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The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]

I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 52nd day, November 15, 2002

Like the thorny creeper throngs through my window,
fear and fright, terror, panic creep through my being,
the aftermath of an exhilarating orgasmic conception:
I am ready to become my grandson's foster grandmother
and forfeit my cherished solitude, balance and serenity.

2005_05_27
This was the last sculpture in the Moving-E-volving Emotion-Manual

2014

The FELT days 197, 197, 198, 199 ~ of the next 15 FELT years

1 5 y e a r s = 5 4 8 0 days of
g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e Z e i t "inmitten der Ewigkeit",
f e l t - f i l l e d t i m e "amidst eternity"
from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all]
The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013

On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness.
Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines

To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged"
in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!

2014-03-22-Shabbat-still 5280 days- 11:50

Since 6 working on the Tent-presentation for Gadi. Hyper-concentration prevented me from breathing and my history with the tent overwhelmed me: How did I survive this? In between I listened to Yanina, who -after 8 months re-connected- how far away from each other are we! Spring-blossoms comfort me.

Song: Amoq be-libkha

2014-03-23-Sunday - still 5279 days

Tomer's and my mushrooms: the tents will sprout,
o mushroom all over the desert. "Your Vision will challenge them!" said Yanina during the second - heart-full!- communication. "Let's do the presentation of your 150 tent-photos together in my house, not through phone and mails", said Gadi and relieved my stress. Joyous again!

2013Song Oct Nr. 5., yashresh...yatzitz u-farakh

2014-03-24-last day "before" - still 5278 days

Shame that I said to Gadi: how will I manage [aspeeq] and to Yanina: Think of me on Tuesday, not that I'll succeed, but that I'll fear less. Am I back to my slave-driver "haespeqitis"? And of "getting it right"? To sound my haespeqitis and my fear and my shame is my task as a pioneer of Evolution in how to feel, not exterior success!

2013Song March Nr.4: I want to sound you my

To feel better, you have to get better at feeling
2014-03-25-THE DAY-still 5277 days =777
Arad>Beersheva>Mitzpe-Romon
The coincidence with the 1993-03-25 (s.below: Gadi, Yehuda Hanibad> singing) will be like a candle-light in my mind~heart! My eyes hurt a bit of the immense (and finally redundant) strain. Now, 6:46, I have a whole hour -not in order to "function", but to wholly desire to be Your flute.

song: ...aekhad hem rukhekha ve-khalilkh

March 22, 2014- OHEL 52from among its 365 appearances in the Bible

So Moshe called
for Betzalel, for Oholiav [Father of my Tent]
and for all men wise of heart
into whose heart YHWH had put wisdom,
all those whose heart uplifted them
to come-near for the work, to make it
Exodus 36:2

Und Moshe berief
Bezalel, Oholiab (Vater meines Zelts)
alljeden herzensweisen Mann,
in dessen Herz ER Weisheit gab,
alljeglichen, den sein Herz trug der Arbeit zu nahn,
sie zu machen.
Namen 36, 2

Neither Buber-Rosenzweig nor Fox accept the "and" between Bezalel and Oholiab.
But even if they are right in assuming that Oholiab was the title of Bezalel,
for me it's important, that the title be translated: father-of-my-tent!

Gadi asked to send this sculpture without the blue sky, since his printer is lacking colored ink

modified once more on March 20, 2013
WHAT the TENT-VISION INTENDS to EVOLVE

March 23, 2014-OHEL 53 from 365

But Barak pursued after the chariots,...
and all the host of Sisera fell by the edge of the sword; there was not a man left.
Howbeit Sisera fled away on his feet
to the TENT of Jael the wife of Heber the Kenite;
for there was peace
between Jabin the king of Hazor and the house of Heber the Kenite.
Judges 4:16-17

Barak jagte dem Fahrzeug nach...
Alles Lager Sisras verfiel der Schneide des Schwerts,
auch nicht einer verblieb.
Sisra aber floh zu Fuss
nach dem ZELT Jaels, des Weibes Chabers des Keniters,
denn Friede war
zwischen Jabin Koenig von Chazor
und dem Hause Chabers des Keniters.
Richter 4, 16-17

I always feel pain, when coming across this betrayal of a Bedouin woman, though her betrayal was for the good of what was Israel then.
And I always wunder, why "Yael" is on of the most popular names in Israel. Even one of my granddaughters is called Yael,
though my daughter thought of Yael, the ibex , and even said to me: "since this is a desert-animal, the name is connected to you!""

This is , what I discovered, when I - by "error" only today - added a song to yesterday's Felt day
"deep in your heart are circles of joy", which accompanied Immanuel's presentation of Mika's birth.
It was a month before her 4th birthday, in 2009, when Mika painted this "holding hands".
I told Yanina, what Mika said , when I proposed her to take part in making the little tent models:
"I take part under one condition: that the model (of the Ohalah/Rihlah) will be placed in the (real) mishkan.
For once it (the Tent-Vision) will be realized, we must remember, how we started it all."
WE!

After much correspondence connected to our presentation of the Tent-Vision,
I find a letter from Gadi this morning, in which he tells the amazing coincidences
connected to former performances of a band in his "Jazz-Club" at Mitzpe-Ramon,
the Jazz-Club, where the "Tent-Vision-Encounter" with me will take place in 2 days.
The band will appear again at the end of this week, to celebrate 7 years of the Jazz-Club,
and to also celebrate Gadi's 58th birthday...
And how many artists are included in this band?
12
One muscian for each tent plays spontaneous jazz together with 11 others!

An image which I eliminated from the presentation

March 24, 2014- OHEL 54 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible

Now Moshe and Aharon had entered
the TENT of APPOINTMENT;
when they came out, they blessed the people,
and the Glory of YHWH was seen by the entire people.
Leviticus 9:23

Mosche trat und Aharon ins ZELT der BEGEGNUNG,
sie gingen hervor,
sie segneten das Volk.
SEINE Erscheinung liess von allem Volk sich sehen.
Er rief 9:23

It's a pity, that Everett Fox, the only pupil of Rosenzweig and Buber concerning the transmission of the Hebrew text, so often "takes it easy".
It is not written "entered" in the plural, but in the singular. The emphasis is on Moshe.
It is not writen, "when they came out", as if it were an auxiliary by-the-way fact, but strongly , separately: "they went out"

Through a correspondence with Immanuel
about the song to his "presentation" of images of Baby Mika - amoq be-libkha
I detected that in my computer archive
there are bigger images of the Rakhaf-tent-series,
suited better for the big screen in the Jazz-Club,

Last night this caused me an upheaval of "I won't manage", "lo aspeeq",
a verb (only in Hebrew) connected to my ancient sickly relation to linear time.
I'll partly surrender to the "haespeqitis"
by going to the pool only once,
by doing anything in "my"garden or on the "Grave of Grace"
(except watering it on my way to and back from the pool),
nor doing anything on this page or other pages of my website,
and lean on my bed and learn TV items only when I'll be too tired to go on
"getting it right" with the Tent-Presentation and with tomorrow's "meeting".
I'm very aware, that tomorrow will be also the last day of "200 Felt Days",
coalescing with the end of the free pages of the Moving-Evolving-Emotions-Manual.
I repeat what I said in today's "Felt Day":
I won't change my stress and fear and shame-
I want to womb and breathe and sound them!
Now it's 7:11 AM and I'll start with the work!
7:23 I want to see a "fruitful surprise" in every "bug",
like the one which now puts me to shame even more.

Though Gadi had pointed out in one of his letters yesterday,
that I - in the Tent-Vision-Sculpture - had place "page 4" twice and left out "page 2"
I didn't get it, nor even understand that it was related to the Sculpture,
nor did he answer this question - among others - in my letter.
Only now, when he replaced the word "page" by "column" (amudah), did I check and understand.
But I sent the Sculpture to Ezri Alon before I understood.
What shame! But also what pain, that he himself did not realize this.
He must have skipped my so painstakingly sculpted words as if it was an article in a newspaper.
His response of a total "you have no chance with your tent-vision", was such,
that I sent it to Gadi in the hope,that tomorrow after our work on the Presentation, I'll have time to study it.
Still - among shame, fear, pressure there is now also the small but nagging pain:
"what illusions do I have once more!"
Despite the oath not to do anything that is not connected to the Presentation ,
I'll sent Ezri the correction of the Sculpture
and I shall , yes I shall point out my pain, that he didn't read it properly.
Oh, you my God! Now I checked the insert of the original sculpture - on the background of the blue sky -
and there is no mistake!!! All the four columns appear in the right order.
So how could the mistake happen in the version without the sky? The version inserted above?
And what does it mean? that Gadi should try to get the ink to print the Sculpture with the sky?
I'll not write to Ezri , but to him!

8:09 I still didn't start with the "actual" work, but write to Gadi,
and while writing - and sculpting even this letter, as I do with any letter -
it dawned on me, that the sculpture shouldn't be PRINTED at all!
"I want to sound you, my feelings, and to embrace every one of you,
be you kicking or uplifting, you are God!"

Gadi's response: "there was exactly enough ink for two prints, so that everything is alright!"

10:37 I discover more and more images and also documents about
"Training of Feeling and Body"
-imoun-regesh-guf (s. Computer-Archive, Chronology, 2004-October)
and think, that I do have to explain to my audience tomorrow,
that what I provide is a vision mezuqqak ve-mezukkakh- refined and destilled
- for 22 years.
[What does the number 22 remind you of? Of course, the Hebrew Aleph-Beth.]
and that the presentation of 200 images
is almost only about the physical structure - the male part of this creation -
and not about its goal, its content - the female part.

I want you to enhance and to not distort
what the Vision of Tents intends to evolve.
The Earth of the Desert will stay free and pure
and host us humans -to find ourselves.

22:48
I sent the content of the Presentation and about 200 images,
Why was I given the technical understanding
about the difference between the screen of "desktop"
and the folder of "desktop" only 2 hours before I needed to stop?

Yet Gadi called me before he had gotten my 2 letters,
- he wanted to make me joyous by telling me,
that one of the people who would attend "the meeting" tomorrow,
would be Yehuda Hanibad!
I am so very glad! He alone
makes the entire incredible mental, emotional and physical effort worthwhile!
Gadi told me about Yehuda's great interest in Gadi's "musical vision"
and now see what I found: Exactly, exactly 21 years ago I wrote:
March 25, 1993
" One of my "personal" dreams - a dream not for the world,
just for my personal pleasure - is to sing! to sing my own songs.
It's realization doesn't seem to be so far away anymore.
Yehuda Hanibad, the man responsible
for the "Development of Tourism in the Negev" in this area,
wants me to give little concerts on the organ for people,
who would come for sunrise or sunset,
just sit outside, get some tea,
enjoy the high sky over the exposed landscape
and listen to my music.
I also want to make a living of it -
so I would not be economicly dependant on my creation, the Succah.
How do I need to mature,
so that the manifestation of this dream
will become a complete and perfect pleasure for me
and a STRESS-LESS SUCCESS? "

2 more letters to Gadi , the first with its stupidity corrected in the second

an hour later I wrote

At 23:17 I sent this discovery about Yehuda Hanibad to Gadi and added

His response came only after I had finally closed the computer

Eliminated from Presentation:

Ahmed

Abdul-Aziz

After I was no longer allowed to enter Egypt, Anna, a guest from Germany made and sent me these images.

Micha was always the first
and often the only one among my children
who visited me soon after I had "moved" to a new place,
in this case: Rakhaf

Sa'ar Carmieli from Arad, who had founded "Rakhaf",
- here visited by his two children from Tel-Aviv -
was the only human being, who invited me to his place
(except for my friend Yanina,
who - in July 1985 - let me to park my bus
on the land of their greenhouse,
when I already lived in the bus,
but the interior was not completed,
so that I could not yet drive to where I wanted.)

When I could no longer bear the storms and rains
where Sa'ar has commanded me to erect my tent,
an exposed ridge,
where Abraham our father, would have never set up his tents,
I left Rakhaf and "settled" in Arad.
So often I had been evicted from a place,
so why was it Sa'ar who had welcomed me so warmly,
whom I had to leave?

Former head of Israel's Ministry of Science Zvi Yannai,
and a kind of friend for me in the seventies,
was surprised to find me on "Rakhaf" on Oct. 23, 2004.
More photos are included in the "Presentation".
I had forgotten that Zvi died recently,

Thanks to Zvi's companion Dalia Hochberg I have these photos of Lior Oren and me

These two eliminated pictures show the first and the last region of my desert journey
the Ramon-Crater near "Succah in the Desert" and Arad seen from the place of my tent on Rakhaf
[they show also the difference between paper-photos and digital photos, between 1990 and 2004]

March 25, 2014- OHEL 55 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible

And the names of them were
Oholah [her- own- tent] the elder,
and Oholibah [my-tent-in-her] her sister;
and they became Mine,
and they bore sons and daughters.
And as for their names,
Samaria is Oholah, and Jerusalem Oholibah.
Ezechiel 23:4

Und ihre Namen sind:
der Groessern Ohola, Ihr-eigen-Zelt,
und ihrer Schwester Oholiba, Mein-Zelt-in-ihr.
Sie wurden mein,
gebaren Soehne und Toechter.
Und ihre Namen sind:
Samaria-Ohola, Jerusalem-Oholiba.
Jecheskel 23:4

Isn't that pretty, that on this day, on which my vision of the Ohalah will become public, I was given this verse?

modified once more on March 20, 2013
WHAT the TENT-VISION INTENDS to EVOLVE

7:07 I recorded it now - 4:36 minutes - on my beloved recorder who does a favor to me by still working...
May these words be imprinted in the minds and hearts of those people who are called to the Tent-Vision.

The first slide of our Powerpoint-Presentation: Gadi took the photo out of the frame, that was hanging on his wall and scanned it for the Presentation.

The closure I called: "prophecies"

Move to the next period of "Felt Days"

ENVISIONING

Tents-Song - Shirat-ha-Ohalim
I want you to enhance and to not distort,
what the Vision of Tents intends to evolve
the earth of the desert will stay free and pure
and host us humans ~~~~~ to find ourselves.