image of the day


Rock's Love

(discovered above the wadi of the only existing "Succayah", in July 2002
during the Desert Peace Process with Gadi and Avi in Succah in the Desert)

[Febr. 1, 2014, that Succayah should be wiped off from the planet, s. Nov. 15, 2013, but it is still there !]

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

8:00
My Body, my Partner,
I give thanks to your skill
to contract the muscles around the wornout cartilage in our right groin,
so that we can get up and walk,
though 2 years ago the pain and paralysis that hit the joint of our groin
was the sign, that I had reached my "Nebo"! [See also below]

[also on February 1, 2014]
I give thanks to you Hathra, my 11 year old angel in the desert in 2004,
for having invited me into your miserable tent/shack,
with the words: "My mother will be glad!"
I give thanks to you, Mother Samira - also my angel in the desert,
for having come from Bethlehem in Palestine to the desert in Israel,
bringing here love and laughter and holding high the banner of hope!

May 1983 - the inner voice suggested,
that I should follow "Abraham" literally, physically
and prepare for "going out" from my children's home
as soon as
my youngest son would be half a year in the army, which would be in April 1985.

January 26, 2006- -
the most painful strain in my right groin and hip
told me
that my work in the exterior world was done.

... thou shalt see the land before thee;
but thou shalt not go thither unto the land which I give the children of Israel.
Bible Deuternomy 32 end

Moses went up from the plains of Moab to         MOUNT NEBO         to the top of Pisgah, that is over against Jericho.
YHWH showed him all the land (...and) said to him, "This is the land which I swore to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, saying, 'I will give it to your seed.'
I have caused you to see it with your eyes,
but you shall not go over there."

So Moses the servant of YHWH died there in the land of Moab, according to the word of YHWH.
He buried him in the valley in the land of Moab ... but no man knows of his tomb to this day.





Moses was one hundred twenty years old when he died:
his eye was not dim,  nor his natural force abated.
Bible Deuteronomy 34

 "D I E !"   was Moses told,   but why ?
 Why should he  die  on Mount Nebo in  Jordan,
and stop-quit fulfilling his vision and mission?
Not at all because of his age or an ailing body!
(And not for the dumb reason dumb people invented later! (Deut. 32:51))

2010_01_25: I apologize! the reason was not dumb at all, as I learnt now:
When Moses hit the rock to force it to produce water, he was megalomanic.

You should have flown with the water and walked "humbly with your God!"
This demand [Micah 6:8], a motto of Kiss-log 2008, is addressed to Moses as to me!

I, Maryam, too have reached my Mount Nebo,
except that dying does no longer make sense!

My sculpture in Hebrew words will make clear
why the 21 years or rather 61 years out of 68
of exploring&creating the conditions for PEACE
have led me to the only healing of War's roots:
Accepting myself totally, including my SHAME !
Written on July 18, 2006 - Day 7 of the second Lebanon War

Sunset   beyond the Dead Sea   and the promised Land of Israel, from Mount NEBO in Jordan , where Moses was allowed to let go

Samira and her daughters took care of my self-esteem.
"Here is a little bottle with "kukhul".
Let us show you how to put it on your eye-lids.
It's a mixture of ashes and olive-oil, which we make ourselves!"

As the months passed,
February, March, April, May, June,
I understood, that only something dramatic,
like an official declaration in "Succah in the Desert",
would help me to wholly accomplish
my "lekh-lekha" from realizing my vision.

I called Avi Dror, my successor in Succah in the Desert,
if he would host us in the "Tent of Appointment" on July 15.
I implored him to be present himself and support me....
Then I wrote a carefully sculpted letter to my family and "friends".
As so often, when I look at something I wrote,
from a later perspective,
I feel shame.
Except for Gadi&Efrat, my former partners, who live at Mitzpe-Ramon,
nobody came.

And though I had written explicitly,
that I would not host people and not organize anything,
and that therefore nobody needed to come or respond to my letter,
it did hurt....

And I felt shame for even having asked "people" to support me.

Efrat & Gadi brought Maya, their daughter, and visiting friends.
Maya, now a suffering soldier girl, needed support herself,
and those friends wanted to know about my vision etc etc.
which made me fall into the same trap,
into which I had fallen 3 weeks earlier,
that event in Zwi Wiener's house, [in English: see Febr. 9]
which I had come to call "a hammer on my head",
and which had caused me to arrange that dramatic Nebo-Fairwell.


But, maybe,
if the event had been less pitiable,
less pathetic,
it would have been more painful for me
to truly and finally part....

Avi Dror's blessing over the Shabbat Challes,
from the official website of
the present Succah in the Desert
which is extremely good, in English & Hebrew,
concise, precise & using many of my phrasings.
My name is no longer mentioned,
but what is important and very satisfactory,
is, that all concepts of this model are guarded.
I could not find one deviation or compromise.

What is dangerously missing in their "Dream"
is the overall structure of the "Midbaryah",
in which such a business should be embedded,
to guarantee its standard and profitability.

From:
Desert Vision, the Challenge for Israel&Ismael 

Nabatean Reincarnation?

2002_07_30. last update: 2003_06_25
Appendix to pp33 [2002_07_28 -2002_09_04] and A Desert Peace Process 2002

Avi Dror's celestial sources told him,
that both he and I were here before,
he as a kind of local king,
and I as a kind of oracle.
"Here", i.e. in this area of Israel's Negev Desert,
which was then - 2100 years ago - dominated by the Nabateans.