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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - by extension - all of CREATion!" |
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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Self-acceptance
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sanctus-qadosh
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intro
to k.i.s.s.-log ~ library
of seven years ~ HOME
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March
1,
SHABBAT, - at Shoham
back
to past ~~~~~ forward to future
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image of the
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
7:40
My Body, my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to our nerves and all their parts and connections,
which guide the movements of my fingers
as they transmit - from our brain to our breathing system
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the desire to breathe awarely and intensely
in order to clear up the greyness of my soul.
I give thanks to my woundrous, miraculous Quartet,
and the way they demonstrated yesterday evening,
that they - like
Mika - "still" know
how to find full-fill-ment in play,
using the grating, screeching merry-go-round as a spaceship,
and the swings as a time-machine,
and moving forward and backward in time.
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Finetuning
to my Present
8:00
The togetherness with the children was so fantastic,
and the feedback from Deqel
and some parents she had met so
encouraging,
and the Skype-talk with Immanuel so good
( Efrat had told him in one sentence about
the trigger "Grandma-Day),
and everything on the exterior level is so enjoyable,
that it's hard to accept, that my soul is grey like the sky
today.
It may be the aftereffect of the "Grandma-Day-Trigger"
[see tomorrow].
It may be the incident with Nella now.
Or it may be my tiredness, after not having slept well -
the noise outside is such, that I prefer to close the window,
which in turn suffocates me, be it only in my imagination.
Nella:
Since we came back from the darkness outside only at 19:30,
I thought I could skip walking her before going to sleep.
This meant, that she was bothering me in the early morning,
and I had no choice (?) but to get up and take her out.
[Completed the next day, since
the children had woken up:]
When we found ourselves on the street, she ran off:
I had forgotten the leash!
Ambiguous feelings:
Fear! When I had suggested to not go home to Arad on Friday,
but stay alone in the flat, until Efrat would come back from
Acco,
she said: "That's very good, for
I didn't know what to do with Nella."
But I also felt, that this maybe a test:
Efrat lately has been mad at Nella, for
biting and for loosing hair everywhere.
She threatened several times to return her to the S.O.S. animal
organization.
I felt: "If Nella won't come back, Efrat even won't have
to decide anything."
Having learnt my lesson with
Nella's running off
I did not even try to chase after her.
I searched for stones and other items,
to keep all 4 doors in the house open,
so she could come back by herself.
Eventually I heard barking and ran down to the street.
It was a dog on the floor above us, which barked out of the
window.
And, indeed, the object of its excitement was Nella,
which carelessly walked along the side-way across the street.
I called her - and she came! She run up like the devil - to
her home.
[2008_03_05 -
the same happened again! on Friday-morning,
before I left for Arad!
I wanted Efrat and Mika to sleep a bit longer,
and in order not to make noise, I took Nella with the leash
in my hand,
intending to tie it to her collar only outside, since she makes
tying so cumbersome.
But lost in thoughts, I forgot and Nella escaped.
This time my endeavors to call her - gently - several times
later, failed,
and only when I was already in the train, I heard, that Efrat
had caught her.
But! and that's the point, nobody was angry at me.
"If she doesn't want to stay with
us, let her have her way!" ]
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Grandma-Day Gallery
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Back
to the Eve of Shabbat with the Four.
Then there was the experience
around the merry-go-round
on another little playground nearby.
It was where Mika had experienced rain
for the first time
(in November, I think)
and whenever we pass the little park,
she'll say: "geshem!" - "rain".
Since I couldn't get the entire Space-Story,
I showed them the photos the next day,
and they explained -
while they were quite synchronized,
in what they remembered,
and in how they saw the evolution of their story.
"It was all about different kinds of time-machines!
"The first period into which we traveled,
was the Year of Independence
of the State of Israel".
Therefore, what we saw,
was all in black and white."
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"Then we traveled
back to the time of the dynosaurs
(which was in their opinion in the year 2010
and 2391 B.C.)
it was the "time" when Nella
was very nervous,
(I had tied her to a bench),
so Ayelet and Itamar said,
that she was a nervous dinosaur
and that we must get away from her."
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"We also traveled back
to the time of the Bible,
but then we wanted
to go forward in time,
to the year 2500.
"The problem was,
that we got stuck
- already in the year 2200.
The time-machine exploded,
and we hardly escaped."
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"Arnon and Itamar tried to repair it on earth,
but did not succeed"
[I laughed, - in real time, i.e. yesterday
night,
when Arnon sent Itamar to the shop,
to buy and pay for a screwdriver:
"Do you really think,
that in the year 2200,
there will still be a need for screwdrivers,
and that people will still have to bother with money?"]
(then there was a confusion in their
story,
of what preceded what,
and what happened in space and what happened on earth).
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"Then each of us got lost
somehow,
and in searching for each other,
we could not always rely
On our communication devices!
"Still - the first of us to meet each other,
were Yael and Ayelet."
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"Then those two found
Itamar.
He had flown off
to a period shortly
after the "Big Bang".
" Luckily he found a time-door
and could return
to real time
on Earth.
" We then synchronized
our watches
and flew off again,
to find Arnon."
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"Somehow we returned
to our machine,
ate and drank and slept and woke up,
and ~~~"
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"...
and learnt,
that all we had experienced,
was just a dream!"
I wondered:
"All of you had the same dream?"
And Ayelet, never being at a loss for
an answer:
"Yes, of course, aren't we of the
same family?" |
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At home, the "little-ones" immediately
advanced to their next activity:
using Mika's felt figures to tell the story of "the Raspberry-Juice-Man",
changing it according to the materials which were available. |
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Arnon wanted to help me with making the "Pfannkuchen",
grandma's specialty of South German pancakes,
but the gas-stove at Shoham is just too inconvenient and dangerous
for a child to work on.
So he spent a beautiful togetherness with Yael and Nella.
And an old photo has to serve as compensation: Nov. 2006, Grandma-Day
in Arnon's house at Mazkeret Batya:
At night :
a response to Gabriela in India,
who hadn't written for 2 months.
Thank you for re-connecting.
You seem to be - relatively - alright, and I am glad for that.
As to your dying mother
- I can feel with your uneasiness of having left her behind
like that.
You once explained, why my way of turning a curse into a blessing,
i.e. nurse my mother till death and thus heal my childhood,
is out of the question for you.
Can you explain this again? I forgot your arguments.
The Popocatepetl, which you visited after
the visit to your mother in Mexico,
was quite central in the scarce geographical knowledge of
my childhood,
probably because I found the name so funny.
Why you don't get tired of attending all
those conferences, is a riddle for me.
The same is true for your involvement in
your college.
Approaching the age of 65 - aren't you allowed to retire?
But then, you once claimed that you
wouldn't know what else to "do".
I can't believe that.
My exterior life has not changed.
I'm still commuting between Arad and Shoham.
But the meaning of this circumstance in my life-drama becomes
clearer.
There is Mika on the one hand - now 26 months old - who
teaches me,
what Full-Fill-ment is.
For she lives like that - from moment to moment.
And there is my daughter-in-love.
In the local newspaper, which Efrat produces, an article was
published
about mothers-in-law and daughters-in-law.
We were both interviewed together, and what each of us said,
was striking.
Even I hadn't been aware
how effective we were in coping, learning, healing together.
And though in 2003, just before my
new project at the Dead Sea,
I've worked a lot on Ruth
and Naomi,,
as part of "the hidden female thread of redemption in
the Bible",
it was only now, that I understood the daring metaphor of
this
little novel: Ruth
(who was invented as the great-great-grandmother of King
David ,
he himself being a metaphor for the "Messiah"):
The clichee about mother-in-law and daughter-in-law
is one about mutual hatred, to say the least.
And there comes this channeling writer in the Bible and claims,
that there was the deepest caring and love between Ruth and
Naomi.
As if s/he wanted to say:
If you want a demonstration of what the future Heaven-on-Earth
will be,
study the relationship between that Israeli widow and that
Moabite widow.
Heaven-on-Earth
is what we now have to create,
instead of escaping from earth to heaven.
Rachel
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I think this letter, across continents
and live-concepts
should be contrasted - humorously - by a few of Rotem's
photos
of Arnon's "Pfannkuchen"
on Grandma-Day at Mazkeret Batya, in November 2006;
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