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 The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"







See below:     MY  J O U R N E Y   to   E U R O P E, Summer 2010 -
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Checked for updates on 2005_08_25 and 2010_08_08
but I could not detect any changes,
despite my pleading with the Channelers
to correct the misleading use of the word "empower"


"Loving God moves toward the suffering and pain of tortured Desire, the Mother of Creation.
Empowering [??? power-seeking?] god moves away from her, or else tries to bring her along ~ toward more Light."
"But empowering [power-seeking?] Light has been only temporarily satisfying to Desire, "

Healing Class III
Reclaiming Lost Spirit
3.8 The God of Love and the god of Power

- [Introduction]
- Guilt is not Love
- Loving God loves the Mother's Fear
- New Life is Coming to the Wasteland

"This is Heart,
and I have some things to say about Spirit from where I live.
Ever since my emergence I have had much confusion about God.
I know that to the Mother
Spirit has sometimes seemed loving,
sometimes distant, sometimes hurtful.
Hard to predict.

"Since early in my understandings,
I've known that Lucifer was the denied part of God
who had been attacking the Mother, using her, twisting her.
But the rest of God wasn't always there for her either.
He often seemed to flee or keep his distance when she was in trouble.

"But lately my confusion about this has been lifting.
I'm beginning to realize
what's been making it seem to the Mother and me
like God is two-faced.

"The confusion has been understandable ~ because

"there actually have been TWO Gods.
And they have long been at odds with each other.

"Deeper than the level of form and duality, of course ~
has always been a single Spirit who is Love.


"But the One Spirit,
the Spirit of Love long ago denied himself.

"This caused a 'shadow' to emerge,
a part of himself of whom he became unconscious.

"The shadow of Love is Power.
Love first gave much of his Power to Lucifer.
And then over time he denied the rest of his Power,
handing it to Ahriman.

"Love, real Love feels much better than Power ~
yet most humans have chosen
to worship the god of Power, not the God of Love.
Praised from the pulpits
and beseeched in the deepest prayers
for relief from pain and oppression,
the god of Power has been very popular.

"Power has constantly affirmed
that he and only he is God.
And he has been very successful at this ~
many beings have never even known
that the God of Love exists.

"And for a while there ~ he almost didn't."


Guilt is not Love

"Although rarely having the power to actually do it,
the God of Love has always known
that Loving Light's highest purpose
is in the service of Desire,
in the service of the Mother.


"There once was also great Power in his Love,
but the power caused him guilt.

"Long ago the God of Love denied his Power.
He sensed that Power was unloving.

He felt guilty
that his Power could sometimes be limiting to others ~
so he relinquished it.
He denied his power
because he believed what guilt had told him.


"Now he knows what I have always known-
that guilt's voice lies,
that the voice of guilt is not the voice of real Love.

"The God of Love knows now
that his guilt was the result
of not measuring up
to a predetermined standard or ideal.

"Loving Light had held for himself the standard of perfection,
and then he judged that he was 'wrong'
whenever he failed to meet perfection's test.

"Now he knows that ideals and even perfection itself ~
are what have been 'wrong.'

"And he knows that the lie of guilt ~
is in the assumption
that the standards he judged himself against
were 'right.'


" Perfection and other ideals do not evolve.
Yet Creation and Deity by their very nature
are ever moving and changing,
becoming more ~ evolving.

"Real Love does not desire perfection
or anything else ~
beyond simply what is.

"With Real Love
it is only the beloved herself
that is desired ~
just exactly as she is in the moment.
Imperfections, warts, and all.

"This is why Desire will always choose Love over Power-
when she truly has a choice.

"But the god of Power
had assumed supremacy over Love
because Desire had no choice.
When she sought Light, she had to choose Power ~
because so many times Love was nowhere to be found,
or seemed too weak to be of help.
And so many times Power offered her
what she felt she needed most ~
protection from what she feared.

"But now there is a choice ~
because now Loving Light, Loving Spirit
is becoming easier to find

And he's trying to make himself even easier.
Here in the middle, I know this is true ~
because I feel it happening more and more.

"The way to know that the Light is truly loving, however,
was not immediately obvious to me.
My first step in finding the Light of Loving God ~
was to understand the differences in these two ways of Spirit ~
Love and Power.
Love loves to serve Desire ~
for their mutual pleasure.
And Power loves to use her ~ for more power.

"The most obvious way you can tell the difference
is in their direction.
Loving God moves
toward the suffering and pain
of tortured Desire, the Mother of Creation.

Empowering [??? power-seeking?] god moves away from her,
or else tries to bring her along ~ toward more Light.

"Loving God gathers up all the Light he is~
and moves toward the pain and darkness of the Mother,
his one true love.
This is my truly parental Spirit,
this is the real love of my true Father.

"As more and more parental Desire
awakens from the original shock
inflicted by the exploding god of Power ~
more and more Real Love
comes into manifestation
as the union of Loving Light and Desire.

"As the Mother's Desire
and Loving God's Light
join in Heart
~ Love is born.

"Deep in the center of my presence I know
that Love, Real Love is complete in itself ~
it requires nothing else.
Only being is necessary.
Power, however,
has always required some kind of action,
some kind of duty.


Loving God Loves the Mother's Fear

"Fear has been called the opposite of Love ~
but it is not really.
Fear has however often been an enemy of Love ~
and the main reason
that Desire has felt she's had to choose Power.

"Fearful Desire, terrified Desire ~
has sought Power
so that she may be safe.

"When she has opened,
fearful Desire has opened to completely unloving Light at worst ~ Lucifer.
Lucifer's kind of denied Light moves toward Desire
with intention to hurt and abuse ~
manipulate and disempower.
But with a voice like the voice of guilt,
Lucifer's Light is easy to distinguish.

His energy feels bad to Desire
or makes her feel bad about herself.
It is often manipulative,
and becomes demanding if thwarted.

"And when she has opened to light that has felt good ~
most often it's been the light of Power, Ahriman.
But empowering [power-seeking?] Light has been only temporarily satisfying to Desire,
even to fearful Desire.
Because the light of Power ultimately uses her ~
for more power of his own.
With this light her fear never moves,
and her desire for power
becomes like an addiction
that only he can satisfy ~ on his terms.

"But now something new is happening.
Recently the God of Love
has been vying with the god of Power
for the attention of fearful Desire.

"Loving God,
parental Spirit
without guilt
knows that each wiggle and twitch of Desire is beautiful ~
no matter what unlovingness she may hold.
And he loves her, just as she is ~
with whatever she is holding.

"Although now still 'weaker' than Power,
Loving God loves unconditionally
all expressions of manifestation,
including fearful Desire ~

even though she may still sometimes avoid him.

"Fear opening to Love is something very new ~
but now that Love is reclaiming its Power in Creation,
Loving God is available to her too.
Now fearful Desire can more easily move with Love ~
and find the fulfillment and real healing
she could never find with Power alone.

"Love is there for her now ~
as she begins to awaken
from the long nightmare of endless pain and terror."


New Life is Coming to the Wasteland

"I am Heart, New Heart,
the child of Loving Light
uniting with the Mother's Desire ~
even fearful Desire.
Especially fearful Desire,
for only in Real Love
can the Mother's deepest terror be truly accepted.

"I was once like charcoal,
a burned out wasteland
where Love never came into manifestation ~
and every dream of Love
was eventually met with bitter reversal.

"But now signs of new green life
are beginning to sprout
among the charred cinders of my devastation.
Thanks to Loving Light.

"The God of Love has realized his mistake.
He knows now
that he'd let guilt tell him
he should deny his Power ~
and his denied power had then overcome him,
pushing the Loving Light away
where Desire couldn't find it.

"Now Loving God is cautiously beginning
to move toward the Mother
and the pain of her suffering, suffocating, burning Desire.
And his caution feels right to me,

" Loving Light doesn't push or demand ~
Real Love makes itself available
and asks nothing in return.

"The god of Power is not his own being.
Even in all his power and glory,
he is only a lost part of Love.
He is Love's denied Power,
the shadow of Love ~ lost Love.

"But he has a role
in the healing of Heart
and the full recovery of Desire.

"The God of Power knows the way
to much of the Mother's pain and fear ~
and the God of Love knows better
than to deny him again.

"Love is now beginning to own its Power.

"As th
e God of Love accepts back
his previously denied Power,
his Love reaches deeper into manifestation.
As Loving Light reaches deeper ~
New Heart is born in the wasteland of pain and anguish
that was once the womb of lost Desire.

"More and more, the Spirit essence in humans
who are doing the healing work

is aligning with the God of Love.

"More and more, the human spirit of Love
is finding its way
to the painfully tortured fragments of lost Desire ~
in Body's human form.

"More and more,
those who are doing the healing work
are finding their own spirits
abandoning the god of Power
and aligning with the God of Love.

"And more and more,
Loving Light is helping Desire's lost fragments
awaken from the shock she experienced long ago ~
when the exploding god of Power
originally so forcefully pushed her away from Love.

"So take Heart, lost Desire.
Take Heart, my fearful and loving Mother.
Your way will be shown to be right ~
and your dream will be realized.
Your true mate, the God of Love
is ever more ready and willing now
to serve you and your dream ~
with his newly redeemed Power.

"Mother, he is moving toward your pain now.
He won't push and he won't demand.
So when you feel ready, let me know
and I'll help you let him in ~
the God of Love."

Heart Pages Guide






See below:     MY  J O U R N E Y   to   E U R O P E, Summer 2010 -
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It is still the late, but sunny evening on July 4, 2010, at Kilcrohane on SheepsHead Peninsula, Western Ireland

I finally exited this exciting graveyard,
only to find another one next to it.
But I followed the signs of the SheepsHeadWay



This time the path passes through private property,
again across a ladder of stones across the wall

And this is, what I see beyond the wall!

At some point I decide to not walk further,
after all, night would fall sooner or later.
I took a picture of the western side
and of the eastern side of the stone-ladder





It must have been 10 PM, when I returned to the village.
Music sounded from a pub next to the creek and the church

It was Sunday-night - remember - and I was the only guest ,
both in the restaurant and as a lodger.
The boys, John (13) and Cornelius (14 or 15),
who were part of the team during their holidays
and served with great professionality,
were playing some game,
while Rita , the only one who would stay overnight in "BridgeView"
waited for me, so she could bring the boys back to the farm-house.



The next day , Monday July 5, 2010,
was the birthday of my daughter-in-love.
I decided to explore the area of "the lake",
i.e. the access to the sea east of Kilcrohane,
where I had already been twice,
and communicate with Efrat by SMS.

"How beautiful are these blooming 'lamp-posts'! I say.
The man must water them every day from May to October.

"Beautiful???  A waste of money! every pot costs ? Euros!"


While walking east, along the narrow road
(these dangerous narrow roads all the time!)
I meet this picturesque composition of cows








I sit on the beach of the bay within the bay, and write "Efrat" into the sand, in Hebrew, of course

First I tell her,
that Irene and I separated
and where I am now.
I also share with her,
that I gave up my tent,
since - as far as I can guess,
I'll never sleep in this tent again.

Her answer:

I ask her - again via SMS -
to phrase 5 thanksgivings
and 3 wishes.
She writes 5 thanksgivings:

I cannot retrieve her wishes,
nor what I answered her,
but this was her final reply:


Continuation of the photos of my journey to Europe in 2010, in the Godchannel file
Mother Pages > The Pain Song