swing around
like a dolphin, and I sing. Twice 25 minutes a day - swimming
and singing - and twice walking, climbing to and fro - altogether
40 minutes per day - isn't this wonderful?
The Premiere of "Parsifal" at Bayreuth... and all
the feelings and thoughts connected to the original Parzifal...
What a feast: I dared
to eat a piece of bread again! Toasted in my little toaster-oven
with a piece of yellow cheese, simply gorgeous!
I got many packages , each with one piece of cheese, from
my landlords today - they had received it from their friend
who works on Massada!
And since then a doc started about the
queen of bees, I allowed myself more of the honey, from which
I had eaten already in the morning. It's a piece of a honeycomb,
which Ra'ayah had given me. I've seen many films about bees
in my life, but each adds new info and astonishment. For 1
liter of honey 10 000 000 blossoms have to be touched, 60
hours of flight are necessary. But the power play of the new
queens is terrible. And did I ever think of what a bee does
or suffers, when it's surprised by rain?
