The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

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March 29, SHABBAT, -at Shoham

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MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY


Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may!
7:55
I desire the little manifestation of Heaven-on-Earth in my family with Tomer to continue today!

image of last night


hodayot [thanksgivings] for today
9:04
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to you for your past insistence to stay alive
despite the many attacks of my death-wish,
I thank you for giving me the reminder of my finger,
which lacks a sinew and the nerves of which are so exposed,
that I can't even allow the adjacent finger to touch it,
and therefore place both fingers in a certain position to prevent this.
But yesterday I somehow sat down on the toilet with that finger underneath
and typing, for instance, has become painful.
Now I see it was to stage a contrast
reminding me of my almost death by electricity at the age of 15,

and the growing happiness of all of us yesterday night.

Mika had cooperated so marvellously during Shabbat-dinner and after that
but at 10 PM when she went to bed after all,
T. and I walked out into the night with Nella,
and if these nightly outings bring out the best in my starchild T. usually,
this time his intense questioning
[my own questions were rarely answered]
(like: "do you think "it's good to die for our country" and I say:
"every self-sacrifice-haqravah-atzmit results in more sacrifices qorbanot".
he repeated that slowly, was stunned and thought of applications),
led to:
"Have you ever seen me so happy?" and covering up:
"that's because you and Nella get on my nerves". And a little later:
"I've stopped smoking, I am free"
Stupefied I said: "Why?" and "how can I believe you?"
"Do you see any grilles around my body [that imprison me]?"
nor do I want to waste so much money on cigarettes any longer."

("Where did you get the money from?" No answer. That night I believed him.....April 2)


 

(The "finetuning" on this page as well as the captions to the photos were sculpted 2 days later and edited only 4 days later)

 



October 11, 2006, Arad ~~~ March 29, 2008, Shoham
Tomer turns his head away or covers it with his hands,
when I pester him with my need to document a scene.
When he is asleep, he also covers his face , except here!

But then, today, my sudden swift click surprised him after all:
It was me who sat Mika, who usually sits on her baby chair, next to him on an ordinary chair, heightened by a cushion.
And when Efrat put avocado slices on Mika's plates, and Tomer moved his chair to the edge of the table,
claiming that avocado nauseates him, as if the fruit could be compared to his fungus-stinking feet, socks and shoes,
it was me, who pushed him with my feet and hissed - whispering -
"please stay at your sister's side!"

 

 

 

After breakfast, preparations were taken for the beach.
For some reason Mika was pestering her mother,
and when Efrat's tension became too frightening for me,
I asked, if I could take Mika down to the front of the house,
until they would arrive with the car.

I asked Tomer to come too, but he did not react.

Carrying Mika on my arms forcibly
and taking her down the stairs, out of the house,
she screamed:
"Imma, Imma!"
but soon I could sidetrack her to a few ants,
which were climbing up and down the wall and the stairs.
I taught her, how to let them walk on her hands,
without squeezing them to death.

Then the car came, with Immanuel as the driver, Efrat next to him, Tomer in the back.




Finetuning to my Present

"What kind of weather is that! It's hazy, as they said,
but it's cold, not hot as they said,
what business do we have going to the sea!"


It was difficult for me, and probably not only for me,
to be exposed to this constant searching for flaws.
Little did I know, that this strong opposition to going to the beach
would culminate the next morning in the most triggering statement:

"Mika kholah be-terouf" - Mika is madly sick,
though her thin cough wasn't worse than the days before.

But even then my fright grew and a pattern went into action:
As I've learnt long ago - people can have very nice patterns,
but a pattern is an automatic reflex, developed in past situations,
and does not suit the situation at hand,
leave alone does it finetune into its specific intricacies.
I tried to make everybody feel at ease and have fun,
at least the three of us on the backseat, Mika, Tomer and me.
Though not yet moody, T. became quiet and so became Mika.
Both retreated into themselves more and more.
I tried to flow with them , BUT!
Since E. looked back at her daughter ever so often,
with a loving expression that asked for love in return,
two other patterns in me were stirred up:
one - another person wants go give something, but it is not received.
I feel hurt for that person,
be this a projection of my own "Cain" or be the person truly hurting,
and I try to somehow manipulate both,
the giver and the one meant to receive.
The other pattern:
I'm afraid, E. might blame me for not amusing her daughter.


All the three - unconscious - patterns together:
calming tension, caring for E's "Cain", being a "good grandma",
urged me to pull Mika out of her contemplative state into "having fun".
She indeed started to sing, when the CD reached a song she loved.

Her mother was encouraging her by her own voice and by looking at her,
and what did I do?
Instead of being content with the harmony during these moments,
I remembered that since long I wanted to record Mika's sweet singing,

I defined "recorder" on my cell-phone and held the device close to her mouth.
She shoved it away, but even then I did not grasp what I was doing.
The song was over, and I did the same with the next song,
and again Mika shoved the cellphone away.

This time even my son got angry: "You are disturbing her, can't you see that?"
I felt ashamed, closed the cellphone and kept quiet for some time.
[See "Song of the Day" on the bottom of April 8]

Then there was another scene, the content of which I forgot.
But I still feel the sting in my heart, when E. uttered harshly:

"Leave her alone!"
for in this case it was not a matter of needing to leave her alone.

It's only now - seeing the entire process - that I understand,
why I was hurt so much, that I could hardly swallow it.
My conscious , forceful "intention" in the morning,
together with the dictate of those unconscious patterns
made me literally "hyper-active" and counteracting my slogan:

haee zminah, al tizmee - be available, don't initiate.
Worse, I swallowed my hurt , instead of breathing it at least,
and thus prepared my explosion 4 hours later....

 

As if these enormous patterns
- of needing to harmonize between people,
- of needing to make the Cain in people be received,
of been righteous -

[in this case to live up to what I project as E's expectations from grandma],
were not enough stumbling-blocks
on the path to realizing this morning's "Intention".
--- I can be triggered by a tiny:
"Leave her alone!"
and I swallow, i.e. push into denial, what should be vibrated!

In real time, of course, I was not aware of any of this.
I only desired - desperately - to make E. accept,
that we all came to the "Palmachim-Beach",
to enjoy our togetherness,
to enjoy the meeting between the children,
to enjoy the sand and the sea.
So when we had arrived and parked the car, and E. mumbled;

"It's so cold, we'll stay here only for a short while",
I feared, that nothing of what I and the others would enjoy,
would please her,
and this fear added another layer of fuel,
which 4 hours later would explode.


I must go back to two earlier incidents,
which probably came to bear on E's unhappiness.

(1)
When on Thursday evening I received a letter from Arnon and answered him,
I "mentioned", that I would stay at Shoham over the weekend,
and that we planned to go to the sea ~~~
"maybe we meet?"

I did this with great fear, traumatized by the volcano outbreak
when E. learnt that I had sent word of the possibility of a "Grandma-Day"
- on a weekend, on which nobody would be at Shoham except for me.
On the other hand, knowing that E. wants Ayelet as playmate for Mika,

I thought, that the beach would be a harmless, non-burdening opportunity for this.
But again, I hadn't asked Efrat, if the idea appealed to her,
before I sent word to Arnon.

This, too, is one of my old, old patterns:
to arrange something "for the good of all", without asking "all" before,
since I'm so afraid, that silly reactions, i.e. unaware, unhealed feelings,
may destroy the very chance I want to provide for everyone concerned.

So, when Micha called Shabbat Eve in order to coordinate our meeting at the beach,
E. exclaimed:
"OHO! Now I understand,
why you were so adamant about going to the sea,
when I said, that we might not go after all, if it will not be warm enough."

Unusual for her, who has an excellent memory for what people say,
she distorted my wording as if I had been determined to override everybody.
I felt frightened, when she said that, and even now, I shiver with fright.

And though nothing went wrong "directly" with the meeting between the 2 families,
except that Ayelet - maybe - did not play long enough with Mika,
but turned to playing a ball-game with her brother or drawing in the sand,
I now count this unagreed arrangement among all my other errors.
Later I imagined:

If Arnon hadn't been there,
I wouldn't have walked with him to that bay
and stayed away for over an hour
and come back much too late for all three, I. and E. and Mika,
- would that shameful scene have been avoided?

Or would Mika's cough the next morning not be blamed on the "cold sea"?
And my answer was: No! On the contrary!
For I would probably have taken T. to that bay!
I would - just as I did with Arnon - have tried to call to stay in touch,
and not have reached them and said:

"If they don't answer, it's their problem",
and not cared,
something which "happens" to me only,
when I'm near water or in the water or up on a rock.
More than once in my life did I worry people to death
or strain their patience until they exploded.

(2)

I'm still not done with my flashbacks.
A much more severe incident happened,
while I was washing the dishes of breakfast
and I. and E. organized what we had to take with us to the beach.
E. got a call from her mother,
the kind of call which was the last thing needed on this morning,
a call of anger and pain about E's brother
concerning the brother's daughter who was with her grandparents.
I do not understand, why I was driven to react after the call:

"You tell your parents to let go and to no longer care,
you've told them this millions of times,
but you yourself, why did you need to take such a talk today?"

"They are my parents after all!"

"You, you have taught me,
that children are allowed to share their sorrows with their parents,
but parents are not allowed to share their sorrows with their children."

"What can I do, they have nobody but me."

I cannot tell here, what "is wrong" with this brother of E.,
but the "living example", brought to her attention daily,
is a major reason for E's projecting what "is wrong" with T.

I'll let this page take a break and enjoy the scenes
which were truly enjoyable despite what loomed in the underground.

 

 

While the girls,
Ayelet and Mika
dug themselves into sand and shells,

the boys,
Tomer, Immanuel & Arnon
made little stones
jump over the water.

 


 

 

To take one shot after the other
allows me to see movement and interaction in slow motion.
Like the composition of waves approaching and receding
changes from moment to moment,
thus the scene with one of my sons and two of my grandsons,
keeps changing.

 

 

 

 

 

 


Not everybody swims and swirls in the (cold?) water like me and T.
- and while I and Arnon walked to the bay - also like T. and his father.
Nor does everybody play with stones and sand.
I couldn't help making fun of Micha in his "garden-chair":

"You, Captain in the Navy, need no longer touch the water,
since the Navy is now working with a robot to spot and fight swimming terrorists...!"
"I wished, all the jobs would be done by robots, and soldiers could stay home and not risk their lifes."

I became cynical:
"Yes, if that robot would make even one soldier dispensable,
all the billions that robot cost, would be worthwhile.."


Later Micha did get up from his chair,
and he too joined the boys in jumping stones or played ball-games with his kids.
But E. never got up once, she only froze and froze and wanted to be elsewhere.

 

 

 


Efrat is cold, all the time cold
and the feelings of frustration and cold accumulate...

 

 

 


two sons, two grandsons and a granddaughter and the ever changing splashing line between sand and see - how beautiful!







Communication between Immanuel and his son in the water ,
and between Micha and his daughter refusing something,
while Arnon is whole with himself and his environment,
- quite characteristic scenes....

 

last communication next communication
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"and walking humbly with your God" [ Micah 6:8]

19:20

I am crying!


I hear you.


Maybe my Intention was wishing for too much, "pushing my luck"?
Maybe I should have let the wave go down and recede naturally,
instead of investing all my superhuman energy to keep it high?


"Try to tell the process of experiences, both the peaks and the pits."


I can not, not today...

 

 

song of the day

"If the cedars fail, what will the mosses say?"

 

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2012

A Message from the Mother of Manifestation
[discovered on Godchannel>Body Pages , in January 2005]

you are participating in the evolution of Deity.

Working backwards is the only way to go forward
because you cannot evolve without all of your Self.

 

March 29 , 2012, Thursday, Arad








"Friendship is one thought in two bodies"

8:20 I decided to dedicate this whole day to surrendering to "Voices>Healing the Invisible You",
I had pleaded for a sign, if I should open up to this "material" - shoved aside for 12 years -
and the answer was the "coincidence" of discovering the two new messages on Godchannel,
on the very days (March 25 and 27) on which they appeared on the Internet...
Both deal with "The Destroyer" , once called "The Torturer", or even "The Psychopathic Killer",
as not being a part of "Denial Energy" and therefore not being meant "to return to the Void",
but being a Fragment of Spirit, who is - in some deep place of the Mother - loved by her,
and therefore ---- ? should be loved by us , too?
Before going to sleep I expressed my reaction -
that I am not great enough to deal with this "issue":




"I edited the new messages from Godchannel
below "Responses to Healing the Invisible You".
I'm deeply moved by those "responses",
but I still do NOT want to cope with "Denial Energies", or "Evil",
be they "Energies" (formerly "Asuras") or Entities (formerly: Lucifer & Ahriman)
The horrid experience with my husband and other actors/actresses in my life
lets me take the Folks' advice:
"This part of the healing may not be right for you at this time....
....please do not push yourself beyond what you feel is truly right for you...."

This means, I prefer to not "attract" persons who are "infected" with the "Destroyer".
But haven't I re-encountered the message (since 2008-see how often I mentioned it)
that I should no longer be preoccupied with my separate being, my personal evolution?

On this morning I open the parallel date in K.i.s.s.-log 2008, as usual nowadays,
and since the daily email quote from "Abraham" was nothing new to me,
decided to use the appointed frame - underneath 2012 - for a quote from Godchannel.
It was a specific sentence, which I had come across some months ago
and which - because of its immense relevance - I had recorded on my digital recorder,
together with ever new old songs, which I want to rehearse.
Now - lo and behold - after having created the background for this quote -
I open the pertaining Godchannel file , in order to copy-paste that quote from it.
And encountering the entire message in .body2 I'm stunned.. "the voices..."

 

A Message from the Mother of Manifestation

"In the terror and the grief
of the expanding feeling-consciousness
happening in Body for many of you now,

you will find many of the voices you have silenced,
hear the cries that caused you to stop up your ears,
and feel the pain you thought you could not bear.
It may feel overwhelming, impossible, sure to drive you insane.
You must discover for yourself that you can do this now,
in this Body,
no matter what your thoughts tell you
or what you have believed about yourself before.
No one can do this work but you.

 

"The gift of a Body is the gift of sovereignty.
It is the gift of power, choice, and ultimately, absolute freedom.
And because of all of the misunderstanding, separations, and denials,
it has been abused.
To reclaim the power of Manifestation,
you must forgive yourself for being Body's victim ~ and its abuser.
Please allow yourself to feel into this before you continue ~
in all of the ways that this resonates within you."


"As you find and release the primary judgments against Body, and Form,
you will gain access to what your body is holding,
and widen the opportunity for your body to clear what it is holding.

 

"As you recognize your own parentalness there,
and uncover the deeper layers of your Self;
as you move into and through the rage, terror and grief
more deeply than you thought possible
;
you are not only bringing Loving Light where it can heal,
you are participating in the evolution of Deity.

Working backwards is the only way to go forward
because you cannot evolve without all of your Self.


"And ultimately you must bring all of your Self
into your depths, your darkness;
into your 'past,' your denials;
into your gap, your Hell;
into all of the places you have not wanted to go.

As you know, running from it will not work anymore,
trying to love it will not work anymore,
making someone else responsible for it will not work anymore,
and killing it certainly will not work anymore, if life is what you seek.

You must go there your Self.
With everything that you have.

This is why it is so important to heal your Spirit
in order to heal your Will.
God can help you with this, if you let him.

"This is the miracle of the gift of a Body,
that can allow you to manifest
the deep and complete Communion
that we have so longed to return to,

and this time ~ find that we are no longer alone.


"If you continue this work,
you must confront the question of who you are.
Could you really be the One,
the most Parental aspect of Manifestation?

 

song of the day [2008/2012]

"If the cedars fail, what will the mosses say?"


and see what I quoted
on the third homepage 11 years ago
from Godchannel
>Healing Class III discussion,
> "I feel being lost in love"
"Well, welcome aboard the backward express.
I hasten to mention
that in your wholeness you are
more than a mere gem of the Heart of Creation.
You are the Heart of Creation.
And as a whole human being
you will not merely be in manifestation,
you will be manifesting, both yourself and the world.
..........................
The greatness of a piece
is not in its separateness as a fragment,
but in its unique alignment with wholeness."

For some of you, this is a terrifying prospect,
for it implies that you are responsible
for healing more than you believe you are capable of healing.
For others, it will bring relief to know
that you really are the only one that can do this.

Some will be enraged by this communication,
some will be confused by the paradoxes in it.
Whatever your response, it is not wrong, it is yours,
and if you allow it to,
it will lead you to your relationship to Original Heart,
and the Original Heartbreak there.

[See - below - the new Godchannel message
that refers exactly to what happened and still happens
because of the Original Heartbreak there.]

"I will say something that has already been said, but it bears repeating.
As you know, working with this material demands
that you take absolute responsibility for your own safety and the safety of those around you.
This is necessary now, more than ever.
[how strange, that during these very hours - it's 9:15 now - I'm not granted my usual quiet.
I "believe" that I need utmost concentration for grasping the message of what I'm exploring.
And yet:
It's the holiday of Pesach and the kids of my landlord are working with him on something outside,
and are talking, laughing among each other, and often, in addition, Ofir talks loudly on the phone]

Yes, time is of the essence, but speed is not.
It is not wrong if you find yourself slowing down
to approach the parts of you that have nearly stopped vibrating.
You must find your own balance of input to process,
and allow those around you the sovereign right to find theirs.

 

"You are the only one that can know when you are ready.
You are the only one
that can feel, move and release into healing the terror
that cannot be gone past or around any more.
You are the only one that can take responsibility for triggering and moving this terror safely.
And of course, the same applies to rage, and to grief.

 

"Learning to move these feelings in your body safely
is the best way to help yourself,
and judgment release can help the movement
necessary to open your process to new and deeper levels.
The more you can work on the inside, in private,
or in mature relationship,
the less you will have to work with 'outside events'
that can carry your life in directions you don't want to go.

"But when they happen,
take every opportunity to heal yourself in the process,
to understand
that your lost essence is trying to return to you in the only ways it knows how.
You already know what this entails, so I will not say more now ~~~
except to add be gentle with yourselves,
and do not overlook the help that is available to you
when you talk to God or the Mother on the inside.

The key to the union of Original Spirit and Original Will in you
is
to identify with Body.

 

"When you let Divine Body,
the Mother or Father of Manifestation,
peer out through your eyes,
and when you see them gaze back through the eyes of those you love,
you will begin to find the understandings that you seek.

And your movement in Body
will begin to manifest the Creation and Love
your Heart has always desired."

[In the context of The Mother's message, I, Christa-Rachel, advise to also study
"A Letter from God to those doing the Healing Work"]


 

I neither grasp nor feel this info about the different sources of EVIL and how to deal with them.
But I'll at least quote here from the first message (inserted in "Responses to Voices")
"Interview with the Folks >The Destroyer > Working with Denial Energy & Denial Entities",
what my "FEELING" does "intuit", though I still hope, I won't need "to deal with it";
not only not in my personal life (for I do believe, that I do not need to attract it),
but also not on the level of humanity and the planet, leave alone "Creation".
I prefer "to celebrate what is right with the World",
and the tiny bluish flower, - never seen before and definitely not planted or sown -
that grew out of a pot on the wall which separates between "my" garden and the street,
appearing great on the background of the "invader-Acacias" only because that's the perspective I chose for photographing it,
may symbolize my ancient belief, that "it's better to light up a small light than revolting about a great darkness"

"Your Feminine essence is not at risk of being re-attacked in a reversal
when you release denial energy as Spirit has suggested.
And Heart is not at risk of being hurt again trying to bridge a gap
that typically holds negating energies of denial far more powerful than Heart's good intentions.

"Denial entities such as the Psychopathic Killer and the Torturer,
however are a different matter.
Although very, very powerful,
they are not purely denial energy, and they cannot be simply released to the Void.

"Working with these entities is advanced practice,
and should not be attempted until you feel comfortable
experiencing very high energy states with intense negativity.
In other words, you want to be in a very resourceful Healer state ....

The Destroyer

This entity is older than manifestation
and is actually a piece of Original Heart.
As difficult as this may be to understand without fully feeling into it,
there is a place deep in the Mother
[this line is linked to "The Destroyer and the Mother's Love",
the second message, channeled on March 27 , also inserted in "responses to voices"]

that loves this entity as her own son.
She recognizes Heart there and longs for a reunion with him.
The Mother, through a deep resonance with Grandmother remembers
what happened during the initial explosion of Original Heart.

"As the explosion that has begotten manifestation began,
the separation
of the still-unmanifest Spirit and Will of Original Heart
began to unfold.

Unaware that he was now only a fragment
and not the whole of Original Heart,
this part of Original Heart's Spirit was still bonded with unmanifest Will essence.
Manifestation was being born.

"For the very first time in all eternity,
this fragment felt pain, unbelievably intense pain.
The Will essence in this piece of Heart felt the full impact
of the intense terror and wrenching despair
in the cosmic heartbreak
that was beginning to unfold
as she felt herself being torn away from her loving spirit essence.

"The spirit essence in this fragment panicked with the realization
that although manifestation was desired,
this duality
that required him to no longer be in union with his Will
was too high a price to pay

in terms of the pain his Will was now experiencing.
This was original heartbreak,
beyond any human understanding.

"When his Will essence began to shake uncontrollably,
his panic intensified to the breaking point
and he rebelled.

He instinctively held tight to his screaming, contracting Will,
and together they imploded.
They contracted themselves completely
in attempting to undo the explosion
and return to the state of complete oneness prior to manifestation.

"They believed that as long as they stayed together,
both Spirit and Will,
they were still the whole of Original Heart.
This spirit essence believed
that by imploding in this way,
they would be taking back all of manifestation.
However, that was not the case. "

Associations, faint memories, sorrow and grief come up.
Childhood belief, that "evil" could come only from pain.
Revolt against duality and abyssmal disappointment,
when reading - 25 years ago - in Right Use of Will:
Returning to Oneness is not the goal!
[I have no patience to find the source, because when putting "returning to Oneness" in "Search" , there came up "too many" beautiful pages..]
just as I read - later in the text about "The Destroyer" :
"It has always been Heart's desire to have it all come together, to unify.



[Since a strong wind was waving the bluish flower back and forth, I made another picture, in which it turns to the left.
There is no word for "tkhelet" in English (pale blue), and in German - himmelblau - it's composed of blue and heaven/sky,
but in the Bible it appears 49 times, while the word "kakhol", blue, appears only as a verb: painting the eyelids, Ez. 23:40

"And yet Manifestation continues to unfold
without this vitally important part of Original Heart.
This self-imploded fragment is still deeply imprinted
with its panicked desire and automatic behaviors
that continually try to destroy manifestation
in an effort to take it all back.

"It has always been Heart's desire
to have it all come together, to unify.
And of course the desire
to return from duality
to the unmanifest state of perfect oneness
that was Original Heart
is in complete harmony with Heart's deepest desire.

......
Manifestation has not yet been balanced
in the ways necessary for the consummation
of Original Heart's intention in exploding itself,
or for the realization of the Mother's dream.
[Link to "the Mother's dream" in the first Interview with the Folks]

"All of her lost parts must be recovered
before the Mother can turn her attention
to the realization of her dream.

Lost Will is still suffering,
[see "Lost Will" on some 100 pages of Healing-K.i.s.s.]
and the whole Will is still fragmented,
including the Will of the Psychopathic Killer.
The Mother's dream involves
the unfolding of currently hidden dimensions,
however she must experience
a complete healing of all her lost fragments
before she will have the movement necessary to open any more dimensions.

.......................

Of course there has been a great deal of denial energy
in and around the Psychopathic Killer.
He first manifested here
when Spirit's initial irritation with the Feminine
[linked to the chapter "The Mother is Attacked" in "The Quest for the Mother"]
combined itself with the denial energy of the Void
and brought the Psychopathic Killer into this Creation.

"However, it is unnecessary
to release absolutely all of the denial energy beforehand
if you can find your way clear
to have full unconditional loving acceptance for the entity itself.
When real love is strong enough to love the psychopathic killer,
your love can dispel any remaining denial energy.

"However, when it is right for you to take full responsibility for the Destroyer
and move with love to embrace him,
you will experience abundant encouragement and loving support from Us.
The recovery of this entity
is essential to the ultimate balance of a fully loving and abundant Creation,
and the healing work cannot be complete without it.

 

6 PM. I don't understand!
Is loving "the Destroyer" logically possible or isn't it?
Is "Oneness" logically possible or isn't it?
I was againl singing, while swimming and swirling in the pool:

"I wanna see the world united and learn to live as one
... We have to bring the world together and learn to live as one
"
Also: there is this beautiful message from "Starchild"
"How to hold aloneness in balance with Fullness"!

[Put "oneness" in CTRL/F "find"]

In any case, I'll take a 3 days break in exploring and trying to understand (and apply!) this literally "super-sub-human" info in
The Destroyer>Working with Denial Energy & Denial Entities + The Destroyer and the Mother's Love
The "free" hours I'll be granted during the next days, will be dedicated to exposing myself to "Voices".
[The song "itfini" in which I ask The Mother to womb me in her feeling and help me release all kinds of judgments about myself
has produced yet another stanza in the pool today concerning my old trauma, that "something is expected from me",
especially when I "expect" visitors or guests, in this case even my beloved grandchildren Arnon and Yael...
:

10 Hebrew lines daily between Ya-Ra towards the doomed-to fail shemshem.org
2012_03_29- 2013_10_06DELICIOUS      DELETION



How wondrously synchronized is everything in my life now!


10 Hebrew lines daily between Ya-Ra towards the doomed-to fail shemshem.org
2012_03_29- 2013_03_13DELICIOUS      DELETION

 

2013



[adapted to a song by Joe Dassin at the end of "A widow at last"]

This is "Good Friday", on which Christians are wading in guilt.
So what about my vocation "to redeem Lost Will and dissolve the Guilt"?

Three nano-occurences :

(1) My son's reaction:

"there's not always Internet, so you can't expect us to answer right away".

I had not expected anything, on the contrary, I had expressed my joy,
that the fact, that they had not responded to an interesting info, meant,
that they were immersed in their snow-experience in the French Alps.
(2)
A horrid endless dream about the pressure of arranging someone's birthday,
i.e. my soul's endeavor to heal this seemingly neverending trauma: birthdays,
(3)
A satyric movie (France 2008 "A widow at last"),
which depicts the suffocating expectations between family members,
and from there the disgusting dishonesty and lying between them,
I woke up at the first dawn ( today the summertime clock shortened the night)
and beseeched "God" to put an end to this and other traumas
of projecting on others what they expect from me.


The singsong I made in the past, hardly helped:

"When expectations from others cause tension,
I'm giving my own eyes more loving attention'.

Now this universal problem brought about a quantum leap
in my understanding of how to cope with Guilt in creation:

I suddenly believe to know, where "dissolving guilt " starts:
between loving family members
and that it is done, by dissolving the guilt in myself first,
not any guilt, but this subtle guilt
that comes from mutual expectations,
sanctified by conventions of thousands of years.

Purple Book, Intro p.I-II

Love has intent to be good
and does not need a guilty conscience
telling it that it is not being good enough. ...

Guilt is God in My place on Earth right now
and needs to move out so that My light can move in.
You need to allow your magnetic centers to move
so that they can release the guilt they are holding present ...

Formerly, I have allowed guilt to co-exist with Me, but no more.
Guilt
is not loving
and I have decided that I can no longer tolerate
unloving presence in My Creation.

This statement of Mine is going to terrify many people
who aren't sure they have the ability
to tell the difference between love and guilt
,
or to love without guilt
telling them how they should do it.
.......

Guilt can be such a subtle thing
that it is not possible to know
all the forms it can take without feeling the Lost will that needs to move now.

 


also on 2013-03-29

another accidental page - p.19 [Exodus 8]- from my Haggadah

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

more from my Haggadah tomorrow


 

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