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 The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"



See below this Godchannel message:
An intermezzo in the chronological sequence of my photos about the "WALK ABOUT LOVE 2009"
5 pages which are
accompanied by a selection from among 256 photos
taken by Sari Sidon on April 11 from Ein-Karem to All-Nations-Cafe and on April 14-15 in Jerusalem.


no date; checked for updates on 2005_06_30
I found the file updated , after the chapter "Lucifer" was, since Febr. 19, 2010 , included in the new Denial Pages -
"an index that lists the more prominent places on the site where denial energy is discussed and the various ways of releasing it are described."

Healing Class II
The Spirit Polarity
Part Two: Divine Codependency


"I realized early on in my evolution
that the Mother did not like bad light,

[I still - 2009_04_17-
find it very difficult to understand the term "light",
especially "bad light", or "denied light",
see God's description
at the end of Godchannel's " "
and my definition
in what was once a "popup reminder":]

and I began a program
of improving the quality of my Light
so it would be better received,
more space would be opened,
and there would be more of me in existence.
For a very long time I believed
that my evolution depended on the quality of my Light,
and how much of it could be received.

"I was constantly looking to the Mother
to show me her reactions to my Light,
so I could 'fix' it in ways
that made it feel better to her.
You know this tendency as codependence.
You're finding out like I have
that this approach doesn't work.

It's taken us all a very long time to learn this lesson,
and I thought you might like to know how it got started.

"At one point I realized
that it was impossible
to avoid showing her Light
that did not feel good.

"Before I gave up trying to please her,
I ventured very deeply inside myself to see
if I could find the source of my undesirable Light.
I went all the way to the Void,
to the place were I emerge into existence
[previously: to the place that is the ground of my existence].
It was a journey not only within, but upstream.
It was a very intense experience.
I had to go against the wind, so to speak.

"When I finally arrived at the Void
I discovered the terror
of its essential nature of not-ness, of non-existence.
I also discovered
that here I had an option
that was not available to me anywhere in existence.
Here, at the place just before my beginning,
I could permanently establish the quality of my Light.
I found the way to separate 'good' Light from 'bad' Light.
In the Void I found the raw material of separation,
I found the 'dividing line'.
And I used it.



"I separated out all the qualities of my Light
that I knew were pleasing to the Mother
and put them on one side of the line.
On the other side were left all the qualities of Light
that the Mother found undesirable.
I called the side that was pleasing to the Mother
and what was left I called 'darkness'.
Before I left there,
I positioned my self on the side of Light
and became completely identified with it,

leaving no room in my identity for 'darkness.'

I returned to existence very pleased with myself
for finding the permanent solution to the problem of my 'bad' Light.

[when I now, on February 22, 2010, restudied this material,
I was stunned by a coincidence:
I had just before , during breakfast, listened to a casette of mine,
where I had let myself be recorded professionally, in a studio,
when reading a little booklet , my first sculpting on the Internet, in 1995,
distrubuted by hand as 48 copies, of which none stayed with me.
It's there that I explain
- as so often before and after , when talking to people face to face - as well as on this site, see e.g. in "Noah's Rainbow"
how Jewish tradition, just as Christianity, in which the dualistic trend [God versus Satan] is better known,
did not have the courage to quote the "I create evil", but left it out.

Isaiah 45:5-7

I am YHWH and there is none else,
beside Me there is no God....

That they may know from the rising of the sun and from the west that there is none beside Me
I am YHWH and there is none else
I form light,
and I create darkness
I make shalom*
and I create evil;

I am YHWH, that doeth all these things.

*this can either mean: I make peace between light and darkness
or: I make the whole, i.e. both peace and darkness

Despite the intuition, that this verse in Isaiah indeed paraphrases the "YHWH is One" in the "Shma Yisrael", the "Credo" of Israel,
and it is said twice a day before the Shma is said by religious Jews as the so-called birkat yotzer, Blessing of the one who creates,
the point of the points : I create evil , is left out, which meant that they were "leaving no room in my identity for 'darkness.'
something which is stupefying when one knows, how strict Jewish tradition was and is in quoting exactly - to the letter, - not only to the words!]

"For a long time it worked quite well.
The Mother and I had a most excellent relationship,
and we created a deep bond of love and partnership.
Together we emerged all of Creation.
Sure, there were many 'bumps' along the way,

and I used those experiences productively
to find the 'problems' in my Light
and continued the process of separating them from me.

[How come that "together we emerged all of Creation",
when in the next passage "the bright light appeared",
"just as the Mother and I were preparing to go forth to emerge creation'?]


"Just as the Mother and I were preparing
to go forth to emerge creation,
an exceptionally bright light appeared to us.
It had come from out of nowhere
and was suddenly present with us.
I had long forgotten my journey to the Void,
and the Void itself for that matter.

"I had been focused outward,
toward the Mother and our Creation.
When I saw this new light
I felt the same kind of terror I'd felt
when I found the dividing line
and separated from myself the qualities of my Light
that I felt were not pleasing to the Mother.


"I realized
that this new being
was the Spirit essence I'd left back in the Void,
but I couldn't understand
how 'darkness' had become so bright.
This light was very bright and quite harsh, it was very difficult to stay present with.

Desire of course hated it.
[Previously: This light was very difficult to stay present with,
and Desire of course hated it.

She was pulling me away from the new light,
and I wished to go forth with her and create.
So we left him behind, in my place at the Godhead.
This new being of light became known to us as Lucifer.

[See in Wikipedia ,how the Latin term "Lucifer=light-bearer" came to replace the biblical "Satan" ]

"At the time I didn't let on to the Mother
[previously: I didn't let on to the Mother]
all that I knew about Lucifer
because I was afraid she'd blame me for his presence.


"Many, many eons later
[old version: Several creations and many, many eons later]
I realized the mistake that I made
when I first used the dividing line
to separate myself from Lucifer.
Over time he had become a huge problem,
gathering more and more light to himself.

"I had initially reasoned
that those qualities of Light I had assigned to him would have very little opportunity for existence.

[old version: that there would be very little opportunity of existence for those qualities of Light I had assigned to him. ]
The Mother [old version: Desire] closed space quickly
when these qualities were present,
so I thought
that she would not permit them in existence.
However, after a while it was clear that

[old version: However it seemed]
my 'final solution' had become an eternal problem.


"What I did not become aware of for a very long time,
and in fact it wasn't until near the end of the first Land of Pan,
[though "Pan" is mentioned several times in Godchannel - put "Pan" in "Search", it is described only in "Right Use of Will",p.74-93]
was that I had constantly continued
to give Lucifer my essence.
I did this unconsciously and nonchalantly
as a matter of course in almost all of my relating with the Mother.

What I did not realize about the dividing line is
that I had unknowingly used my judgments against the 'bad' light
to instruct, or program my deepest self
to continue separating Spirit essence into 'Light', or me,
and 'darkness', or not-me.
After a while, there was much more not-me than there was me.


"I still wasn't worried when Lucifer showed up
because I was convinced
there was no way the Mother would open space for him in existence.
I talked myself into believing
that it was perfectly fine to let him be wherever I wasn't,
because I knew the Mother would always choose me to be with her.

After all, I had custom designed my Light to suit her.

"Lucifer was clearly the wrong kind of light.
I thought of Lucifer as a hopeless loser,

my hapless 'other side' doomed to either non-existence
or semi-existence as the pariah of Creation.



"This judgment [old version: thought ] was my [old version: the] first conscious denial.
It bothered me a little
and I vaguely wondered
if this thought would end up as part of Lucifer.
'Ha', I thought, 'It would serve the fool right if it did.'

"Because I consciously hid Lucifer's origins from the Mother
I had now created both deception and denial.
And of course, I denied it to myself
so that I could remain congruent with the Mother.

For a long time after I realized what I'd been doing,
I thought all of this denied Spirit essence
had joined with what was already Lucifer.

"I didn't realize that another denied part of myself had just emerged.
My judgments and denials further separated me.
A new Spirit being now called Ahriman was present now
and from then on he got even more of my essence than Lucifer.
[old version:
I didn't know that Ahriman was present
and getting even more of my essence than Lucifer.



"Because Lucifer and his qualities were now unavailable to me,
I didn't know
that he would find his own ways
of getting the Mother to open space for him,
or that he would enlist the help of Ahriman, for that matter.

"It is a long and terrible story that covers eons.
Lucifer tortured Desire until she opened space for him
[old version:
I have already discussed most of the details
of what Lucifer did to the Mother in the Right Use of Will books.
I will say now only that he tortured Desire until she opened space for him

and then tortured her more
by telling her the truth of how he came into existence,
leaving out the detail of my original good intent.

"The consequence of that
has been the Mother's hatred of both Lucifer and me.
Her deepest and most damaged essence still believes
that Ahriman's conscious presence with Lucifer was me."


Next: Lesson Two - Part Three: God's New Quest

Healing Class Discussion

Lesson One - Quest for the Mother | | Lesson Two, Part One - The Void


I follow my understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
  that - after 7 years - I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing pages.
Since March 2009 I've been "synchronizing" the chronological process of the Godchannel.com files
with the chronological process of my photos and - if there should be time - observations of the

"Walk About Love"

This and the following 4 files are accompanied by a selection from among 256 photos
taken by Sari Sidon on April 11 from Ein-Karem to All-Nations-Cafe and on April 14 in the Old City of Jerusalem.



In the terraces of friends of The Walk in Ein-Karem



This is a demonstration of how quickly the scenes
- and therefore the interactions-
change in The Walk-about-Love:

In one moment
there are Michael (USA) and Michal Rosenzweig sitting together,
in the next moment Ben (England) walks between them
to the front of the scene...

Rea and Gil, our organizers in logistics


From playing music in Ein-Karem (Daniel and next to him Lior Mor (?) and Ieva (Lithuania)
to walking towards Jerusalem (Gil and ?)


Daniel (Germany) and Danit


Three young men from abroad: Jonathan (Germany), Richard (Holland), Michael (USA)


Walking towards the border Israel-Palestine

Climbing down to the wadi, which designates the border



Continuation of the Intermezzo of Sari's photos in the Godchannel file
Healing Class II, The Spirit Polarity, Part Three: God's New Quest

or Continuation of the chronological sequence of my photos of the "Walk about Love"
in the Godchannel file Who are you channeling?