The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S. - as stated 12 years ago - was and is   to help me and my potential P E E R s  "to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness, and - by extension - all of CREATion!" Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013 and Overview of its main libraries [If you look for a word on this page, click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"] I focus my experiencing and awareness on being "a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

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[Try as I might - I cannot help but leaving this page "overweight" (1888 kb instead of maximum 1300),
because of the compositions of human profiles and scenes from "Big Brother",
which I chose for my experiencing "Evolution" in this year of 2012]

 

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April 2/ Adar II 26, Wednesday, still 138 days -at Arad
Parting from my obsession to complete this page--- on April 6

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MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may! 7:10 Once more: On this fifth day after my big lesson of "Ride the Wave~~~Retreat with the Wave". I desire to complete the analysis and sculpt my understanding so it will become part of me! I desire to carry out the changes in my garden demanded by my landlord for his "tractoron" in a way, that this "curse" will be transformed into a blessing.

image of the day I rented the one-room flat+veranda underneath this villa on Dec. 3, 2004, the first photo - January 23, 2005, shows some pots on the veranda railing, but not a single plant in the desert soil, covered with scant spring green.

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today 9:04 My Body, my Partner, my God I give thanks to you for maintaining our equilibrium in all situations, when I get up or sit down or sit or dance, or bend or run or swim. "Equilibrium is maintained in response to two kinds of motion: Static equilibrium maintains the position of the head in response to linear movements of the body, such as starting to walk or stopping. Dynamic equilibrium maintains the position of the head in response to rotational motion of the body, such as rocking (as in a boat) or turning." I'm grate-full for another day of intense work, both mental and physical, work on completing 3 K.i.s.s.-Log pages (25-27), reliving the experiences and feelings of those days, work on cleaning up part of my Wadi of Compassion and much work on my garden, partly together with Ofir, my landlord. I'm grate-full that he permitted me to create this garden in the first place! After all I'm just a tenant of a rented room! I'm grate-full that I was led to discover rightaway, that on March 31 a new Godchannel message was posted. Such a message is like a letter from a lover and I'm eager to study it, but will grant it to myself only after completing all K.is.s.-Log pages!

 

"walking humbly with your God" Second version. also created in the pool Ride with the wave, descend with the wave, that's how My World flows, don't stick to peaks, nor get stuck in pits, flow with my waves' highs and lows! Learn to create, and learn to retreat, ba~lan~cing the flow! Each is a special wave of One great Ocean a color of the One Rainbow.

 

 

 

last communication next communication see in "and walking humbly with your God" [ Micah 6:8] The work is done! All my feelings are healed, and the lesson is contained in the song. Is there anything you want to add? "Not to add, but to stress! You wholly integrated the metaphor of the wave! But you still have to work on the differentiation which you pointed out in the process of your finetuning 2 days ago -between 'right place and right time' to defend somebody and another kind of circumstances, in which any words or actions will cause more guilt, more blame and therefore more self-hatred." But what is it, that I can do, am allowed to do, am called to do? "You see, how you unwittingly used the word "do" three times? Are you still not trusting the magic of your being? Your compassion? All the enormous learning you did in 2006 in order to "womb" your daughter-in-love "in your womb", instead of judging her for not feeling gratitude in the situation after the accident of her and Mika? You learnt not to judge her. But defending T. is the same as judging HER." I grasp this with my mind, but .... "Just apply what you learnt then. Just womb her in your womb, and trust, that like her gratitude grew, and with it her acceptance of her daughter, so will her ? ? ? grow and with it her acceptance of her stepson." What do the three ??? mean? "This is your challenge for the next 3 days, until you return to Shoham! Remember the symbolism of the name "Shoham"...."

Driving backward, while searching for my work on khaemlah, compassion, mentioned in the dialog (left frame) a diary work of weeks in August-September 2006 (in Hebrew), I hit upon a communication with Deity, which is just as relevant today ! Dearest, most beloved, most yearned-for Mother! Tell me, not if, but how I can let go of the documentation of my past, and also – for the millionst time – how can I write letters, if at all, that are encouraging my addressees to talk about themselves, instead of forcing them to relate to my overwhelming living and thinking. both in the presence and in the past. You have given me the computer as a way-out for my writeritis and talkitis, and if I care too much, even my website, why must I bother others, bother others, bother others, o Mother, make me free of this need, and make them free of me! "Isn't it great that you could phrase this quest? Isn't it wonderful that you create more and more time for yourself? Do not force the change that you know has to happen. You are guided in this slow turning around from your need for "re'uni-rakhmuni" You still need this, and yes, you got your computer and scanner and website for imagining, that people "learn from you, see you and pity you". It is enough that you imagine it, its enough that you write , even if nobody will ever read it, if nobody will benefit from it, if nobody will see and pity you . WE help you to create all the time you need for letting go of this threefold need teaching-helping people, being seen and being pitied. That's why your daughter and her family are apart from you, and now also Efrat and Immanuel. Be grateful that you have this great family, without being needed by anybody. Not now, anyway! Now it's you and you only, your body, your soul. Again, do not force, do not accelerate anything: Go on scanning and writing , even if you think "how silly, in six years the world will be so different, nobody will read biographies, neither in books nor on the Internet, the children won't even be interested in the photos of their history". When you will have healed and also matured enough, the present occupation will fall away, like so many things, you thought would save the world, have fallen away. Just love yourself the way you are now: still such a needy child, needy for attention and compassion, needy for fulfilling her vocation and justify her existence by helping others. You already know, that by your very living among them you are helping them. But your patterned feelings forget this time and again. Be patient, be loving, be compassionate with yourself. I hug you Mother! I hug you too!

 

 

Once upon a time there was a garden,
the fruit of 3 years of hard effort in cultivating desert sand...
Now my landlord's racing tractor wanted to rove right through the flowers...

Ofir said: "Only the scented bush in this corner has to be moved, and maybe the arc..."

A week followed, in which an example was given by this very Ofir,
how a conflict of interest can be solved,
no overriding
no succumbing
no compromise
but making 1 + 1 = 3
while letting all feelings be felt and expressed

 

Since I wasn't in Arad, when the tractoron arrived, we consulted each other via phone, how to park the vehicle on my veranda behind the table. For the fear, that some Bedouin or other person, may steal it, is more than justified, especially by my own dire experience with several thefts, the most severe - from Noah's Cave is mentioned in an important page, which I had forgotten about!

When I came back to Arad, I discovered, that Ofir had pruned part of the "bad shrubs". around the corner of my compost-"grave". This opened space for the scented geranium bush and other plants. I soaked the soil with water and prepared it for the transplant. I also soaked the soil underneath the geranium bush, hoping .... that digging it out and transplanting it would not hurt it too much.

 

 

The next day, today, Ofir came to carry out our plan.
Ran, with whom he shares the tractoron, also came,
and helps him to start the vehicle on the veranda.

Ofir's plan had been to create a track of big stones parallel to the paved strip along the veranda.
He had helped me to uproot whatever stood in the way of this track.
But he hadn't taken into account the huge curve that the vehicle would need to turn right - into the garden -
and left - out of the garden around the corner -
and again - on the way back - turning right into that track and left out of that track.
While the driving in could be done somehow, the driving out proved to be impossible.

At first the men worked on modifying the track, but in vain. The idea had to be discarded altogether.

Ran demonstrated, how the vehicle needed to turn into the garden right behind the pomegrenade-tree
and then straight through the garden to the corner of the house.

Ofir was in a miserable position, knowing, how much this idea would hurt me.
Ran began to understand this:
"I, too, love plants very much. I talk to them in the morning, etc.
but most of these plants will grow again, since they are not finicky."
I said:
"Finicky plants wouldn't have taken root in this sand anyway.
I never bought anything!
I saw what was growing in the public parks and took shoots from there,
and the different geraniums have all been clippings from many different gardens in Arad and in Shoham.
But here around the "Arc de Triomphe", as our neighbor Albert calls it, there are some special plants,
and now you want me to destroy this arc?"

[See the fantastic story about the arc and the vine on October 19!]

 

And that was, when the old victim+blaming pattern came out in me: "Go ahead, uproot it, after all you are the landlord here." This was the one time, that Ofir did oppose me vigorously: "Landlord! What has that to do with the problem?" I loved him even more then - what a starchild is he! They helped to transplant the arc. Though I didn't have much hope for a revival, I was touched by the sensitivity of the two men. This helped me to finally imagine, that there was potential in the destruction: I may discover new perspectives of creating this garden! I felt the challenge! And I cooperated without resisting our complaining. And together we could solve most of the problems. Some problems were left for Ofir alone and some for me alone. But that, too, was alright now. Continuation tomorrow

 

There were other things, with I experienced today,
like a letter from India and the dire situation in Myanmar

To Gabriela, responding to her letter (see to the right) I hurry to write "as long as it is possible". During my lunch I listened to part of a doc about the Aztekes and thought of you, and now I happened to open your mail. As to your apprehensions concerning the future of our planet, maybe you could get a different perspective on it, if you read the new message on Godchannel, which arrived yesterday, March 31 http://www.godchannel.com/new.html "Interview from Grandfather" (don't bother with the mythology). It is the first comprehensive input from this source since June 2006: "Interview with the Folks", Part IV. I've read it once and am eager to study it sentence by sentence. Contrary to all the "light and love" stuff, which reaches me constantly, this source has always been resonating with me or vice versa. But today I'm still busy with integrating a big lesson I went through on Shabbat. By the way, yesterday I saw part of a program about Myanmar! I wasn't talking about living in a collective, God forbid! I'm glad, that you "personally feel quite thankful for the life" you "have had and at this moment are "still having". The same is true for me. You'll return safely from Myanmar Rachel

Dear Rachel. I am about to do a trip to Myanmar, of which i am apprehensive, as one can't be too sure what all happens in a country like that.I hope it will be alright, but perhaps one can get into trouble, i am not sure what to expect. So let me continue the communication as long as it is possible. I am not sure whether i understand what you are trying to say to me.I do know you want "partnership", "equality" and things like that, but i don't quite know what that means. To me you frequently sound as if you see yourself as some kind of giant, to whom we (the friends) have to" live up" to by "standing up to you", whatever that may mean.I myself don't see you this way, so i don't know what there is to stand up to. I also don't get the thing with living in a collective. I have several times in my life tried to create this. It works up to a point, but people are ultimately too individualistic, also too lazy, to really want that.Anyway, i am probably violating the new rules, because i am commenting, but i think some self-expression should be allowed. I have been reading an article in the Guardian Weekly yesterday, which deals with the implications of global warming and the whole gigantic energy crisis, the revenge of gaya and all that. We all know a lot of this, but i find it increasingly difficult how to live in the face of this. So far i have always lived with an interventionist approach of doing as much as we can to revert desaster and do meaningful things which are possible.But it becomes more difficult to live with the burden of this great unknown which will hit us in our life time and certainly in that of our children and grandchildren and to find ways of communicating about it, without becoming desparate. I personally feel quite thankful for the life i have had and at this moment am still having, but i feel our ways of communication reach their limits in the face of something which is of so much greater a magnitude than the holocaust was.The scientist who was interviewed says that it will take maximum 20 years til the world "hits the fan", but i can feel the climate collapsing every day, and the food and water crisis is already upon us. It is true that our generation does not panic easily, because we have been born in the war.But still, this thing which is coming is much worse and there may be no point in worrying about anything, these things have happened in earlier ice ages and things like that.It's the total burst of the bubble of what is "machbar". Our approach in NAPM has been one of intervention and back to nature kind of reaction.But i start feeling that perhaps we are beyond reversal, we just have to cope with the desaster as it is.I am not sure what this means, because we have to constantly intervene on dismantling of the labour legislation the landgrabbing and so many things like that,leave alone all the caste and patriarchal violence. Anyway, i am sending you that article, for whatever it is worth, probably as a snail mail in xerox. Thambu has gone for an interview in Chennai, he hopes to get a scholarship to study in the UK for an M.A. in some eco-course on architecture. It would be good if he could get that. My grandson is now two and in a phase of heavy will formation. The Dutch have a saying for that: "ik ben twee, ik zeg nee".So we have to stand up to his whims and fancies (and he to ours) all the time.I am closing. I do hope to be back in one piece soon. From my office i may send you one paper on the Eucharist and one lecture for the 70th birthday of Dhyanchand Carr, our former principal, for whom i had to do the Endowment lecture. He is a good friend. Writing these things and having them presented was a big battle, as the institution is in total disarray.But it does make acertain amount of a difference if these things are done. Love and solidarity,

 

song of the day Every morning is a new day for new creations

 

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"Higher Purpose", p. 182
You learn and grow from everything you create.
You create crisis because it is a time in which you are close to your soul,
in which you reach inward, outward, and upward and connect with your purpose.
If you are willing to live in higher purpose, listen to yourself and connect with your soul,
taking action on its whispers, you will not have to create crisis or struggle.
You do not even need to know the form of yur purpose,
but only have the intent to create higher purpose to bring it to you.
Purpose represents movement of the soul, the energy that connects heaven and earth.
It is marked by concrete forms - a new house, a marriage, those things that you have been seeking.
But those are only the ceremonies that mark new growth in the soul.

















Because you are growing, all of you, so rapidly,
you must create new challenges to experience who you are.
These can be joyful opportunities in the higher realms, or crisis and struggle in the lower realms.

If you want to live in higher purpose, begin making it more of a commitment.
How do you spend your time? Where do your thughts go when you are alone?
Learnt to hold a higher focus, thinking of why you are here and what you have to offer mankind.
Purpose comes through serving the higher self, assisting others,
and being willing to carry out whatever your vision is of the highest service you can offer.

NYTimes YANGON, Myanmar -Daw Aung San Suu Kyi, Winner of the Nobel Peace Prize in 1991, the democracy adocate silence for two decades...assumed a new role in her country's political transition ... apparently winning a seat in Parliament to make the remarkable shift from dissident to lawmaker

THE BIG BODY STORY: WHAT ORGAN DO YOU BELONG TO?

And to those who still believe
that one can obtain peace by eliminating the other and otherness:
did you know that the Earth has a Body just like yours
with all the peoples, nations and races being Her organs, head and toes?
That, depending on which organ you belong to,
you must function and behave accordingly
- as that particular organ and not any other?
That you've got to sing its songs,
speak its language,
live its beat and pulse
- for the Whole Body to function properly?

Do you think your head has what it takes to function as a heart?
Do you think they must have the same ways of doing the job?
Same look, same mentality, same customs, same beat?
Do you think that
if one organ doesn't understand the other,
or it's too different from it
- it must be cut out?

Do you think your throat's point of view is better than your intestines'?
Do you think they need its advice
on how to assimilate or distribute nutrients?
What will happen to you if your liver will start a war against your kidneys?
And win?
What if your anus will be eliminated as "not so cool" or low or dirty?
How would you like to live without your sexual organs or eyes or vocal cords?

So, why do you think it's OK to do all this to the Big Body you live in?
Why are you trying to fight and cut out everything that is not like you?
Why are you so eager to kill that which your very life depends on?
Who is to decide who shall live and who shall die?

And what would happen to you
if your hands were converted into your legs?
Or what would happen
if your clever brain would convert all your "heretic" organs into itself? ~
So why are you preaching around and trying to convert one into the other?
Is your way the only way?
Is your "organ's" way the only way?
Don't you think that
each Organ, each nation, each race, each person, EACH BEING
HAS A RIGHT, A NEED, A MISSION
TO BE DIFFERENT AND EVOLVE DIFFERENTLY?!
Don't you get it that
if you eliminate, convert, enslave, amputate, withdraw any organ or race,
if you WOUND the Big Body you live in -
the Whole Body, together with you, is not going to feel too good, will it?
That, eventually, It will collapse, TOGETHER WITH YOU?
How about operating on your brain then? Before it happens?

 

ACCEPT DISSONANCE AS PART OF YOUR HARMONY

MAKE CONFLICT PART OF YOUR PEACE

You're saying that you chose only peace and harmony
- you've been choosing peace and harmony for eons
- where is it? Why has it never lasted?
How about choosing dissonance as a part of your harmony?
Didn't you already hear it happening in music?
Didn't you notice it happening in all contemporary arts?
Didn't you experience that the best peace you've ever had
was right after an open conflict -
if you just stayed long enough to see it?
That sometimes the best things came out of the worst ones?

People ended up fighting bitterly and killing each other
only because they were not able to have a conflict, a small confrontation,
because they judged the conflict as bad,
because only "nice" things were allowed,
because THEY CHOSE ONLY PEACE AND HARMONY
AND IF IT WASN'T PEACE AND HARMONY,
THEY HAD TO KILL - on every level!
Because, <we will not tolerate conflicts and intolerance!
All the intolerant people should be eliminated!>
Don't you see the killer behind a preacher of peace and harmony?!

People and nations were ruining the most precious relationships
because they couldn't or didn't know how to express their discontent
before it grew into rage and hatred
(without being judged as bad by themselves or by others).
And where do you think these suppressed emotions go?
And why do you complain then that there are too many criminals out there?

....

Is your "real truth" from 10 years ago of the same depth as today?
Is your father's truth of the same depth as yours?
So do you think God is frozen and static
in learning and experiencing Himself?
And to which truth do you wish to listen to -
the one that says that all the negatives should be eliminated?
Or the one that already knows, that it's like in photography -
you kill the negatives, there will be no pictures!
Do you need to die to be reminded that these "negatives" kept you alive?

And why do you, devoted Christians, forget when you say <Jews betrayed Jesus>,
why do you forget that you were either Jews or Romans at that time?
And that in the early days one had to convert into Judaism
to become a Christian?

And why do you, devoted Jews, deny
that Jesus was God's genuine attempt
to bring the Messiah earlier than His time had arrived
so that He could save the Mother-Shekhinah from Her plight?
Granted - He was Father polarized and couldn't save Her because of that
- but so are you, don't you think?
How many times is Her name mentioned in your prayer book compared to His?
Or do you think that you, as the Body of the Son, were born without Her?
And what reality do you think is being expressed by the fact
that your children are identified by the lineage of the Mother?

What God or part of God are you referring to when you say <God is One>?
The One that is with Her? Or the One that is without Her?
If God is He where did His She go? And why does nobody speak of Her?
Like She doesn't exist? Why does nobody deliver Her voice?

Exactly on this day,

on which I'm editing
"Voices II" in Godchannel,

being sometimes deterred
and sometimes surprised

I'm sent a poem
from
the Healing-to-Wholeness site:



On the side of the road
posted by Kathleen MacGregor



She’s no one I’ve been
In this lifetime.
Standing in a burnt, barren landscape
The wind ceaselessly blowing
The sky ceaselessly grey,
She is a little child
Left for being a burden.

Sari:
"How sweet he is, I love him."
Others:
"I love him too!"

In this case it is Eran who is consoling Sari,
while Sa'ar relaxes on Sari's shoulder,
nothing "romantic" ~~~ simply love.

Sari hugs blind Eitam, who , with his dog,
was a great gift to the Big Brother players.

The at first bluntly cynical actor Sa'ar
now sees that cracks were created
through which light can penetrate".

"And there is LIGHT"

I'm glad after all, that it's not Tamir
He would have been too pressured!

Unlike anyone else ,
when coming out of the door of the House,
Tamir is flooded by all his former co-habitants:

"So much love for this man",
said the moderator Eyal over and over again,

During the last interaction outside the House, among the cheering crowds,
the other moderator, Assi,
voices this incredible confession
- it makes me cry even now!
"When I was your age, I felt just like you: being odd,
not belonging anywhere!
Not only I
but so many people identified with you
and received strength from you!"

"So much love for this man!"

Tamir's former co-habitants embrace him:
to his right: Eitam, the blind participant,
then - surounded by family and fans,
Assi, the moderator, escorts Tamir to the stage.

A parody about Tamir in "Eretz Naehaederet"

"frightened and terrified"

" I want to say that ....
perhaps it looks like...
that I... "

Not Tamir, as his co-inhabitants (and I) had hoped
was the winner,
but Kutti (30) from the town which has not the best fame - despite its promising name "Bet-Shemesh" - "Haus of the Sun".
But I agree with "Big Brother", when he parted from Kutti:
I thank you
that you entered so many people's hearts so deeply
This required
openness, sincerity, sensitivity,
humor, courage
but this, Kutti, is actually
the essence of The Big Brother!

10 Hebrew lines daily between Ya-Ra towards the doomed-to fail shemshem.org
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