Continuation of excerpts from "The Reflection Lost Will Has to Give",

p 33 followers of Jesus, but the unresolved impressions they received from Me caused them to appear as the riff-raff of society, or at least as dissidents from the main body of Rainbow spirits in the life of Jesus.

Actually, since they were open to receive My light, these spirits should have been among the most abundant, and since abundance has been such a societal measuring stick, these spirits should have been among the elite of their society. The presence of guilt made it otherwise.

These spirits were already repeating even older impressions that had made them believe they had to have problems to get My attention and these impressions had many times received additional conditioning indicating that they were accurate impressions. When I reacted the way I did to Heart's invitation to join them, these spirits received another dose of impressions that went into the Lost Will because these impressions did not come forward for processing. (noted by me: "If no expression: impression, depression")
The guilt these spirits received here told them it was not right for them to be luxuriating in the splendor of the light because the main body of Rainbow Spirits was not participatory. The inference was that they were indulging at the expense of others. When it seemed that I wanted Heart to withdraw from them and seek out the others, they took it to mean that for some reason, I was more interested in the others. They all thought I wanted them to sacrifice their happiness in favor of the others.

These impressions began to manifest in the lives of these spirits as never letting them-selves have something that others did not have. At first they had abundance and made themselves share it more than they really wanted to, but the guilt that was demanding sacrifice continually demanded more and more until these spirits were at the bottom of society and all of their power was in the hands of the others who had not opened to receive Me.
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p.34
I have given you quite a bit of information here to explain what took place in a brief moment, and yet, this is but a sketch of it. The complexity of what can be created in a moment's denials is a substantial part of why I need to tell the story and let you do the work of understanding it.
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Lost Will is created every moment there is lack of self-acceptance, which, so far, has been all the time. What you see on earth right now is a reflection of Lost Will that needs to move and to be understood.

...Lost Will is reflection of judgments that cut it Off from Our consciousness because We did not like it as We judged it was. We now have to go back and find the ways to reconnect to these lost parts of Ourselves and help them evolve from the places where they have been held.

Lost Will has been told to go away but has not known where to go. It has gone into hiding for the most part, allowing Us to notice it only at times. Lost Will has existed like shadows around the ones who have denied it. Judas was a very dark and shadowy figure as were many of the people around Jesus, Jesus sought to gain understanding by letting Lost Will show itself to Him.

My hesitation to join Heart with the Rainbow Spirits gave them more Lost Will than they already had, but I could not let Myself be free there. I felt that I had to hold back. It seemed true to Me at the time that I could even hurt them with My greater size and intensity. I held back because I thought it was the loving thing to do, and yet, I hurt these spirits anyway. Lost Will needs to move the fear that My actions meant I did not love these spirits as much as, or in the ways that, they wanted Me to.
I decided that rather than get any closer, I would hover above (end of clip)

Reflection that Lost Will has to give

p. 37 Some understandings on how the Will becomes lost.
No sooner had I handled this incident than I felt Heart. He felt troubled and was calling for Me.

"What now!" I thought.
...to My surprise, I found Heart lying in the midst of the most beautifully vibrating Rainbow Spirits I had seen since the Rainbows' emergence. Heart did not look to Me like He was having trouble. In fact, quite the opposite; the scene gave Me a feeling of upliftment and relief. Perhaps Heart was succeeding after all in helping the Rainbow Spirits.
Heart quickly let Me konw that this was not the case. "These are all among the Rainbow Spirits that I have found willing to receive me," Heart said.

I felt let down, but denied these feelings in favor of the feelings of upliftment that I liked more.

"It's true that there are not many spirits here," I told Heart,"but it's not necessary to have a lot of spirits to plant the seed of love."

Heart did not comment. He was holding back feelings also. He felt there was a rejection of Heart presence going on and He did not know how to handle it.

"It feels good here," Heart said. "I'd like You to join Me."

The Rainbow Spirits who were there had arranged their colors so beautifully around Heart that I could not take My eyes off of them. Heart was bathing in their light and they were receiving Him also. Heart was pulsating between rose red and a green glow that was truly beautiful, but I hesitated to join Him. As much as His invitation tempted Me, it also made Me feel uneasy. I tried to avoid My uneasiness by talking about My worries.

Guilt was the reason I continued talking instead of giving in and joining Heart as I wanted to. I had denial for My feelings then and they need to be brought forward now.