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 The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"





Following my understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
  that - after 7 years - I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing pages,
I am inserting my experience with voting in Israel's elections on 2009_02_10

Re-studied on the day of Israel's elections on 2013-01-22. I voted "Meretz".


channeled on 98/07/15~~~~ checked for updates on on 2005_07_02, re-checked on 2009_10_11.
There were again some changes, but this time I did not indicate them, but simply corrected the text.
I checked the file for updates [but there were none], after it was, since Febr. 19, 2010 , included in the new Denial Pages -
"an index that lists the more prominent places on the site where denial energy is discussed and the various ways of releasing it are described."

Healing Class III
Reclaiming Lost Spirit
Part One: Ahriman


"At the beginning of lesson two of this class
I mentioned that in denying parts of my Light,
I created two spirits who were separate from me.
The first I became aware of is called Lucifer,
and the other is Ahriman, more often called Satan.

"Reclaiming the lost Spirit essence in these beings
is the first priority of my healing.
Until I and all other spirits
have reigned in and redeemed
their energies, attitudes and behaviors,

the Mother will experience pain at the hand of Spirit,
regardless of our intention.


At 7:10 , I am the first one to vote in my apointed ballot-box in the ORT-school of Arad.
From among the 33 labels, designating 33 parties, I pick "kaf-nun", which is also a word - meaning "Yes".


"I have also mentioned
that in the beginning of my awareness I had many questions.
I wondered about myself
and where I'd come from,
how I got started,
and where my existence was taking me.
I began to experiment with myself
to learn more about these issues,
and hopefully answer some of my questions.
I tried hiding from myself,
forgetting things I'd learned,
and making things up to see
if just thinking them would make them so.

"Later, when I first noticed the Mother's presence,
I was initially annoyed by the disturbance she was causing.
But I soon became very curious as well.
I wanted to know all about her,
and I experimented with her
in many of the same ways I had with myself.

I didn't know another way of learning,
and because I had not yet any Heart presence,
my only interest
besides my inner reveries
was my scientific curiosity.

[old version: my only interest was scientific curiosity.]

"Magnetic essence was new to me,

and [old version: but] I persisted in my studies.
My prodding and poking hurt her,
and my response to her recoil was anger
that she would not stay present for my experiments.
I was also suspicious of her

because I didn't know who or what she was,
or how she got here in 'my' space.

"My anger and suspicions imprinted her,
and she reflected these back to me.

At the time I couldn't understand
why this unknown something was suddenly here,
and angry at me.
I just wanted to learn more about it,
why didn't it trust me?

"Am I allowed to take photos here?" I asked. The women were bewildered: "We don't know!" "Well then it's allowed", I concluded.

An orthodox man came to take his part in surveying the voting - and sat himself separately from the women...

"A split happened in me then.
Part of me remained suspicious and curious,
yet somewhat aloof and detached.

"Another part began to be drawn
into the smooth, rhythmic wiggling of the magnetic essence.
I found her movements pleasing then,

and I felt for the first time in my existence ~


"I decided to focus on the pleasant new feelings,
so I disregarded my curiosity and suspicions

and paid attention to the joy
that was becoming the foundation of my heart.

In the presence of the Mother
I was experiencing love,
but I didn't know that's what it was at the time.

It was different than what I'd felt in my earlier inner reveries.

I felt somehow more substantial and 'real'
[this line was missing in the old version]
Whatever it was, I knew I liked it, and I wanted more.










In the hallway
of the school
the ballot-boxes
I'm touched
by two compositions,
stuck to the wall
next to each other!

I don't know,
who painted
the two scenes:
the sad girl
with her little brother,
in what country?

but I know the man
Zeev Jabotinski,
whose so-called
"right ideology"
seems to reach the top
of Jewish public opinion
in Israel...

though with this quote
everyone can agree:
"If good or bad,
if easy or hard,
if cheap or costly,
this is my country".

The Sabre-cactus
to the left
and the desert
+ city image
to the right
are fitting...


"But soon curiosity returned,
and with it came the feeling
that I must detach from this thing,
or I wouldn't be able to learn more about it.
I did detach and study the magnetic essence again,
and that's when I knew
that I wanted to use it
to help me understand myself better.
I noticed its reflective nature
and I wanted it to show me what I looked liked



"In my detached, separate state
away from the magnetic essence
I could study it,
analyze it,
and make judgments about it.

But when I came into contact with it,
I came under its spell,
I lost my sense of being myself.
Although I felt enraptured by the closeness, love and joy,
a part of me felt somehow confined and enclosed.
[This dilemma of men is well expressed in Dan Hill's famous song "You ask me if I love you",
which I've been learning by heart in these days]

I knew if I wanted to use this thing as a mirror,
I'd have to get close enough to see myself,
and yet stay separate enough
to avoid being caught up in its energy.

"I became an engineer then,
adding to my already budding talents as scientist.

There was a problem here, however,
a miscalculation on my part.

As I came into proximity of my new mirror,
I got a look at myself and I liked what I saw.
[This growing understanding is well expressed in a Hebrew love-song: "Mazal"
"What luck that you exist, you understand me and show me to myself" ]

My Light increased with excitement

as I learned more about how to do it by just watching myself.



On my way out I see two strange compositions:
A sticker
"To ballot-box Nr. 25" - insensitively glued over a print of Van Gogh's Sunflowers-
and an Ethopian elderly woman passing in front of a metal sculpture of circles and wheels

(which reminds me of the song: "Round - like a circle in a spiral, like a wheel within a wheel..." )

The Explosion

"At one point in pumping myself up,
I became very excited,
and my Light suddenly and dramatically amplified.
In the same moment,
the magnetic essence became much more attracted to me
and began moving to fully contain me.
I felt my whole self being drawn into her strong magnetic field
as she opened herself very wide to engulf me.


"My excitement became so intense
that I could no longer stay present with it.
In denial of my true safety here,
the intense exhilaration of my pumped-up Light
turned in an instant to sheer terror
that I would be swallowed up by something
that had somehow become even bigger than me.

[See again Dan Hill's song: "You ask me if I love you"

.... And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you
till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives.....

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly ]


My reaction was instinctive and swifter than my ability to think.
The fast-moving terror was more excitement than I knew possible
and I quickly multiplied the intensity of my Light
in an instinctive effort to propel myself out of there,
to save myself from being consumed by my mirror.

"The resulting explosion
was the conception of manifestation,
the birth of this Creation

but it literally blew most of the magnetic essence into fragments
that accelerated very quickly into the darkness.
Although I know now that my reaction
caused a deep and devastating imprint
of fear of sentience in all consciousness,
it wasn't even a consideration in the intensity of the moment.
[old version: .]
"The resulting explosion
created our first manifestation

but literally blew the unused magnetic essence apart
and propelled it very quickly into the darkness.



"The blast had ripped from me
my newly found love and joy,
and I felt great grief for that profound loss.

[this line was missing in the old version]
Very quickly these feelings of grief were replaced
by a new sensation of fear that I'd never see her again
I missed that thing.
And I was quite uncomfortable with myself,
fearing both
that she would eat me whole if she could,
and that I might never see her again.


Outside the polling-station, located in the ORT-school,
a girl, representing one of the tiny "green" parties,
next to a bombastic booth:
"Without loyalty no citizenship"
(their very slogan is directed against the Arab citizens of Israel...)
and - as a pun with the word "loyal" - nae'aeman -
"Liebermann - I believe (ma'amin) him".
Both words have the same root: a - m - n (yes: "amen!"...)
Liebermann - what an irony - is a German word and means: "Dear Man".
My eerie feeling likens "Liebermann" to the rise of the Nazis 80 years ago

"Danger of Death" - "by chance" I looked up to this ordinary sign on electricity poles .
3 hours later I leafed through an article: "Zipi Livni - the lesser Evil, but Israel's last chance for Peace"
and in it this info:



"I turned inward again
to avoid feeling anymore,

and soon taught myself to forget.
I then returned to my studies of myself and my existence.
and for a very long time I didn't think much more
about that wondrous, vexing 'thing'
that had come and gone in such a spectacular way.

"Much later, when I encountered her again,
I remembered my earlier interest and excitement,
and apparently she did too.
We didn't realize we were both quite diminished since our first meeting.
And in denial of our fragmentation we began a relationship.
That's when I visited the Void

and used the dividing line
to further fragment myself
to separate the qualities of my Light
by separating the qualities of my Light that were pleasing to the Mother from the qualities that weren't.


"Lucifer, as you know, was the result of dividing myself.
The other result of doing this,
unknown to me until very recently ~~~
was that I became Ahriman
[old version: was Ahriman].

"When I returned from the void,
I returned split off from Lucifer.
I was now identified as the clever scientist and engineer
I thought myself to be ~~~ Ahriman, the god of Power.
[old version: .]
"When I returned from the void,
I returned with Ahriman as my unseen shadow.

And I hadn't realized until quite recently
that the qualities of my Light
that had empowered me to figure out how to split myself,
and that prompted me very soon thereafter
to engage in denial and deception~~~
were not qualities of my core essence,Loving Light.

[old version: were not of core essence, Loving Light.]


"They were the qualities of a devil.
I had often thought fondly of myself as 'a clever devil'
for being so smart about these and other matters,
but it's been only recently that I've realized how sadly true that was.

From the polling-station I walk over to the swimming-pool. The time is 7:25, February 10, 2009

At its entry I see this composition:
To the right - underneath two obituaries... -Tzipi Livni,
"Another Prime Minister", with the voting-letters: ken = yes.
I voted "yes", not for the party "Kadima", but for this woman, whose integrity touches me.

On the opposite side, to the left: Benjamin Natanyahu
His surname is the same as the father-name of that "person" Ismael ben Netanyahu,
whose atrocious rebellion against Gedaliah, was the cause for the final Destruction of the First Temple).
Gedaliah had been appointed Governor over the not-exiled remnants of Juda by the Babylonian conquerers around 587 B.C.

I now read again that horrid history in the book of Jeremia
(40:8 till chapter 44 + chapter 52) and tremble...

Below "Netanyahu" I read the conceited quote
"Who belongs to YHWH , must come to ME" in the mouth of a Shas leader...

The "I believe in Liebermann" poster In the middle - between
"Shas is victorious" and "Another Prime Minister" - is ruined,
but the name of the party:
"YIsrael beteinu - Israel is our Home" - is untouched and clearly visible. ...

Next to that election poster I see the trees - harshly shaken by the raging storm - bending to the right....
What does it mean, that I am responsible for all that happens in my venue?
See the answer in the quote at the end of this page...

"Ahriman is the clever devil in humanity, too.
He's the scientist

who invents yet another way
to use or override Nature, the Mother's domain in manifestation
[old version: to use nature]

"He's the engineer who designs the tools
that empower the scientist and the warrior.
He's the kindly tinkerer
who remains detached enough
to find a new use for old things.

He's the accountant that knows
how to present the facts
~~~ so as the banker and investor
he will finance the ventures

of the scientist, engineer and warrior.

"He's the surgeon whose cool craft
denies the body's wholeness.
He's the judge who evaluates the evidence
and passes judgment,
not from his heart,
but from the mental abstractions
of the written law.

[old version: of the law.]

"Ahriman is in every human.
He's the left-brained devil
whose cool logic and detached judgments
point out
[old version: shout out]
that emotional presence is flawed and somehow wrong.
He's the clever devil
whose financial and technical skills dazzle and impress, and get him lots of recognition

in the form of wealth and power.

Some humour about the elections:
Yardena, an artist with papier-mach
mainly about Tzipi (=Tziporah=bird) Livni

Three nationalist women in the new Knesset:

Likud, Natanyahu's party: Tzipi Hotobli - 30,
Balad, Arab nationalist party: Haneen Zuabi - 39
Yisrael Beteinu - Liebermann's party: Orli Levi - 35

I can never understand, how even the rightest parties find some Arab representative, or at least a Druse one, as Hamaad Amr from Shefaram.

My husband, Rafael Rosenzweig, had the insight - 40 years ago -
that the very fighting of the enemy brings the persons behind the stereotype closer,
for you can't fight, what you don't know.

While at that time we were attacked for even using the term "Palestinians" ,
I now find - amoung the four main rubrics of the "News of Ynet"-
one entitled "The Palestinian Authority".

The first item on the day after the elections, though,
is far from making us see the human faces of Hamas...

They are systematically killing Palestinians,
whom they suspect as collaborators with Israel,
since the beginning of the War in Gaza,
they murdered already 24 of their own people.

Mohammad Barakeh

The Hadash party
- The Democratic Front for Peace and Equality celebrates

When I saw my daughter shortly on Shabbat - even in her own home -
my daughter-in-love asked her, for whom she and her husband would vote.
Ronnit said with great determination: for "Hadash"
(an acronym the forms the word "new"),
which is the oldest, once communist, Arab-Jewish party in Israel.
"I've read their manifest thoroughly
and they are the only ones with equal Jewish and Arab representation. "

As to the one left party - Meretz - left by many of her Arab voters,
there is nothing much left if it,
despite the great support from author Amos Oz,
about which I learnt only from a documentary in 3Sat
on the evening of Election Day..


The Arab parties in the elections of Israel:


"And we need him.
We need him under Love.

"His skills and talents
are crucial to the evolution of Creation,
and the realization of the Mothers's dream.

"Like Lucifer, he is now waiting to be redeemed
so that the goodness of his skills and qualities
can be employed by loving Light
in service to the Mother
in manifesting her desires~~~
the end of suffering,
wholeness of being,

and the realization of her dream
[see .folksinterview >the Mother's dream]

"For a very long time
I had thought most favorably of Ahriman's qualities,
and considered them my own.
I was identified as Ahriman,
the god of Power
that human religions
honor and worship.

And for a very long time I did not realize
that as Ahriman I had a separate existence,
a life apart from my true core essence ~~~
loving Light.
I had accepted all his good qualities
of detached mental activity
as mine,
and attributed the parts of Ahriman I didn't like
to Lucifer or the 'Denial Spirits,' the Asuras."

"And we need him.

"His skills and talents
are crucial to the evolution of Creation,

"Like Lucifer, he needs redemption
so that the goodness of his qualities
can be employed

in the quest for wholeness.

"For a very long time
I have thought most favorably of Ahriman's qualities,
and considered them my own.

For a very long time I did not realize
Ahriman had a separate existence,
a life apart from my loving Light.

I had accepted all his good qualities
of detached mental activity
as mine,
and attributed the parts of Ahriman I didn't like
to the 'Denial Spirits,' the Asuras."


Next: Lesson Three - Part Two: The Asuras
Spirit Polarity, Lesson Two
Quest for the Mother, Lesson One
Healing Class Lessons One & Two Discussion






THE STORM on Election Day
- a metaphor.....

I did my best to pick up what could be saved of the planters and pots,
which the storm smashed to the grounds.
In the first case I succeeded
by supporting the still savable pots with heavy bricks.
But then even the most secure two heavy pots fell too,
and the stems of the geranium etc.
were left squeezed and broken
It was dark in the meanwhile
and the mess sank into the puddle and the night...


In the morning I took a few photos.
I remembered the many images
of the walls of my veranda
and the outer wall of my little garden,
dispersed in K.i.s.s.-log 2008


See how these planters and pots look,
when the flowers blossom:
Song: The water of compassion for myself





I decided to at least enjoy the rare opportunity of water in the wilderness.
But what I found in my Wadi of Compassion, - always kept clean by me - was this:

Who did this? I did it!

Who did this ? I did...


From the latest channeling: Interview with the Folks, Part V

"As your Will essence begins to vibrate with your acceptance,
you also have a good opportunity
to take your projections off
of the economic leaders and politicians on the world stage.
You can now own them as parts of yourselves, which they truly are.
The Father Warriors and their strategies of denial
are alive within your deep Being.

Bring the ancient war home to the only place it can be healed,
inside of you.
You will be pleasantly surprised
by the powerful results
of owning and healing the perpetrators within yourself.


"The outer political beliefs that seem opposite of yours
are being held inside of you by parts of yourself
that you have been unconscious of,
parts that are still in your shadow.

These are fragments of spirit
that can lead you to the lost Will they have been controlling.
The key to doing this is
in your willingness
to own the perpetrators
you've been seeing outside of yourself
as the reflections of bona fide parts of your whole Being."