INTRODUCTION BY SHEPHERD HOODWIN
Right Use of Will: Healing and
Evolving the Emotional Body
is the title of a book channeled from God, according to the author,
Ceanne DeRohan,
and published in 1984.
Several other books in the series have followed.
They are unique both in style and content in channeled literature.
Reading it several years ago
was profoundly transformative for me,
not so much because of its information
but because of what I felt as I read it.
It seemed to energetically help me clear denial.
However, I did not "get into" the second book, Original Cause,
and gave up on it halfway through.
I haven't read any other of the books in the series.
Others have told me that they had the same experience.
Those who have read further seem divided into two camps:
some feel that the channeling became increasingly distorted;
others find this series to be the focus of their spirituality.
A friend attended a gathering
with the channel in the late 1980s and was appalled.
Fist fights broke out in which people identified as one kind of being
trounced on those they identified as another kind for things they supposedly
did to them aeons ago.
According to my friend, DeRohan was upset by this but didn't know what
to do--
she didn't want to foster more denial.
Clearly, some people had made a cult out of the material
and used it as an excuse to dump on and blame others.
They had become fundamentalists,
taking it completely literally rather than intelligently using it as
a model.
I began to have mixed feeling about having recommended Right Use of
Will to so many people.
Maryam:
I read all the 8 books, more than once.
The first affected me the same way it affected SHEPHERD HOODWIN
But I also cherish deeply many parts of the fourth, the green book,
and the fifth, the yellow book,
As to the second, third and eight book I had my difficulties.
But since I - a lifelong student of the Hebrew Bible, the New Testament
and Ancient JewishThought,
and an ecclectic student of the Qur'an and other holy books -
have learnt to pierce through myths and metaphors for what they can
contribute to my coping with my life,
I've been getting a lot out of them too.
Even the sixth book and the seventh book have some valuable sentences
and images,
though they are the least important for me.
The books themselves say somewhere, that they should not be taken literally.
And , more important,
whatever is not directly helpful for healing feeling,
should be skipped.
As to "RUOW-people",
I attracted painful experiences, in Israel, in the USA and from Ceanne
de Rohane herself.
So far there is not one person in my life, with whom I could discuss
the material in order to enhance my learning.
[This is still the case in July
2012, there's not one person in my life, with whom I could discuss and
apply what I keep learning!]
For a while, there was a "buzz"
around the book,
and during that time, several clients asked Michael about it and the
others in the series
during private and group sessions.
Here is an edited compilation of their comments,
which many found to be balanced and illuminating.
(Questions are italicized.)
Following it is a letter I wrote replying to someone who had commented
on this channeling.
MICHAEL
Where do Right Use of Will and
the subsequent books that claim to be channeled from God come from?
This channel is indeed tapping
into an aspect of the organizing force,
the highest or most generalized aspect of consciousness, of this individual
universe.
(She is not tapping into the Tao itself, which is the source of this
universe.)
This consciousness does not converse in language as human beings know
it.
(In fact, neither do we, but we are closer to the physical plane and
relate more readily to it.)
With its assistance, she is translating this input into what are for
you intelligible terms, in her own way.
It could look quite different through another
channel.
If the God of this universe
was having that much trouble getting His act together,
as portrayed in Right Use of Will,
was that a reflection of what it was like for the Tao to come together
in the force it is now?
The Tao could not be personalized in this way.
The Tao is pure force.
At least, this is how you would understand it.
This particular universe, like all universes, has experimental
elements.
What is being described in these books in a personalized
way is
that the beginnings of the experiment, as with many experiments, were
difficult.
What is being portrayed in these books is both literal and not literal.
It is being expressed in the way that it is so
that you can relate to it.
The different aspects of this unifying force
for this universe
does not converse within itself in what you know of as words.
You are getting an approximation of thought process.
Do not assume that you are getting any more than
a hint of what happened,
just as if you read something about history in a book,
do not assume that you are getting any more than a little piece of what
really went on,
and probably a biased piece.
You know that if someone reports
to you about a conversation that occurred,
and then you go back to others who were there,
you might find that there was quite a lot more to it than you were led
to believe.
In the case of these books, a little bit of a report on what occurred
can be useful in its application to your own
life.
That's the point.
Does the kundalini energy
relate to the concept of the female aspect of the universe known as
"will"
in the books which we have been speaking of?
Yes, there is a connection here.
However, the term "Will" refers to
something more expansive.
Kundalini is, you might say, the pure, energetic aspect of will as it
manifests in the body.
Its rising is symbolic on a personal level of the unification of spirit
(or the male aspect) and will.
When we cycle off (complete
the physical plane),
why do we leave our bodies behind?
I understood that the rejoining of will and spirit suggests
that the body will become transcendent on a cellular level.
"Lost will" is not a
matter of the physical form;
it is a matter of the soul.
Whatever is lost of will continues from lifetime
to lifetime
and even continues through the experience of cycling off.
There are certain aspects of lost will that relate to physicality
but even they continue in the soul when it is not incarnate.
Cycling off occurs
when the soul feels it has done all it can do on the physical plane
and it is ready for a new game.
It does not mean that all lost will has been recaptured
or that perfection has been attained.
When you graduated from grammar school to go on to junior high,
you did not do so because you were perfect,
but simply because you were ready for the next step.
Whatever needs to be completed in terms of the
recapture of lost will
may have to wait for another opportunity.
Isn't our objective to reclaim
all lost will,
or as much of it as possible, right now,
as part of healing ourselves and the planet?
Everyone has different objectives
at any given time.
Certainly it is a major objective
for your life.
Other souls are not focused on reclaiming lost will.
They have other tasks that are equally important to them.
If it is your desire,
then it is appropriate for you to pursue it.
Remember that the concepts you are studying in
these books
are just that, concepts.
They are understood as you understand them.
They are useful as they are useful to you.
Someone else might see something quite different in them,
which may or may not be useful to them.
As you understand it,
the reclamation of lost will is an important
goal for many souls on the planet at this time.
Another way of putting this is becoming
whole.
Some people want to become more complete with
their past
so that they can move on to a higher level of the game,
whether they are a young, mature or old soul.
This is partly what reclaiming lost will refers to.
I thought that it's not just
a question of my heredity and past in this lifetime that I'm looking
to reclaim:
I'm looking to go back to when I was around with Mother and Father God
and whatever denials were present at that time.
It feels so important to me
and I'm getting from you that it might not be as important as I'm making
it.
When we said that you are completing
what has gone before,
we did not put any time limit on it.
We are also saying that what is important for you right now
is not necessarily what is important for others.
If you believe, having read these books,
that it is everyone's duty to reclaim their lost will,
that this is the most important thing for everyone,
then you will start a new religion.
Of course, that is your choice.
However, the world does not need any new religions!
There are different speeds of growth
and each person has to do what they can do at the speed they can do
it.
Many people are not ready to undergo the process you call "reclaiming
lost will."
Maryam:
I don't understand this individualism.
"Lost Will" of all the people on the planet is causing havoc
for everyone,
especially in my region, Israel/Palestine.
How should I not desire that everyone should pursue this goal of reclaiming
Lost Will?
[added on 2009_11_17:]
And if not "reclaiming Lost Will",
then at least "Total Self-Acceptance"
isn't this truly the purpose of all present humankind?
When I focus on love and surrender
to it,
there is an emotional reaction against it denying it, before I realize
it.
How can I avoid this?
It is not that you are generating
denial;
it is that you are allowing already-present denial to come to the surface.
This is positive.
If you are having an accurate experience of love,
you can more easily love and accept the denial,
giving you a chance to root it out.
If, on the other hand, you judge the emotional reaction
that comes on the heels of your loving meditation,
you might examine just how accurately you experienced love in the first
place.
If you did experience it accurately,
then you might also examine vestiges of judgment that are present in
you
and are condemning whatever appears to be unloving.
This is not love that condemns what is unloving;
it is guilt, primarily.
Love your guilt and judgment.
...
How can we know that what we
are experiencing and calling love
is in fact that elemental source from which all life comes?
It will feel accurate, inclusive and
right.
There's no guarantee that you are experiencing accurately as far as
an objective measurement.
You can only trust your intuition and do the best that you know.
If you do this, your capacity to discern love will grow.
That is what we are all learning.
God is vast, just as this universe
is vast.
The Right Use of Will books are ... representations of what happened
in human language.
You could also interpret this material as an archetypical psychological
drama
that is parallel to what has occurred in all of
us, in our thinking,
like the Greek portrayals of the gods.
As to the statement that angels
are intent on denying will,
there is an aspect of consciousness for which this is true.
Is there not a part of you that believes that it is right to deny will?
It is not really important to you if it's happening out there
in the macrocosm;
its value to you is to see these characters as being parts of yourself.
If it is happening in you,
it is probably happening on a larger scale as well,
for you are part of the macrocosm.
When it is said that this will no longer be
permitted,
you might instead say,
"This can no longer go on in me."
You know how sometimes you can exist in a conflicted situation for a
long time,
and finally you say, "This cannot go on."
You cannot bear for it to go on,
which is another way of saying that it is time to do something about
it.
Everything at some point must find its right place.
The right place for all things is ultimately
pleasing for them,
....
It is more pleasurable to be integrated than it is to be divided in
oneself.
This is a good time to do that.
There is much support for that.
The Tao gives birth to the universes.
New universes come into being from time to time.
One universe builds on the lessons of the last universe.
...
What is channeled in these books
relates to earth,
since it was channeled by a resident of earth.
Physical plane space and time are irrelevant to God,
so the statement that God just realized something in the last fifty
years is not an accurate way to look at it.
You might instead say
that the realization of the core consciousness of this universe
as it relates to earth
through the experience of itself in the history of the earth
was able to reach certain conclusions through the events of the last
fifty years.
Everything that happens is in some way unique.
So through every event, painful or joyful,
there is expansion of the consciousness of this particular universe,
and of the Tao by extension.
Through the purging that occurred in World War II,
there were realizations.
Everyone, incarnate or not, took part in those realizations, whether
they knew it or not.
And everyone is a part of God, because everyone is a part of this universe.
So there were realizations in God as a result of the actions of Hitler
and World War II in general,
just as there is in all events.
Maryam,
I don't remember that the books relate to these "realizations",
but Godchannel does - in a horrifying confession... see
pp42
God is not the Tao.
... You might say God is a step between the Tao and our individual experiences
here.
All of us together make up the experience of God as it relates
to earth, as that is where we are,
just as the experience of the various cells of
your hand create your experience of self as it relates to your hand.
But you are greater than just your hand.
...
The Right Use of Will books
say
that everything to this point has really been a mistake,
even if it's been a valuable lesson that may have needed to be learned.
Maryam:
No, that's not what the books say.
They say , that there was no other way to learn,
and since the way to learn was and is so painful,
they deplore it and this may sound, as if it was a mistake.
These books depict a process that
is inherent in all growth.
One does not grow without making mistakes.
If all understanding were already present,
what would be the purpose of inventing a new game?
Where we differ from these books in
our view is
that there is a subtle but nevertheless pervasive attitude present in
them
that all of this should not have happened
--that it is wrong, rather than simply the game being played.
Conflict is not, in and of itself, bad.
There are of course lower and higher qualities of awareness present.
There have been some quite ugly manifestations of this game
that in a sense have not been ultimately necessary
in that they could have been avoided fairly easily,
but this does not imply that the game is wrong.
Maryam:
"Michael" is not the only one to call existence "a game",
and I can see the essential truth in it.
But "Right Use of Will" comes to correct a terrible imbalance,
the imbalance between Spirit and Will/Body,
and if this perspective is spoiled by saying "everything is simply
a game",
then nothing can be learnt.
It is natural to swing to extremes
in the quest for balance.
Earth itself is an experiment in balance.
There are more opposites present here than on any other planet
of which we are aware;
and the task is to balance them.
The universe itself--this universe--is imbalanced.
Mind you, you are imbalanced whenever
you walk:
walking is basically falling forward.
Movement comes by reason of imbalance.
In the case of this universe, it could be said
that the imbalance is presently more weighted on the side of what is
called in these books spirit,
or the masculine pole of things,
and this is reflected in your patriarchal civilization.
The balance has swung in the past:
there have been times when the will polarity has been more dominant.
But in general the spirit pole has tended to hold sway.
This is due to the fact that the universe from which this universe sprang
was slightly more will-polarized.
It is true that this is a time of integration of spirit and
will.
It is couched in the terms of "recovering
lost will" because spirit has been more dominant.
When the will pole was more dominant,
channeling such as this might have referred to "recovering lost
spirit."
But those times would have been in the minority.
...
It is natural when you are learning about the
will polarity to exclude spirit, and vice versa.
When you know enough about both, you can merge them.
Only when they are merged is there equilibrium;
when there is equilibrium a new game can begin.
Each person has experienced a similar flip-flopping
from lifetime to lifetime:
for example, being in a male body and not understanding the feminine
principle,
then being in a female body and not understanding the masculine principle.
One tries to get together with his opposite,
occasionally rejecting it,
yet there is that longing for union.
As the soul progresses, there is greater integration of the
opposites.
...
Right Use of Will said that the angels rejected their wills
which became the ronalokas at a later manifestation;
that this is an error, and they've got to accept will or be thrown out
from God.
My question of course is, how can space exist that is not already part
of God?
Let's delineate between the Tao
and God
--God being the overall consciousness of this universe,
the Tao being that which propagates universes.
Everything springs from and returns to the Tao.
The ideas you refer to illustrate that this is a fairly mature universe.
It is winding up the game:
it's not quite at the ninth inning, but let's say the seventh inning--it
is at a point of climax.
The spirits that do not wish to integrate with will cannot continue
this particular game into the eighth inning,
because the game is about balancing these extremes.
Those who do not wish to continue in this game
will be separated,
and that will be pleasing to them.
When any consciousness finds its appropriate place, it is content.
Will this spawn a new universe?
We don't know.
Those who do not wish to continue with this game
will probably play outside of it for a while
and then be reabsorbed back into the Tao.
You might say that they are like a waste product of this universe,
composting and going back to the earth.
But all things have consciousness,
and there will be choices to be made by those who identify with what
is refuse from this universe.
There are no bad choices.
It is for each one to decide, to discern what feels right.
................................................
According to the books, all
the spirit essences that are on earth
are in some way separated from the original sources, so we're all fragments
in that sense.
The essence of a particular individual body on earth could be someone
else's lost will.
If you're living high on the hog now in America,
you can be sure that you've got lost will that's suffering in Africa
or wherever else the suffering is going on.
And that together is part of your parental spirit that needs to be recovered.
We think what is being referred
to here is karma--what naturally happens throughout various incarnations.
If you are living high off the hog,
you probably chose that because in a past life you were starving to
death,
and you wanted to experience both extremes so that you could find balance
--not so much the balance of circumstance as the balance of
consciousness,
so that you would be attached to being neither
rich or poor.
Now some people make a theme out of this,
and they go back and forth for eons--rich and then poor
--they don't find success in uniting these extremes.
In other words, they don't recover their lost will.
A past life, in terms of how the essence experiences
it,
can actually be in the same earthly time frame,
so you may have a past or future self now living in Africa starving.
The goal, as we have often said, is agape.
Agape constitutes a union with the All.
One part of that union would be the unification of these two consciousnesses.
..........
Virtually any therapist can tell
you that most human beings are full of pent-up emotions.
They are pent up because individuals have not known appropriate ways
of releasing them.
It is smart to repress your rage if expressing it means killing someone;
killing someone will bring more negative repercussions that will lead
to more rage.
There is a place for repression.
Repression is a tool for the immature to keep things aside until
there is greater maturity.
There is much more emphasis nowadays on expressing
feelings,
because there is greater understanding of how to do it safely.
You are not a whole person until you have allowed your fear and your
anger to move.
However, we do not wish to imply that expressing
these emotions needs to be violent or overt.
They can move in more subtle ways.
Anger and fear is simply energy that is stuck
into a nonproductive pattern.
It is the nature of energy to move
--it doesn't like not moving
--so there's pressure that builds up.
When these energies are allowed to move constructively,
so that they do not do harm to others or to oneself,
then all that formerly stuck energy
becomes available to experience the wholeness of life.
So it is to one's advantage to release old rage and fear.
Maryam:
In puzzle piece 17e I shared
my understanding,
why the term "to release" is misleading!
...
Right Use of Will says if you're
not vibrating at the speed of light,
then you have some denials that you're holding,
because originally we could just come in and take form, and transmute
the form.
Death was unnecessary.
Yes, that is correct.
Death is now part of the earth game,
and it is acceptable for its particular lessons.
There was a time when sentient life on earth did not experience death;
there was also a time when there was death,
but that life spans were much longer than they are now;
and there have been those since death came about who have managed to
escape it.
But the tendency of the current human form is to die.
It is possible to transmute the physical form so that it doesn't die,
but that is beyond the lessons of most people.
There's nothing wrong with dying,
and dying can be relatively painless if the life has been lived well.
Humanity is approaching another era in which death can again be eliminated.
Right Use of Will says
that will, being magnetic, tends to stay with the death of the body,
and spirit just pulls out and says, "Hey, that was no problem,"
but will has suffered a bit.
When you incarnate you supervise
the construction of the body you will live in.
It is built to your specifications.
You usually do not actually move into the new house until it is finished
--in other words, around the time of birth--
but you hover around, generally speaking, quite early on,
so it reflects you to a certain extent.
When you die, your body does not cease being a part of your
totality.
The body matter decomposes and is reused; it is like waste.
But the body consciousness is part of your overall consciousness
until after you cycle off.
That part of you stays with the body longer than other parts of you.
It may hang around for quite some time.
A ghost is a body consciousness that won't let go of the body.
This occurs more in a will-centered soul.
Eventually, though, the body consciousness is reabsorbed into
essence,
along with the other aspects of the personality, including
the overleaves [what's that?].
It becomes a part of the enlargement
of essence.
Maryam: Though
this is correct, something is missing.
See the quotes in the left frame of Puzzle
Piece 19b: DEATH
......
The idea that "all is choice"
is true, but there are different interpretations of that truth.
"Whatever you choose, it's okay, it's all just a game" is
true on many levels,
but for me, on far more levels,
"Choice matters, and you can make 'wrong' choices, choices that
hurt others and yourself"
is more true.
We do not mean to trivialize human life
when we refer to it as a game.
It is an important, serious game, with important ramifications.
On the other hand, the participants of this universe's game are generally
playing it the best they currently know how.
Your task, when you gain awareness, is to teach others better ways to
play.
It is a game without opposing sides; all are on the same team,
so to speak.
...
We have said repeatedly that people
may choose to either grow through joy or through pain.
In a sense, it doesn't matter what people choose, because growth occurs
for all choices.
The ultimate goal of every consciousness in the
universe is
to grow to the point where love is the total experience.
All growth leads to that, eventually.
Of course, the more skillfully you play the game,
the more you grow through joy and the less through pain.
That is why we teach:
to help people play the game more consciously and skillfully.
The Tao doesn't wish for anyone
to suffer needlessly.
The game, however, is in motion
and the Tao can't do much except to adjust the large picture
occasionally,
for example, by sending teachers such as the infinite
soul to shake things up.
We all volunteer for this game.
People can sit out an inning, so to speak, on the sidelines,
but there is a very strong desire in the soul to reach the goal,
so most choose to keep on slogging through the pain
in hopes of getting to the other side as quickly as possible...
...
RUOW's perspective is that 'the
waking sleep' is itself part of the problem.
As things were pushed further and further into the unconscious,
it created all of this, reflecting the problem stronger and stronger.
The gap itself is personified by people acting totally from unconsciousness
and not bringing consciousness awareness into it.
Imprinting is running things, on a totally unconscious level,
and it is time to wake up, especially here on the deepest levels of
physicality.
We agree entirely.
The game became much more difficult and ugly
when consciousness dropped to the level of unconsciousness.
People are beginning to wake up now, just beginning, mind you.
However, all the experiences in the waking sleep will be used to advantage,
to reinforce the knowledge of how to consciously stay conscious once
consciousness is regained.
The nature of Love in RUOW is
deeply tied to heart,
which itself is deeply tied to balance between spirit and will.
Heart's disconnection and disinterest have been part of the problem,
and a reflection of the lack of balance,
...
Again, it's not that the suffering was ultimately
necessary,
but it will be used for good, eventually:
all experience eventually finds its way into the "compost pile"
where it becomes rich fertilizer for future experience.
We agree that many people's hearts have been literally
disconnected,
but that means that they haven't been functioning properly.
A properly functioning heart has compassion for
all suffering
and seeks to eliminate it by using all the input from
body, mind (spirit) and emotions (will).
We are aware that many Christian churches
say that suffering is good and noble,
and that God wants people to suffer in order to purify them.
That is hogwash.
Suffering is indication that things are out of whack.
It should be used to awaken all involved that something is wrong, so
that hopefully they'll fix it.
It is true that some people do use hardship to wake themselves up to
what really matters; that is good work.
Tomer
w. Abba in USA 2001
Outside my former mobile home (s. wheel!),
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