The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S. - as stated 12 years ago - was and is   to help me and my potential P E E R s  "to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness, and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013 and Overview of its main libraries [If you look for a word on this page, click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]

I focus my experiencing and awareness on being "a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

	1	2	3	4	5	6	7		My new Midrash and song in 5 languages about the prophecy of Malachi 3, 16 ["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The Name]
1 2 3	How Learn And	I The Train	Heal Conditions In	Myself For Creating	Into Heaven Those	Whole On Conditions	Self-acceptance Earth Daily	Click!	Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other, and he listens      and he hears yatakaalamuna     allathina     yarau'na-hu , va-yusri        va-yasma' Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander, und er lauscht      und er hoert Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre il entends,        il ecoute

The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may!
7:03
I desire - before exposing myself to new exterior experiences - to complete the verbal sculpting
of my gratitude towards my Sixteen, on K.i.s.s.-log for myself & in letters to each of the Sixteen.
I desire to no longer meddle with = "organize" the "scenes", which seem to have been staged
nor worry about the "actors" involved - directly or indirectly but to trust towards the next days
that I as well as each of them stages exactly the experience which is enjoyable or teaching!
I desire my cough to heal (it has lasted already 48 hours despite the pills - the only pills I ever take).

Jonathan's symbolic gift: a bus,     yes a "school bus" underneath Tomer's candle with the number       of my "school-years",      behind Rotem's figures which I interpret as grand-mother and grand-child. Above the bus the bulldozer, a gift     I asked from Jonathan, when he was 4 years old - as a symbol of   what I wanted to do - to blaze trails in the desert which would not destroy nature, but enhance, enrich it.

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

7:28
My Body, my Partner, my God
[If there is no special reason for giving thanks to a special organ or function,
I am - since August 20 - finetuning systematically to Your anatomy & physiology!]
I give thanks to you for our cells , of which each one contains Our DNA
divided into several linear bundles called chromosome.The cell mass is 1 nanogram

All cells come from pre-existing cells. Vital functions of an organism occur within cells, and all cells contain the hereditary information necessary for regulating cell functions and for transmitting information to the next generation of cells. The word cell comes from the Latin cellula, meaning, a small room. The descriptive name for the smallest living biological structure was chosen by Robert Hooke in a book he published in 1665 when he compared the cork cells he saw through his microscope to the small rooms monks lived in

Sept.2, 2012, I now heard, that a human body is composed of 60 000 billion cells,
of which each day 500 billions are decomposed and other 500 billions newly created.

I am grate-full for my peaceful dreams and my serene waking up this morning.
I'm grate-full for a day on which no assignment, no interaction is expected.
I'm grate-full for the pleasant weather and for the pool & the path to it.

Yael:
"I made a pyramidal tent for you !"
Yael never visited me in the desert,
while I was living in a pyramidal tent,
not even in summer 2004 on Rakhaf, when she was already 8 years old.
But there was half a year (Nov. 2000-April 2001),
when my tent was erected right in her garden at Modi'in,
and she, like Jonathan and Rotem, and mostly Itamar sat inside it.


Yael's tent is a fantastic miniature:
the floor made of plastic clay, the poles are tooth-picks,
the netshade is a piece of a Purim dress,
and inside the tent there is one "mattress".

Elah:

"I was told, that during my third year
you drove every month to a certain Elah-tree in the desert
and photographed it during the different seasons for an entire year.
The composition - to be hung above my bed - got lost."
[pain, pain about other gifts for Elah
in which I had invested an enormous amount of time and which "got lost"..]
"At first I thought of driving down to the Negev,
and bring you a fresh twig from an Elah.
But with my mother's old car this is impossible,
so what I can give you as a symbol,
is this image."

To my regret I said: "Are you sure, it's an Elah?"
just as I had asked Ayelet: "Are you sure the crystal is a salt crystal?"
From then on it was joked during the rest of the evening:
"It's real, it's real!"

Itamar:
"I know how important the Bible is for you.
I therefore bought you a tiny edition of the Psalms!"




Mika:
In order to make tiny Mika participate in the gift-game too,
Efrat asked her: "What is it you are doing with Grandma?"
Mika said: "to play with beads and to go out [into nature]!"
So they prepared this starry box with some of "our" beads.

 

Alon:
"Abba once told me,
how you taught him the beginning of Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata,
[listen a performance on the background of images with Beethoven]
[and another performance on the background of moon images]
[and the third part of the Sonata on the background of Beethoven's biography]
though he didn't know how to play the piano at all.
The sheet-music of this sonata was with me all the time,
now I give it back to you."
The ragged pages must be from the time of my grandmother, Margarete Berge.
She was a piano teacher, making a living for the family,
since her husband, a painter, wasn't very "good at that",
had little time for her children,
who included a mentally sick son,
who had been afflicted with meninitis at the age of 12.


"But will you now play it for me? You know it by heart, don't you?"
Alon is a musical genius, but hardly knows to read a note.
Nor did he believe, that he still could remember it.
After all, the piano is with his father now, and he himself now prefers the guitar.
But he played all three parts of the "Moonlight" - by heart....
And then added his own composition,
and also sang an English song , accompanying himself,
with such exstasis, that I was deeply moved,
and only wished to not have to divert my attention to the others.

Tomer:
When he handed me the candle with the number of my years,
he said to the others, not to me:
"This is, because Grandma and I sometimes go out into the night
and light a candle."
Which we did , indeed, again on that evening, after everyone had gone.
Efrat told later:
"I had to take care, that each child would present a unique gift.
The only problem was with the tent symbol.
Tomer also had the idea of a tent, but since Yael had preceded him,
he needed to invent something different."



Rotem:
"I made you this sculpture,
so you will no longer be sad about the one which got lost."

"Is it grandmother and granddaughter?"
"I didn't think of it, but you can interpret like this".

Then she asked, if she should explain the incident to the others.
I said yes, but since she mixed up different situations
and didn't make clear at all, why I was so devastated by the loss,
I "took over" and told the story, told it badly,
because I was scared I would take too much time for myself.
And if this was not enough:
Immanuel filmed me all the while I was talking
with great gestures and mimics, very dramatically,
which must have looked ridiculous and out of proportion.

This was the only time, I was ashamed of myself on that evening and still am,
considering, that the scene will stay in Immanuel's folder forever.
I should finetune into the meaning of this "unnecessary and badstory-telling"

 

Then came the most magnificent "material" gift
I could never ever have imagined-
"a gift from the whole family":
a handmade quilt, designed by Efrat, my daughter-in-love,
together with a quilt- artist:
"mandalas in your colors
interwoven with images of your ten grandchildren
topped - or better bottomed - by the biblical quote you gave me."

She described, and Immanuel added remarks,
how often she sat with that artist or talked to her on the phone
in order to modify the first design,
and how , when she came with the verse from Malachi,
of which the artist had to sow letter after letter onto the material,
there didn't seem to be a chance, that the blanket would be ready.
But it was ready!

"At first my idea was to find a suitable quote myself.
Immanuel showed me the online concordance, etc.
but it was too difficult.
I said to myself: "Why not make it easy?
Why not ask Rachel about a sentence that was important for her?"

I have told, how on the day on which she asked me,
I had just learnt a new verse:
The first verse, which popped up, was the latest I learnt:
the one which I found, when I searched for Lior's name - "li or" - to me is light,
or in the order it appears one single time : "or li" - light is to me, Micah 7:8

"..when I fall, I shall arise;
when I sit in darkness, YHWH shall be a light unto me. "

But Efrat wasn't content:
"I should have made it clearer to you:
I meant your vision concerning your tribe..."


And that's how it happened,
that my feet are now covered
by my most ardent desire concerning Heaven-on-Earth

Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other,
and he listens      and he hears
yatakaalamuna     allathina     yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri        va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht      und er hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre
il entends,        il ecoute

What a strange term "your tribe" [see also on Sept. 15...]
I remember, how I once , in great despair, called Naomi Heifetz,
who had done excellent channelings for me
& for some of my children and friends.
It was during the time, when I prepared for yet another exterior realisation,
perhaps in July 2003.
I don't remember what I asked her,
and since the digital recorder failed to record the voice through the phone,
I could not study the message later, leave alone guard it until today.
But I see myself sitting on my mattress in what was still my rented flat at Modi'in,
and thinking about two words in the message, which had penetrated my soul:
"shevet" and "hit'aneeg"
What I somehow grasped was this:

"Your vision has already been realized in another reality.
There is a TRIBE [shevet] of tens of thousands around you.
There is no need to invest such excruciating efforts!
You can simply "delight"
[ le-hit'aneg - a strong word for "enjoy yourself".]

I've now studied the contexts of this verb in the Bible:

Psalm 37:11 But the humble shall inherit the land,
and delight themselves in the abundance of peace

Isaiah 58: 14 Then shalt thou delight thyself in the LORD,
and I will make thee to ride upon the high places of the earth,

Job 26:22. Then surely shalt thou have thy delight in the Almighty,
and shalt lift up thy face unto God.


Job 27:10 Will he have his delight in the Almighty,
and call upon God at all times?

Efrat's creativity - there are no words to praise it .

And how she drew out the power of creativity
in the ten grandchildren-
again I have no words to express my wonder and joy.

And the wonder and miracle, that I have such a tribe!

And that each of the Sixteen is alive and healthy
and wise and beautiful in body and soul!
What can I say about that?

And that they are all in Israel, nobody lives abroad,
even the three men, who jump abroad regularly,
Immanuel, Uri and Micha,
they had all come, nobody was missing!

Finetuning to my Present

The next day, when we were on our way - each towards a different goal -
I asked Immanuel and Efrat:
"How do you feel now ?
Relieved? Or contented, satisfied?"
"There was nothing to feel relieved from! Yes, we feel satisfaction!"

It was then, that I could convey to them,
that as grate-full as I was for all the performances and all the gifts,
I am just as grate-full for the fact, that I did not discern any tension.
"Everything took place with ease, as if it were a normal Shabbat Eve,
with only you and me."
"I could discern a little tension in Efrat", said Immanuel,
"but nothing compared to the kind of distress YOU used to go through"
(like towards and during the celebration of the 50th birthday of my husband, 1972).


The skill of being at ease and making everyone around feel at ease,
was also felt with regard to the food, which everyone had contributed to.
"I simply composed the dinner of those dishes,
which everyone knows to prepare best."
When I came in, all dishes were neatly placed on the dinner table next to the piano.
No serving! No fuss! everybody filled his/her plate with what s/he liked
and found him/herself a place to eat , on the veranda,
or - like Uri and Ra'ayah - in the living-room.
"The only stress I had - not before the celebration but during it - was with Mika."
Mika, indeed, seemed to have had difficulties with the big crowd,
and perhaps with the fact , that she wasn't in the center for a change,
but Savta was the one who was "seventy",
as she was asked to repeat again and again
[and in the weeks to follow repeated over and over,
when she saw the exhibition of the gifts...]
Still, it was about 3 times, that Mika suddenly attached her body to mine,
and thus gave me the feeling, that she, too, wanted to bless me.!