The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

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InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Close-ups of my Past

 

2007_05_02: Closeup of 2006_05_02

 

The Day of Remembrance in Israel 2006



Today, a year later, 2007_05_02, I discover both,
a diary entry in Hebrew and a letter in English to Hamza in Gaza.
I wrote this man, who skyped and phoned me persistently,
but "of course" my letter must have overwhelmed him...
Though I get at least one "Skype" attempt from an Arab country per day,
I block them all,
since I can't see any benefit in communication with people
who are not in my daily circle of mutual dependency.
Only in relationships of mutual dependency is healing and evolving possible.
And only personal healing and evolving will heal and evolve Humankind.

-----Original Message----- From: hamza life [mailto:hamza_life@yahoo.com]
Sent: Tuesday, May 02, 2006 9:18 AM


ok maryam nvm , i well writing to you in english , but
my languge not to good , but i think you can
understand me .thnx , if you can send to me your tow
website please
thnx

To Hamza in Gaza salamaat!!!

My son wrote, that there is a possibility to write in Arabic,
but that it's too complicated to explain it to me.
I should try through "Help".
I won't do this today,
for except for this letter I do not want to write today.
It's the day of Remembrance for us,
this time the remembrance of the 22000
who were killed in battle or through terror,
among them also Druses, Muslims and Christians,
(this year it was the daughter of a Druse soldier, killed in 1993,
who lit the huge torch at the national ceremony
at the Western Wall yesterday evening)
while a week ago we remembered the 6 000 000 Jews
who were murdered in the holocaust.



Though I believe,
that many of these 22000 deaths would not have happened,
if Israel would not act out of victimhood - of feeling,
that it is still threatened by holocausts...
I feel deeply with all the families.
Now there is the alarm and we all stand up to remember... (11:00)
While standing and feeling...
it occurred to me, that it may be symbolic,
that I'm writing to you just this minute.

Know that at least once a day
someone from an Arab country tries to skype me,
I always block them,
since I can't see any use in corresponding with people far away,
while the work that has to be done
- to create the conditions of a "Positive Dependency", i.e. "Partnership"
is right here, in Israel, -
and for me with the Bedouin in the "Beqi'a" between Arad and Massada.
But You with your phone-calls are stubborn in trying to communicate with me,
so I'll see a sign in that.

In the background there is TV channel 33 running all day and night
with the list of the 22000 names, mostly men, but also some women,
Accompanied by - familiar, sad, beautiful Israeli songs .
Every 2-3 seconds appears another name.
Often at a certain date, like the 5th of May 1943 , the list was endless.
I don't even know. what happened on that day,
5 years before the announcement of the State of Israel.
Or a name appears almost day after day,
for instance July 21, July 23, July 24, July 26, July 28, July 29, August 1,
all in the year 1975, when there wasn't even an official war.

When I visited Alexandria (in 1982),
a student with whom I became friendly, said to me:
"You know what I appreciate about Israel?
that the death of even one person is so important for you."

Still - not important enough - to do everything to avoid it....

Enough for today.
I must know, if you have difficulty with my English language,
or with the feelings that this issue brings up in you too.

Your name is Hamza, which in Arabic is a sign
that signifies the sound of the throat made before any vowel - a or i or u.
In Hebrew this is called alef' and appears as the first letter of the alef-beth.
I probably met hundreds if not thousands of Arab men in my life,
but I never met this name.
What does it mean to you?

Maryam
See if you can reach the overview of my past work on "Israel&Ismael"

2006_05_02-Diary-Entry



"24 hours of profound mourning
for the 22,123 fallen victims of Israel’s wars
Fifty-eight years ago,
there were barely 600,000 Israelis
and a little more than one percent of them died in the War of Independence.
Now there are more than seven million Israelis,
a little more than 20 percent of them non-Jews.
"

[source?]



 

 

to former accidental closeup of my Past to next accidental closeup of my Past

 

 

December 24, 2010, continued

In December 2010 I went to a shop for scanning old negatives. Their order is accidental.
On this page I'm inserting photos of my bus-life in 1988 and of "Succah in the Desert": 1990


My daughter visits me and plays with Maya my dog.
I told - in "Abraham's Bus-Steps", - that my first encounter with the desert was in Wadi Karkeshet near Merkaz Sappir
(see also on former page).
After 40 days - in December 1987- I left the bus with my friend Mimi Ron at Merkaz Sappir,
flew to Berlin, took 2 months to mature my partner towards buying a minibus and driving with me to Israel.
2 weeks after our arrival by boat from Greece, we drove again to Wadi Karkeshet and stayed there for 6 weeks,
until we moved to Jerusalem for a month, then to Hod-Hasharon for a month and then to a place above the Mediterranean south of Herzliya.

 

"Partnership Diary", 1977, 138-139-continuation
~~~~ [first insert in Learn&Live 7, last in Closeup to my Past]



2010_12_30 Comment:

As shameful as the Bir'am people's telegram to Begin was,
shameful especially for me, as wrong we all were, when we saw a catastrophe in the fact, that Begin was elected. After all, it was him, with whom Sadaat reached a peace-agreement concerning Israel-Egypt.

On the other hand, the Bir'am people were proven totally wrong. For Begin soon realized, that he could not fulfil their messianic hopes concerning their return to their lands, since the good agricultural lands were in the hands of Jews, not only two kibbutzim, but a Sephardic moshav - Dovev - which I never could win over for my partnership-approach to the problem of Bir'am, and who now - with Begin - were "on a high horse", as we say in Hebrew.

"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 42 continuation
~~~~
[first insert in Learn&Live 6, last in Closeup to my Past]

 


I don't know, where this picture in my bus, in my pyjamas, was taken,
but the photo below clearly shows myself lighting the Chanukia in the first winter , in Dec. 1989,
when I still did not know, if I would ever find a way to begin with realizing my desert vision,
and its scientific model "Succah-in-the-Desert"

 

"Partnership Diary", 1977, p. 139b

 

"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 43


The metaphor of the "Four Species" is one of my favorites:
see the song and open the links from there, esp. to "Bio-Testimony"

 

 

Less than 9 months later we are sitting in the Abraham-Succah:
I'm drumming, while Hamda, my Bedouin neighbor, plays her self-made flute,
and my niece from Germany, who came as a fully-paying-guest for 2 weeks, enjoys our concert

Heidelinde, my sister's daughter,
a rider and animal fan,
took care of the 3 donkeys
and the two little ones which were born her:

I had asked a ranger who lived at Azuz
[the story is mentioned in K.i.s.s.-Log Oct. 2008]
to give me one donkey,
hoping, that it could carry up the water-containers to the succahs.

Instead that man came in the darkness,
and - wanting to get rid of unwanted donkeys-
secretly tied two highly pregnant female animals
and a one-year wild male one, which I called "Yishma'el".

The mothers, which I called "Bilhah" and "Zilpah"
after the two slave-maids,
given by Rachel and Lea to their husband Ya'acov,
when they themselves were barren
[see Genesis 30],
soon gave birth to two foals!
Sweet as they were, what should I do with them?
It was difficult enough to bring fodder and WATER
for 3 donkeys, who were not even effective
in carrying water up to the Succahs.
[See my idea about the symbolism of those 3 donkeys instead of "a donkey" ]


Bedouin neighbors
were ready
to relieve me
of the foals,
and Heidelinde
helped me
to squeeze them
into my jeep
and deliver them.


Later that year
people
from Kibbutz Elot
near Eilat
were ready
to relieve me
from the rest
of the donkeys.

They were helpful
even more
by coming themselves
with a pickup
and taking them
with them.

The donkeys would
feed on the grass
under the palm-trees,
so it did not have
to be mown
before any fire
would catch on!


When I look at this pretty scene - three little kids on "Yishmael", with Heidelinde guiding it,
and all this under the Ya'acov-Succah and the Sarah-Succah,
I do feel nostalgic - in January 10, 2011....

[see more pictures with Heidelinde and the Donkeys]

"Partnership Diary", 1977, p. 139b-140a




continuation

"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 44



continuation

continuation of the sequence of old slides about Succah-in-the-Desert ,
interspersed with 2 related documents about my Partnership involvement in 1975 & 1977