A view of the present Succayah
which I don't like:
The formerly so beautiful
"Tent of Appointment",
now reminding me of a hangar,
the compound
of the Abraham succah with its disharmonious crowdedness,
the cars at the parking lot,
which we always wanted to hide under palmfronds,
but never came up with a good idea, or with the time to realize it.
And from this specific perspective even the Rukhara is out of place.

Looking down into the wadi again:
an eerie view
of the back of
"Yishma'el" and "Rachel"

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It did not want to go back toward a head oracle it viewed as having taken the whole scene down there and so, it configured around the man most likely to give it a place and let it speak through him.

This rage wanted to go forward only, and not let anyone mourn too much over the loss of someone who should have known better. It felt scorn and hatred for them both there and decided it was going to have an even better life now because it could breathe freer, have the new temple the way it wanted to have it and accomplish the mission of collecting knowledge even better there, because there wouldn't be anyone with the power of the city state looking over their shoulders.

The man this essence configured around was a part of Heart, who did not mind taking in this essence because he had plenty of rage himself that was already polarized to the head of the temple's point of view. He experienced this only as though he had suddenly come into his own or as though the torch had been passed to him, and he was proud to take it. He was able to guide them to the boat correctly because he had listened closely to the head of the temple before he died, and they moved to board the boat quickly and get away as soon as possible.

They had moved up the coast some distance and sailed that night without passing through the port of Delphi where they might have been questioned. That they accomplished this made them feel they must have the protection of the gods, but the captain of the ship had a foreboding feeling that storms were coming in that were not typical fo the season.

Almost as soon as they sailed, storm winds began to assail the ship and with them came an excitement in the rage polarized women in which they began to have visions that this had all happened because it was meant to happen and that they were meant to be the new group in charge . Right about then, the captain said the winds were worsening enough that he wanted to turn back. Their first thought was to blame their former head oracle for this, as though she was following them with the vengeance that they had always feared she had toward them or had sent someone of the gods to pursue them because they had her belt.

They soon decided, however, that without her belt, she had no real power anymore, and they had it in their possession. They were all trying it on and seeing themselves in her place. As the winds worsened, their held rage said they must control these storms, which they had now decided were being sent by the gods to give them the escape they needed. Soon they were saying that they had

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called these storms, and they would not listen to the captain when he said he wanted to turn back.

The turbulence around the boat was terrible, but the rage in the women there would not hear of turning back or even putting in at a port. They only insisted, over and over, that they were commanding these storms and that they wanted to be that storm driven [sic] to escape quickly and to make pursuit impossible. Their rage claimed it did not fear the storms and did not believe they could be capsized or driven onto unseen rocks or sandbars.

They scorned any of the men who wanted to side with the crew and even fought with the crew when they told the men from the temple to get these women under control, because they did not like having women like that on board who wanted to run the ship's business and did not even know what it took to try to sail a ship in storms like that. The crew saw the ship as pursued by storms. They said it was a bad omen and that they were going to put the women off the ship if they got to a port without sinking first.

The women's response to that was to feel even more rage which worsened the storms around them until there were so many changing winds lashing them that they could not either go back or put in to any port. There was no direction they could go except straight ahead toward Gibraltar. The women then said that was an omen and that they must be allowed to prevail.

The temple people were fighting with each other below the deck because they were not allowed up on the top anymore, but it was barely audible over the sounds of the weather all around them. Their rage at each other was intense, but it was mostly in what they said and the way they said it, while above them on the deck, the crew was fighting with lashing winds and drivng rains that were almost capsizing the ship.

They were in disagreement about many things. They wanted a matriarchal, not a patriarchal head of their new learning and healing center and said that they, themselves were the ones who had been destined all along to establish it. Visions were coming to the women of being goddesses, themselves, who were emissaries of a greater goddess.

They were seeing the Moon stone they had had at Delphi as having a more prominent purpose than they had realized before. They wanted to make a twin stone at their new temple and dedicate everything more to the Moon as a feminine aspect than to the Sun as they had at Delphi. They could not even agree on the shape

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of the building. The women there had Greek ideas of columns and such things, but they wanted to give it a round shape this time.

The men from the temple vehemently opposed a more feminine aspecting in their new temple. They wanted to make it just like the one at Delphi with men even more in charge, saying it was because a woman had had too much power in the temple at Delphi that it had gone down.The more the men from the temple kept citing the former head oracle as a perfect example of why the women should not be allowed to prevail and were saying that these women were now acting the same way, the more this was infuriating the women who said it was only the head oracle, not them.

The man who had stepped forward to guide them to the boat directly opposed the women thee. He was not only enraged at the head oracle, he was enraged at these women, too, and wanted to say that he should be the new head of the temple. He said that he had no objection to them being put off the ship if they did not get their rage under control.

When they told him they could not be put off the ship because the ship could not even get to a port, he told them that if they did not look at what was really happening to the ship, they were quite possibly going to end their lives by insisting they had to have these storms. He insisted they had to calm down enough to feel what was really happening to the ship.

When they would not listen to him, he called the men together and they joined in meditation to calm the storms if they possibly could. When the women had no one left to engage with them in this anymore, they began to feel that maybe he was right. They would not admit it, but they joined in the meditation, too.

When the storms calmed and fair weather began to prevail, this man felt he had had the power to do this more than anyone else on board that ship and said this proved that he should be the new head of the temple, because the gods had favored him. The other men looked ready to give him the position because they thought this was right, but the rage polarized daughter who had been the one to confront the head oracle said she was the cause of the storms abating, because she had the help of the Supreme God she saw in her vision because He wanted her to make an offer in compromise to the men. She said that the Supreme God said they were not to judge things in their old ways anymore and that this meant they were not to judge what it was going to be like to have a female in charge of the new temple based on the experience they had had with the previous head oracle.

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The women felt themselves to be goddesses and did not like the men judging against them or their power. They felt they had plenty of power, more than enough to run the temple. They wanted a chance to try things their way, and being rage polarized daughter and mother pieces, they thought they knew better than everyone else.

When the men did not want to let one of them be the head of the new temple, they felt a resurgence of their animosities toward the men then, as though it was only the men judging the women, not the women also judging the men. They took their position to be reality there and so did the men. The skies began to look threatening again.

The girl said that indeed storms would put them straight onto the Rock of Gibraltar [was called like that only after the Muslim invasion of Spain,. i.e. some 900 years later] if the men did not accept her offer, which was that she was the new head of the temple and that she should have the power to select the male head of the temple. This meant that she would have power over the male head of the temple if she could select him. She said this needed to be the case because she was the one who had had the vision of the Supreme God, and He had power over all the other gods, or she could not have the power she had there. She said she was the most direct emissary of the MOther of All Things on Earth and that if that power was meant for a man, then a man would have had the vision. She implied I told her all of this, but I did not. I had not talked to her since she treated the head oracle the way she did in Delphi.

The captain of the ship did not like any of these goings (sic) on, and now that the weather had calmed, wanted to put them all off at the nearest port, go back to Greece and say he was just on a fishing expedition. The women could not resolve this with him because he would not even talk to the women, and the man who wanted to be head of the temple had to give the captain of the ship, and the crew, too, a lot of gold to make them keep going with them and even feared that since they had so much gold with them that they might think they had more and rob them right there on the ship and still put them off, or even just throw them overboard he was so angy at them. He told the temple people to pretend they did not have anything more, but the rage polarized daughters would not listen to him and still tried on the head oracle's belt and let it be seen.

All the women were fighting about who the new head oracle should be and did not want to let the men have a say in that, either, but the girl was the main one wearing the belt. She said the former head of the temple had given it to her, which was not true, either.

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She saw where he had put it when he was readying them to leave and gone into his things on board the ship and taken it. She claimed to be the best seer and said it was she who had had the clearest vsion of where the boat was, and that without her, they probably wouldn't be on it yet.

The men were saying they had helped more than the women realized and that they did not even feel recognized by the women as a part of the inner circle of seers. They said that seeing was not just a feminne thing and that they were not just temple scribes; they were healers and seers, too, The girl was adamant that she had to be the new head oracle and that since there was no one to appoint her, she was going to appoint herself.

The heart man who felt he was the one who was really making this journey come together, then stepped forward and said, "Well, we'll just see about that. If you can appoint yourself, then I can appoint myself and disappoint you!"

She looked at him with a "match this one' look in her eyes and then gave her offer, which was that the women got to have their own way most of time, but the men got to have their way on the four days of the year that would still be major ceremonies dedicated to the Sun; the solstices and the equinoxes. She waited until it looked like the men did not like this offer much and then said, "On those four days, you can do anything you want to do, including anything you want to do sexually, especially if the Moon is full, including having as many sexual partners as you want to have on those days."

The girl who wanted to be in charge here was being stirred with old buried memories of the journey of the Ronalokas from the heavens to Earth [sic! heavens with a small letter and Earth with a capital letter as always], and their destination looked to her like an opportunity to have the experience of Pangea all over again, and with this came sexual fantasies. The more she described seeing this place they were going to as soft and lush, green and golden, the moe others were also beginning to be stirred into old feelings of Pangea, too. They could not remember where these feelings were coming from or details of Pan, but they knew something deep was stirring in them.They all openly or secretly wanted to have sex, and they wanted to lay their accompanying uneasiness aside by telling themselves that it would be alright to have sex that way because it was all part of rituals dedicated to the Sun.

The other women all tittered and presented sexual shock and shame when she presented her plan, but they also did not oppose her openly there anymore. They gave the appearance of alignment

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with her until they could figure out what else to do, because they all secretly wanted to move along with her sexual plan and did not want to have to take responsibility for proposing it themselves. They decided it would suit their purposes well if they let her plan establish itself as something of a tradition and then take her position if they could.

Her offer began to polarize the men, however. The Spirit polarized men still didn't want to have any sex in the temple at all, but the men polarized more to Body did. This gave the women more power, because it was only The Spirit polarized men opposing them openly now. The Spirit polarized men did not want to admit that they did not want to have any sex in the temple; they just said it wasn't right and that it looked like it would be the women who would have the many partners, more than the men could, but still, they were all titillated by purple fantasies of sex and had fastened onto the word "anything". They did not admit to this, though.

The men gave the appearance of agreeing to the girl's proposal only reluctantly and after giving it quite a bit of thought and deliberation, during which the heart man, who thought he should be the male head, did not oppose her openly anymore. He did not think he could make an offer they would like better that would not look like an amendment to hers. He did not like the position he felt she had put him in there and told himself he was going to temporarily appear to accept this. He said to the men, "Just becauee she has said this does not mean we have to have sex if we don't want to, and we do not have to believe in a Supreme God if we do not want to. We can also let the women think they are in charge by letting them do all of the work for which we did not feel appreciated in Delphi, especially all of the administration work. Then we can relax and feel more like male lions. Then, during the Four Days, we can reverse anything the women have done that we don't like."

When someone pointed out that a female head of the temple would have the power to reverse it again the very next day, he said, "Not if we press it to a vote and make the condition of our accepting this that majority votes made on the Four Days in our favor stand. (sic) "

He had the men's support then and felt that he was going to be the male head of the temple. When the girl said she did not want him as the male head of the temple because he had opposed her there, and instead, wanted an older man; one who would be more of a guide and father figure to her, he was angered and hurt, because they had had sex on the boat. When she appointed an older

Siehe, ich sage Euch ein Geheimnis:
Wir werden nicht alle entschlafen,
wir werden aber alle verwandelt werden;
und dasselbige plötzlich in einem Augenblick,
zu der Zeit der letzten Posaune.

Denn es wird die Posaune schallen
und die Toten werden auferstehen unverweslich;
und wir werden verwandelt werden.
Dann wird erfüllet werden das Wort, das geschrieben steht.
Der Tod ist verschlungen in den Sieg.
Tod, wo ist dein Stachel? Hölle, wo ist dein Sieg?
(1 Corinthians 15, 51.52.54.55 including Hosea 13:14+Isaiah 25,5).)

51 Listen, I tell you a mystery:
We will not all sleep, but we will all be changed—
52 in a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet.
For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. ....
54 ...then the saying that is written will come true
: “Death has been swallowed up in victory.”[Isaiah 25,5]
55 “Where, O death, is your victory? [Hosea 13:]

Herr, Du bist würdig zu nehmen Preis und Ehre und Kraft,
denn Du hast alle Dinge erschaffen,
und durch Deinen Willen haben sie das Wesen
und sind geschaffen.
(Offenbarung Johannis 4, 11)

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man she wanted in that position, most of the rage that had configured around the other man when the head of the temple died moved over to this man. It wanted to accomplish its mission, and to do that, it needed to speak from a position of power. The heart man thought he had been unfairly passed over and should have had the position, because balance was what was needed more than anything else He saw himself as having that [sic], but he did not oppose her openly anymore right then.

They did not know how to handle her, because this idea of a Supreme God stirred something old in them, too. They did not know how much they wanted to honor this, especially if he was another punitive god who was going to threaten to get his way. They did not know if it meant that her god was more powerful than the other gods or not, but they did not think they could disregard this altogether, either.

After that, sexual tensions and excitements rose, because they all had secret desires for people in the temple that had not been fulfilled at Delphi, and the Spring Equinox was not that far away. They did not know just what day they would arrive and were not sure anymore just what day it was at sea, but if all went well, it seemed they would make it to their destination just in time. It looked like it was going to be a full or bursting Moon, too, and a bursting Moon was good enough, the girl who was now head of the temple said. They could have a grand ceremony to celebrate their arrival at the same time then, too.

They did not think they could make it, though, if they went by land for part of the journey as had been in the original plan made by the head of the temple. They did not see how anyone could have sailed faster than they, as storm driven as they had been, and they did not feel themselves being directly pursued there, either. They made the decision to sail through at the Rock of Gibraltar, assuming no one could have been alerted there yet, instead of unloading all of the heavy treasure they had with them and trudging slowly across Gaul, fearing bandits every step of the way.

After Gaul, their idea of geography was fuzzy. They had been so busy with their own agenda on the way there that they were going, or if so, what they were going to meet when they got there. The captain of the ship told them he did not want to leave the Mediterranean because he feared pirates around the bend. He felt they had treasure on board and did not like carrying that. He wanted heavy compensation for any risk he was going to take there.

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This proposed a problem since they had pretended they didn't have more gold and everyone insisted they were not going to give him the belt. They finally told him they had some coins they had been saving for their own expenses when they arrived and that they would give him all of that. He was not happy with the amount they gave him but finally agreed to take them as far as he could, but no farther.

They sailed through Gibraltar smoothly and easily and in fair weather, too, just as their new head oracle had been promsing. They were not stopped or questioned and did not notice that they were observed passing through there. They got around the bend and there were no immediate pirates, but they had not heeded the previous head of the temple's warnings to go by land or listened to the heart man when he said that they should follow their former head's advice and go by land through Gaul because he must have had reasons for it. They did not notice any danger in what they might be creating for themselves by letting it be observed that they had passed that way.

They sailed on, seemingly without incident, feeling that this all meant they were on the right path. They were feeling celebratory that things were going along so smoothly for them, but tensions were mounting when the new female head of their temple kept claiming that all of this was because of her and "her" Supreme God.

They had feelings of almost wishing that something would jar her self-righteous confidence. Then, pirates struck; Viking pirates. The captain said it was another bad omen. He tried to outrun them, but they were low in the water because of so many people on board. He turned to go across the south coast of the Isle where he had said he would not go beause of the mists they had seen from the crow's nest and became almost immediately lost in them. They lost the pirates but found themselves in a new peril now from not knowing the coastline or where rocks might lie just ahead. They pulled down most of the sail and waited, but the mists did not clear, and he began to fear drifting or being washed onto rocks. He was fuming mad.

The new male head of the temple was not helping. He seemed to think it was beneath him to have to do anything except to make the heart man feel sexually displaced with the female head of the temple and talk about the mission of the temple once they arrived. The heart man was holding his own rage back in a feeling that he needed to guide the situation outwardly to save his own life if nothing else. He told the captain that he understood how he felt

Blessed are the dead
which die in the Lord
from henceforth:
Yea, saith the Spirit,
that they may rest from their labours;
and their works do follow them.

Revelation 14,13

I'll now listen
to one of my favorite pieces of music
- youtube- Pergolesi, Stabat Mater 41:07

[lyrics in Latin and English]

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and that if there was any problem, they would all disembark into his ferry boat and find the shore themselves, leaving him free, but the problem was it was impossible to tell which way the shore was.

They tried dropping anchor, but it was not shallow enough for that. They tried meditating, but there was no lift in the fog as it had now become, except to catch a glimpse of what was either rock or land nearby. It was clear the captain had no more patience for this and wanted to pull away from what they had seen but he wanted to get these temple people off of his ship first. Several of the men felt sure that in a smaller boat they could row with someone at the helm, they could find the shore and not be dashed upon the rocks, but they did not understand the waves there which were great swells that could carry them onto rocks as easily as land them on a beach. The captain said, "No."

The next time they caught a glimpse of land, they were even closer, and the captain had to let them go because it was not safe for him to get any closer. It was treacherous, navigating the shallow waters, but with the help of the heart man and the psychic perceptions of several other of the men, including by now, the male head of the temple, they were able to reach a marshland, but they could not find any dry land there.

At times, they would think they saw some dry land, but when they tried to ferry themselves to it, they could not find it. They only found themselves circling, apparently,lost in the mists of what looked like such a dismal marshland to them that they could not even believe it was really their destination. They finally found a little patch of dryland, but not knowing if there was any more, they did not want to unload. They were only able to rest, and in the morning, they still could not find any more dry land.
The faeries, who were controlling the mists, studied them all night long without the temple people knowing it, other than having perceptions of being watched and wondering if they were going to be attacked by local people they had not seen yet. The faeries were both fascinated and made uneasy by the temple people because they had not seen light like theirs for a long time. They wanted the mists to lie upon the land until they had made their decision about letting them stay or making them go.

Several temple people wanted to go to another place on the coast. They had feelings of being watched that were making them nervous, but they were running low on prepared food and water already, and the now male head of the temple and the heart man both insisted that they had to find some dry land right there.

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The faeries saw the rage light with these people and did not like it, but they also saw other light there that they did like and were unsure what to do about them. When they did not go away, the faeries wanted to make the mists lead them away, but when the temple people did not push their way into the marsh looking for land and sat meditating instead and began to look toward their inner perceptions to help them find some dry land, the faeries thought they might be wrong about them.

When they persisted in their meditation and almost cleared enough mist to show them another patch of dry land, the faeries saw the temple people as having some powers similar to their own. The faeries saw that they were not violent people and that they had not come to make war. They still felt cautious and uneasy about them for reasons they could not explain but let them see a little more land to see what they were going to do there.

The temple people did not like what they had to go through there, or the dismal surroundings in which they found themselves, but by the time they saw more dry land, they were glad, felt they had some spiritual power helping them and had begun to love the idea of being that hidden, as though that was meant to be, also. It stirred something old in them about being hidden from My light also that they did not even realize they still had in them. They felt excited for some reason they could not explain, as though there was magic in the air. The faeries liked that feeling in them, too.

When they found this piece of dry land, the female head of the temple said she was glad, because that was the place she had been guided to and did not think it was right to say anything unless others were guided there also, because the land needed to open to them all, not just her.

The others didn't like this. It was her tone more than anything else that bothered them there, and many of them thought she was trying to make a prediction after the fact to look good. She then said that this was all meant to happen, too, because otherwise, the ship would not have brought them to this place.

When they landed, the temple people did not realize there were any faeries involved in what was happening to them, or that there were any local people who might be watching them, but the faeries told the local people about them then and said that they had given them a cautious reception to see what they were going to do. They knew the faeries protected them from being found by making them invisible whenever necessary, and they were very surprised to hear that the temple people were there.

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The local people observed thee temple people for a while, too, before they revealed themselves. When they saw that the temple people were fasting and were about to run out of fresh water, and still hadn't acted in any of the ways they did not want there, the faeries and the local people decided to give them a cautious welcome.

The local people came then to offer them first water, then food and finally, invited them into their homes when they saw how cold they were from lack of shelter. It was a relief to the temple people to have help finding the means to sustain themselves, but the local people did not like the way they felt themselves subtly, but almost immediately, cast in servant roles.

They said nothing about the faeries but they felt sure the faeries must have let the temple people find this place or they could not be there, and so the temple people had their respect and acceptance more than they knew from the beginning and for reasons they did not know, but the contrast between the polished stone the temple people were used to and the "mud hugs" with thatched roofs the local people lived in did not lead them to believe that these people could even be provincial cousins to the powerful Celtic people they had heard about, or that they could be a people who already knew a lot of the things they knew or even a people who had any power or magic at all.

The local people were not ready to let them know any of these things, either. They presented as they had always presented; humble green and gold people living in a marshland and nothing more.

When the temple people soon said they wanted to live there and contract with them to build them a temple, the local people told them they needed to go slower with their plans. When they heard the plans of what the temple people wanted to have built, they could only laugh and tell them they had no use for gold except that they liked the metal and wanted to make ornaments from it and that there was no rock nearby they had plans to haul or were going to haul, but they felt more than reluctant.

The local people and the faeries felt deep stirrings of old memories that seemed to be of another temple that had been there in ancient times. It was Atlantean times, but they did not remember it clearly enough to know that then and did not want to judge these people because of old memories, but there was something similar enough that it was provoking old memories. They told them they already had a temple and would take them to see Stonehenge at the Spring Equinox, instead.

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That spring, the equinox celebration they had planned was not as grand as they had hoped. The weather was rather cold and dismal compared to what they were used to in Greece, and they did not have their own place to live, but that was when the local people showed them how they marked the dates at Stonehenge and where the Sun rose that day.

The temple people thought it was crude compared to the way they marked the dates at home, but it worked, nonetheless. They were allowed to participate in the local festivities, and they were able to sneak away and have sex after dark fell early that day; it just was not the kind of sex their fantasies had envisioned, because they did not feel free to abandon themselves to that yet.

After the Spring Equinox, when the temple people saw how crudely Stonehenge was formed compared to temples at home, they gave up their plans for a large temple and decided to settle for anything the local people were willing to build, which was one small, round room and dwellings nearby. They wanted to move along rapidly with their plans, however, and they wanted to be more ready to have the celebration they had envisioned when the time for observance of the Summer Solstice came.
They were living at the foot of a hill and had seen another one nearby that they thought would be perfect for what they had in mind. It was the Tor of Glastonbury, but they did not know that. When they said they wanted to go there, the local people at first said that it wasn't used for anything because it was too hard to get to. "All the more perfect," the temple people thought and made plans to find a way to get there.

When they could not find the way through the marshes, since the faeries protected this place, too, they went to the local people and told them they wanted them to take them there because they had made plans to terrace the hillside and try to grow graps. Grapes were not a familiar food to these people then, and they thought the temple people must be crazy to want them to do this.

When the temple people told them all about wanting to do their ceremonial processions through vineyards lieke they were used to doing at home, and how they wanted to make wine for their ceremonies and rituals, the local people were not familiar with this as a drink, either, having only meade [sic] there.

The more the temple people insisted they wanted to do this, the more the local people did not know what to say. The faeries had already come to them said they did not want these people on the Tor, but the local people did not want to mention the faeries yet.

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because the temple people had not mentioned them, which meant that the faeries had not allowed themselves to be seen by these newcomers.

They tried to deter them by saying it made more sense to do all of this someplace that was more accessible. The temple people said that that was the point; to do this someplace that was not accessible, because this was going to be sacred wine and sacred vineyards and a sacred place that was only going to be used for their sacred processions.

The local people went to the faeries and told all of this to them.The faeries had to consider all of this for some time and sent the local people back to question the temple people several times, because there was something they did not trust about this or about the light they had there when they saw them speak about this. They were trying to remember something here, too, and could not quite remember what it was.

It bothered the temple people when they could not get the local people move, because they were anxious to go ahead with their plans. They said that a new vineyard should be in the ground already and that they had seeds they brought with them that were already sprouting and needed some place to grow or they were going to die, and they had no more seeds.

The local people did not want to feel pressured to give them the Tor. They decided to tell the temple people there was one day that they did use the Tor, which was their annual fertility ritual and the only time they used the Tor. They told them they did not want it all torn up by digging because of that and that they had their own work to do before then, instead. They thought they might shock the temple people, who did not appear to have sex, when they told them that they danced nude in the sunlight and that the youth were allowed to have sex with partners they thought they might marry.

The temple people had a meeting and then gave the local people a proposal to join in on their festivities, because they didn't see themselves at variance of conflict with them if there was welcomeness fo them there. The local people were feeling somewhat rolled over by these temple people, but the pleasantness with which it was being done was confusing the   g u i l t   they did have there into feeling that that feeling was wrong. [I 'm finding these sentences marked by me , with a note : 2006-02-05. I probably implied, that someone was feeling rolled over by ME the same way]. They didn't want to judge the temple people because that didn't feel loving to them and, thus, invited them to participate in their own ritual which was then "annexed" by the temple people onto their Four Days.

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The temple people liked the idea that they only had to wait half the time from the Spring Equinox to the Summer Solstice to have their next ritual in which they could have sex, but they didn't say that to the local people. They did say that they still wanted to grow grapes there and that they would make sure they were not in the way of anything else the local people were going to do if they would only show them what that was.They also said they would do the work themselves and put back all the grass they moved, which made the Celtic people feel a little more lenient toward their proposal.

The local people and the faeries both liked this light that wanted to grow things and have sacred places, honor nature and all of the other many things the temple people were saying. When May Day, or Beltane, came, the temple people were allowed to participate, and the sex they had was very discreet. The faeries let the local people have the hill that day and danced on other hills if the Full Moon fell upon that day.

The temple people were very careful to be pleasant instead of pushy about their plans, getting the local people interested and even enthusiastic about them and showing intestest in what they were doing also. The local people and even the faeries had pleasantness confused with honesty and more and more began to feel that they had been wrong in their uneasiness about these people.

The faeries finally decided that if it really was going to be only sacred processions, sacred wine grown and dancing in the Moonlight, and only on certain days of the year, that they could still dance there on Full moon nights, even though they considered this their own hill for their own moonlight dancing, and not be noticed by the temple people since they had showed no sign of noticing them yet. They were willing to try this out rather than have the local people reveal the faeries' presence as the reason for their continued reluctance.

The temple people did get some local help after all, and the hill was terraced and the grape plants in the ground before the Summer Solstice. The rains were favorable, the grapes took hold, but there was no procession up the hill that year because they could not walk on the grass yet. The temple people went with the local people to Stonehenge again and made even more contacts than they had in the Spring for the classes they planned to teach. Once again, the sex they had took place some distance away from the local people.

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The temple people wanted to have the kind of sex they wanted to have, but they did not want this to be seen as their main focus by the local people in case they did not approve, and so they were hoping to have their own procession up the Tor and not go all the way to Stonehenge the next year. They had been making a lot of plans, but given the local people's interest In everything they were doing, they did not want to tell them very much, because they did not want them to decide to stay home and observe the solstice with them.

Many had wanted to come dressed in the images of the Greek gods and goddesses, but given the local nature-based approach to these rituals and the feelings of Pan that were stirring there, it did not take them long to get the idea that they could dress up like animals, trees, flowers and other things in nature. They wanted to make the focus of the Sommmer Solstice power; the power of nature as it was rising into its full force, or presence, as they preferred to call it. They had decided that dressing up like plants and animals and role playing was an excellent way to tap into the power of nature and the land there and ~~~ to behave like animals, themselves.
[I remember the Purim-costumes I invented for my threesome, once "Sun, Moon and Stars", and once - a shepherdess with 2 sheep]

The festival was going to be dedicated to the Sun and to the Greek god of fertility, wine and drama, Dionysus. Many wanted to dress in his image, but the head of the temple said he should be the only one who should be allowed to dress that way. The rest of them decided to be satyrs then. A number of the other men wanted to be predatory animals. The heart man wanted to be a lion, and when the local people said they did not know that form, he told them all he knew aobut the lions of Africa.

The local people thought they were really showing an interest in their nature-based approach and were encouraging toward them there, but the temple people did not think they were ready or expecting to see the Pan-like celebration that was unfolding in their plans. The local people were planning to have a procession all the way to Stonehenge, followed by merry-making and eating as usual, and when the local people left in their procession to Stonehenge, the temple people, who did not see the faeries yet, thought they were alone there. They were glad, because now they could have the celebration they really wanted to have. This was their long awaited, and first, Summer Solstice of this sort. They wanted to make the most of it, but they did not want to outrage the local people, either.

The temple people started early, as soon as they decided they could feel the forces of nature rising to greet the sun, with their pro-

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cession, slowly spiraling up the hill, calling upon the favors of the various deities they wanted to invoke there and were at the top of the hill when the Sun rose.

Although they could no longer do form change, they had gotten heavily into costuming themselves as animals and trees, plants and flowers. They had no wine yet, but meade would do this first year, and they had learned a little about local plants, and especially the mushrooms, and decided to include some in their meade to "inhance its properties," as they said then.

They began to have the sex they really wanted to have there, role playing as though they actually were the flowers and animals they dressed up as, doing whatever they wanted to do and making whatever noises they wanted to make, as though they were animals. There were more flowers among them than it appeared from their discussions there was going to be, as well as many animals who would fall prey to the lion and other predatory animals they were dressed as. The ones dressed as prey, in the end, did not feel like they had had any choice about how they were going to dress, They were the fear polarized ones in the temple, but the men who told them how they were going to dress felt it only as the ones they wanted to prey upon. They considered it fun to take these temple members down, as though they were staking or hunting them and then have sex with them.

The Moon was full, and the men who had fastened onto the word "anything' on the ship now felt it was finally their chance to do anything they wanted to do sexually, and THEY HAD THEIR POTIONS OF MEADE AND PSYCHEDELIC MUSHROOMS TO LOSEN UP THEIR INHIBITIONS, TOO, mANY BEGAN SCrEAMING IN TERROR AS THE sEX PROGRESSED, AND THE TERROR WAS NOT RESPECTED THERE. iT WAS GONE PAST IN MANY WAYS BY THOSE WHO HAD DRESSED IN THE MorE PREDATORY AND AGGRESSIVE FORMS.

THOSE DRESSED AS FLOWERS, ESPECIALLY, SEEMED TO HAVE FORGOTTEN OR NOT HAVE NOTICED THAT THE MEN HAD FASTENED ONTO THE WORD "ANYTHING" WHEN THE ORIGINAL PROPOSAL OF THE fOUR DAYS HAD BEEN MADE. WHEN THEIR TERROR WAS GONE PAST, THEY DID Not REMAIN SILENT AS THEY SAID THEY WERE GOING TO WHEN THEY STARTED the dAY BY TURNING THEIR FACES TO THE sUN. tHEY BEGAN SCREAMING, LOUDLY AT TIMES, SUCH ThINGS AS, "nO, STOP! hOW CAN YOU TAKE ME LIKE THIS?" OFTEN FOLLOWED BY STrEAMS OF VULGARITies AND ABUSIVE, INSULTING LANGUAGE, WHICH THEY SaiD WAS THE VOICE OF FLOWERS IF THEY COULD ONLY SPEAK IN RESPONSE TO BEING PICKED BEFORE THEY WERE FINISHED BLOOMING, [a metaphor for being "plucked" sexually in a famous poem and folkssong by Goethe: Sah ein Knab ein Roeslein stehn]. BUT WHICH WAS ALSO THEIR SECRET, SEXUAL EXCITATION. THEY HAD A

The grieving Mother stood
beside the cross weeping
where her Son was hanging.



4:40 Soprano
2. Cuius animam gementem
Contristatam et dolentem
Pertransivit gladius.

Through her weeping soul,
compassionate and grieving,
a sword passed.

6:34, Duet

3. O quam tristis et afflicta
Fuit illa benedicta
Mater unigeniti!

O how sad and afflicted
was that blessed
Mother of the Only-begotten!

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lot of sex on the Tor that night that was rage polarized sex and power sex, and in many ways, the light it generated was not good or loving light.

This first celebration of their own went off without a hitch, as far as the temple people knew, and they were jubilantly happy. The weather was warm, the Sun was shining, the rains were falling gently down, the mists were hiding them at night and all was well with life and the good earth. The local people came home from their pilgrimage to Stonehenge, and when they saw the happiness of the temple people, they thought that this day had been a good experience for them all.

Then the faeries came to the local people and told them they had gone to the Tor that night and did not like the feelings there. To them, they were not loving, and the light was more of the kind they had felt cautious about when they first saw the temple people. The faeries feared this light and gotten quickly away, but this light , they told the local people, had been turned loose on the land, and the faeries feared where it was going to settle in. By then, the local people were already feeling something they did not like and did not understand its source.

The faeries were very upset with themselves for having let these temple people in and pleaded with the local people to make them leave, but now the problem was that the temple people had gotten themselves established there, and feelings of uneasiness did not seem to be enough to make them leave; but how to make it clear that they knew about this without revealing the faeries who did not want to be revealed, especially now when they did not trust that the sacredness of their hill was really being honored?

Their guilt would not allow them to stand firm that vague feelings were enough. After all, they had let these temple peole in, and even liked them in many ways. Instead, the local people decided they must find out for themselves what was really happening there. It did not seem right to stay home from Stonehenge because of these temple people, but the local people had a curiosity that wanted to know more about what the temple people were doing.

They decided, that since the next time the temple people would be on the Tor was the Autumnal Equinox, they could stay home for the equinox and go to Stonehenge for the solstice if they needed to see what was happening for themselves. In the meantime, they were going to go to the temple people and tell them that

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they had uneasy feelings surfacing about what had happened on the Tor that day.

When they approached the temple people, they were more than polite and accomodating. They told the local people that they had only been role playing things that needed to speak to them from nature and that now, they would be more mindful of these things.

They told this to themselves, too, but that is not what happened at the next of the Four Days when they drank more of their potions, which were more developed by then. They told themselves they were drinking these things as part of their rituals, but inhibitions were going to be even more seriously laid aside than they had been before.

They told the local people they did not want to offend them and that it had not been their intent to stir hostility toward themselves. They assured them that they had heard their complaints, would look into them and would make any position shifts that were necessary to keep the good relationship they had been having there, but it was only form changes they gave them; it was not a real position shift. The local Celtic people had been letting the faeries protect them for so long that they did not know how to protect themseoves. When the temple people presented themselves as so cordial and helpful, it stirred a    g u i l t    in the local people they didn't even know they had that they were somehow blaming them unfairly and even being hostile.

The temple people began to give classes in many different subjects involving all of the knowledge they had brought with them from Greece. Although not many came at first, they were not expecting the Celtic people who did come to these classes to know so much already about what they had to teach there, and so at first, it was very exciting and intellectually stimulating to find that others in the world , without any prior contact with them, were thinking and feeling so many of the same things. They knew many things about the stars in common, except that they did not see the same skies in Greece and had to recalculate some of their observations. They found that the Druids among the Celtic people seemed particularly knowledgeable in these ares, as well as in many others.

The local people who did come to these classes at first were particularly interested in what the temple people knew about science, physiology, mathematics, astronomy, calculations of the planets' movements around the Sun, atomic theory, geomancy, etheric body healing and other subjects of similar nature. They

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viewed these not as classes, a form with which they had no formal experience as such there yet, so much as an exchange. The temple people did not notice this so much as they viewed themselves as teachers, and the subtle tone of superiority from them as "teachers" caused the local people not to let the temple people know how much they already knew about many things.

The Celts were much more direct emotionally, as a people, and had not found the necessity to surface many of their feelings in words because they understood one another quite well at the feeling level, but they were confused by these subtle feelings of superiority and guilt they were feeling there. They thought they had gotten away from this by going so far out and away from the center of that kind of world so long ago that they had actually forgotten about these kinds of people and forgotten about why they lived where they lived. They were letting it go on now because they did not know quite how to surface their feelings in words even to communicate what it was to one another, but they did know they preferred letting the temple people see them as they felt they were seeing them to showing them much about what they knew, especially any of their power or magic.

Even their stories had become confused on the subject, because it had been so long since they had had to deal with other than green people that their storytellers did not remember why they had been telling some of these old stories or what they were really about and had stopped telling them. Now, when they tried to remember them, they could not even remember them anymore.

The Greek people, on the other hand, withheld many things from them also and gave them no knowledge of what they considered to be their own magic and power, but for different reasons. The temple people wanted to have the knowledge and wisdom of both worlds, but they wanted to be the most powerful and to do this, they wanted to gain the trust of the local people, who they intuitively knew did not trust them for reasons they did not remember, either.

The Celtic-Druid people did not necessarily want to be the most powerful. They wanted to be able to trust who they gave any information about power to. When the temple people asked them questions and seemed to be writing down what they were told, the Celtic-Druid people did not feel honored and respected as the temple people thought they would be. They did not want to give all of this information to people they did not thoroughly trust and did

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not trust the writing down of this information, because then it could be had by other people they did not know.

The temple people wanted to gain their trust and thought the way to do this was through a presentation of mutual respect there, which they thought they had been doing by showing as much interest in the local natue-based approach as they had been.

The temple people thought their approach was building a good relationship with the local people and that they were encouraging them to show them anything they were willing to share, but they did not notice the many patronizingly subtle currents of superiority that they sent out toward the lifestyle of the local people and their emotionality, especially when they were not as mental in their approach to problem solving as the Greeks.

When tempers flared, the temple people usually withdrew into meditation to focus on imagery of getting the local people more in alignment with them and did not notice how the way in which they did this left the local people with a feeling that they were being viewed as spiritually inferior or wrong- somehow in what had taken place there.

The presentation the temple people were giving was not building the trust they thought it was because of these persistent feelings of distrust the Celtic-Druid people got when they came there, but there was a progression to the deterioration, instead of the building of trust that needs to be looked at here.

Nonetheless , the reputation of the temple people as those who taught classes in many subjects was growing, but they did not know they were being listened to all the way to Rome. Gradually, students began to travel there from other places, and some of the local people continued to come to the temple for the knowledge the Greeks did have and showed respect and enthusiasm for what they did learn, unless they did not agree with it.

If the temple people did not listen to them with what they considered to be mutual respect [see this condition for "Partnership" in my work since 1974] and understanding and made them feel wrong instead, the local people became more silent and often left at the end of class and did not come back or did not come back for a long time.

Many times, it was because of the female head of the temple whose rage-laden comments felt terrible to receive, and all the more so because she did not say anything they could get a hold of in words; it was much more in the feelings they felt when she spoke to them this way, [September 21, 2012: there is something very important missing in this exemplification of a relationship: if that teacher is perceived by the students to "speak to them in this way", it is a trigger, atrracted by a hole in their wholeness, that now wants to heal, see pp4 Triggers.. On the other hand, if that teacher has a "hole" of needing to feel superior, she will be triggered back by the withdrawal of her students.]and many of them were becoming confused into fearing it was they, themselves, who were making these interpreta-

8:27 , Alto
4. Quae moerebat et dolebat,
Et tremebat cum videbat
Nati poenas incliti.

Who mourned and grieved,
the pious Mother, with seeing
the torment of her glorious Son.

10:40, Duet
Quis est homo qui non fleret,
Christi Matrem si videret
In tanto supplicio?

Who is the man who would not weep
if seeing the Mother of Christ
in such agony.

13:48 , Soprano
Vidit suum dulcem natum
Moriendo desolatum
Dum emisit spiritum.

She saw her sweet Son
dying, forsaken,
while He gave up His spirit.

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tions of her feelings and that it was they, themselves, who were being unloving and judgmental, especially when she denied her tone whenever questioned about it. They would often go away asking one another if they had heard it in the same way after she would make comments to them.

Herbs were an important study. Medicine was good there at the time, and the temple people were very interested n the herbal knowledge of the local people. Their studies began innocently enough as the exploration of local plants for food and medicine but as time progressed, got sidetracked by old stirrings that Pangea was a place of partying and lots of sex; wild and free sex with unnamed partners out in the woods at night, and if not unnamed, then masked would do. Soon, they were not as interested in herbs as medicine for healing as much as they were in what became a quest for brews to prevent or end pregnancies or to produce more and more powerful orgasms, along with psychedelics and other sensory distortion. If they could not return to Pangea, at least they could produce the illusion of such.

While at first they felt sure they could make unwanted pregnancies abort by meditating, as time went on, they were having more and more problems with pregnancies, because they were having more and more sex with less and less spiritual focus and consciousness involved. The temple people had thought they were abandoning the results of their unwanted preganancies, as had often been done in Greece at that time, in such deep and hidden places in the marshes they did not think they could be found.

Since they were not admitting they were having these pregnancies at all, and only went into "meditative seclusion," as they referred to it, it was a problem to these temple women to think of asking the Celts for assistance with this or even letting them know they needed to use herbs the local women used to abort. Instead, they began to listen without admitting they were doing this and even to eavesdrop on local women whenever they were talking about herbs and and other practices they had developed for handling their own problems with unwanted pregnancies. They began to ask them questions in their classes under the guise of doing research.

The Celtic women were suspicious of this. They could feel they were being questioned indirectly about problems the temple people were not admitting to openly , while still maintaining, instead, that they never had unwanted pregnancies and only wanted to write this information down for the collected works of herbal and

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medicinal information they were working on there. They did not always get the formulas right or the procedures either, especially when they tried to write things down later that they had overheard earlier and perhaps not correctly or thoroughly.

These feelings of suspicion particularly arose around the presentation the temple people were making of not having sex, except very occasionally as a part of ritual. The local people did not word it to themselves this way but they viewed ritualized sex as sex without love, and they did not like it. Since the temple people claimed to have spiritual practices that kept them from getting pregnant, the local women had been listening in the hope of learning something they did not already know wthat would help them to limit the size of their own families, but they did not want to have no children, and did not regard it as a spiritually superior position. They regarded the raising of children as a sacred function.When the females present in the temple thought they had a lot to teach the local people about child rearing and the proper spiritual training of children, they did not like it or trust it.

The local people did not see these temple women as speaking from experience and did not even believe their spiritual practices were real, because they had begun finding little "lost' babies in the marshlands, which the temple people completely disclaimed knowing anything about. When the temple people would not claim any knowledge of these babies, the local people had begun to raise them themselves because, in their hearts, they could not leave them out there exposed to the elements like that to die and decided to not let the temple people know about it.

Since these temple women were raising no children of their own, the local people did not see how their ideas were anything more than something to put off onto other people, rather than as something they really knew about. They often felt this as criticism by the temple women, from watching the local people with their own children, disguised as spiritual teachings.

They even felt this as temple women indirectly telling them how they wanted their own abandoned children to be raised by the Celts, as though they had already recognized, in some way, that this was what was going on when they said things such as, "Most children do not know the difference between good and evil unless you set the example for them. Telling children how to behave is necessary, or children do not know how to behave. Children do not understand things in a real way or know how they feel unless they are told by their parents. Children need to be told by their parents

O Mother, fountain of love,
make me feel the power of sorrow,
that I may grieve with you.

18:32, duet
Fac, ut ardeat cor meum
In amando Christum Deum
Ut sibi complaceam.

Grant that my heart may burn
in the love of the Lord Christ
that I may greatly please Him.

Holy Mother, grant this of yours,
that the wounds of the Crucified be well-formed
in my heart.

24:403, Alto [this voice almost carries me out of life!]
Fac, ut portem Christi mortem
Passionis fac consortem,
Et plagas recolere.
[I don't understand the text of the second part]

Grant that I may bear the death of Christ,
grant me the fate of His passion
and the remembrance of His wounds.

1 week ago
Thank you for giving access to what is perhaps
a little precursor to our ethereal future. :) Mickysina

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how they are supposed to respond. children need to be trained in manners. It is not right to have them say "please" and "thank you" only when they feel like it. You must make your children listen to you more and punish them if they do not do as they are told."

They particularly hated their ideas about discipline, which the local people never felt they had to impose on their own children. Instead of getting violent, the women left, saying they didn't care if their children behaved the way the temple people thought they should behave. As far as they were concerned, their children just behaved because they felt themselves to be a part of their families and of the community.

The temple people continued to tell themselves they had no prorblems in the world that couldn't be solved by correct spiritual practices . They did not think they had any emotional problems with the local people. When the local people left any functions of the temple they were attending, the temple people viewed them as "reverting" to their old ways and not really ready to understand what the Greeks had to offer them there.

When they couldn't avoid noticing that there was a conflict or a problem, they thought it meant that something was remaining hidden there that the local people were not willing to share with them yet and thought it was for reasons of some sort of power struggle. Meanwhile, the temple people felt that if they just encouraged the local people more, if they did really have any of the magic and power they wanted to learn from them, they were going to find out.

The temple people wanted to have fun at night and still do their normal temple functions and spiritual practices during the day, including plenty of meditating, but more and more, their nature interests were in how to tap into the power of the land and its plants and animals to have more body lust and physical plane powers for themselves, and more and more, their spiritual vision quests were becoming dependent upon consciousness altering substances rather than the development of their own psychic perceptions. Less and less were they able to tell the difference between real seeing and drugged experiences that were projections from their own subconscious; which was a start if they had known where to go with it, but they were going the wrong direction and disconnecting these from their conscious mind rather than integrating them. More and more were they taking their own drug induced visions to be reality, and less and less were they guided by the real presence of purple and indigo [?????].

Stabat Mater, 28:06, duet

Inflammatus et accensus
Per Te, Virgo, sim defensus
In die iudicii.

Lest I be destroyed by fire, set alight,
then through you, Virgin, may I be defended
on the day of judgement.


30:04, duet

Quando corpus morietur,
Fac, ut animae donetur
Paradisi gloria. Amen.

When my body dies,
grant that to my soul is given
the glory of paradise. Amen.


33:50
Amen, Amen, Amen

40:00
After people clapped -
a beautiful piece that does not belong to Stabat Mater

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They began to party and play music more and more in the woods at night. The local people weren't sure they liked this, either, even though they sometimes wanted to join them, they thought the temple people were way overdoing it and almost always wanted it to end earlier than the temple people ever ended it. Then, when it grew to be daybreak, the temple people were not around to help them with any of the things that needed doing at that time of day. The temple people were doing almost none of the work it took to sustain them, and the local people began to resent this somewhat.

The temple people claimed they were busy at night celebrating their rituals of the Moon, which had many phases and to which their temple was dedicated. This meant at least once a week and sometimes more often if they were in the mood to celebrate the two days of the Full moon and maybe the two days of every other shift in the phases. These were always celebrated by the female head of the temple and the other females there. Their rituals involved music with drumming, song and dance, during which they enjoyed tantalizing the men. They had begun to involve sex in these rituals, too, but on their terms and, along with the Four Days, which had now become the Eight Days, to include the mid-points between, and then sometimes even the mid-points between those, this was a lot of partying, a lot of herbal potion using and a lot of sexual activity.

They told themselves this was alright because it was all ritual of some sort or another and all dedicated to something. Still, they felt they were honoring their agreement with the local people because the Tor was only being used on the Four Days. They preferred the woods for their other rituals.

They moved along this way for quite some time, without addressing any of the undercurrents they really had there. The female head of the temple had found the caves under the Tor though .She did not let anyone know at first, and then, only the few people she trusted most in the temple to be aligned with her and not the local people at all, because she did not think they used them, as hidden as the entrances were.

She had old fire dragon memories stirring and had been looking around to see if there were any caves nearby. That they glowed was really stirring something in her, and she thought she might even find fire deeper in there. She began to conduct some rituals in these caves with a few of the people she trusted in the temple with-

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out letting anyone else know, and some of them involved babies from unwanted pregnancies.

The more things went on with the temple people, though, the more the faeries began to complain to the local people that they did not like noise and people all over the woods at night, because it was not letting nature rest the way it needed to, and in the end, was not respectful to nature at all, no matter how much they said all of this was dedicated to it. They also complained that the populations of certain plants were being decimated and only the ones they knew to have certain properties, so they knew what the temple people were really doing, and they continued to complain about the light being generated there.

The faeries had found that there was now light of this sort under the Tor and complained that the temple people were going into their caves there, too. The faeries had become used to humans having sex because they were not immortal and feared this was the only way they had to perpetuate themselves. The faeries stayed away and never moved sexually in those ways, fearing that to do so brought physical entrapment, but they could not get used to sexuality the ways these temple people were doing it, and it seemed to the faeries that they were all in danger of being taken over by this light.

The local people could not see everything the faeries saw and saw the faeries only when the faeries let them, but they aligned with the faeries on this. They did not like all of the noise and hoopla going on the woods at night and were growing weary of losing sleep when they heard the pounding of running feet and screams that alarmed them suddenly. They particularly did not like having their children hear this.

The male head of the temple was much too drugged to meet with the local people when they came and had become more interested in his satyr life at night than in the temple during the day. The female head of the temple and several others came out to talk to them. The local people listed all of the problems they felt they were having with them, including the growing problem with the light that was increasingly surrounding these activities. They particularly singled out the rage polarized sex, the pounding, running feet and the sudden screams of distress and vulgarities, but they did not mention the caves under Tor in case the temple people did not already know about them and their light was only settling in there somehow.

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The temple people were polite and friendly in their response to them, telling them they understood their problem with it, they would try not to let it happen again and that that was the best they could do, implying that it was not them doing it by reminding them there were not just Greeks participating in these rituals now.

The female head of the temple talked a lot, but the others did not say much. They watched how what she said settled with the people. If they did not like their response, they did not reveal their own position there. They wanted to make a favorable impression so that if the Celts did have anything they wanted to learn for themselves there, such as power and magic, they would be able to do it. She reminded them again that it was not what they thought it was; it was just role playing in which they meant to separate their lower nature from themselves and told them the light was not a problem and that it would soon go away. The tone of it was as if the were idiots to think there was any problem at all.

What she said made some sense to the local people, but they still did not like the way it felt, which is what they went by more than what was said. Their response was, "it is a problem. It is settling in on the land and on us. Why don't you stop and be more respectful and honoring of nature the way you say you have intention of doing in these rituals and ceremonies?"

The men had no answer for this, except that in such drug induced states they often didn't even remember what they had done, and the satyrs in them, recognized or not, were not willing to give this up. They decided to satisfy the local people by making another form change in the temple. This was when they decided to go further and further away from the group, and the further they went out into the surrounding area, the more perverted and twisted their activities became.

Then came the Autumnal Equinox when the local people announced that they planned to stay home and wanted to participate in the temple people's observance and festivities. They were all expecting a good harvest of grapes and told the temple people they wanted to find out what good wine was going to be like, too, The temple people were happy about this and not happy about this at the same time, but they did not know how to show the local people anything other than happiness about it.

Privately, they felt that now they were going to have to make plans to have their sex somewhere away from the local people. The problem was that there was nowhere to go other than marshland around the Tor, "except under the Tor" the female head of the tem-

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ple said. There was going to be no moon that night. When she told them she had been in these caves and that the caves glowed, they thought it was going to be perfect. The local people would go home early because of no Moon, they could still have the Tor to themselves and yet be more hidden than usual.

They were fully costumed as predators and prey, flowers and the other forms they took on at this time. Their costumes left their sexual parts exposed as in nature. When the dusk of evening began to settle around them, the temple people stayed on the Tor for awhile, drinking wine, merry making and playing music with the local people, but their wine was "enhanced" and what they gave the local people was not.

Then the temple people said that they were going to do some rituals of their own that only temple initiates could attend. They filed away somberly. "So early?" the local people thought. This did not make sense, given their usual behavior, but they soon started home, themselves, having seen almost nothing of what the faerie king had complained about taking place on the Tor at the Summer Solstice.

"Perhaps it is because the Moon is not full," they said to themselves, but they had hardly started for home when they began to hear sounds that seemed to be coming from the Tor; horrible screams, raging and growling; all of the sounds they had already heard in the woods and worse.

The faerie king came to them in the morning, and he was most furious that not only had the temple people gone back onto the Tor, but also into what he considered to be the faeries' caves under the Tor. The temple people had obviously only promised to honor their agreement and were not doing it; only promising to change their ways and not changing them.

He felt that they were going to have to run the temple people out, but run them out to where? He did not want to make other people have to suffer this horrible disease. The only place he could think of was to make them go back to wherever they came from. When he told the local people that they had to get rid of the knowledge from the temple people as well as the temple people themselves, those who had the sight said it was true, that gradually there was more of this light surrounding them.

Many of the ones who had been studying at the temple were not happy about this, especially the ones who now had more of that kind of light. Then, one of the temple children who had been growing up with Celts as parents spoke up and said that if there was a

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problem , they needed to solve it themselves and not put it off on other people. He did not know he was a temple child, but he spoke right to the guilt the Celtic people had there.

Many times, the Celtic people tried to talk to the temple people about their concerns, but they did not have even as much success as they had had in their classes. Many times, they talked only among themselves about trying to move the temple people out of their area. Always, it was the temple children who talked in favor of letting the temple people stay; children the Celts viewed as their own children, having raised them and grown to love them by then. The temple chldren told them not to be so rigid and old fashioned.

The local people did not know what to tell these chldren, because they did not dislike everything the temple people were doing. These children had such a way of pointing out the good things the temple people were doing, and their parents did not know how tell them the specifics of what they didn't like there, fearing that even in talking about it to them, they might catch the disease. These children heard their parents talking anyway and did not like hearing them talk against the rage polarized sex that was going on with the temple people, because they found it exciting.

They tried to deter their children who wanted to go and study there by saying, "Any people who claim to be seers and can't see the faerie king can't be seeing much."

The temple children often responded with things like, "They didn't grow up with the faeries the way we did. We like it that people come here from other places to study with the temple people. We want to meet them, too. What is wrong with the reputation of the temple classes spreading to other places? What is the big deal about protection anyway? Protection from what? You think the faeries are so wise you let them tell you what to do all the time. The faeries let them come here, so it must have been meant to happen."

Their parents did not know what to say, other than that they had feelngs about such things, sometimes long in advance of them ever really happening. These children scorned such things and said that if they sat around expecting the worst, sooner or later, something they didn't like would happen, and then their parents would say, "See, we told you so,."

Now, the local people felt that they really must speak to the temple people again, because many of the temple children they had raised as their own children were getting old enough that they wanted to go to the temple people to study, as if they were being drawn back to their own kind, and their parents, who loved them