The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

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My new Midrash and song in 5 languages
about the prophecy of Malachi 3, 16
["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The Name]



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Self-acceptance

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Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other,
and he listens      and he hears

yatakaalamuna     allathina     yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri        va-yasma'

Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht      und er hoert

Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre
il entends,        il ecoute

 

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September 5/ Elul 5, Friday, 21th day of "having died to righteousness" -at Arad
Actions and Interactions: pool-twice; ~~~ meeting Meital in her predicament, s. tomorrow
Parting from my obsession to complete this page--- on Sept. 7

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The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may
I don't exist to reach any goals, rather my goals exist to give me reason for action and pretext for interaction !
8:05
I desire - on this day - to focus entirely on completing the creations of my recent past (August!)
and postpone my virtual (?) participation in the Big Brother Drama and its meaning for Israel.
I desire to sacrifice the miniscule denial spirits/asuras and to heal the gaps which attract them.
I desire to understand, how I - on the level of Deity - can become parental to "Kobyla the Mare"..


When, before sunrise on July 2 , I followed Zipi, the shepherdess,
I stumbled upon this naked doll.
"It has been there ever since I started this job.
I am not capable of lifting it up. "

There was nothing to be said
about the reason for her feelings.
When Tomer later
stumbled upon the same doll,
he shuddered
and could not lift it either.
I did not shudder less,
but I felt,
I had to redeem this symbol
of 1 500 000 children
trampled to death.
"I'll wash it clean
and then knit clothes
around its body"
,
I said and "disposed" it
in the dirty laundry corner,
until it re-appeared today,
exactly today,
when I'm shattered
by "Kobyla the Mare"...
"there are no shillumim,
"Reparations"
for the heart of a mother,
whose child was shmashed
against the wall"
,
wrote the Jewish man, Rafael Rosenzweig
to the German girl, Christa Guth.

But what about that woman ,
"Kobyla the Mare"?
What about those Israeli mothers
who now drowned their small children?
What about me,
who is connected to all these "colors of the one rainbow"?




hodayot [thanksgivings] for today
8:45
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to the 150 000 kilometers of blood-vessels [as told in 3SAT, Nano],
which nourish all your organs and mainly your brain with oxygen and energy,
I give thanks to your heart which pumps this nourishment through you,
beating 3 000 000 000 times during an average life.

I'm grate-full to myself, for having overcome the "ridiculous" panic
of operating the new-old washing-machine for the first time after 3 months
(Ofir got it from our neighbors Albert and Tzacha and thought it wise to replace with it the one he had installed in my toilet-room, when I began to rent this one-room flat on Dec. 3, 2004, though it's 10 years old, older than the one I had - and despite explanations the laundry didn't get rinsed, so I gave urgent items to Efrat to wash and - afraid -let the other things accumulate - until today)
I'm grate-full for being loving enough to "the Mother", i.e. God's Feelings,
to accept and move and evolve also those fears which I call "ridiculous"!!

12:00 Should I be grate-full for having rescued and today washed that doll?

 

 

 

"Driving Backward into the Future"

The page 55 [...Kobyla the Mare...] in Daan van Kampenhoot's "Tears of the Ancestors" should be read only after the following pages:
Chapter 5
Hiding the Perpetrators


"While I am leading a seminar in Berlin,
I have time for a visit to the "memorial to the Murdered Jews of Europe,"
located right in the new city center.
...but upon actually visiting the monument, I find it strangely beautiful.
As I walk through the rows and rows of immense grey concrete blocks,
long tunnels open up and close again at the left and the right of me.
Through these tunnels I see fragments of people,
some are close by and others are far away.
But the moment I glimpse them, they are already gone again.
The monument seems to swallow people!
Walking through it, I experience a pecular sense of isolation, which brings me to a silent inner place.
Finally, I sit down at the edge of the field of

 

Christa-Rachel: This perspective on the perpetrator feels so right and over-ripe to me!

I remember, how the Palestinian grandfather in "Good Intentions" said to his granddaughter:

"See the man who murdered Saadat, does he have a name?
And those who murdered Gandhi and Martin Luther King and Kennedy, do they have names?
They are all forgotten. The murderers , the suicide-killers do not win honor in history."

I felt, that something was not right in this "fact", and now I know, what it is,
the perpetrator is an aspect of me just like the victim,
and I must become "parental" to both.


systemic solution. The question is relevant, because from a certain perspective, nothing is solved when perpetrator and victim merge with each other. Why not? Because the perpetrators do not become a reintegrated part of their own original system, and neither do their victims. The constellations that set up a row of victims and a row of perpetrators do not include the families of origin anymore, and the original task of integrating them back is forgotten. Or is it avoided? At any rate, the most essential movement is by-passed."

 

Finetuning to my Present

On the way to the morning pool after having edited the "Skirt-Asura-Sculpture"
I suddenly remembered what I had read in the train - before ! stitching the skirt-
about a woman - yes , a woman - who ....

(I can not type this with my own fingers... it can be read in the scanned page).
After having coped all my life with "stories about" atrocities-not -to-be-grasped
I was surprised, that "Kobyla the Mare" could shatter me that much.
I again thought of the three children, all around 4 years old,
who were murdered within 2 weeks in the State of Israel,
two of them by their own mothers, one - the suspect is the grandfather,
and while breathing strongly, and swimming and swinging in the water,
I saw with my inner eyes - Mika under boots of "Kobyla the Mare" -
and then the beautiful people in the Big Brother Drama - as children,
and then the 4 year old children deserted for 100 days by 2 of the participants
,
- one of them - Miki - I judged so heavily,
that I wanted her to be the person, meant to be disposed on the second night.
Not only - I am aware that I judge! - did she haughtily declare,
that the one reason for her participation was "money",
though her flashy made-up appearance didn't suggest that she needed it!
But we, the observers, saw how the expression of the little girl's face changed,
when her mother disappeared behind the door,
which might be locked for 100 days.
And, indeed, after the counting-error had been cleared up, it turned out,
that this mother had been among the "disposables" by her Big Brother mates.

I remembered the two "other" scenes, which for me epitomize EVIL,
the one which was reported during the Eichmann trial and almost cost my sanity
and which caused me to choose the name Rachêl
[see Midrash on my names]
"SS-men wanted to watch a birth,
so 3 women about to deliver were thrown on the cold concrete floor
with piercing flashlights on them from above.
The babies died right there,
the mothers were thrown into the gaschambers"

and the other reported by "God" himself (see in pp 42 Victim and Perpetrator).
"Physicians were conducting 'medical experiments'...
I had been in places like this so many times before,
watching yet another perpetrator and victim
play out the original imprints of Creation.
And as always,
I was waiting for the realization to strike one of them
that they each were both a perpetrator and a victim.

"A soon-to-be new mother was in labor,
and the experiment was to find out
what would happen if the child could not be born.
As the experimenters tied the Mother's legs together
and strapped her to the table,
they asked themselves,
'Will only the child die?
Or will the mother die too?
If so, who will die first?"

I cannot put it into words,
what my Tomer-less Lesson and my Skirt-Asura-Lesson
have to do with the asuras in the Kobyla the Mare drama.
I only know, that by learning both lessons, I'll become parental to the latter.

["mare" is not only a female horse, it's also the Latin word for "sea",
and from there a mare on the moon or Mars is a large dark plain surface.
"Kobyla" means "mare" = female horse, in Russian and was the name of the ancestor of the House of Romanov.
As to a female horse,- the only death of an animal I mourned in my childhood, was the death of the mare "Muella",
which was buried in the orchard behind our "house" in the village, to which we were evacuated between 1944 and 1946.
All these associations don't seem to be helpful at all, they are just sidetracking me from the feelings....

 

 

Big Brother Drama 15:30

All the while the Big Brother drama goes on.
I watched a while yesterday night, and I watched again, while eating my lunch.
It looked like a scene in paradise:
beautiful young men and women "talking to each other",
laughing a lot,
often singing some improvised tune,
two men massaging pretty women,
right now, most of them are in the small swimming pool,
eating and drinking whenever they like,
retreating and sleeping whenever they want...
I can imagine many spectators become bitter with envy.
They don't know, what lies ahead,
probably Sartre's "L'enfers c'est les autres"
Nor did they hear Renin yesterday:

"I feel, I won't be able to bear this for long.
I feel bad. I don't know what to do with myself."



   

Big Brother Drama 16:15

After a nap I ate two of the Moroccan cakes of Efrat's mother,
and while doing so, entered the Big Brother scene again.
Asher, the religious guy, was preparing a meat-dish,
while Leon, the twin-brother of Boris, whom I hated in the beginning,
but now, that he lost his posing, I start to like him, stated:

"animals are preserving the pain they felt, in the meat that you eat."
Asher: "animals are there to eat and to be eaten"....

 

 

Why, why did he die?

Der unermüdliche Vermittler
The Untiring Mediator

Exactly today - doc in 3SAT about the Israeli Dan Bar-On
( I think I knew him once),
exactly my age,
but died yesterday.
Arabs-Jews, Jews-Germans,
3 generations
of holocaust-survivors.

Der israelische Psychologe und Autor Dan Bar-On ist im Alter von 69 Jahren gestorben. Wie die Hamburger Körber-Stiftung mitteilte, starb der Co-Direktor des Peace Research Institute in the Middle East (PRIME) nach langer Krankheit am 4. September 2008 in Tel Aviv. "Dan Bar-On hat die Körber-Stiftung über Jahre als Autor und als Leiter unseres nach ihm benannten Dan Bar-On Dialogue Trainings begleitet",.


Dan Bar-On wurde 1938 in Haifa als Sohn deutsch-jüdischer Eltern geboren, die nur knapp dem Holocaust entkommen waren. Er studierte Psychologie und spezialisierte sich auf die Therapie von Holocaust-Überlebenden. In den letzten Jahren beschäftigte er sich vor allem mit dem Israel-Palästina-Konflikt.


Gefragt nach den Gemeinsamkeiten der Verständigungsarbeit mit den Kindern von Holocaust-Opfern und den Nachkommen der Täter und der Vermittlungsarbeit mit Israelis und Palästinensern antwortete er im Juni 2006 dem "Hamburger-Abendblatt": "Zunächst einmal gibt es große Unterschiede. Der Holocaust ist seit 60 Jahren vorüber, er dauert nicht an - außer in den Köpfen und Herzen der Menschen. Der andere Fall ist ein aktueller, ungelöster Konflikt. Zudem gab es nach dem Holocaust keinen Zweifel, wer die Täter und wer die Opfer waren. Im israelisch-palästinensischen Konflikt gibt es dagegen sehr wohl Uneinigkeit darüber, wer die wahren Opfer und die wahren Täter sind. Es ist nicht so leicht zu definieren."

Auf die Frage, ob seine Arbeit sein Menschenbild verändert habe, sagt Bar-On: "Was ich durch meine Forschungen gelernt habe, ist, dass wir alle aus einer Collage verschiedener Teile zusammengesetzt sind, die wir als kohärent darzustellen versuchen, aber sie sind überhaupt nicht kohärent. Darum ist die Dialogarbeit zwischen den verschiedenen Teilen sehr wichtig. Viele haben Schwierigkeiten, das anzuerkennen. Sie wollen, dass immer alles zusammenpasst. Aber das ist ein romantisches Menschenbild von vor hundert Jahren. Heute wissen wir, das kann es gar nicht geben." Dan Bar-On war bis 2007 Professor für Psychologie an der Ben-Gurion-Universität in Beer Sheva. Für sein Engagement für Frieden und Verständigung wurde ihm unter anderem 2001 das Bundesverdienstkreuz und 2003 der Erich-Maria-Remarque-Friedenspreis verliehen. Dan Bar-On starb am 4. September 2008 in Tel Aviv.


 

DAN BAR-ON was born in 1938 in Haifa to parents of German descent. He was a member of Kibbutz Revivim for 25 years where he served as a farmer, educator and Secretary of the Kibbutz. After completing his M.A. in psychology in 1975, he worked in the Kibbutz Clinic, specializing in therapy and research with families of Holocaust survivors. In 1981 he received his Ph.D. at the Hebrew University of Jerusalem. In 1985 he launched a pioneering field research in Germany, studying the psychological and moral after-effects of the Holocaust on the children of the perpetrators. His book Legacy of Silence: Encounters with Children of the Third Reich was published in 1989 by Harvard University Press and has since been translated and published in French, German, Japanese and Hebrew. Since then, Bar-On has brought together descendants of survivors and perpetrators for five intensive encounters (the TRT group, shown by the BBC on TimeWatch, October, 1993), as well as students from the third generation of both sides. His book Fear and Hope: Three Generations of Holocaust Survivors' Families was published in Hebrew, English, German and Chinese .His last book The Indescribable and the Undiscussable was published in 1999 by Central European University Press. In 1998 and in 2002-3, Bar-On was the Ida E. King Chair for Holocaust and Genocide Studies at Stockton College of New Jersey. He is currently a Professor of Psychology at the Department of Behavioral Sciences at Ben-Gurion University, where he served as Chair of the Department in 1993-1995 and again in 2003-5. He is the co-director of PRIME (Peace Research Institute in the Middle East) near Beit Jala, PNA, together with Professor Sami Adwan of Bethlehem University. He is married, has four children and four grandchildren.

Research Interests:
The after effects of the Holocaust among three generations of families of Jewish victims and among families of Nazi perpetrators
: What has been transmitted and what has been worked through? The "Others" within us: The reconstruction of the Israeli collective identity within three generations: From the Monolithic through the disintegration to dialogical collective identity. Israelis and Palestinians reconstruct their historical narratives during the transition from violent conflict to peace building. ....Storytelling and dialogue between parties in conflict situations: Learning from the Jewish-German context and the Israeli-Palestinian context. Studying the triangle Germans- Jews- Palestinians, with emphasis on displacement of aggression. Studying issues of reconciliation and peace building (bottom-up), versus peace making (top-down). Developing a center and an MA program for Conflict Studies and Negotiations.

synchronicity! Daan meets Dani

After having immersed myself in the life and work of Dani Bar-On I went to bed,
and as usually before putting out the light, read in a book,
and in these days of course in Daan's book

(both names, Dani and Daan, are derived from the name "Daniel"!)
It was the chapter 6 "searching for a new definition"
and he tells, how after his arrival at the airport in Tel-Aviv he is taken by a taxi-driver,
who asked him many questions and also - what he liked best of Israel.
"I tell him that, on some level, it is like warm bath for me.
Something in me relaxes here, a part that is not relaxed in other places.
My non-Jewish friends have some difficulty

 


tive wasn't ready to confront its own past, and so, what could not be digested was rejected, denied.
A certain formulation in the introduction strikes me:
Bar-On concludes that research shows that we require "a new definition of normalcy"...

 

 

Nourishment from Others
How great: the worst suffering of human beings (except for boredom-dissatisfaction)
is making it to the headlines of "Clalit-Health-Service"
The "low self-image" and Listening-Disorder

Maybe, people will finally come to understand the biblical metaphor of "Cain"...
I didn't read the entire article, because it tempts to think, that "there might be a solution for T!"
But my task (and also my children's task, so they keep forgetting it) is not
"to find a solution for T",
but to discover and learn our lessons with this actor...


I also found interest in another article of "Clalit"

about how healthy the milk of goats is for Body

 

 

 


 

Song of the Day

In the pool I rehearsed the last song of 2007

about a mother's baby smashed against the wall,


and with it another song came up,
in which Moses compares himself to a nurse carrying a baby in her bosom:

"Did I myself conceive this entire people,
or did I myself give-birth to it,
that you should say to me,
Carry it in your bosom
like a nursing-parent carries a suckling-child !"


Singing this song made me choke with tears.
Why?

Continuation of the Quartet's Presentation to my 70th birthday

Nine images of situations with The Quartet


In the new house of Micha's family
at Mazkeret Batya:
A game of "Freeze", 2006


On the way to the pool
at Arad, Pesach 2007

On the weekly Grandma-Days
at Modi'in, 2001-2004,
we always had our 4 o'clock meal
on the Titora Hill
[see for instance "the Quartet" 2003'
and mainly "Yael's 365 days of her 7th year, IV"]


 

 

 

 


Making peace - In the pool of Arad, August 2007

In my garden at Arad, Pesach 2007

During "the Camp of the Angels
at the Sea of Salt" , June 2006
















With Itamar's telescope, in the desert, April 2007,

Singing the Quartet-hymn, Arad, August 2007

In a deserted Supermarket cart,
in the fish-Park of Modi'in, 2002








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