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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - by extension - all of CREATion!" |
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
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It seems that I chose 26 actors
for my life's drama and those 26 actors chose me! One
common trait of all roles is "mutual dependency"
between them and me.
With 16 actors - my family - the mutual
dependency is life-long! With my landlords
at Arad & with my
6 starchildren, born
between 1986-88, it may be temporary.
My children: Immanuel, Ronnit, Micha; my
children-in-love: Efrat, Uri, Ra'ayah; my 10 grandchildren [born
1987-2005): Elah-Alon-Tomer-Mika; Jonathan-Rotem-Yael-Itamar;
Arnon-Ayelet
My landlords: Ofir & Meital+ Lior (2002) & Amit (2005).
My starchildren: Lior Oren, Zipi Winkler , Dina Strat , Meshi
Taib, Gal Mor, Boris Arons [26=YHWH=13+13=ahavah+ahavah =LOVE!]
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2008
December 16
Kislev
19
tuesday
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Actions:
To the pool
once, climbing up and down
the Wadi of Compassion
Garden: w o r k i n g
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
BIG BROTHER FINAL
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Interactions:
e-mail ><Efrat: BB
Boris: can
I come? "If you are ready to join me in my BB exploration!"
He stayed with me for 5 hours. In
the breaks of the big show Efrat called, we exchanged our regrets,
she told the SMS exchange with Tomer about BB, & Mika's
"will savta be there when I come home?" |
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The FOCUS of MY INTENTION
TODAY
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may
9:41
I desire to dedicate this day to the
Big Brother Community, since they represent "The State".
All five -Yossi & daughter Einav here ~~Shifra & gay
Leon there~~Itai as mediator in between- grew through each other
by challenging each other as well as by supporting each other.
But since all the world is still addicted to competition instead
of delighting in cooperation
I desire Itai Ziv to win tonight, for he is the only one who
will gain the consensus of "The State",
and if he will win, he - the ego-less, gentle man will be a
model for men and men-loving women! |
"Grandma,
you look like Eliyahu, the Prophet". "I AM Eliayhu,
the Prophet, don't you know that?"
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
9:57
My Body,
my Partner,
my God
It has been 3 weeks, since
I stumbled down the Wadi of Compassion.
(On the evening of that Tuesday Ranin Bolus was dismissed
from the BB!)
Today I can give thanks to your re-won, re-covered mobility
of our legs
as well as to the pain, which still appears in the "Posterior
Cruciate Ligament"
when I - for instance - descend the stairs in the pool,
for this pain helps me to remember the purpose of all "nano-problems"
Since I KNOW that I am a ray of the sun, a wave of
the one ocean,
a color of the one rainbow,
I desire to always be aware,
that the PURPOSE of attracting --- a nano-problem in Body
or Soul,
or a technical "bug", or "chores" like
phone-calls,
or an interaction not chosen consciously, is:
to
vicariously feel & sense this, to vicariously vibrate,
move&sound this,
to vicariously accept & evolve this - being parental
to this and not victim
There is a secret in the choice of this
day's image, which I cannot reveal,
nor do I myself understand it with my mind. But I feel deep
gratitude for it.
I am grate-full that exactly on this day the gift of al-one-ness
is given to me.
I am grate-full for my castle, for electricity>computer>Internet>Television.
I am grate-full for knowing, what makes me zest-full , grate-full
, full-filled!
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Finetuning to my Present
14:47 The
Big Brother Finalists are asleep now
"I want some quiet",
Itai said and left the togetherness,
which was harmonious, though all - except Itai - expressed
how pressured they were.
My Hebrew as well as my English entry appeared on the blog,
but a bit mixed up.
Maybe, I should send it again.
I also tried to send an SMS for the number 1 , i.e. Itai,
but as I feared, I didn't manage technically.
And though I could have tried more, or asked Efrat
(who told me at night, that she sent an SMS for Itai 4 times
- "wasting 4 Shekels.."!) ,
I felt, that by interfering in such a practical manner,
I would weaken my radiation of my overall and whole intention.
Either my desire is right and ripe at this time and then Itai
will "win",
or "Itai" will be just a sign for the ripening of
the Conditions for Heaven-on-Earth.
I didn't go to the pool a second time,
in order to not to side-track myself from my aim.
But I'll use the quiet "in the BB House" for taking
a nap myself.
15:16 Of
course, I couldn't fall asleep.
The crazy fantasy of being myself a Big Brother "inmate"
plagued me again.
The ideas, of how I could "redeem the World" from
there, hail down upon me.
So I got up and worked a little in the garden and on the veranda.
For 3 weeks I had to neglect it and much neglect calls for
my attention and caring.
Now I'm back in order to empower the winnng of Itai.
He just got up, probably he can't sleep either.
Only Einav was reading - in the only book available - a prayer-book.
I already noted once, that I can't understand this discrimination.
Why aren't the non-religious or even non-Jewish inmates intitled
to books, too?
17:30 I
did sleep a bit after all and I enjoy the atmosphere in The
House,
despite Yossi's attitude of looking at the excited "youth"
like a judging old man.
I'll now make technical changes in my texts before sending
them again,
in order to avoid the bugs in the previous mailings.
I accomplished this as the last "thing"
before Boris arrived.
He chose to come despite my warning,
that he would have to join me in my Big Brother exploration.
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Big Brother
Drama
A few photos through the TV screen
(I finally discoverend the "BEST SHOT" on my Cassio-camera
for this kind of photographing)
Itai helps with the last part of the
"knitted tree" project.
Later, when Shifra, the knitter, will walk out to the audience
as the glorious victor,
she will be told , that a museum wants to exhibit the tree,
and that an organization of handicapped children will then want
to sell it for their purposes.
She will agree gladly.
A scene, which will symbolize the events
some 8 hours later:
Leon, "only" the No. five winner (more than 100000
votes), looks down but embraces the future winner, his friend.
Shifra looks up to her tree and to her friend Itai, winner No.
three.
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A composition
of Hebrew songs which chose themselves for this day
I can only feel the
connection between the three songs, not explain it...
Salenu
al ktefenu
A song from the Zionist era,
which I modified today
Our baskets on our shoulders, our
heads wreathed
from the ends of the country we came,
brought the first fruits.
from the village, from Kibbutz and from Moshav,
from the Valley
(of Yezreel), from the Negev,
from the Galilee!
Make free a way for us, first fruits are with us,
beat, beat, beat the drum, play the flute.
Our fields and our gardens have
ripened harvests,
our vinyards, our vegetable beds
have produced wonderful first fruits
Figs, oranges and apples,
grapes, pomegrenates and almonds,
Make free.....
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I have no other country
even if my land is aflame
Just a word in Hebrew
pierces my veins and my soul -
With a painful body, with a hungry heart,
Here is my home. I will not stay silent
because my country changed her face
I will not give up reminding her
And sing in her ears
until she will open her eyes |
The
original "Avinu Malkenu" + My version of it
Our Father, our King,
have mercy on us and answer us,
for there are no deeds in us,
have compassion on us and redeem us.
Our Father, our King,
fill our barns , fill our barns with satiation
What are deeds to us, what are honor and bravery to us!
For all your manifestations in matter we must give thanks!,
For all your materializations in my feeling I do give
thanks!
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Efrat:
I sent SMS messages to Tomer about what
was going on at the Big Brother show,
and when I once told him that I'm going to register you for
the next season, he said:
"Everyone will run away and she'll
stay alone in the house".
and later:
"What shall I do, if they get down
on grandma?"
And he answered himself:
"whoever goes to pieces, goes to
pieces"
meaning perhaps: 'since I'm her grandson, what will happen to
her, will happen to me.'
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Eliyahu,
the Prophet
[see
little Ronnit's painting, and see
"INTEGRATION"]
"Who will take a picture of Eliayahu ,
the prophet?" Arnon takes my
camera.
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Finetuning
to my Present
The experience of the hour which followed
the Eliayah sequence,
could not be photographed:
Since Mika's friend Adar with her mother Adi and baby-sister
Sapir had arrived,
Mika merged with them and had neither eyes nor ears for cousins
or grandma.
Ayelet and Itamar used the chance and left together to a park
next to the playground.
This gave me a chance to sit together with Arnon and Yael on
a bench,
all of us wrapped in the white blanket against the increasing
cold.
I'm only mentioning - not reporting - their answers to my question:
What are the 3 most important things in your lives?
Arnon: the new dog,
fun at school (except for 2 pupils...., both with the name Aviel),
Yael:
my family,
all my friends, not only those in the 'Scouts'.
I ask: what about a third thing? Perhaps music?
Yael: "yes, I enjoy my clarinet,
playing alone and with others!"
Arnon: "I
don't enjoy my piano-play right now. My motivation got lost.."
Arnon - out of context - tells me, how
his mother cares for the dog.
I obviously had pained him with my not really
hidden judgments against her,
when she had seemed to put too many obstacles in the way of
adopting a dog.
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As to more
images of Grandma-Day with the Quintet -
see tomorrow
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2008
December 16
Kislev
19
tuesday
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Actions:
To the pool
once, climbing up and down
the Wadi of Compassion
Garden: w o r k i n g
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
BIG BROTHER FINAL
|
Interactions:
e-mail ><Efrat: BB
Boris: can
I come? "If you are ready to join me in my BB exploration!"
He stayed with me for 5 hours. In
the breaks of the big show Efrat called, we exchanged our regrets,
she told the SMS exchange with Tomer about BB, & Mika's
"will savta be there when I come home?" |
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Intro
to
k.i.s.s.-l o g + all
dates
~ Library of
7 years ~ HOME
~ contact ~
SEARCH
( of Latin characters only!) my
eldest granddaughter's video-gallery
whole&full-filled,
never perfect&complete 
Keep It
Simple Sweetheart
K.I.S.S.
- L O G 2
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