hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

8:42
My Body, my Partner,
I give thanks to our heart
and all the cardiovascular system,
despite Extrasystoles,
which have been occuring now and then for over 30 years,
probably just to make me more aware of our heart's fantastic rhythm,
of this ongoing gentle beat ever since the early stages of the embryo
who became me, Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam.

I give thanks to Limor, the journalist,
and to her colleague, my daughter-in-love, who invited her.
I give thanks for the deep interview about our relationship,
about "kallot ve-hamayot", daughters-in-law and mothers-in-law.
in the context of an article towards "Family-Day" next week.

10:45
"Your 'altar' composition is splendid,
and so is the journey around the earth for viewing
the close encounter between Jupiter and Venus!
Isn't that symbolic for your encounter with Efrat?"


Yes, now that I think of it:
"Noga" stands for beauty and love
and "Tzedeq" means "Truthfulness" in the Bible
[and not "justice" as usually translated].
I'm still stunned by the outcome of yesterday's interview.
Limor, a writer in the local newpaper, of which Efrat is the producer,
asked me about the reality behind the proverbal enmity
between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law.
"You should start with the story about Naomi and Ruth,
According to which there never was so great a love
as between this mother-in-law and this daughter-in-law."

And though I was hesitating to explain the purpose of that story,
fearing that I wouldn't be able to remember it exactly,
Efrat begged me to do just this,
while telling our personal story about her names Ruth and Efrat.


"And then I helped you
to see the purpose of that strange love-story
in a much deeper way,
which you couldn't have seen back in 2003,
when you followed
"the female thread of redemption in the Bible".


So please help me to phrase this here, so as to remember it!
I'm again feeling so pressured,
as if someone put his foot on my chest, saying: "write or die!"

"Feel this pressure and breathe and ~~~ wait!"

But I might forget, and I haven't more than an hour,
before Immanuel will return, and later Tomer will come,
and the whole family will be together,
here at Shoham and tomorrow at Arad.

Thank you!




14:00
You could have responded: 'I'll help you!'
You could have promised, that I won't forget.
You could have reminded me, that if I'll forget,
that I'll regain these insights at the right time.
Instead you lovingly, funningly said: 'Let Go!'

And so I did, I took Nella for a 10 min. walk .
Schubert's Missa churned in my intestines,
and my eyes were so sensitive,
that they caught four beautiful every-day views.
And I understood, that my insights are yet a secret.
And that I should rely on what should be told at this time
through Limor's short future article,
which will be not only about Efrat Rosenzweig
and Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam, alias Rachel Rosenzweig,
but about other mothers-in-law and daughters-in-law as well

"I'm glad you got it!
You see, sometimes fear and pressure have a purpose.
Like Efrat said to you,
when she came back from her exhausting shopping:
"The Universe told me to stop this craziness:
I drove to 3 supermarkets - imagine all the parking troubles -
to find the mangold [chard] I needed for my recipe...."

"So feel your pressure and feel also,
if you should limp along with it like you would do with a lame friend,
or if you should listen to its 'Simply do not do!' "



Thank you so very much.
I'll soon cease my/our creation on this Friday page,
and surrender to the experiences of the 'exterior' world...

"HER NAME MUST BE EFRAT-Rut"
Biographical Background to the Research
on the Hidden Female Thread of Redemption

For Efrat: March 2003 -
based on Phillip Ratner's sculpture of Yaacov's Dream