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Healing Class Lesson I
The Quest for the Mother
Part Three: Choosing to Heal

This channeling obviously is a correction of "A Call to Healing".
The changes - in my edition indicated in green - are only four,
but they are quite meaningful according to my understanding.

"When she is ready, and in the ways she wants,
I will bring to the Mother the healing power of my true Light,
the Light of love, understanding and acceptance.
As you and I work together on your awakening to Self,
I hope you'll also choose to work with me
in helping to heal the gap between the Mother and me.
[Version in "A Call to Healing": in bringing healing to the Mother.]

"I must point out that it is your choice.
Free will would be meaningless
if you didn't have this choice.
I also want to say
that whatever you choose
is the right choice for you,
and I will always support you in it.

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"You will heal yourself
as you learn to channel my Light through yourself
to the parts of the Mother in you that need it.
As you heal yourself,
you will help heal the rest of Creation.
[Version in "A Call to Healing":you and I will also heal the rest of Creation.]

"Just as I am within you, so is the Mother.
You can know my presence within
as your aspirations, your thoughts and ideas.
You can know the Mother's presence within
as your desires, your feelings, emotions and passion.
The name I best know her by is 'Desire'.

"Illness, suffering and even death
are the result of the harm
that has come to Desire,
to true feelings and emotions.
You have inherited,
as have all beings in Creation,
the original imprints
caused by the hostile light
that is still trapped in the Mother.

"For a long time after the Mother and I
became aware of each other,
I blamed her for the bad feelings
I sometimes got from her.
I wasn't yet aware of her imprints
or that my Light had caused them.
Neither of us knew
that the bad feelings about seemingly innocent things I did
were caused by something
that stirred her imprints.
In modern psychological terms,
'She was triggered by my behaviors
which caused a reenactment of the circumstances of her original trauma.'
And what has happened between the Mother and me
is still happening now inside of you.

"For a long time after I became aware
of the Mother's deep imprints
and that she was damaged by them,
I still blamed her for them.
I couldn't remember doing anything to her
and I felt
that it must have been someone else who did this,
no doubt Lucifer.

"Most of the messages I have sent so far
through my prophets, teachers and channelers
have been skewed by the blame
I had for the Mother.
Patriarchy and prejudice against women
are reflections that still remain of my original blame.
Without going into a lot of detail now,
suffice it to say that the least serious thing I did
because of her bad feelings was
to ignore her.
More serious things included
banishing her from heaven
and ostracizing and humiliating her
in front of all the beings we had created together.

"The worst thing I did was
to turn the other way
as my denied power took the form of Lucifer
and mercilessly tortured her
[old version: and mercilessly tortured her for most of eternity]
in a place that can only be called Hell.

" You may be thinking
that surely God could not have done these things.
I know now that I did do these things,
although for a long time I was in denial of it.

Apology to the Mother

"Because I am no longer denying it,
I can heal it.
And this is my intention.
The road thus far has been long and twisted,
with many false starts and dead ends.
Now that the truth of what has happened is exposed,
I will never again be able
to go into denial about these things.
I will never again turn away from the Mother or her pain.
The road ahead is quite different
than where we've been so far in Creation.
The new road begins here.

"There are no words adequate
to convey the depth of my sorrow
for what my bad light has done to the Mother.
I can only express this in Creation
and specifically in the ways
that I make it up to her.
Until now, Creation has been God's thing.
The Mother's role was either ignored or minimized.

"I begin my apology here
with this message to the Mother,

" 'I am sorry I used my power
to protect and glorify myself
at your your expense.
I know now that you never meant me any harm
and that what I saw as ugly in you
was my own reflection.
I understand now
that the true power and glory of Creation
is in your Desire.
I am now ready to fulfill the promise
I first made to you.
I now make it so
that your Desire is my will.
I'm sorry I took so long to get that right.
And I will demonstrate
my seriousness and sincerity to you
beginning now.'

"This is the end of the first lesson in this class.
I have much more to say about the Mother and me,
and in other lessons
I will share some practical methods
that will make it easier to do the healing work
I've begun to describe here.
In the meanwhile, I would like you read
the page on releasing judgments.
Also, recommended reading for this class
is Right Use of Will by Ceanne DeRohan."

Channelers' note: There is a separate page about Right use of Will with links to an ongoing discussion of the material.

Healing Class Lesson Two: The Spirit Polarity

Healing Class Discussion

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