hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

8:10
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to your wondrous proportions,
(according to Leonardo da Vinci's "Vitruvian Man")
and also for the fact, that you are are female!!

The Vitruvian Man, completed in 1490 :
The circle and square image overlaid on top of each other to form one image.
Leonardo: ‘If you open the legs so as to reduce the stature by one-fourteenth
and open and raise your arms
so that your middle fingers touch the line through the top of the head,
know that the centre of the extremities of the outspread limbs
will be the umbilicus,
and the space between the legs will make an equilateral triangle’.
...an illustration of a shifting ‘centre of magnitude’
without a corresponding change of ‘centre of normal gravity’.
This remains passing through the central line from the pit of the throat
through the umbilicus and pubis between the legs.
Leonardo distinguishes these two different ‘centres’ of a body,
i.e., the centers of ‘magnitude’ and ‘gravity'.”
this picture represents a cornerstone of L's attempts to relate man to nature
"Leonardo envisaged the ... human body
as a cosmografia del minor mondo (cosmography of the microcosm).
He believed the workings of the human body
to be an analogy for the workings of the universe."

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Feeling the call for help
almost like a fireman on Earth responding to an alarm,
the excited souls of the transformation team came together
to focus their attention on this beautiful world in crisis.
They opened their hearts and souls to the people there.
They learned of the ways of humankind
and became familiar with the challenges
the people of Earth found themselves facing.

While some members agreed
to observe and provide guidance from a distance,
millions of these souls agreed to be born in human bodies
and - like other humans - to forget where they came from,
so that they might fully experience being human
and more effectively provide help and guidance to humankind.

Lost and Forgotten?

Being born into human bodies and human families
without memory of their origin,
these transformation team members felt
the many pains and joys of growing up
while often feeling separate and isolated from those around them.

Some members even chose
to go through serious traumas with their human families
in order to develop deeper compassion.
Others simply felt alone and bewildered, unable to comprehend
why those around them couldn't see that love interconnects us all.
At times, all of them felt lost and forgotten.
They felt they somehow didn't belong
and sensed an inner calling to some greater purpose.

Awakening from the Dream

For some the awakening was gradual,
while for others a powerful, unexpected single event lifted the veil.
Collectively, members of the transformation team began to remember
why they came to Earth.

They found themselves spontaneously connecting with other wise humans
who were part of the transformation team
and who further helped to awaken and inspire them.




[This is my pain day after day, why did this NOT happen with me?
Why did each hope of having "recognized" such a human being
and each connecting with, chasing after, each "partneroring"
turn out to be an illusion,
or worse: trigger that person into hating me and hating herself?]



Their fears and feeling of separation gradually faded
as they became increasingly excited to remember their deeper purpose,
and to find themselves now playing an integral role
in this empowering planetary transition.

Eventually, all members of the transformation team awoke.
Upon awakening, a new, bright sparkle danced from their eyes.
It was a sparkle of knowingness.

Knowing that all of us are already interconnected
in a divine cosmic dance.
Knowing that the joy of love is always there inside
when any soul truly opens to it.
Knowing that the team's purpose is not to save anyone,
but rather to simply be a loving invitation and inspiration to all around them.

Knowing that uniqueness and individuality are welcome
in the interconnectedness of all beings.
...

Once upon a time,
the transformation team came to Earth
to remind humankind -
and even to remind themselves -
that we are not alone,
that we are all equally important actors
intimately interconnected in the divine unfolding of the universe.

The team came to remind us
that fear is but an invitation to growth,
and that in the end, there is no end.
There is only this sacred moment
in which to open to all the richness
that we are ready to receive.
There is only the eternal here and now.

And so to bring this transformation fable to a close
(or is it an opening?),
the transformation team found and continues to find
ever more joyful, meaningful ways
to love, explore, play, and grow
together with all people of Earth,
as they live happily ever after
in the ever present here and now.

See more of the Transformation Fable

"Driving Backward into the Future" = "Closeups to the Past" = Healing&Harvesting my Past

My 70th birthday was a victory over my death-wish.
I remembered, that during the entire year of 1979 I created a diary - like K.is.s.-Log - but on paper,
in order to prove to myself, that I was truly "doing something".
Though I was "doing" like crazy, I believed my husband and other triggered people, who said:
"You are not doing anything."
The point of this memory is, that on top of each daily page I wrote the number of days,
which I would still be forced to live until I would be seventy.
In order to not waver daily - to live or not to live - I made up my mind with utmost strength,
that nobody would expect me to live after the age of seventy,
but until then I would have to tolerate living.

On my 70th birthday I wanted to read some pages of that year , 1979.
The pages around the 15th of August had been read and discarded last summer,
but the pages from August 1 to 3 were still in the folder.
I read them in the train from Beersheva to Tel-Aviv
and found, that they were exemplary for what I "did", and what I felt.

It was the time of preparing for the course for "Partnership Facilitators" at Nes-Amim.


Isaiah 11:9-10
They shall not hurt nor destroy in all My holy mountain; for the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the LORD, as the waters cover the sea
And it shall come to pass in that day, that the root of Jesse,
that standeth for an ensign of the peoples, unto him shall the nations seek; and his resting-place shall be glorious.

My daughter took part, Micha - then not yet 13 - spent time with Ofra, one of our partners, at her Kibbutz Dvir,
and Immanuel, already 16 then, probably stayed with his father at home.

I'll now insert the copied Hebrew pages, and also a scanned sample of half a page.
I wished I could insert some pictures and perhaps more material
(though most of it was in the folders which I transferred to "Partnership", after I left at the end of 1980,
and the rest, which I transferred to "Succah in the Desert", when I did my "lekh-lekha" in April 1996,
got burnt together with the 20 folders about "Succah in the Desert", when the Abraham Succah caught fire in 1998.


There are signs, that photos were clued to the page on both sides

Erika Knoller, therapist and a wondrous helper, then at Nes-Amim and later for me personally

With Ariela, the public relations woman of the course

With Olek Netzer, a team-worker: the picture is an illusion. There was a lot of mutual triggering between us. It was a big mistake that I agreed to engage him for the course.

There were fierce discussions concerning the acceptance or rejection of candidates for the course . One woman, Riki, seemed to be mentally unstable and not suited. I couldn't say 'no', and my co-workers were mad at me. But on the little piece of paper Mona appreciates me for having accepted her after all.

Fatina, an Arab participant "for beloved Rachel"