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, ROSH-CHODISH, SHABBAT, - at Arad
back to past ~~~~~ forward to future
On my way back from the noon-pool I passed
this lonely tree, hearing from it the first Tristrams in this spring:
back to past ~~~~~ forward to future
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2012
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Purim, March 8, 2012, Arad
On Purim one "has to"
drink a lot of wine.
For "if the wine enters, the secret
exits" -
the numerical value of yayin 60 is like that of sod 60.
The denial is gone, the person is authentic, is himself.
The paradox:
while the wine shakes off the masks
the habit of Purim is to hide behind masks....
Not so my Mika-
she neither drinks wine to be authentic,
nor puts a mask to hide who she is,
on the contrary , she exposed to everyone,
that she is "kokhav ha
mish'alot",
the Star of Wishes.
There is another "item", I want to add to
yesterday's sitting in view of the Dead Sea:
I said, that you are 180 degrees different from me , by nature and in life-experience:
Versus Rachel's overdoing all her life, you can just sit at the sea or even
in your room
and think ~~~ think~~~~ doing nothing.
You: "Recently I learnt about a famous physiotherapist,
who went to South-Korea,
to see and understand the background and people of her cherished tele-novellas".
Since her return "she
is doing nothing!" "Just like me!" you
thought,
but your friend Uzi, with whom - in 1985 - we experimented with our vision,
to do the "lekh-lekha"
in my bus (s. above) together,
you, the handicapped, and me,
reminded you: "But she is whole with what
she is NOT doing, while you are not whole".
You then recalled Magie, your old - handicapped - friend,
saying (where?):
"Don't you think, that being handicapped is a full-time-job?"
This is exactly what I think, when I think of your 55
years,
of which you - for 53 and a half years - lived in a wheelchair!
I once against felt tortured, when I saw you here with me:
as you - with superhuman strength and determination -
wiggled yourself from my sitting-corner into your wheelchair.
I've completed copying the Blue Book, "Right Use
of Will".
The last 2 pages, corrected and edited graphically by me:
| p.128 The next step is reclaiming this denied part of yourself. In doing this, you must not feel it is just a mental exercise. You must accept everything that comes from any place in you and express it emotionally with yourself. When you have expressed everything you can in any one session, determine whether this feels like it is part of you or not. If there is no way you can come to peace with this expression as a part of you, ask Me to put it in its right place. Then let it go, and I will do this for you. If you feel a little ceremony is in order, do that, or ask Me for help in any way you feel is right for you. [see the Godchannel file "Sacrifice"] If the expression does feel like a part of you but very sickened by its state of denial, you need to nurse it back to health in any way that you can. Talk to it; accept its responses to you. Explain to it why you felt you had to deny it. Apologize to it, ask its forgiveness. Forgive yourself for denying it. In short, negotiate a new relationship between this part of yourself and the rest of you. Release judgments involved. Then, allow this part of yourself to be a participant in your daily life. Accept its contributions to what you feel like doing. This is a process that is going to be ongoing for quite some time in your life if you really get into it and find all your own denial. If you feel you cannot spot all of your own denial, let outward reality show it to you. This is something that has been a source of much confusion on Earth but feeling it, is going to straighten this out. This is how you can see your own denial in outward reality: look at everything that is happening in the world and let all your feelings about it come up. Express them with yourself at first and find out what they really are. Then allow yourself to take any action you feel will improve your own situation on Earth. Notice everythng you feel in relationship to taking action. Express these emotions. Do not push yourself into action before you feel ready. If you need to release emotions in advance of taking any action do that. Start with something simple that you feel you can do. For example, you might start by telling someone who is talking to you for longer than you want to listen that you have to end the conversation. Tell them exactly when you feel it should end and do not give them an untrue excuse for ending it. This has not been considered polite in many circles, but I want to point out |
p.129 that manners are based on denial. The acceptance of true feelings does not require any manners at all because the attunement is perfect. You will find this out by trying it. If the ones around you will not accept this from you, you need to move on and find other people that are not interested in denying one another in favor of externalized procedure. This is form that is not aligned with essence. If manners happen automatically, they are aligned with essence. The fear I see in people around this issue is that this sort of behavior is selfish and, if you carry it a step further, that society will revert to chaos if people only do what they want to do. I want to tell you: it's not going to happen. If you are not doing what you want to do, it's not right for you to be doing it. If you turn the tables on something that confuses you, you can see how it feels to you and you can decide whether you want to do it or not. If it would not feel good to you to be the receiver of what you are doing, then do not do it. For example, do you want to have someone listening to you when they do not want to? Starting with simple things and going on from there is going to be a process of reclaiming your personal power. Power is such a nasty word on Earth right now, and yet, who has most of it? Isn't it the ones, that are telling you should not have any? They have the denial of your own power to work with. I did not make Spirits to overpower one another. You can only be overpowered by another if you give up some of your power so that they then appear to have more. Personal power on Earth is seriously imbalanced. The imbalance of power took place step by step and you need to restore the balance step by step. The Spirits that have an interest in overpowering others can only increase their power by getting others to abdicate power. It is a powerful illusion, increasing power by diminishing others. This has been happening for such a long time on Earth that many people do not believe they have power over their own lives anymore. In general, birth to death is regulated. Think of everything you believe you have to do just to be able to go on living on Earth. This is not the way it's meant to be. Everything on Earth is meant to be free, abundant and hospitable. No one is meant to do anything he does not want to do in order to have food and shelter. Even though certain religious teachings have ( 5 more pages, edited already earlier, follow) |
How come, that it is this example of how to start un-denying,
"someone who is
talking to you for longer than you want to listen that you have to end the
conversation.
Tell them exactly when you feel it should end and do not give them an untrue
excuse for ending it."
which stormed into my life through my experiences
with Daniel at one pole and Ya'acov at the other pole.
But in my case the "problem" is much more complex,
for it's not only "someone" who is "talking
to me for longer than I want to listen",
it's also me who feels that I am "talking
for others longer than they want to listen".
See again the 4th stanza of my song (the
tune of which is recorded, but waits for Daniel to be put on-line)
Talk, talk, talk is your temptation
Just remember your vocation
Empowering all who are with you
[2013: Redeeming
Lost Will and dissolving the Guilt]
Let them bring their Heaven to Earth
to feel-heal what they feel
grate-full, zest-full and full-filled
to love themselves in each others' heart
loving themselves in each others' heart.
Look what a cute thing happened, just after I
had sculpted the passage above.
Boris and Dafnah called: "Can we come and
have our light dinner with you?"
Dafnah, a "new" starchild, has joined "us"
in Arad, now "one" with Boris....
What a coincidence: I had just watched Boris among
the 'old' starchildren
See another coincidence:
When I opened the
very last page of the series of pages with "Right Use of Will",
I came across "the embodyment of 'realizing
its potential'"
as I called the dwarf-star.
How come , that during our meal we had talked about this so special desert
plant?
2013
On this day a year ago I started a daily correspondence with whom I called
"my True Peer",
expressing the hope that we would find a new way of writing to each other..
I also began editing and inserting articles he had published on a now obsolete
website,
hoping to empower him and after 28 years to finally bring about total equality
between us.
It was to become a gigantic learning process for me until I understood with
deep sadness,
that it's pathetic to wish to co-create a website about "full-fill-ment",
when the space that calls for full-fill-ment is crammed with Lost Will.
I became more and more triggered by the flaws in our communication,
and he felt me to become more and more aggressive in my blaming,
not grasping, not getting at all, at all, at all, what I wanted from him,
to redeem his Lost Will - especially "lost" because of his disability...
He decided to part from me and from our co-creation dream.
I can live with the shame that I did delude myself so pitifully.
And I accept - with pain - that it's not me who can help him.
Does it mean, that I must redeem more of my own Lost Will?
I'm very grate-full, that through him I found my true vocation:
it is not "to empower people" , as I thought since the age of 16.
Many are dedicated to do this nowadays, and he is one of them.
My piece in the One Human Puzzle is
to go down to the root of what caused and causes
lack of self-love and therefore lack of power in the first place.
My task, my immense contribution to evolution is and will
be:
to redeem denial, to redeem Lost Will, to dissolve the Guilt.
"The
main issue now is that your Human identity
has been
squeezed into a very small container
by the conditioning of the civilization that has sought to control you.
The time has now come for this conditioning to move~~~
your full, undenied greatness is needed for the healing at hand."
Since the content of the process is not important for this task,
I'm going to delete most of the correspondence with Ya'acov,
from today, March 8 till July 4, 2012
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2012_03_08- 2013_03_08  DELICIOUS
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2013
My
meetings with Rabbi Fruman -
by Eitan Kalinkski, poet and Bible-teacher
in Naftali's Magazine "On the left side"
Rachel: It's not my preference to try to understand Rabbi
Fruman's dichotomy
between having been a settler on Palestine land and a friend of Palestinian
politicians
My concern is, that yet another great man who gave hope to people, let himself
die prematurely ,
and through what? through cancer, which, according to my life's observation
is -more than other illnesses - the result of "good people's denials"....
This poem about what I call "one
of my wo greatest jewels" in the Bible, Cain and Hevel,
adds a detail I had - in my 40 years of interpreting the story - never thought
about:
that the gift that was rejected was "fruit from the earth",
while the gift that was accepted, was meat and blood,
the kind of sacrifice, which we still cherish today,
be it the firstborn in "primitive religions" or the elite of our
youth in "self-defense"...