03_10

The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

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March 10 , Monday, - at Arad

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MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may!

I desire to explore the meaning of the sudden accumulation in sending/receiving letters.
I also desire to gradually increase the struggling with my incredible resistance
against learning anything technical, especially in the realm of computer&Internet,
Today I shall acquire the skill to record a canon of 3 voices, all sung by myself !

image of the day: the author of "Adobe-Audition" for editing sound

Lynda Weinman is one of the most respected Web designers to date and has been "at the forefront of Web development from the early days of the explosion."

Weinman wrote her first book on Web design in 1995, and has written more than a dozen since. Two well-known examples of her books are Designing Web Graphics.4 and Creative HTML Design.2. (She co-authors the latter with her brother Bill Weinman.) Her highly successful Ojai Training Center – Ojai is a small town in California – began as a solution to too much travel

and provided a peaceful environment for growing up her daughter Jamie.
Weinman claims that she is self taught and that she "simply learned the new technology and made it easy to understand" "I hate being elevated to guru/goddess/omnipotent status. I'm really just a student of this stuff myself,
who loves to pass on what I learn to others."
On her company Website, she offers a large number of movies for online training, covering a large variety of Web design topics. There, she also offer plentiful free tips and tutorials to the public. [2013 not found]----
Read a feature of Lynda Weinman: Lynda has helped countless designers increase their knowledge and produce better work....But as you talk to Lynda you realize that she is not a star. She really is 100% teacher at heart, albeit a gifted one, with strong opinions on the best way to transfer information to others.
One who, luckily for us, absorbs new technology like a sponge and is committed to filtering techno-talk into language and concepts that all can understand.

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today
9:04

My Body, my Partner, my God
I give again thanks to our woundrous skin, about which I now learnt,
that "it has more functions than any other of your organs,
it covers 2 square meters and weighs 10-12 kg
and hides 5000 sensory cells in each centimeter,
with which we can touch and sense.
Our skin also protects us against cold and heat, dirt and bacteria,
UV radiation and the penetration of water.
Its outer layer renews its cells every 27 days.
No snake sloughs its skin that often!
I see all those dead cells when I brush my carpet and sweep my tiles:
I once heard that 70-80% of all dirt in a flat are dead cells!

I give thanks to my discipline - in everything -
but especially for yesterday's perseverance and persistance
in listening to and grasping those "Adobe-Audition" video-lessons,
for which Immanuel, my son, my pioneer and teacher in technical things, pays - thanks to you also!

2013
I gave up soon after and nowadays I don't even insert any sound,
since the transfer to the "Linux" software and "Firefox-Explorer"
which I let Daniel Golle accomplish a year ago on this website,
is not compatible with my former sound softwares,
and I "understand" from this - still again and again saddening fact,
that I am to minimize my endeavors to learn technical skills,
since I am to limit my creative output as much as I can,
so I'll be free to do MY job,
which is to "redeem Lost Will and dissolve the guilt",
and to do this playfully, with sound and movement
and as few WORDS as possible.

next communication

"and walking humbly with your God"
[Bible, Micha 6:5]

Despite your incessant encouragement
- as quoted and spoken aloud by myself in the tiny pyramid above,
to rely on myself more than on anyone else, including you,
I want to bring this old-new problem to you.

"But you already found the right response
to those two friends, who suddenly wrote to you,
but with whom you do not want to correspond now,
as you do not want to interact with any of your friends!"

Yes, and I am grate-full for what I see as your inspiration.
Still, there are also the other 2 letters, which I've initiated,
and there are - most problematic - my letters to Deqel.

"You wouldn't be bothered by the sudden correspondence
with Hanna&Eyal Yezre'eli of Carmey Ovdat in the desert,
for your idea to send Efrat there as a guest is valuable,
even if it will give her only a place to dream about."

Yes, I am at peace with that and thank your for this idea!
[But see tomorrow , what evolved from this!]

"Nor would you be bothered by your aggressive letter to Yossi.
If he'll respond, he'll have stood your test, if not - the better!
You are bothered because of the accumulation of letters,
after a time of having limited letter-writing to a minimum."

Thank you for phrasing this so clearly and shortly.
So why do I create this hustle in my present drama?
And I say it again - why the correspondence with Deqel!

"There you are! This is your point:
The accumulation of letters comes to make you aware,
that interacting with Deqel through letters is not right!
She is the one person outside your family,
whom you have agreed to make yourself dependent on,
for a period of 4 months
until the end of the "Living Water Project"
with the Democratic School at Modi'in.

"Now that you created this circumstance,
this "Mutual Dependency",
[this refers to my belief, developed during my Partnership Work,
that we can heal and grow effectively only with people,
between whom there is a mutual dependency, like in a family]
you have to be much more attentive and gentle
than you've been in your last letter to Deqel.

"So may I suggest,
that you call her today and ask her,
how she felt about that letter.
And at the same time win her over to agree,
that from now on - except in technical matters -
you'll communicate only face to face or ear to ear
or better: heart to heart!"

Yes! I accept that,
but before carrying out your advice,
let me express my shame!
Not for the content of what I needed to convey to Deqel,
but for the carelessness of doing this in writing.
How many more times shall I repeat this mistake?

"Feel your shame, express it also towards Deqel,
and then return to writing only technical letters,
be it to Deqel or to anyone else!"

Thank you so very much!

"You are welcome!"

My response to Na'ama

From my correspondence with Diana

From my correspondence with Hanna&Eyal Yezre'eli

See the deepening of my encounter
with Carmey-Ovdat tomorrow!

My letter to Yossi Rudoy, thanking him for his book

I did call Deqel and though she claimed, that she loved my letter, and that she was happy to learn from me, she also agreed happily,
that from now on we would only talk face to face or ear to ear, except when technical issues or documents have to be transmitted.
On March 7, I wrote to Deqel,
asking her, if she would agree to call our "activity"
"Living Water Project",
according to The song about "Living Water"

In this letter of March 7, I had announced,
that I also had written up (sculpted carefully!) a "great idea"
about an "Initiation into the Bat-Mitzvah Age",
which would train the 13 girls in "growing up and taking responsibility"
and not just talk about it.
I even let her know,
that a first step to growing up was learning,
how to cope with fear,
and that "the Initiation" would give them a nano-idea of the tools for coping.

But then we had a talk on the phone,
from which I learnt, that she was acting as a caretaker for the kids,
instead of training them in responsibility.
I was shocked~~~~
and following this shock did NOT send her "my great idea",
and I warned her to do what I had done for so long in my life:
in devoted dedication to others, doing for others,
I had weakened their own powers.
This was even part of what destroyed my marriage.

So on March 8 I wrote to her:

Grandma-Day Gallery

2008_03_10

2008_03_11

"Where do you want to eat,
on the dinner-table, on the veranda,
or on the low table in the living-room?"
They wanted the latter.

"Do you want one common bowl,
or should each one have his/her plate?"

"From one common bowl!"
I found us a magnificent glass-dish,
actually intended for cakes.

Puree they always want to eat like that,
after I told them - years ago - a story,
from a school-book in my childhood:

"People were poor,
and they always ate from one bowl.
So when they could afford potato pyree,
everybody made a hole in front of him,
and a meat sauce was poured into it-
only the sauce, not the meat...!
So what a boy in that family did was,
to dig channels to his sister's hole,
so as to lead her sauce to his own hole
and have more of that tasty thing".

The children never forget
to bless the processes,
which provided us this food,
as I've taught them 6 years ago.
Though there aren't many ingredients
in a potato-puree
- half its side covered with fried onions
for Yael and Arnon,
and half of it free of onions,
for Ayelet and Itamar.
I can be sure,
that each will come up
with a sophisticaded chain
of how nature and people
(Ayelet taught them early on
to always say "people and women",
since "people" alone -anashim
may be misunderstood as "men")
worked to provide us this food.

Above it's Itamar who blesses,
and on the right it's Arnon.
To my regret I forgot
what processes the kids chose
to bless over.
Yael, I think, started to bless the herbs,
which became food for the cow,
which offered her milk,
which provided both
the milk and the butter in our pyree.

While they eat,
they try to construct
the heap on the dish according
to the topography
of the
Dommim-Hill
on which
we had spent
the last hours.

On most of the photos
Yael has a sad face.
When I compare it
with the fantastic photos
of May 2007,
I become sad myself.
I asked her several times about this sadness,
but she didn't understand, what I meant.

After Arnon and Ayelet
had been taken
by their mother
and Itamar had gone
to a friend in Shoham,
I had the opportunity
to be alone with Yael
for the first time in our lives (except in May last year,
but then she only came
to ask me questions
for a project at school
she had to deliver ,
about people
who fulfill their dreams.)

She finally agreed to say:
"I feel I'm changing,
but I don't know in what".

ng we dearly love, [2012-03-10- what had been written there?]
got terribly hurt by us, especially by me, his grandma.

Help came from Ayelet:
"I can understand him. He is used to take water from the fridge,
but he didn't dare to open the fridge in this house by himself."
Of course, she was right...

His sister and his cousins had endless patience,
until they could make Itamar forgive us
and return to our togetherness.
Since this was only an hour before this came to a technical end,
he did not totally recover as long as he was with us.

"Where is water?" Itamar called from the kitchen.
I made fun of him, even mocked him, and the others joined me,
how come he didn't see the tap,
or better: the Nikken device for "living water" next to it?
We often have fun laughing about one of us,
but in this case we must have exaggerated it,
for Itamar returned with a glass of water in his hands,
with such seriousness, that I made a picture.
And only when I stretched out the camera to let him see the "good photo",
and he turned away hurriedly and left us,
I "got it".

"Itamar, Itamar", I ran after him,
"were you hurt by our making fun of you?"
He hid his head under a cushion.
I turned to the others: "Now we have a job at hand.
Let's all work on appeasing Itamar. "
But it wasn't easy.
His hurt was deeper than I could fathom at first.
I asked his forgiveness and tried to explain my lack of sensitivity:
"You know, all the while when we were on the hill,
we were coming across cisterns
and I all the time imagined how difficult it was for those people long ago,
to gather the rain in winter and make it last until the next winter.
And there you, who are used to a tap, ask us :'where is water'?"

One of the cisterns , we had detected before the "Where is water" question of Itamar.

song of the day

"Bring us back to you and we'll come back to you,
set us free!"

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Keep It Simple Sweetheart
K.I.S.S. - L O G 2 0 0 8

2012

"Abraham" (2000) e-mail quote on March 10, 2012

You are magnificent beings,
in the perfect place at the perfect time,
unfolding perfectly,
never getting it done,
and never getting it wrong.
Be more playful about all of it.
"Today, no matter where I'm going,
no matter what I am doing,
and no matter who I'm doing it with
— it is my dominant intent
to look for that which I'm wanting to see.
I'm wanting to find thoughts and words and actions
that feel good while I'm finding them.
For in doing so,
I am, in the moment, practicing the art of allowing
all that I've been telling the Universe I'm wanting,
for all of the days of my existence

March 10, 2012

Isn't it "timely", that Daniel's grandfather died just now?
Daniel flew to Germany, it's the old man's funeral today.
So while he has no work to do, not in his job nor with me
since a day before the death I put our work on "freeze",
he can ponder about this man's full-filling, full-filled life.
94! 3 daughters, 11 grandkids,2 great-grandkids,
a wife and a family, whom he loved,
and the receiver of the "Bundesverdienstkreuz"
"the only general state decoration
of the Federal Republic of Germany"

What does it mean,
that he worked for the community
in an area that includes Dachau?

Karlsfeld [Landkreis Dachau]- Dr. Rudolf Kauppe,
einer der verdientesten Kommunalpolitiker des Landkreises, ist im Alter von 94 Jahren nach kurzer Krankheit verstorben.
Rudolf Kauppe war ein Mann, der jedes Mal viel hätte erzählen können, wenn er seine fünf Töchter, seine elf Enkel oder die zwei Urenkelinnen um sich hatte. Er wurde im Krieg zweimal verwundet, hat die Kriegsgefangenschaft überstanden und danach zum Dr. agrar promoviert. Aber Rudolf Kauppe war niemand, der mit seinen Leistungen prahlte. Und er war niemand, der viel von früher redete. „Er hat immer in der Gegenwart gelebt“, sagt sein Schwiegersohn, der Karlsfelder CSU-Gemeinderat Wolfgang Offenbeck.

....An einem kalten Februarabend im Jahr 1959 gründete er in seinem Wohnzimmer mit 16 anderen Männern den Karlsfelder CSU-Ortsverein. Weil er Dinge bewegen wollte. Weil ihm die Entwicklung seiner Gemeinde eine Herzensangelegenheit war....

Er war jemand, der kein Geheimnis aus seiner Meinung und seinen Überzeugungen machte. Jemand, der hinter seinen Entscheidungen stand - und jemand, der dabei gleichzeitig immer um Harmonie bemüht war. In den politischen Gremien genauso wie in seiner Familie.

„In seiner eigenen Familie hat er als Kind nicht viel Geborgenheit erfahren“, erzählt Offenbeck. Rudolf Kauppe beklagte sich nie darüber - sondern wollte seinen fünf Töchtern umso mehr ein liebender Vater und seiner Frau Gertrud ein liebender Ehemann sein. Seine Familie bedeutete ihm sehr viel. Sie gab ihm die Kraft, mit der er durchs Leben ging.

Am Samstag, 10. März, findet um 9 Uhr ein Gottesdienst für Rudolf Kauppe in der Pfarrkirche Mariä Himmelfahrt statt. Um 10.30 Uhr wird er auf dem Dachauer Stadtfriedhof beerdigt.

While I'm sculpting this for Daniel, my "potential peer", I see, that it's half an hour before Daniel's family will gather in the church towards the funeral.

This is what I wrote to Daniel 2 days ago:
Daniel,

94 Jahre! Bundesverdienstkreuz, Liebe zu Frau und 5 Tochtern
und 11 Enkeln, einschliesslich Daniel!
Was fuer ein reiches, er-fuellendes, er-fuelltes Leben!
Und was hat er Dir davon vererbt und mitgegeben!
Aus der" Mariae Himmelfahrtskirche" hab ich verstanden,
dass Du "eigentlich" katholisch bist...
Ich bin -in Stuttgart 1938 an Mariae Himmelfahrt geboren,
"deswegen ist sie so fromm", hat man ueber mich gesagt,
als ich mit 15 in dem kath. Dorf,
in dem wir (Protestanten) evakuiert waren,
zu Ferien war,
und immer heimlich in die Kirche schluepfte, zum Beten.
Die Kirchen der Protestanten sind ja waehrend der Woche verriegelt...

Dafna,
so darf ich sie jetzt nennen dank Deines Gespraeches mit ihr,
hat mich schon vorgestern angerufen Deinetwegen,
und gestern kamen sie und Boris,
um mit mir "eine leichte Mahlzeit' zu essen,
die auch Deinen Humous enthielt.

Geniesse das "time-out".
Geniesse Deine Familie,
Geniesse Europa!

An old poem of mine - 1983/1987 - pleading for liberation from the extreme discomfort which I then used to feel in my Body.

The Decision
(to bring my Altzheimer-sick mother from Germany to Israel
and take care of her myself - July 9-12, 1983)

On the Eve of Rosh-Hashanah Tashma"d, - 5744 ,
It was to become the year 1984 with Orwell's prophecy.
On the beach of Tel-Aviv, I wished for the World's End....

When I came back from 4 weeks with my mother in a German hospital,
pondering, how to take care of her and still work on my "vocation"
then called: The Digging of Wells (to groundwater , i.e. to people's power).
[I laughed when I now learnt the "Old Love-Song" and the question in the last stanza:
"So why nowadays we do not have One such well, shepherds and sheep, and such a Love"

Mona- who once had photographed "ice in Paris" - told me to write for future generations,
But I said: "They don't have the power to hear? I'll hear them!
"Power to freedom" is my message, which their mouth will voice.

"Man muss bei jeder story den Moment treffen, der die ganze story erzaehlt", [photographer Eisenstaedt]
"One must - with every story - hit the moment which tells the whole story"
On TV: 10 images in the 20th century, which became icons for events, yes for processes in History,
the one which got number 1 - with great distance to the rest of the numbers - was the Kniefall of Willi Brandt

"Warsaw Genuflection"- a gesture of humility and penance
by social democratic Chancellor of Germany Willy Brandt
towards the victims of the Warsaw Ghetto Uprising
"STORY" coalesces with the sentence of Boris
after we had walked and climbed in the desert,
and when we wanted to sit down for a moment,
so that I could quote the song of "talk, talk, talk",
we were spotted from the top of the desert hill,
the rock, once my "zulla", and behind it now Daniel's house -
first by Razi, then by Gal-Mor and Yigor, then by Aviva,
and later - on our way up - we met Sinai, the religious family-father...
We had intended to be just the two of us, and at the end we were altogether Seven!

When we were alone for the last 5 min. before reaching my house and Boris running home to his,
I told him, that "actually" I had planned to talk with him about
"a new format of communication" for www.shemshem.org

He understood"tikshur" (channeling) instead of "tikshoret" (communication),
and remembered what I had told him on the path down to the Wadi Khaesed,
"as I understand it, not only the Yitro-story was inserted just before the Giving of the Torah,
but the entire book of Genesis with its stories about our fathers, the Bedouins, was created
as a Midrash to the 2 crucial events of Israel: the exodus from slavery and the Giving of the Torah.
These stories in Genesis are so incredibly wise,
that though human beings wrote them, there is truly divine inspiration in them."

So, when parting from me, he said cryptically:
"it's like with Genesis, stories of tikshur and tikshoret,
a new format, that might serve you."

So we have "pictures that tell more than a thousand words"
and we have "stories" that ensconce tikshur and tikshoret,
How obvious this is: we cannot "invent" a relevant format,
neither "articles" as Ya'acov wrote them 3 years ago,
nor a multitude of sculptures, as I chose for 10 years.
We must listen inside and ask for the right format,
with out highest, deepest, most intense intention!

See my new research on Yitro tomorrow

10 Hebrew lines daily between Ya-Ra towards the doomed-to fail shemshem.org
2012_03_10- 2013_03_10

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