How
can the sun in the sky appear through the leaves of
a vine
on the ceiling of my veranda and manifest this shadow
pattern?
I searched~ and found it shining from the roof of Shalom's
car!
It's only since the uprooting of the "Satan Shrubs"
between us,
that
our neighbor's house, garden and car is totally visible......
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This is
the image
which awaited me
on the first day of 2010
MYSELF
The next image I could catch
was not less symbolic:
Tomer's
"Tear" for me
on Itamar's
drawing 2002
All this next to this image,
which once was just a photo
among those I'm daily editing
with the software Firework.
But after having been edited,
it stayed on - on the black screen!
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January 1, 2010; last update: January
27, 2010; because of the song "May the graciousness" above,
I came across this sculpture again,
exactly on a weekend - July 29-31, 2011 - on which these Three are
again together abroad, this time in London (Immanuel:Simulator)
This composition of images on this page
will
- not express in words, but somehow symbolize -
my thinking after 3 years of my task with my family
[see the beginning of the process
in "Today's
Desire" Oct.24-25,
2009]
- it needs some intense "listening and being silent"
(see Rilke above)
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It was the 25th
of December "last year", 2009,
on the morning of their weekend flight to Paris,
when I took these photos.
Immanuel is in his pilot uniform.
Today , on January 15, 2010,
during Immanuel's annual leave,
they are flying to Zurich,
(from where they'll reach the Italian Dolomite
Alps,
a place near the Austrian border called
Selva di val gardena
-see the video)
and this time Abba will not fly the plane
but be a passenger just like Imma and Mika,
(a gift for the
certificate of "Excellent Employee"
which Abba was granted from EL-AL)
Nor will I be there to accompany them to the car.
The ski-week with the families
of my son's step-siblings
will end on January 23, his 47th birthday,
and though Efrat hinted at her wish
that I may be there, on Jan. 24,
to celebrate with the 4 children,
I may choose to let them celebrate
within their intimate family...
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What follows is
a composition of photos which alternate between images from my son's
plane
(though not above France, but above the United States' East-or West-Coast)
and between images of a neighborhood and a storey house on the ground,
the third home
of my son's family in three years, a second time at Shoham!
This is the kind of "courts",
which characterize
this neighborhood "Yuvalim",
to the left "Ha-Zohar Street" ,
[accessable also from its
eastern side]
to the right "Maccabim Street",
[not accessable from its
western side,
where one of the numerous paved pathes
runs along,
which crisscross between houses
and MIka's many playgrounds]
the last house to the right
is "Maccabim Street 86 c",
Mika's house,
as she well knows.
[see
about the coincidence
with "Zohar"
on the visit to the Dead Sea
with Yahia, Cornelia & Ben-Chorin
on Dec.27, 2009] |
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It is the 6 room flat to the right, on the ground,
which my children have rented,
for they need a piece of garden, and a room for Tomer
and ~~~~~~ a room ~~~~~~ for grandma ~~~ so far ...
The entrance is through clicking a code , which Mika
knows already perfectly
Three images of Mika in Efrat's new "My Album"
on "Facebook"
I arrived - once again - on Monday, January 4, 2010.
When Immanuel fetched me from the train-station at Lod,
he had Mika sleeping in the back (after kindergarden!)
and was talking with his
sister,
congratulating her to her birthday,
asking - just when I entered - what she wished for herself,
so he could focus on it:
"Focus on my creativity"!
I gestured, if he wanted her to know about my presence,
and he said into the phone: "Imma has just
entered."
"Shalom, Imma", I heard her through the loud-speaker.,
I asked, if she wanted me, too, to focus on her creativity,
adding:
"But perhaps it's not more creativity you need,
you have enough of that,
but more receiving?"
"I am received!"
she responded
and I was glad, though it didn't fit the stories I had heard.
I also was happy to hear my son talk so warmly with Ronnit,
and it was then that I had an insight which hit me like a lightening.
But this and other experiences during the following hours cannot be
exposed.
In hindsight (Jan. 15, 2010) everything
was "staged" to cause a new Lekh-Lekhâ
Maybe, this was the last time, that I was present,
when my son read the Good-Night story for his daughter, just before
going on flight.
Maybe, it will be healthier for this family, if no person from the
outside, and be it super-grandma, will disturb the threesome intimacy!
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To
Mika's third birthday I bought her a safe piano-stool,
and on this morning
she sits next to me and accompanies me gently
- not hammering like most kids at this age do.
Then she dances to the music I play,
and her mother, whom I called to take my camera,
caught a picture, which at least hints at her dancing.
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When I began my "assignment", to
always be present with Mika and Efrat,
when my son would be on long flights (New
York, Los Angeles, Hongkong, Bangkok)
- exactly 3 years ago -
Mika could not yet walk....
Now she can dance, sing and play, she can speak and think and draw,
and maybe, the "Higher Selves" of her and me, of her father
and mother
have come to the understanding, that grandma must recede, retreat
now
and be there not more often
than other fortunate grandmothers are in the lives of their grandchildren.
Efrat registered in "Facebook", which
makes sending all the ski-images
easy.
What I found there also, was an album called "My Mika" and
in it this image:
a happy togetherness on Efrat's birthday, July 5, 2009, with Mika
and Alon.
And as a closure : a flashback to the beginning
of these 3 years - February 3, 2007
- when Mika could not yet walk
My eyes were turned to Mika lovingly- when she was
sitting, when she was crawling, and - through the camera- when she
was on Abba's back!
On the image, on which Mika is standing , I - symbolically - turn
my eyes to the south, where- in the far distance- my home at Arad
will await me!
va-yehi no'am hashem
