I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning
to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
A
R A R A T - H E A R T
A Vision about Peace
between the Desert Nations in the Middle East
and between Wo/Man and Desert Earth
The Ohel Mo'ed [2005_02_11]with the host cabins Keturah,
Dina and Hagar. below Hagar
the new shower and the solar system, which serves Abraham, the main
Succah to the left.
Ohel Mo'ed with Ya'aqov/Jacob (left)
and with Sarah (right)
A
week ago I went to Succah in the Desert
to see the new Ohel-Mo'ed,
in the form of a Star-of-David.
I had always dreamt about this shape
and prepared it via 5 different
architectural structures!
Let me present to you the five
"preparatory" structures:
the first shower,
the bell-tower
"Yishma'el" at the end of the Succah Wadi,
the bed in "Eliezer"
and finally the Rukhaara, the Spirit-Shit-house or desert toilet.
The
first shower of Succah in the Desert I planned as a hexagon.
It was built [with no electricity...] by the 3 men among my children
during Pesach 1990, when
already the first Succah guests arrived.
Water ran down from the watertank to
the right,
to which I brought the water from a tap 2,5 km away,
in two 300 liter tanks, I had let made to fit into my jeep. "Hagar",
here under construction, was built by Renata only 3 years later.
To use oxygin tanks as bells for calling
the guests to breakfast and supper was Rami
Haruvi's idea, to hang them from a triangular structure,
was mine.
Yishma'el,
splendidly renewed by the Succah creators,
after I had made my lekh-lekhâ,
but see below, what happened to it,
- a week after I inserted these photos...
"Eliezer" and the Star-of-David
bed inside are difficult to photograph.
Above the cabin "Eliezer" is seen through the bell-tower
[2002],
below [1994]
- it is Elah, my eldest granddaughter and dog Shiva
(died recently)
who are seen at the entry of "Eliezer"
I planned the bed in
"Eliezer" as a place for the Succah team to meet
and therefore as a symmetric Star-of-David. Renata,
the carpenter, who built both , the cabin and the bed,
had her technical reasons for making the Star-of-David rectangular.
A week after I had created this page, "Yishmael"
burnt down to the ground.
It was on the Eve of Shabbat, March 5,
considered as the
first Stargate by people who are "in to those things"
[that site contains several translations, also into
Hebrew!].
A strong wind .... a curtain .... a little gas-heater .... "Yishma'el"
caught fire ...
the guests could save themselves.
Why "Yishma'el"? Why at this time?
It was the first time since the (exterior?) completion of the
"Desert Peace Process" between Gadi and Avi,
that Gadi's friend, who so often had stayed at the Succah during Gadi's
"Time", came to the Succah for a weekend.
He and his wife asked for "Yishma'el" and were promised to
get it.
And Gadi wanted to use this opportunity and visit the Succah,
taking with him whatever feelings of pain and fear were still left in
his heart.
It was exactly that hour before the "Welcome of Shabbat",
that Gadi would have revisited "Yishma'el",
in which - before Avi's restauration 2 years ago - he and Efrat, his
wife, had invested much work and love.
It did not happen like this!
That Friday morning I called Gadi to encourage him to face his fear
and really visit the Succah.
"I am very sick, sicker than I was ever before!"
he said.
"Of course you became sick!!"
I laughed.
And he laughed with me.
Friend and friend's wife did arrive at the Succah,
but they were asked to move into "Eliezer",
since a group of six from the American Embassy was expected.
They weren't pleased, but they understood.
The group, though, postponed their coming to the evening after Shabbat!
So a couple, which came without having been registered, was given "Yishma'el".
"They were only the messenger [shaliakh
in Hebrew]
for something that was meant to happen!"
said Avi on the phone.
"But what is the meaning then?
Remember, that the two succahs which burnt to the ground on Pesach 1998
were "Abraham" and "Hagar",
Yishma'el's parents according to the Bible."
"I don't know yet ! except that it will be
for the GOOD!
Once I'll understand the meaning, I'll let you know."
There were more symbolic
events around Yishma'el's "Death".
What is important, that we, who are closest to "Yishma'el",
feel, that it is not "a bad sign", but a gift, a "shai",
all the four of us - Gadi, Avi, I and Hagai,
yes Hagai,
who there in Noah's Cave, on Pesach 2004, "channeled" our
mission:
"Your 'Noah's Vision' will not manifest,
nor will peace prevail in this country,
until we, the Jews, will become guests among the Desert People,
and let them bond us with the earth.
And once we'll have made us dependent on them, the Bedouins,
they will feel equal.
And then- then they might forgive us the expulsion of Ismael."
I, too, have inklings about the meaning
of Yishma'el's Death,
but I won't voice them, until time will bring them to light.
The Ohel Mo'ed 
