The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]


I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 25th day, August 9, 2002

Driving or sitting in a car
is an ordeal for Body.

Still I wanted to go
with Micha and Ronnit
to the exhibition "Despair&Hope"
of their half-sister Dita.
All the way I contracted
and relaxed ring muscles
invisibly to my children.

As great as the orange paintings were,
as glad was I
to come home and stretch and stretch
and move Body
imitating this painting
called
"GROWING"

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The FELT days 99, 100, 101, 102 ~ of the next 15 FELT years

1 5   y e a r s  = 5 4 8 0   days   of
g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e   Z e i t   "inmitten der Ewigkeit",
f e l t - f i l l e d   t i m e  "amidst eternity"
from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all]
The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013

On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness.
Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines

To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged"
in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!

2013-12-06-Friday- still 5385 days

This is the 99th FELT Day, and the first, on which no 'kicking' feeling asks for attention.
I feel whole with my everyday life, with my
16 actors who orbit me like planets, each one unique, in a different distance from me. Arad's "starchildren" all moved away and so did old friends, the last: Moshe.- I am free for YOU!


song: hishlamti aet tqufat khaiyai

 

 

again: the seven lines refused to appear in line...
2013-12-08-Sunday - still 5383 days, 4:04 AM

Still no sleep.Inspired how to convey the message to Avi through a written scroll, as his "Oracle" of 2100 years ago. Then more flooding of ideas. While recording them one after the other, I also listen to the great gift of the past day's song, singing it, counting 26 syllables and tones. 26=YHWH. Feeling humbled by such guidance!

Song: ronni aqarah

2013-12-09-Monday - still 5382 days,

Micro-feelings- still in bed: thanks to Arnon for having lowered the keyboard for his playing, but now the wall-sockets are easier to be reached for switching on also the winter-stove. Love- mixed with guilt, when -letting fall a hair on the carpet-I realize again, that I won't use Micha's expensive vacuum-cleaner, but my old brush+dustpan.
song: yareakh daqiq (the moon-phases)
2013-12-07-Shabbat - still 5384 days

100 - So grateful for the feelings of which
the pretty format: 4 days, 7 lines, made me
aware of! Grateful for the computer with its
wondrous tools to sculpt! Grateful to Efrat who
urged me to enlighten visitors of my website:
"linear time~space amidst spherical being"
Grateful to the co-sculptors in the Beyond!

song: feel yourself and feel full-filled
At the end of a TV program about the United Arab Emirates,
and in it a short doc about a wealthy entrepreneur,
who still recalls his desert childhood -playing in the sands,
a Bedouin flute played - in the background - a touching tune.
I recorded it, noted the notes, "what words will come to it?"
Within 10 seconds the verse from the Qur'an
which opens Healing-K.i.s.s.
adapted themselves word to note word to note
without any need to omit or add a tone to the rhythm!

in-na Al-la-hu la yu-gha-ya-ru ma bi-qau-min
hat-ta yu-gha-ya-ru ma bi-an-fu-si-him
Lo! Allah changeth not the condition of a folk
until they change that which is in their souls.
[Qur'an, Sura "The Thunder", 13:13]


-"charming" Ifeel.
Contrary to my present principle of not initiating anything,
DI ma
December 6, 2013, still 14 days till Mika's 8th birthday

a phone

Pondering, Fantasizing, Visualizing ----- Mobile Desert Hosting Enterprises

My dream so far: Principles of realizing it:
It must be Avi's vision and project.
I must be completely in the background.
I wanted David and Elat as mediators with Avi,
but when Moshe Klein cancelled his visit,
though it had seemed to me,
that his visit was a sign,
that I should ask for his support,
just like he was the first to support me
with the Succah-idea, in January 1988,
I understood - or so it seems to me -
that I should not petition anyone,
certainly not "oldtimers".
It must be a dream of the young people.
Then the old people can follow.

Also the people with whom I'll talk,
will be at Mitzpe-Ramon, nowhere else.
"There it's going to happen",
said the French Gershom in July 1989.
He thought of the apocalypse,
but it's the redemption,
that will start in the desert,
like "ani yeda'tikha ba-midbar" (2012 songs Nr. 27)
All this ecological fighting   a g a i n st !
When hosts and guest learn to integrate
Adam veAdamah in the desert
as a nofesh la-nefesh,
as a "re-creation for the soul",
they'll then apply it everywhere else,
the feeling for the earth and for nature.


It is not me, who has to stand behind the vision!
Nor any other individual person or personal group!
It must be the Reshut's (INPA's) initiative and renewal,
they'll call for a scientific project with 3 models,
perhaps in different areas of Israel,
perhaps all in one area,
but not seen or heard by each other.
It must be the reshut which sends out the message
and presents criteria of the candidates,
and chooses among them the first 3 "trios".
[Addition on Dec.19: I came to the conclusion,
that there, indeed, must be three , not two partners,
so that always one can rest and be al-one with his/her soul!]

No money is given, the candidates are entrepreneurs,
independant - except for being controlled by the Reshut.
They will buy the materials and create the tents and the "Mishkan",
i.e. the shaded four tent center, [like our Four Nation Tent in Eilat]
where the hosts will live, cook and offer meals and water to the guests
and invite them to common activities,
like learning-or healing meetings with exterior teachers.


They get a chance for one, two or three years,
and compete with each other ,
who will leave the earth in the most virgin state.
The equipment is identical with their "business",
and they can sell it whenever they want.
provided the buyer sticks to the rules,
and it's the Reshut who reinforces the rules.

It has to be differentiated
between the redeemed land, the former Succayah,
with  m u s t    stay free of human activity,
as a remembrance of what was tried, but did not "work" enough,
and the spots of land inside Nature Reserves, [OR FIRE-ZONES!]
which will be (designated?) to mobile desert hosting enterprises
Each location should be wide enough to enclose the mishkan
and 16 spaces for tents, of which 12 can be chosen anew each week.
An Ohalah must move to another location at least every 6 monts.

Economic concept of the Ohalah
First model for one entire year,
when it will stand the test,
two more models for two years,
No there must be 3 models from the beginning,
in 3 different areas of Israel's desert (60% of the State)
so they can compete for
who leaves the desert in the most virgin state.
this means:
no central responsibility yet,
only a volunteer (someone old)
who will be the secretary at Mitzpe-Ramon.
Buerocracy as simple as possible:
No ma'am in the first year,
nor any leasing contract,
simply a contract with the Reshut
about the temporariness of the Ohalah.

Guests will be told:
per day per person 70 NIS including food,
but this will be valid only,
if you stay for seven days!
If you stay less,
you still have to pay 70x7 NIS = 490NIS

Also: this is the case only,
if there are 11 other guests,
each one in one tent.
(If people want to be together,
they still must erect each his/her own tent)
So if you do not want to pay
490x12 NIS = 5880NIS for your week,
you must come with a group,
a group you will gather yourself
around some theme,which is relevant to you,
or a group organized by some teacher.

This first principle: Seven days
is important
a) to make people get used to the desert,
and meet its challenges,
this needs more than a weekend
b) to keep the logistics of registration and payments
that one volunteer secretary in town
can handle it within a few hours.
It will also simplify and economize
the buying of food products.

The second principle: 1 person in 1 tent
makes it possible for couples and friends
to experience full-ness and still-ness in both:
in al-one-ness
and in coming together each time out of choice.

Despite the rootedness of the people of Israel in the desert
("ani yeda'tikha ba-midbar")
and the Festival of Succot for reminding us of the desert,
the present Israelis are addicted to "security" and "safety".
Living in an Ohalah trains people in inner trust
instead of relying on exterior security.
There will be no security-fence, nor a guard at a gate.
As to the specific fears of thefts,
a Rihlah will make sure to be part of the "khalaal",
the guarded space of their Bedouin neighbors.
If guests want to come with their cars,
they have to leave them in the nearest "town".
The hosts' vehicle will be the only one
to pass through the desert tracks,
to transport guests, to bring water and food.
[I still can't imagine ways of transport
in areas where there are no tracks!]



[A view of the Four Nation Tent at Eilat in January 1998]



E N V I S I O N I N G   the manifestation of the mobile model of my Desert-Hosting-Economy vision
I emphasize:
The Reshut will be the only governmental factor,
on whom the mobile hosting-businesses will be dependent,
and- in the beginning
the Reshut has NOT to be approached by petioning,
but by showing them the evolution of the concept
to set up Nature Reserves all over the World,
the evolution which integrates humans and nature,
but never humans in settlements or in "succayahs"!
The reshut must be shown their twofold interest:
a) to have an educational situation,
where people, especially pupils of 11th grade,
will learn through their body and soul, what nature is.
Indeed, from the beginning there should be
a cooperation between the reshut and the Ministry of Education

Being the initiator of and the only one responsible for
the implementation of this new vision
(comparable to the first Kibbutz)
will heighten the Reshut's status in the population,
which then will give more energy to what else the Reshut does.
They will be those who'll create the framework, the basis
for Ben Gurion's vision to be fulfilled;
"It's in the Negev
where Israel's destiny will be determined",
and not through "hafrakhat hashmamah",
but through hafrakhat ha-neshamah ba-shmamah.
Perhaps they might even receive a small percentage
of the income of the Ohalot,
so they'll be more effective in implementing their other goals.

This night (Dec. 7-8) I thought: first must the land be redeemed,
then can the new vision come into focus.
Now (Dec.8, 14:00) I think,
that the latter will alleviate the former and vice versa.
Also for Avi it will be much easier,
when he can see himself as "the king" of the area,
on whose brave dismantling of his creation,
which was meant to be temporary,
but turned out to be permanent,
the new vision depends.

I thought, I must find out, where in the world and if at all,
it is already happeneing:
this evolution of integrating adam and adamah,
[The Egyptian Nature Reserves Authority, in Sharem-e-Sheikh,,
with whom I communicated in 1996, had thought about it!)

This I must read, but other info will come to me by itself.
And I must find Ezri Alon as the man
who can open the door to the reshut
Please give me a sign, if I should turn to Ram Eisenberg,
to Wardit (Dvorah Ilan), to David and Eilat, to Rami Haruvi!
I'm beginning to feel,
that no petitioning, no partneroring is needed.
The time is right and the right people are waiting!

The function of Gadi - who so far doesn't want to be involved -
should be to convey the message to Maya
and to all the young dreamers with whom she is in contact.
I myself am radiating and desiring and visualizing
what will balance the entire Babylon-Dubbai earth.

I already intuit the answer: Except for Ezri and Uri Baidetz
I should not petition or partner anyone.
If I have the opportunity I'll praise all the other "angels",
and then those who hear about them through me,
will find them!

If from the first 3 models there will also come
the yearned-for outcome:
finding full-fill-ment for The Abrahams, i.e. the Bedouins,
and - at the same time
- for the Palestinians in their 40 % of desert,
as their "Reshut" let me know in 1998,
it will be wonderful,
but I'll not even mention this perspective at this time.
Ohalah/Rihlah/ Pyramidion

Technical Problems to be solved:

Water

distance from
the next track,
future: cisterns.

gas for baking
Pittahs
gas for cooking
gas for heating tents in winter

what about flies and mosqitos in the mishkan

 




Learning from, being nourished by Past Experiences
From "Peace-Process 2002"

The 5 hours we spent together let us catch up with what we had missed,
in the last five years, since we met, yes in the last twenty-one centuries.
When Avi arrived, he didn't even want to come up to my flat at Modi'in
"I got an order to take you to a certain place. Will you come?"
On our way I told him about the bond between the Maccabeans in Modi'in
and the Nabateans in the Desert in the first half of the second century B.C.
It fit into our mystical journey.

I know Israel, but I never knew about the place he brought me to.
[2013: When searching for "Khirbet Tzura", often on Healing-K.i.s.s.
- the first page I opened, was "DEATH" in "Edited Godchannel Files"!
A plateau in the Judaean Plain, with remains of an ancient town.
A view as far as Bethlehem to the East and Ashkelon to the West.
Avi had been here for several months before his time in the Succah,
trying to run a tent hosting business for hikers on foot and in jeeps.
[2013: how meaningful is this "detail" now!]
We sat under a huge carob tree, when Avi informed me quite simply:
"We had ties to this place
- a daughter of ours married into a family here.
So when we were attacked in the desert
["by whom?" "enemies, I don't know who"]
and I was dying, I sent you and whoever was still alive,
to flee and seek refuge here.
"They" told me, that much depends on you,
that the kingdom will not be lost a second time."
I asked to be left alone, wandered through the ruins,
until I settled in a huge hall, covered with earth and debris,
opposite a vaulted doorway, with the view to Bethlehem.
Sadness and gloom came over me,
and I felt, that I had eaten my heart out in longing for "Avi"
and in remorse for not having done enough
to save him then.
"Yes, the kingdom must not be lost a second time.
But it depends on you, Avi, not on me.
I'm only there to inspire you, as I did then."
[2013: exactly this is my task now,
and Avi may not even have to see my face to face!]

This morning my old song-block fell into my hands
and opened on this page with two desert songs










Since 2007 these songs appear in SongGame
At the edge of the sky and the end of the desert
Go, go to the desert, the paths will lead






from "triptych", 1st Approach-b
"nothing will manifest on "Noah's Shore", until the Desert People all around the Dead Sea will take the lead."
Comment on Dec. 5, 2013
This will be true in the end, but for now the Ohalah-vision has to begin with Jews,
with whom the authorities are not in conflict.


from a letter to Micha, my son, Febr. 2011
All this I said not as Micha's mother,
but as the Trainer of Dreamers, whom I perceive myself to be,
though not at Noah's Shore, as I believed 7 years ago
and not in any exterior framework,
as I had tried to create ever since the age of 27,
and dreamt about ever since the age of 16,
but - when I'm "called" in a specific moment , with a specific person,
who is open to use me as his/her sounding-board.

Comment on Dec. 6, 2013
It seems that I'll be a Trainer of Dreamers on a large scale,
by causing the manifestation of mobile Desert-Hosting-enterprises,
each Ohalah/Rihlah being a daily creation of 2-3 hosts for 2-3 years,
in which these human beings can find out about their personal dreams.

from "Noah's Diary Llinks"
This diary - about the work on realizing my vision - is meant to inspire my potential partners to remember their own dreams or visions.

But even if it won't inspire a single wo/man on this planet, it is still vitally healthy for myself, to incessantly "drive back into the future".

I'll sculpt here not only my exterior trial-error, but the fears and tears, the joy and the jubilation, which accompany this kind of creation.

This is one way of healing those holes in my wholeness, which still attract painful reflections ~in my exterior situations and interactions.

For my potential partners, this may be a training in feeling and a training in dreaming, for this is my desire: to be a Trainer of Dreamers.

 

 


December 7, 2013- still 13 days till Mika's 8th birthday
 

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or, to be moA re honest, - 2 hours later i

This was a paper-composition about my lekhi-lakh into my mobile home, 1985-1986 -
towards which I was "called" without any idea why I was pushed into this crazyness.

THE BEGINNING OF THE ACTIVITY IS STILLNESS
"Die ganze Arbeit ist ruhig sein" (Goethe) "All the work is to be still"
"eine Stille zu ergreifen, in der man in Fuelle wohnt" [Frère Roger of Taizé] " to grasp a stillness, in which one dwells in full-ness"
"akh ael aelohim dumiyah nafshi" One of my oldest songs, March 1985, Psalm 62:- "only to God is my soul in stillness"
 

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I came across this example of my bus-life.
A music festival of and for women in 1986
let me drive my mobile home to Beersheva.
Trying to recall it beyond this composition,
gloom comes up, as if - I was not received.

n-"

charming" I

 
December 9, 2013-still 11 days till Mika's 8th birthday
 

feel.

RECALLING   experiences with the temporary model of my Desert Hosting Economy vision

It was not really my idea, that I and Gadi&Efrat Lybrock should found a LTD Company,
with a fancy "Board of Directors",
and definitely not, that Gadi should make my son Immanuel the "General Director".
I'm content, that today I do not have to deal with this part of my "scientific model".
Yet since it was my son who wrote this letter to the "Board of Directors"
of "the Company for the Realization of Desert Resources" in May 1994 ,
I decided to photograph it in Gadi's album and save it "for the record.





 

 



A voice is calling - in the desert clear a way
[Isaiah 40:3]


Contrary to my present principle of not initiating anything,
I made a phonecal", how

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These two columns are to be written on a scroll which is to be delivered to Avi Dror

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On 10-12-13: a new birth and a new name,
for which the mother, Tamar, has asked me.
Tamar, too, was given her name through me!
he shines  YAHEL he shines
Liebe Rachel,

gestern Früh haben wir das neue Erdenkind empfangen. Wir sind sehr glücklich und müde.
Die Geburt verlief sehr gut. Ich bin um 5 Uhr aufgewacht und musste auf die Toilette...und kurz nach 5 Uhr hatte ich schon die ersten Wehen. Mama hat mich sehr unterstützt und dafür bin ich ungemein dankbar. Martin und Jotam sind so gegen 6-7 Uhr dazu gekommen...ca. 7.45 Uhr ist die Fruchtblase geplatzt, eine halbe Stunde später die Hebamme gekommen, Jotam hat unterstützt und Martin dann bis zum Ende...in seinem Schoß liegend, im "Vierfüßlerstand", in Mamas Zimmer, auf ihrer Matratze vor dem Sofa, gebar ich unser Kind um 9.26 Uhr.
Unser Yaguarundi (so haben wir das Kind immer während der Schwangerschaft genannt. Yaguarundi = kleiner Bergjaguar, der in den Anden lebt) ist stolze 54 cm lang, hat einen Kopfumfang von 36.5 cm und wiegt 3790 g. Die Haut ist schon sehr weit, die Käseschmiere gar nicht mehr vorhanden. Wir sind alle etwas müde und erschöpft, aber sehr sehr glücklich..

LIEBE

Tamar, Martin, Yaguarundi, Mama und Jotam
TAMAR! 7:45 PM
Sollte ich English schreiben, damit auch Martin versteht?
Die letzten 7 Stunden habe ich darum gerungen, meinen Computer von der Reparatur zurueckzubekommen.
Es ist ein solcher Sturm schon seit heute Nacht, dass die Ueberbringer-Gesellschaft so viel zu tun hatte,
dass ich zum Schluss schreien musste, ob es denn keine Gerechtigkeit gaebe, die mich auch mal an die Reihe kommen liesse. Nun kam jemand, aber als er weg war, arbeitete die Maus nicht.
Schliesslich habe ich das selber hingekriegt
und wie ich nun - nach anderthalb Tagen - den Computer aufmache, finde ich Deine "Verkuendigung".
Das bewegt mich nun sehr, und ich bin zuerst einmal gluecklich,
dass die Geburt - verhaeltnismaessig - so schnell und leicht war
und vor allem im Kreis von soviel Liebe und Unterstuetzung.
Da ist doch wirklich etwas in der Welt besser geworden, seit meiner Entbindung von Immanuel am 23. Januar 1963!

Ehe ich tiefer in den Namen, der sich schon lange aufdraengt , hineinhorche,
moechte ich von Dir UND von Martin hoeren, ob Ihr mich wirklich noch braucht fuer die Namensgebung,
oder ob Euch der neue Erdenbuerger (verstehe ich richtig, dass es ein Junge ist?) seinen Namen schon kundgetan hat!
Liebe Rachel, 11:58 PM

super schön von dir zu hören, all die herzlichen Worte. Ich sitze auf einer Pobacke vorm Laptop und möchte dir gleich antworten. Martin liegt mit "Yaguarundilie" auf unserem Futonlager. Ja, der Junge schläft und der stolze und fürsorgliche und so sanfte Papa genießt staunend unseren Sohn.
JA, ich möchte deine Unterstützung/ Hinhorchen für einen Namen. Mich begleitete immer nur Jael als Name und der ist ja weiblich - ich bin für einen männlichen Namen von dir ausgesucht ganz offen.
Martin, der übrigens nur spanisch spricht und nicht die Sprache der Gringos, meint, du kannst ruhig auf deutsch schreiben, ich kann ja übersetzen für ihn.
Für Martin war ab dem siebtem Monat der Schwangerschaft der griechische Name Achilles- auf spanisch Aquiles, 3 Silben, A-qui-les, Betonung auf ...les - present. Er hat den Namen noch im Kopf , ist offen und möchte von Dir sehr gerne hören

"Yaquarundi" ist zwar kein Name, wie wir offiziell Unseren Sohn nennen können - aber die Eigenschaften eines kleinen Andenjaguars scheint er zu besitzen.

Jetzt breche ich hier ab, weil er nach mir/meiner Brust ruft.

Wir sind gespannt und voller freudiger Erwartung von dir zu hören.

Ganz liebe Grüße,
Tamar und Martin und .........

C E L E S T I A L       L I G H T S

December 12, 2013, 9:05 AM

Gleich nach meinem Brief an Euch stoppte die Elektrizitaet, wie oft bei Winterstuermen in Arad. Schliesslich legte ich mich schlafen, kein Licht, kein Ofen, kein Computer, kein TV, kein Tee, obwohl ich wusste dass ich dann mitten in der Nacht aufwachen wuerde, fuer einige Stunden.
Nun hat mich Efrat, my daughter-in-love, mit einer SMS geweckt, dass Immanuel kurz vor 2 angerufen habe - er habe die erste riesige Huerde ueberstanden, heut kommt die noch viel riesigere - nach einem Jahr Lernen , um nicht nur Flugoffizier, sondern Flugkapitaen bei El-Al zu werden. Die Pruefung findet am Flug Simulator in Holland statt.
Diese Vorbemerkung schrieb ich, um Euch noch ein bisschen in Spannung zu halten.
On Dec. 13 - for myself: Immanuel did get the recognition of one single man, despite all the praises from his trainers. When on a plane back to Israel, he told Efrat, that he was "ka'us", very angry. It was clear, that the refusal had nothing to do with his skills. It was then, that I, who had only hours before told Efrat, I felt that he would succeed, that someone from above had made my son fail:

Also ich jauchze!
Der Name ist Yahel,
hinten betont wie Martins "Aquiles"
und wie Dein "Jael" oder "Yael"
und bedeutet : er leuchtet!
Bibel, Hiob 31, 16 -
Sah ich je das Licht wie es strahlte ("Verdeutschung von Buber-Rosenzweig"),
fuer mich selber schreibe ich es hier auch im Original,
obwohl auf Eurem Computer die Buchstaben nicht erscheinen werden

 si he mirado al sol[a] cuando brillaba,
 
    Footnotes: Job 31:26 Lit., a la luz
Letzteres fand ich unter all den Bibeluebersetzungen von Bible-Gateway

Ihr koennt, wenn Ihr wollt, auch Jahel schreiben, aber schliesslich ist Euer Kind nicht nur deutsch.
Da ging wieder "das Licht aus", und jetzt, da es wieder an ist, schicke ich Euch erst mal diesen Teil,
falls es nochmals zu einer laengeren Elektrizitaetspause kommen sollte.
Ich schreibe aber gleich weiter, von meiner "Licht-Erfahrung" gestern, Mittwoch, mit "Yael"!

 

   


Second part of my letter on Dec. 12, 2013    , 9:14 AM
Da ich gestern keinen Sound vom schlampig verbundenen Computer hoerte,
probierte ich eben selber, die richtige Kabel- Verbindung zu finden,
und um zu hoeren, ob es funktionierte,
klickte ich - blind - auf irgendein link zu einem Video aus meiner langen Liste von Favorites ,
jetzt staunt!! Celestial Lights...

Yahel ist , wie viele hebraeischen Vornamen, sowohl weiblich als maennlich,
ich kenne sowohl ein Maedchen als einen Mann mit diesem Namen.
Das Maedchen, eine Schulfreundin von Rotem, der zweiten Tochter meiner Tochter,
ist eine von zwei Zwillingen, die - nach 6 Jahren vergeblicher Befruchtungsbemuehungen,
meinem stark poliogelaehmten Freund Ya'acov geboren wurden

Ya'el, auch der Name des dritten Kindes meiner Tochter,
(es heisst ja "Ibex" und "hat also mit dir und deiner Wueste zu tun", sagte Ronnit im Mai 1996)
ist , in der Tat, nur weiblich (wohl wegen der Yael in der Bibel, von der ich jetzt aber nicht erzaehle).
Aber sieh, wie der Name - bei mir - auf Yahel hingewiesen hat:

Weil ich den Tag ueber keinen Computer haben wuerde,
nuetzte ich den Tag gestern - vielmehr ich bekam die Botschaft in der Nacht -
nach Mitzpe-Ramon zu fahren, im Rahmen der eigentlichen Wuestenvision,
deren Manifestation ich jetzt in Bewegung setzen soll.
Ich erklaere das jetzt nicht, auch nicht, zu wem und wofuer ich fahren sollte.
Was aber durchaus nicht geplant oder auch nur ersehnt war,
war eine Begegnung mit Yael, die mich noch jetzt erzittern laesst.
Yael - strahlend - erscheint auf einem grossen Photo direkt ueber meinem Computer,
zusammen mit Hamda, unsrer Beduinin mit grossem Nasenring,
photographiert 1994,als es noch gut war mit meinem wissenschaftlichen Model "Succah in the Desert".
Yael war wohl so alt wie Du jetzt bist
und strahlte - als Voluntaerin und dann als offizielle, obwohl mindest bezahlte "Gastgeberin" dermassen,
dass sie die andern zwei Gastgeber (einer hiess Uri Goldin - uri kommt von or=Licht) ansteckte,
und ich fuehlte, dass dieses Team nun die Succah uebernehmen wuerde,
sodass ich - den Gesetzen des Models fuer Desert Hosting Economy gemaess-
mich in meinen Bus ueber dem Huegel zurueckziehen und an der eigentlichen Vision arbeiten koennte.
Nach nur einem Monat wurde - auf grausame Weise - ein Keil zwischen Yael und mich geschlagen,
den wir aber beide von der jetzigen Perspektive aus verstehen.
Nun trafen wir uns ploetzlich - die Begegnung zweier Kometen, die wissen,
dass die Zeit zum partnerschaftlichen Arbeiten noch nicht gekommen ist.
Jeder von uns muss noch allein heilen und wachsen.
Aber es ist wunder-bar, wenn wir ploetzlich erinnert werden, fuer einen Augenblick, dass wir nicht allein sind...
Ich hatte nicht einmal gewusst, dass Yael mit ihren 3 Kindern, ohne Mann, in Mitzpe-Ramon wohnte
und in der Demokratischen Schule und in andern Rahmen herrliche Arbeit mit Menschen tut.
Sie erinnerte mich an die erste mystische Begegnung waehrend des Chanukafestes vor genau 20 Jahren.
Dabei will ich Euch sagen, dass das Wort "Yahel" im Volk nur aus einem Chanuka-Lied bekannt ist:
Hoert mich :

Noch etwas zum Datum:
Vor ein paar Tagen fand ich unter den Facebook-"friends", (bei mir beschraenkt auf etwa 35),
das "Bild" - 11-12-13- mit der Bemerkung: "der einzigartige Mittwoch",
forwarded von der Schwiegermutter von Hagar, der Tochter von Dita, meiner Stieftochter.
Gestern schickte eben diese Schwiegermutter ein forward von Hagar's "business":
"Begleitung und Vorbereitung zur Geburt" - (zuhause bei ihr) !

So jetzt habe ich aber genug "gemystelt", ich sitze immer noch im Nachthemd hier, neben dem Ofen.
Schickt ein Bild!-
Wie schoen, dass sogar Jotam dabei war!

be helpful",

d that my voice was hoarse and my speech messy.rought the interaction to a swift end,
but it's still alarming how uncharming I feel.
I asked for a helpful word from Godchannel and got this:

and my speech messy.
I brought the interaction to a swift end,
but it's still alarming how uncharming I feel.
I asked for a helpful word from Godchannel and got this: