The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries


[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]


I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 38th day, September 2002

More Joys on the second of September:
- My friends in Bruxelles do stand up to me!
- My son in Detroit, who has now Elah (15) living with him in the US, tells me how well they get along.
- Thanks to my Passionfruits and a plant on this hill, "verbascum", the bladder-infection has subsided.
- In front of the Crusaders' Fortress on my hill, which is probably the site of ancient Maccabean Modi'in
a rare picture has been taken today: five workers, four Palestinians and I, the Jew, each one with his/her tool!
In the last moment Maajid, from the Department of Antiquities in East-Jerusalem, grasped my saw together with me.

 

 

 












For you shall go out with joy
[not in panic as in your Exodus - Js 52,12]
and be led (back) in shalom
Hills and mountains break forth
in jubilation before you
and all the trees of the field
shall clap their hands
and all the shrubs of the desert
shall clap their hands.

[Isaiah 55,12. Last line: my addition]

 



 

 

 

2014

The FELT days 147, 148, 149, 150 ~ of the next 15 FELT years

1 5   y e a r s  = 5 4 8 0   days   of
g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e   Z e i t   
"inmitten der Ewigkeit",
f e l t - f i l l e d   t i m e  
"amidst eternity"
from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all]
The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013

On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness.

Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines

To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged"
in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!

2014-01-25-Shoham>Acco>Shoham- 5335 days


2013 song, March Nr.3: al tashlikhi al re'ekh
2014-01-26-Shoham>Arad- still 5334 days

I so strongly feel the pain of others: Mirjam and Victor, Efrat's parents, Meme, her grandmother (95), Dani, her brother, Efrat herself, my son because of Efrat's tension (menses?), Mika, who "suffered", as she said, listing what I could have listed myself when walking through the market:
"crowdedness, noise, garbage, exhibited fish".


song: Here I am closing my eyes again
2014-01-27- Monday -still 5333 days

On most of my 365x70 mornings I woke up with
"what do I have to do today", i.e. what are my chores? for I turn everything into a chore, even my wish to answer a letter or to go on creating a song And after having been with people: "what do I regret - with shame - in what I said?" e.g. to Efrat about "the Scroll>Avi>Yusuf Dec. 28...

song: al ha-dvash ve-al ha-oqetz


2014-01-28- Tuesday- still 5332 days

A small + a big disappointment. Small: Gadi will know only on Febr.6, if he'll get the job of tourism development in the Negev. My hope: those who appoint him, as he himself, will grasp better, what historical task is involved. - Big: Yusuf was "with me" - for 2 hours.But he has slid back into his disguise, unaware of himself and me.

song: Jede Faser meines Wesens


January 26, 2014

3 days have passed since Immanuel's 51st birthday,
 I want to honor him -and myself-- by a composition,
beginning with Mika's incredible song for her Abba,
adapted to the song about the steadfast cypress.

{as to the English letters on the shirt, she says it was meaningless,
perhaps she wanted to write IMMANUEL in English and regretted it}

I'm sitting next to the posh bathtub and as usual feel stung
by the amount of water, fluid soap, shampoo + conditioner,
which Mika is commanded to use.
This time I say - in a mixture of self-pity and humor :

"Why was I born into this time-period!
Being such an outsider, not belonging at all."

Mika: "But to us you do belong! See the drawing for Abba's birthday:
Everyone is looking in his direction, not only me, Imma, Nella, but also you, Savta!"

[See how a big heart flows-flies out from me over Mika...]
Immanuel is born - January 23, 1963 (s. more)
Christa is pregnant
Immanuel is 4 weeks old, Heidelberg, Germany
Immanuel's father, Rafael Rosenzweig, 2 years before I divorced him.
This is my, Rachel's favorite image of him
Immanuel's mother, since the divorce, March 1981, called Rachel Bat-Adam
sitting on a rock in the river Jordan, 1981 or 82.
Elah (with her boyfriend) and Alon and Tomer, Immanuel's children, Mika's stepsiblings


"One of the 8 doves was meant to bring peace... and failed"



Efrat bequeathed a Persian wall-carpet to me, which suits my cosy corner,
though I also loved the double cover that was there before - from both my daughters-in-love:
a cover with desert-animals from Efrat and one with see-animals from Ra'ayah. .
Yet now I'm elated by the new look of my one-room flat.
I like the contrast between the Persian carpet from Efrat on the bed
and the spiral-carpet, which I inherited from Efrat maybe 12 years ago.

And what about my vision?
My childish quest to get a "Sign from Heaven" each day, is answered day after day.
For instance the written phone-conversation with Yusuf on Jan. 23,
and the verbal phone-conversation with Ezri Alon on Jan. 24,
and the encounter with "Gingie" from Mitzpe-Ramon on the market of Acco on Jan.25:
"in the snow of 1992 we drove to you to see, how you were managing,
and what did you say?
"why are you making collises in the pure snow?"
"I'm sorry for this",
I laughed like he did, "do you know Gadi and Efrat in Mitzpe?"
"Of course , I do!"

and the last dream this morning after a night of having woken up and stayed awake often:
there was a list with names on a big poster - I don't remember for what,
but on top of it was written "Pyramidion, Rachel Bat-Adam",
and in the bus from Shoham to Tel-Aviv,
I suddenly lift my eyes and above the driver see
how the name of a station appears again and again,
and when the driver stops I see it also on a sign outside:
"Khittah", "Wheat-Street",
Hadn't I given much thought to "wheat" in the desert in the future?

Hadn't Micha brought me 2 kinds of "Durum Pasta" ["we don't like it!"]
made of the hard wheat that grows in Israel and can also grow in the desert?

And last not least - the news weather expert showed a live scene:
Irrigaton sprinklers water wheat in January!!

No sprinklers during biblical droughts! Nor imports of soft wheat!

 

 

January 27, 2014


"They" postponed the decision who will get the job
of the director of tourism development in the Negev.
Is this a "good" sign or a "bad" sign for Gadi & me?

SEGULAH - a Special-Treasure

The morning-book: Amos Elon about the history of the Jews in Germany 1743-1933,
in my German edition called: "At another time",
in the original called: For the pity of it all.

p.229
"Ueberall war die Saekularisierung auf dem Vormarsch.
Protestanten und Juden legten immer weniger Wert auf religioese Riten.
Fritz Mauthner pries an den Juden ihre starke Neigung zum Saekularismus.
Wieder sei es
ihre historische Aufgabe, die Welt zu fuehren,
diesmal als Pioniere einer modernen Gottlosigkeit.

Freud sprach von Spinoza als seinem grossen Bruder im Unglauben."

I translate:
"Everywhere secularization was proceeding. ...
Mauthner praised the Jews for their strong tendency to secularism.
Again it was their historical task, to lead the world,
this time as pioneers of a modern Godlessness."

This sentence (if Amos Elon quoted Fritz Mauthner well) shows
how even a "secular" Jew feels,
that the Jews have a historical task,


On the background of Mika's strange utterance:
"Maybe I am a segulah-child",
I want to go again into the ancient question,
what is Israel's mission in this world?
And is my vision connected to this mission?
How often do I think of Israel as the 'am sgulah,
the pioneer of humankind.
How often did I tell the evolution of the biblical God
from wanting to annihilate humankind,
but seeing one human as "whole", not "good", but "tamim",
who would reproduce humankind,
yet again: the same patterns>the tower of Babel, "so we won't disperse"
By confusing their language, "God" forced them to disperse.
yet again: Terach, Abram's father, "settled".
Finally "God" comes to the understanding.
There has to be a pioneer, who will "go", part from safety and security
and "go to himself"
A terrible destiny for Israel to be an outsider among nations.
Only one in several generations became a Yakhid Sgulah,
who exemplified what a human has to learn to become whole
and thus create a life of freedom and fullness.
It still has not been learnt, but Israel - in his Yekhidê-Sgulah - led the world:
Marx, Freud, Einstein [all from German background, by the way!] ,
an unproportional high procentage of Jews who got the Noble Price, and also "going out" from a stifling religion to resurrect a decrepit nation,
resurrecting their petrofied language,
resurrecting their creative powers in agriculture .
away from a stifling religion to resurrecting a decrepit nation.

It is now, that Israel has again to function as the 'am sgulah,
by balancing the slavery of technological Babel
by dispersing in the desert and learning there how to become whole.

More about 'am segulah and yakhid segulah
from bio-testimony 3 July 27, 2011
I find my song about "yekhide'-sgulah" 4 times on "Healing-K.i.s.s.",
but never explained.
After all the original verse in Exodus 19:5-6
talks of an "'am-segulah", of a "special-treasure PEOPLE"
not of "special-treasure individuals "



"You shall be to me a special-treasure from among all peoples,
Indeed all the earth is mine
but you, you shall be to me
a kingdom of priests,
a holy nation"
translation of Buber-Rosenzweig pupil Everett Fox
But what I came to understand in time, was,
that Israel is "a people of treasure" only in a passive sense,
a dire result of its denying its uniqueness, its attempt to escape it, yes fight it,
i.e. the task of its uniqueness
(ye'ud yikhudo) for the rest of humankind.
What kept this uniqueness and this task of uniqueness alive, was the fact,
that this concept and the exemplary manifestation of this concept in Moses

"zae talui bi" - "this depends on me",
[a midrash put in the mouth of Moses]
-Talmud, Berachot 32,2
and "o who would give that all the people of YHWH were prophets" Nu.11:26),
"produced" "special-treasure-individuals" ,
who took care - often by endangering their lives,
or at least by going through intense loneliness and frustration
[see the song "My 3 Peers"]-
to make their people aware of their responsibility for their destiny.


More about 'am segulah and yakhid segulah

from a 2013 entry

 

If it is a law of this Manifestation,
that only an individual can learn, not a collective,
only a yakhid can become a yakhid-segulah,
a unique human, as a pioneer of the yakhad ,

... I wonder, why those prophets and especially Jeremiah,
did not cease to rebuke the collective.
After all, the election of a yakhid-segulah began with Moses
(and in its translation into a myth:
with Avraham Yitzkhaq and Ya'aqov)
and became "rampant", so to speak, with King David
(and in its translation to the myth of the Messiah).
whose denials brought ruin about entire nations.
.......

In other words:
the evolution of a yakhid-segulah in the costume of a "King"
did not lead to people's taking responsibility for their lives.
And yet, it is not Moshe, "the humblest of men on earth"
who became a symbol for "Messiah", but King David!!


What the yakhid-segulah has to evolve in him/herself,
is the capacity to feel every little thing in every moment,
so there won't be any separation between parts of him/herself,
so there won't be the slightest denial, which later could erupt as evil.

 

 

from bio-testimony 2
Yet in Haran began Abram's conscious going-out,
began his uniqueness.
For only if he will be unique, can he become
"a blessing for the families of the earth!" (Genesis 11-12:3)
Josef, too, was a yakhid-segulah
but only through suffering and humilations did he learn
what was the vocation of his uniqueness (yi'ud yikhudoh)
.
And the brothers as well are learning only through hard trials
that they are guarantors for each other.
Never again shall they desert one of them.

 

See the comment to the song "zakharti lakh",
which I chose for my birthday in SongGame 2007-08-15:


Jeremiah lets God say the strangest thing to Israel:

"I remember you", meaning I remember gratefully,
"the loving kindness of your youth".
...
But that is nothing compared to the metaphors that follow:
"the love of your klulotaikh, your wedding, your nuptials".
... and in Hosea 2:21-22 it's written expressively - 3 times! -
"I betrothed you" - erastikh
[see 2012 songs Nr. 17]

What did Israel do to deserve such divine gratefullness?

"Your walking behind me in the desert,
in land not sown."

A land, that is not sown, cannot produce bread.
To walk behind God in the desert means,
to give up security, safety, insurances.
It means to become free of the Egyptian or any other slavery,
but who is ready to give up security for freedom???????

Looking into the "history" of the Slaves' Exodus from Egypt,
the very opposite was true:
It is mentioned seven times , that the slaves hated Moses
for dragging them away from the meat-pots in Egypt
into the Desert.
Several times they went as far
as trying to stone Moses and his brother Aaron.
If "God" wanted a nation of more than 600000 men
plus women and children
to walk behind him in the desert,

he must have been out of his mind.
The 'am-sgulah,
the precious treasure, the unique people
[Exodus 19:6]
was forced into this role only by their later destiny in Exile.
What "God" succeeded in, was to find once in a time-period...
the "yakhid-segulah", the unique individuum

[it's a pity, that the mystical grammar
- the common root of "aekhad-yakhid-yakhad" - gets totally lost in English]

in Biblical times called "prophet",
who indeed did walk behind God
in unsown, unknown, unfamiliar territory.
Not without incredible pain, frustration, anger,
powerlessness, utter despair.
See my song about "My three Peers".
[See about all this the content of the third part of my book
"All Isael are Guarantors for each other"]

But why is Jeremiah's God so grateful,
that Israel , or at least its prophet, walked behind him in the Desert?

ENVISIONING

January 27, 2014:
I desire to be guided - by this metaphor
yes, this physical reality of THE DESERT
not as something that already happened,
but as something that will happen NOW!

 



 

January 28, 2014



Moments of Grace, when my own uniqueness became palpable
Yusuf:
"Through all my 40 years I've never lived, except on that one day which I spent with you".


My granddaughter finds herself in my presence:

SEGULAH

One of Mika's piano-pieces, "Romance" by Anton Diabelli.
The seemingly simple tune touched me so much,
that I knew I would adapt a song to it.
And the song came to me:
segulah - the precious-treasure


     

 



From timeline3b - an early stage of the present vision
And I heard:
"When humankind did not learn what 'God' wanted them to learn through the FLOOD,
and instead of becoming each one unique, built the Babel tower
"so we won't disperse",
he called one man to leave his comfort-zone and walk through the desert for months,

and never settle!!! but even in his intended country move from time to time, all his life.

When the Hebrew slaves did nothing to become free, instead preferred their comfort-zone
where food was provided and the question: Who am I and what am I here for? was solved,
'God'-Moshe led them into the desert, where
" ani yeda'tikh ba-midbar, s. 2012songs Nr. 17,
meaning: here, where you own nothing, and even food and water comes only as a surprise,
here you will be able to ask the true, real, relevant question: "Who am I and why am I here?"


Your VISION about PEACE through DESERT SPS HOSTING ECONOMY
is meant - among numerous things - to give humankind a new chance,
to learn to create "civilizations" without depleting their very resources
and after having demonstrated through a model how this can be done
  you now run a sword into this model - to dispel people's complacency.


addition on January 28, 2014:
"among numerous things"
my desert-vision appears to be ever more comprehensive, yes all-inclusive,
nothing less than a quantum-leap, a paradigm shift, a new time-period,
that I'm often scared of being megalomanic.
I was consoled a bit, when - in a program about Einstein - I heard him saying,
that he didn't want to dedicate his time and talent to this or that phenomenon.
"I want to learn, how God worked, when he created the world".
It was then, that he came out with his E = mc2

From my website "ARARAT-Heart"

My vision of Peace-through-Desert-Economy
stems from the understanding,
that only a gigantic common economic interest
can bridge the gap between these nations,
the gap in self-respect.

The
(denied) feeling of the Biblical Cain - "I'm not worthy, not equal" -
is what - in addition to "FEAR" - prevents peace and cooperation!!!

Because everyone has so much DESERT,

[Israel-Palestine 60%, Jordan 83%, Egypt 91%]
the common interest will be
to develop technology and economy in the DESERT!

The governments will have to learn to ask the right question:

What is "The Comparative, Competitive Advantage" of the DESERT?

Isn't it "SPS" - Space, Purity and Silence,

a resource desired by many
who suffer from crowdedness, noise and pollution in the cities?

There is much demand!!! but almost no supply!!!

It's not agriculture or industry
that has to be imposed on the DESERT!
The DESERT invites us to e-volve the kind of hospitality I call:


"Re-creation of the Soul" (in Hebrew: "nofesh la-nefesh")!


It was on the mountains of ARARAT, where Noah's Ark landed after the Great Flood...

It was on ARARAT, where humankind - wiped out except for Noah's Family - re-began.

It will be ARARAT HEART, between the SaltSea and Arad, where re-creation will start.

 













Looking out from my tent on Rakhaf, towards the two Ararat-breasts - and beyond - towards the Salt Sea.

 

Before going to sleep, I felt like opening a folder in my archive - randomly.
What came my way were pages of my 1971 research about the am segulah,
The "special-treasure" stands out only in its horrid holocaust consequence:

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