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 The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"



See below:

The photos of the "WALK ABOUT LOVE 2009" ~continued from~ Channeling Class, Lesson II, Written Channeling
my graphical edition of the Godchannel files
in the chronological order in which they were given.


answers to e-mails channeled on 98/08/26-27

Written Channeling Discussion

- I'm afraid to channel.
- Sometimes writing is too slow for me.
- Channeling and the Will Polarity

I'm afraid to channel

Dear God, I've been waiting eagerly for your channeling class to begin.
Your site is my homepage so I open your site everyday to keep up with the updates.
I practice running the energy everyday with my yoga practice and feel your energy inside me.
But when it comes to meeting the source and writing,
I've found myself to be avoiding what I want most
(I'm learning to not "want", rather to know that I have and I am
but it's so hard to not say it)
is to communicate with you inwardly and consciously.
Every time I think of trying it I freeze, fall asleep or find something else, an excuse, to not try.


"This is very good to be aware
that although you 'want' something,
you're also resisting having it.

The irony here is
that we have been communicating inwardly,
but it has not been in the way you have imagined it would be."


Last night I realized that I have been putting it off
because I'm so afraid that I will not hear you,
or that I will hear you.
I feel like I'm coming to a crossroads which will change my life dramatically.
Why am I so afraid to receive you in my life?
This is what I have asked for all my life.
I feel like once I communicate directly with you
I will see so clearly, I will be unable to be with my family and friends.
I don't know anyone actively moving towards you.
I know my 2 year old will stick with me
but I find people to be so reluctant to see who we really are
(like myself at the edge of this precipice).


"Well it's no wonder that you would fear channeling,
if it's almost an issue of life and death.
It's not only receiving me that you fear,
it's also yourself and who you'll become
if we are in close, daily inner communication.
Trust me here,
I will not tell you
that you have to pick up and leave your life and go wandering in the desert.
And it's very good awareness to realize
that you're projecting your own reluctance onto others now.
When you're through this hurdle will you be projecting your own willingness as easily?


I know that I am a healer

that I am here to remind people of who we are,
but the responsibility of it scares me and excites me at the same time.
I feel like there is a war going on inside me.
I've realized I've known why I am here for at least 2 years
but I have done nothing to move into it. I'm frozen here.
Please help me.
I love you
and I'm so happy to feel the Mother and you in my life.


"And I am happy that you are also feeling
one of the most denied parts of the Mother.
Part of what is happening in you now
is a reenactment of the Mother's fear of opening to me.
What if you open and I don't come?
What if you open and I come bearing more bad news, pain and suffering?
This fear you're experiencing is a reflection of the stark terror of the Mother
cowering under the wrath of a vengeful spirit that she's afraid is God."


"The healing class is aimed toward the spirit in you
who wants to align with me.
When you and I are aligned in Spirit,
then your Desire, the magnetic essence
which is still holding all of this terror and fear
will find in you an open and accepting spirit
who is willing to follow her lead
in helping her move and release the held charge.


"When that movement begins,
my Light will come flooding in to join your spirit,
and together we'll be drawn through your Desire to the Mother.
We can do all of this together
before we have any written communication, if you like.
The exercise of true sacrifice is a good metaphor
for how you and I can get started with the Spirit side of the healing work.
In the meantime, come visit anytime you like.

I'm the easy-going, non-pushy impulse and voice inside of you
that keeps reminding you of your purpose and your greatness,
and of how much you are loved."

Sometimes writing is too slow for me.


These channeling exercises are very profound for me
in helping me to open to and experience more consciously the Loving Light of God.
What feels to me like the greatest gift of this work
is experiencing this loving presence in me
in places it feels like have never known such love.
Often this makes me cry in a sad - joy gratitude about being saved at last.

Often these feeling experiences of sensing love presence with me in these needy-scared-hurt places
seems more appropriate than just focusing on the channeled words,
although I must say that the focused intention to have this channel is what made this healing possible.
So I go in and out or back and forth between receiving this light and responding emotionally to it.
I sense I am building some vital bridge within myself.


You say, God,
that in these exercises I am interpreting your energetic presence with my imagination.
I sense your loving presence is inspiring and drawing out my own loving spirit.
Experiencing this love as my own
has felt like a grace-filled reunion with my long lost self.
In this I feel to be finally actualizing my ancient desire to BE LOVE FULLY
rather than just have it be something outside myself,
or another
or some denied part of myself,
which determines whether I am worthy of this love or not.
At these moments of union
I truly feel to be born again into myself as New Heart in Body.
And to hear You say I am the finest creation in all the universes,
the manifestation of other creations' evolutions,
well this just seems right when I am experiencing myself in healed wholeness.
I definitely want to stick around to co-create it getting better and better.


As valuable and important as this written channeling work is,
and really I have just started it,
it just feels more appropriate for me at times
to continue the conversations and interpretations within and not write them down.
Often the writing feels too slow of an exchange for me,
although at other times I sense it is good for me to slow down
to focus more directly
and ground into the essence of it.


"Of course it's best for you to do it the way you're moved to at the time.
The writing is good because it grounds and anchors the information,
and gives you something to come back to
if you get stuck in another state
and are temporarily unable to access our connection.
However it works out that we can relate is fine with me.
I'm just tickled that we're communicating consciously."


I sense within myself I am looking here for you to tell me this is OK...
and immediately I remember to release judging myself as bad
for wanting do what feels right and appropriate for me ~
especially in my relationship with God.
And still I appreciate your support and guidance here.
I am inspired by You,
and grateful you are focusing to meet us will-body polarities
in the middle/center where we need to meet.


I just sensed a deep fear surface in me as write this,
a deep terror that as good as this is now to be experiencing loving light ~
at any moment some unforeseen thing or event may rip it all away from me again.
This is a horrible way to live,
yet I am glad to be conscious of it
because now I feel empowered to heal here.
I see how important it is to redeem my devils that would do this smacking
and to release to You the asuric essence I am still holding in my magnetism.
Then my deep-seated terrors can move
and receive lovingness and acceptance
rather than the death creating denials I have been subjecting myself to.


One other thing ~
at the end of my energy and channeling exercises
I ask to have this connection and communication continue within me throughout the day.
It feels really good knowing love's spirit is here for/as me whenever I desire it.
I can imagine the life
when my healing evolves to total expressive freedom and spontaneity infused with lovingness.
Oh the joys of play and magic and discovery and heart-creation!


"Thank you for sharing your experiences with others, and for singing my praises.
Back in the old days I would have told you that you were a prophet,
and I would have had you out spreading the word of my power and glory and greatness.

"Today I'll tell you that the terror you mentioned
is real and potent and still magnetizing to you what you are fearing,
and your pain here is a reflection of the Mother's.

"Today I'll tell you that being present with your magnetic essence
in the ways you are and with the respect you have
is right now the most important work in Creation.
And thank you for sticking around. You're making it better."


Return to Written Channeling Excercise

Channeling Class Discussion | Channeling Class Lesson Two

Channeling Class Lesson One | Channeling Class Introduction

Meeting the Source Exercise | Running Energy Exercise



I follow my understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
  that - after 7 years - I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing pages.
Since March 2009 I am "synchronizing" the chronological process of the Godchannel.com files
with the chronological process of my photos and - if there should be time - observations of the

"Walk About Love"

continuation of March 29, 2009
; latest update of this page; July 1, 2009

Green fields - though they seem to not have been sown this year.
Amidst them: Parastu!


We reach Tel-Arad, and Yeshiya Amariel, who walks with us, gives us a lecture:

Yeshiyah's father ,
Howshua Amariel,
a Black Indian Chief,
who lives nearby,
and has translated the Torah
from a manuscript
in ancient Hebrew
into English,
that at Tel-Arad
was the actual temple
in olden times.
See the Amariel website!
and see the Guiness Book!


The most attentive person
- Yakir -
only 18 years old,
joined us from a Yeshiva
and will soon walk by my side,
on this day
and on later days,
and ask many questions...

I noted a verse from the Bibel, which I learnt from Yakir Lipman Renboim on that day:

The preparations of the heart are man's,
but the answer of the tongue is from YHWH

Proverbs 16:1


During the last kilometers up to Darijaat

there was lot of mental planning and emotional upheaval going on
between Me, Hamutal, Gabriel and - even Rotem Malenky, who usually sticks to "observing"

We decided to call people to a "circle for self-acceptance" - "hug le-qabbalah atzmit".
Though it was known, that I would have to leave the next morning for a few days,
(and that I would not have joined the group for the Rainbow-Gathering in Yatir forest,
even if I wouldn't have been needed in my family,
knowing beforehand, how destructive the "sitting" , especially the "sitting" with the Rainbow people, would be),
Gabriel and Hamutal were ready to conduct the circle without me.
"If you will really do that, I would be so happy that I could just die!"
Meaning, that I finally would not be needed any longer.


Gabriel and Rotem on our way up to Darijaat

But my yearning did not create any reality.
At the Rainbow "gathering" the energy of people- including Gabriel and Hamutal - fell below zero.
Lior Oren described the horrid situation to me on the phone
and much later even Ronny, who had announced beforehand,
that he would leave "the Walk" and be with the Rainbow for 2 1/2 weeks,
"because there I am also needed",
remembered it with disgust.
Many people left, and no wonder, that those who were committed to walking,
were eagerly grasping Marc's invitation to join his "Walk to the Westbank".

But back to Darijaat:

Jaaber lets us sleep under a huge kind of tent, - in one of the coldest nights we encountered -
and we are allowed to use the posh toilets, built adjacent to the backpart of the house of Jaaber's family.
It was weeks later, that I asked Gil: "Did we have to pay for our stay at Jaaber's? " "No!"
WasI the only one, who didn't hear, that anyone thanked Jaaber??????????
Aren't we taking so many and fantastic gifts from people for granted?

In the cave, which Jaaber's grandfather had carved out - for his family, his sheep, his cows and his camels -
we hear the fantastic story of people, who DID NOT MAKE THEMSELVES VICTIMS!
I hope (May 4), I'll get back to this story and tell it in detail.
[July 1, 2009: I won't get back to it, but part of the story can be read on Darijaat's website and in Wikipedia - more: search for 'Drejat"]

That night all people slept in their sleeping bags except for me.
Since my physical problem - the joint in my right groin - had become very severe during the evening
(having been so involved in the planning of the "circle for Self-acceptance" I neglected my own body,
i.e. the constant contracting of the muscles around that joint, and the activation of the anus sphincter muscle),
my "angels" among the walkers suggested to put up my tent in the farest corner of Jaaber's place,
so I would have some privacy, especially for the "Teta-Healing", which Sharon gave me,
trying to change my "belief", that I would not be able to sleep with so many snoring people around,
When I opened my tent the next morning, I saw - squeezed between two blue sleeping-bags further on and my tent:
a bag with Emanuel and Gal! I could have seen it as an "idyll", if not .....


On the background of the Darijaat mosque
Daniela does the "Bowing to the Sun", a series of 12 Yoga postures, which I did for many years in the seventies

So rarely did we have access to toilets! And now these posh ones!

Still, someone prefers to brush his teeth outside!


Another view of Darijaat, with Daniel bowing down to the earth

And yet another view of Darijaat, with Daniela's rising to the sun and my shadow...

A pious gesture on the background of posh villas


Continuation of the photos of the "Walk about Love" in the Godchannel file
"Discussion of God's Messengers"