The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]


I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 41st day, September 2002

Swimming in the Mediterrenean towards the end of our NewYear,
close to the place where Tamir lives in my former mobile home,
was part of the sequence of the experiences and understandings,
which coalesced into my communication with the Mother just now.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



2014

The FELT days 155, 154, 155, 156 ~ of the next 15 FELT years

1 5   y e a r s  = 5 4 8 0   days   of
g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e   Z e i t   "inmitten der Ewigkeit",
f e l t - f i l l e d   t i m e  "amidst eternity"
from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all]
The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013

On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness.
Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines

To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged"
in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!


2014-02-06-Thursday-still 5324 days
"The Adrenalin" after a day with not one but two intense 2 hours talking -with Ezri and Tzippi- woke me up and "of course" caused at least 2 hours of SQU. What feeling is this, that is so searched for by people, and which they [not I!] call "excitement" and in present Hebrew "rigush", = making feel [s. a comment!]...

Song: akhush ve-akhug kol tnu'ah be-rigshi

2014-02-07-Friday-still 5323 days

I must come to grips with my fury against the Haredim. I always said, that without the Arab enemies, the Jews would never become a nation. I embrace all majorities/minorities, except for the Haredim. Radicals are now revolting vio-lently. Friendship/cooperation between some women in Bet-Shemesh doesn't soothe me.

Song: Bat-Adam... alaikh le-rappê ha-bri'ah
2014-02-08-SHABBAT-still 5322 days

Grate-great-full-fill-ment! 3SATheme-Day: gifts of Grimms' Fairy-tales, which -when watched slowly - like "Eisenhans" - let me see my own life: harsh learning and 'angels on the abyss', and now - while facing my task in the quantum-leap of the Vision of the tents - the step-to-step guidance since my incarnation!

Expansion of Ijob's poem-my song, s. below

2014-02-09-Sunday-still 5321 days

I felt frustrated that I didn't understand, what I have to do with the Haredim and all I detest in their beliefs and behaviors. "By chance" I edited the Nebo-let-Go passage below before sculpting this "Felt Day", and there it was: they are the other pole of my "lekh-lekhâ". I want them to do lekh-lekhâ as Minyans for "Shabbat-Groups!"

song: Sha'anan Moav mi-ne'urav

 

How wondrous - my communication with Deity about Gadi in 2002


February 6, 2014-OHEL 8 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible

You are to join five of the tapestries [yeri'ot] separately
and six of the tapestries separately,
but you are to double over the sixth tapestry,
facing the tent. [the tent of appointment]
 Exodus 26:9
Verhefte fuenf der Teppiche besonders
and sechs der Teppiche besonders,
den sechsten Teppich aber dopple ein,
dem Angesicht des Zeltes zu.
Namen 26, 9
continuing: (6) "Nebo-Let-Go"-slow and "Nebo-Let-Go" - in one go =2006: a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating


The first of the month Tammuz (June 20, 1985)
was the crucial date which I had determined for myself
for the transition into the bus
and the beginning of my lekh-lekhâ

The original date had been Pesach in that year, the festival of the "Exodus" Going out,
for I knew that my youngest son Micha would by then be half a year in the army.
I learnt from experience that this was the time
when children disconnect from their mother's navel, - and therefore -
when the message matured in me during the previous 7 years of teaching Bible,
that I have to follow "Abram/Abraham",
I determined the "Festival of Freedom" as my date

Two months before this date of my lekh-lekhâ my mother died.
She made me understand, that her task had been completed:
Nursing her --- enabled me to heal my childhood with her....


It was then that I planned to invite a paying patient to my bus:
"you'll have an interesting life, and I'll have a livelihood."

When this proved to be a delusion,
my friend Yanina comforted me,

"Your nursing program gave you the justification for your craziness!"
I skip the photo compositions about the funeral and my mother's grave
with my sister and my best friends then: Yanina and Nimr,
and also the compositions with my last pupils in the Course for Arabic Literature.



What dreams will you bring to fruition this year?

continued Day 4- from among 42 days INTENTION ATTENTION

What our attentionrests on becomes manifest.

In short: Where focus goes, energy flows.

As we discipline ourselves to focus our attention,
wholly and completely,
on our current intention, vision or dream
we are energetically infusing, informing and programming
the Unified Field to deliver this ~ and even greater.

Our thoughts become our reality.

Full attention dissolves the illusion of separation
and we remember we are this, what we in-vision; ...

Through concentration, we master our thoughts,
and see our visions through from inception to completion. ...

This single point of focus amplifies our energetic intent,
magnetizing anything we choose into our direct experience.
For when our mind is focused only on the task at Heart,
we Birth New Reality with grace and ease, speed and agility.
...

In-vision this clearly in the Heart-Mind.
Maintain this single point of focus,
disciplining the mind to attend to this one thing.

Observe where the attention is,
bringing it back when it is diverted or wanders.
Be gentle with yourself,
gratefully acknowledging that every time you choose
to return your focus to the growing Dream Seed within,
you are returning to ......... who you really are!

"Cherish your visions. .. Cherish the music that stirs in your heart,
... for out of them will grow all delightful conditions, all heavenly environment;
....if you but remain true to them, your world will at last be built.""

What am I able to remember of the talk with Ezri,
rehearsed actualy in my story to Tzippi?
So far he does not really want to listen to my vision,
and when I - against his impatience and slight arrogance -
tried to say the first sentence:
"What I want is called Mobile Desert Hosting Economy",
he already interrupted me harshly: "Impossible".
I then heard inside: "Stop trying. Ask him if he is ready to read".

But as long as it was his turn to tell me not only about his private life
(after all I once had supported him and who was then his wife,
(both the parents of Shakhaf of the first Aetgar)
with my skills of relationship-counseling
but about his outstanding work as the Planner of Nature Reserves.
I was fascinated by both, the info he gave and his steadfastness,
his not allowing to be swallowed up by power-hierarchy-patterns.
He is not only responsible for the planning of free territory,
but for preventing other authorities, mainly the Ministry of Housing,
from importing insensitive "civilizaton", by finding alternatives e.g. for "Kasif"
a town for 80000 Fundamentalist Jews, planned south of Nature Reserve Tel-Arad,
which would destroy the view on the desert, which is part of the Nature reserve.
[s. an example of all the "settling" that is planned for the Negev ]
I felt the "Unified Field" [s. Google] that intensifies towards the quantum-leap.
He also stated expressively that I with my "nofesh la-nefesh"
had a great part in what has evolved concerning Man and Nature.
Snowflakes

I find that a snowflake is a metaphor for an Ohalah
or a metaphor for a composition of Ohalot/Rihlaat.
[aggregation : Hebrew: mitzbor or hitkabbtzut or hitagdut ?]
I'll only tell, what I remember from a short item
in the scientific program "Nano" of 3Sat,
though there is so much more to learn about it.
A snowflake is a crystal with 90% of air around it.
Though the basic form of each crystal is the same,
every crystal [or tetrahedral tent], is unique,
and all crystals are different from each other.
They hang above and beside each other unsystematically!

"How full of the creative genius is the air in which these are generated!
I should hardly admire more if real stars fell and lodged on my coat."
--Henry David Thoreau, 1856

Since rediscovering that letter to the Israel Land Administration in Aug. 2004
(see end of previous page),
I like this definition of the Mobile Desert Hosting Economy (difficult to translate)
Sanctuary for Adam on public Adamah

Not directly connected to the Tents, but part of the environment, in which my vision sprouts:
Dialog with my granddaughter Yael: Jan. 28-Febr.6, 2014,
+ letters to Tova about my hip surgery, to Immanuel about people without arms and to Lior Oren about "vocation"



the first links opens my website
the second link lead to this page
the third link suggests to Yael,
to get a glimpse of what I do!

 

 

 

Tova, the wife of my stepson Joel, cares for my hip joint.
It was her, who had told us about Dr. Rami Cardush,
just before Micha, my son, discovered an article about this surgeon's new way of operating a hip joint.
Without having been aware of this, she now sent a link to an American article about this new way.
I'm inserting a passage in my thank-you response, which in the end I omitted as "not fitting",
since Tova is burdened with much sickness...

Immanuel sent a video, calling it "a comic break for all those of us 'with good hands'..."
He told Efrat to show it to Mika.
I sent him a similar video , apologizing for countering him with my "heaviness"....
The next morning: responses from Immanuel and from Lior

 

 

 

 


February 7, 2014-OHEL 9 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible

And all the people would see
the column of cloud
standing at the entrance of the Tent
and all the people would rise,
they would bow down,
each-man at the entrance to his tent.
 Exodus 33:10
Und alles Volk sah
den Wolksaeulenstand
stehend im Eingang des Zelts,
und alles Volk erhob sich,
sie verneigten sich,
jeder im Eingang seines Zelts
Namen 33,10
how meaningful - the parallel of
the entrance of THE Tent and
the entrance of each-man's tent
continuing: (7) "Nebo-Let-Go"-slow and "Nebo-Let-Go" - in one go =2006: a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating



On the first of Tammuz, 1885, I "went out"
from the home of my children.
I transferred the bus, which was only half-built,
to the area of my friend's greenhouse
at Ramat-Hadar, Hod-Hasharon.
I had lived there with my family until our divorce in 1981

My pilot-carpenter-son

I've been asked again and again and again:
"How do your children relate to your craziness?"
I always gave this example:
When Immanuel first heard,
that I indeed intended to buy a bus,
he said:
"Imma, this time I'm utterly opposed to your idea!"
I said:
"I understand you perfectly well,
but since I'm going to buy this bus anyway,
will you take over the job of its carpenter?
Nobody else will do such complicated carpentry!"

And my son said:
"Yes".....

My best friend Yanina had flower green houses and fields
and invited me to park my bus there
until its conversion into a home would be completed

The primitive machinery and carpentry workshop
was installed under a shade that extended from the bus,
electricity was provided by my friends.

[I again skip most of the images inserted in the original]

How did Immanuel work on the complicated "furniture"
in the tiny space - 6 m long, 2.30 m wide -
already filled with two water-tanks,
a kitchen sink and a gas-stove?

About two or three times a week Immanuel managed
to make the bike-drive of one hour
from Sde-Dov, his airforce base,
to Ramat-Hadar and one hour back through terrible traffic


I had a temporary fridge, connected to the grid of the greenhouse,
the lights and the vents worked on the generator,
which also was connected to the grid.
No solar energy yet!
When I wanted to learn about solar energy already in 1984,
I was told - in the Ministry for Energy -
"Forget about it! it will never be viable!"
But I didn't forget about it,
and two years later I did find a (miserable) company for Solar Energy,
and did set out on a path too difficult, too painful....to be described..

Mona has just finished painting the bus - with that great idea
of extending the back wheels in the direction of driving.
The idyll which shows me as sitting under the bus-shade
next to the Bougainvillia plant, which I had transferred from the flat in Ramat-Gan,
was flawed by my constant worrying about hundreds of technical problems
which still hadn't found their solution,
and by the    h o r r i d   d e p r e s s i o n   which set in,
after I found myself without the tasks of a mother for my children
and a nurse for my mother.




What dreams will you bring to fruition this year?

Day 5- from among 42 days (W)RITES OF PASSAGE

Let's use our writing skills
to create a Rite of Passage for our Dream Seeds....

Step 1: Draw a large symbol of Gratitude on a sheet of paper,
making full use of this open field of possibility.
.......................

Feel the e-motion ~~energy in motion ~~ expanding your Heart.
... to every organ, cell, bone and neuron in your body.
Feel it expanding beyond your body... to the Universe and all Creation. Stay with this feeling while .... thinking about this Dream Seed.

While you do this, you are re-programming the mind
to love and accept this experience.
See it and feel it as complete and whole.
Cherish it. Embrace it. Be grateful for it!
As you do, you become one with the Divine,
in Love with All that IS,
an expression of the Great-Full-Ness of Life!

Tactile experiences, such as writing and drawing,
assist in anchoring our visions and dreams into reality.
Both left and right brain are utilized,
and a bridge is created between Heart and Mind.
This power-filled exercise may be used again and again,
as we grow through our 42 day journey (and beyond!).

Playing with this simple tool
grants fresh perspective of the growing Dream Seed,
revealing delightful, inspiring surprises along the way. Enjoy!
This is exactly what I'm doing all the time, - though not according to these instructions and not with handwriting and handdrawing,
but by playing with compositions: texts and images, yes songs (though not all are audible on this website), with past and present and future,
and also when I walk down the Wadi of Grace, and up to water the Grave of Grace, to the pool and back,
and now - since the air is clear - seeing the endless range of the Judaean Mountains in the north,
imagining tents in every wrinkle and crease, integrated smoothly, softly in the desert environment.



(2)

EXPLORING

 

 

 

 

I'm exploring
what I can find
on the Internet
about
Ezri Alon

In the Forum
for the Protection of Nature
and
the Quality of the Environment
August 2009

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
(1)
"Ecology & Environment, a journal for science and environmental policy, addresses current environmental issues, .... issued 3 times a year, the journal consists of peer-reviewed research, communications and scientific reviews... scientific and professional news, brings a unique interdisciplinary approach and sets the stage for broad public discussion between scientists, practitioners, and decision makers....environmental NGOs, activists and students."
I also explored an article by Ezri Alon and Joav Morag.
about Agriculture vs. Nature Protection in the Aravah,

which appeared a year ago in an interesting magazine,
ECOLOGY AND ENVIRONMENT
Journal for SCIENCE and ENVIRONMENTAL POLICY
(3)

 

PONDERING

Haredi Judaism was a reaction to the 19th-century Jewish Enlightenment .

I always realized, that
the more radical the "exhibitionism" of "secular" women in Israel,
the more radical the "covering up" of Haredi women,
and in the Muslim world a woman does not have to be religious
in order to be forced to cover not only her hair but her entire head and face.
The regression of the latter has been happening under my eyes since 20 years.

This reinforces my fright, expressed on Felt Day Febr. 2,
that the Vision of Tents, too, may cause a polarization,
like every single advancement in history did so far.
I must dedicate this day and Shabbat to what I know already,
but do not apply concerning the Ultra-orthodox humans,
be they Jews, or Christians or Muslims
I know that I have to take responsibility ,
but I must feel this and manifest my tent-vision from this responsibility,
if not, the tents, even if they should manifest, may polarize
into even more earth-destroying towers of Babel.

from SongGame 2007-05-10
to heal myself into wholeness and - as a cosmic identity - to accept,
that I am the perpetrator, I am the victim, but I am also the Healer.
See where I coped with the broader perspective of what we all stage!
Re-read also about "Cosmic Human Identity" [Interview with the Folks V]
EXPLORING
See the wonderful things they do in Lioba Eliav's Nitzana in the desert

Perhaps Lioba is an example, how a human being can create,
without polarizing anybody, - without any regression or reversal???
Ariye (Lioba) Eliav was - by the way - also the founder of Arad, where I live.
I'll quote what I wrote about him in my bus in July 1986.
At that time I could not accept that his superficial book became a bestseller.
But perhaps he was able to reach people's hearts , while I was not.
I'm arguing with YHWH:




February 8, 2014-OHEL 10 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible

How I long for the months gone by,
for the days when God watched over me,
when his lamp shone on my head
and by his light I walked through darkness!
Oh, for the days when I was in my prime,
when God’s intimate friendship blessed my house,
when the Almighty was still with me
and my children were around me,
Job 29:2-5 [New International Version]
Wer gaebe mir gleich den Monden von vordem,
den Tagen, da Gott mich bewahrte,
wann seine Lampe ueberm Haupte mir schien,
bei seinem Licht ich durch Finsternis ging,
wie ich war in den Tagen meiner Fruehe,
wann Gottes Einvernehmen mir ueberm Zelt war,
wann der Gewaltige noch war bei mir,
rings um mich meine Knaben.
Ijob 29,2-5
Though "God" was alway with me,
there were years when I was commanded to live 'as if God did not exist'.
'etsi deus non daretur' .
And even now, when Ezri somewhat scorned me: "Messenger of God!"
I heard myself saying: "lo shlikhah shael Elohim - shlikhah shael atzmi!"!
Since these verses of Job appear in the same chapter as the verse of a song of mine,
I chose 4 four of the metaphors, not in the same order , and added them to that song.

continuing: (8) "Nebo-Let-Go"-slow and "Nebo-Let-Go" - in one go =2006: a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating



In November , when the rains started to ruin the "carpenter shop",
Immanuel suggested that I join my friend Mona,
who had just emigrated to Germany
and help her
- who only 16 years earlier had fled from Iraq -
to get used to "my" former country.
She soon worked on a project in Conceptual Art: hundreds of pieces of soap,
which would remind humankind,
that there were people who produced soap from human fat...



The 3 months in Kassel gave me the chance
to seriously start with what had been over-due:
integrating my German-Christian past
with my present Jewish-Israeli identity.

When I came back,
Immanuel - and other artisans - continued for two more months
to work on converting the old vehicle into a modern mobile home.

When I finally started to move - in May 1986 - I still had no solar energy.
I was dependent on parking every 3-4 days near friends,
where I could charge my generator batteries ...

During the following winter - 1986-87 - I was again in Germany,
this time with an official job for 4 months as a guest lecturer in Berlin.

While I was away, the bus parked on the airforce base Hatzerim,
where Immanuel was stationed
and where he had the chance and the technical means
to complete the interior of my home.

When I came back from Europe - where I had learnt
"Rebirthing" and met "Right Use of Will"

Immanuel surprised me with excellent completions of the bus "furniture",
one of them was a desk-plate with drawers (10 cm height) underneath,
placed on one of the two fiberglas watertanks from a company in Acco,
which I had let made and installed right in the beginning, in January 1985,
before I even moved to Ramat-Hadar.


The desk next to the steering wheel was photographed in winter 1989-90- after I had moved to the desert,
hoping to slip through the claws of the authorities and start with creating a "SPS Desert Economy" model.

 


What dreams will you bring to fruition this year?

Day 6- from among 42 days

excerpts from WATERS OF LIFE

Dream Seeds are Source Coded time-capsules,
ensuring activation takes place
when the essentials conditions are present to thrive.

Nestled in the Sacred Heart Space,
now imbibing the Waters of Life,
our Dream Seeds are sparking
to begin their journey of awakening!

...., our Seeds' swelling cells
break through former boundaries
as we Birth New Reality.

As you drink the Waters of Life,
imagine your Dream Seed being baptized,
the Holy Spirit flowing through ... body
to fill every cell within.



In Gratitude, feel the flow of Spirit moving through
~awakening, catalyzing and charging
your Dream Seed with the energies of Life........

Maintaining sufficient daily intake of pure water
is vital for our bodies, and our Dream Seeds, to thrive.
.....

Giving thanks for the waters we receive
will energize our bodies, and our Dream Seeds.
This assists our ability to stay in the flow,
as we experience the rapid growth
that comes with Birthing New Reality!

"We call upon the waters that rim the earth,
horizon to horizon,
that flow in our rivers and streams,
that fall upon our gardens and fields,
and we ask that they teach us and show us the way. "-
Chinook Indian Blessing

 

 

 

 


February 9, 2014-OHEL 11 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible

And when these lepers
came to the outermost part of the camp,
they went into one tent, and did eat and drink,
and carried thence silver, and gold, and raiment,
and went and hid it;
and they came back, and entered into another tent, and carried thence also, and went and hid it.
Kings II, 7:8
Jene Aussaetzigen
waren an den Rand des Lagers gekommen,
sie kamen in eins der Zelte, sie assen, tranken, trugen Silber,Gold und Gewaender davon,
gingen, verscharrtens,
kehrten wieder, kamen in ein andres Zelt,
trugen von dort davon, gingen, verschafftens..
2. Koenige 7,8
Why did the Aramite soldiers take gold , silver and unnecessary garments into their tents?
A tent should contain nothing but what you need to survive for a day or a week.
continuing: (9) "Nebo-Let-Go"-slow and "Nebo-Let-Go" - in one go =2006: a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating






This is the time to solve a riddle:
Why do I have to forsake security?


I "went out" from my homeland, my family, my religion, my language,
I "went out" from the house of my husband, the wholeness of my family,
But why did I also have to "go out from the house" of my children?

I didn't know!
I tortured myself with this question until Succot 1988, when redemption appeared.

Until then I only knew the meaning of the message in Israel's history:
a message which is expressed in the terms:
"to go out", "to separate", and "lekh-lekhâ".
and in the parable, which explains at the very beginning of the Bible, Genesis 2:10
when God places Adam in the Garden of Eden, that
"a river goes out from Eden to water the garden,
and it separates from it into four heads".
If water does not flow, it cannot fertilize, it becomes a swamp...

See my song, created during a 3 days voyage in an Indian train, 10 years ago,
and my recent song, which brings across the message of "going out" even stronger.


What dreams will you bring to fruition this year?

Day 7- from among 42 days

excerpts from RELEASING TO GROW [="lekh-lekhâ"]

 

As a seed must release its form in order to grow,
we, too, are releasing who we have been ...
in order to Birth New Reality.

Nature reveals her beauty through the changing seasons.
Each bud must release to BLOOM,
each flower morphs to become the fruit.
The fruit must open its Heart to gift its Seed.
Each seed must shed its form in order to become the Tree...

Consider
what is ready to be released, shed and discarded in your Life.
What thoughts, expressions of Being,
relationships, jobs or activities no longer feel true for you?
It is natural, and vital, at this time to let go of what no longer serves,
in order for your Dream Seed to flow and grow.

... consider what gifts you have received from each one.
Every one of these choices, actions, partners and endeavors
has brought you to this moment.
By choosing to see, and release, each one through the eyes of Gratitude
~ the form falls away,
making room for what is now growing at the Heart of YOU.

In releasing attachment to former states of Being,
we Birth New Reality.
As our Dream Seeds are programmed
to express infinite combinations in infinite diversity,
it is also helpful to dissolve attachment to HOW it will grow.
Trusting in our ability to birth our 'Peace' of the Great Coming Together
creates space for the mystery of Life to surprise, inspire and delight.

Our journey has just begun, ...
our intent will assist in releasing attachment to form-er ideas,
creating space
to witness our Dream Seeds evolve, take root, BLOOM and fruit!

from the Sufi master Hafiz Translated by Dan Ladinsky:

Light Will someday split you open
Even if your life is now a cage.

Little by little, You will turn into stars.
Little by little, You will turn into The whole sweet, amorous Universe.

Love will surely burst you wide open
Into an unfettered, booming new galaxy.

You will become so free
In a wonderful, secret And pure Love That flows
From a conscious, One-pointed, Infinite Light.

Even then, my dear, The Beloved will have fulfilled
Just a fraction, Just a fraction!
Of a promise He wrote upon your heart.

For a divine seed, the crown of destiny,
Is hidden and sown on an ancient, fertile plain
You hold the title to.

O look again within yourself,
For I know you were once the elegant host
To all the marvels in creation.

When your soul begins
To ever bloom and laugh
And spin in Eternal Ecstasy-

O little by little, You will turn into God.

 
This morning's postcard reminded me of the cathedral in Paris
which 6 days ago I contrasted with the tetrahedral tent.
Now it's a fortress and palace of the Muslim Rulers of Spain
Alhambra in Adralusia, Granada- built about the same time.

Creating the 4th R&D generation of the tetrahedral tent,
next to my bus, which was allowed to park for 3 weeks
on the land of Kibbutz Elot, next to the Eilat-Aqaba Terminal.

The postcard was sent by Yanina, then my best friend,
in the seventies, to the village, where we both lived.
"Our love with the addition of warm kisses
sent by Alexander and Yanina" .
I saw myself wavering, if I should call Yanina or mail her.
After our separation, we talked only once, on her birthday, June 20, 2013.
Since then nothing at all!
But it had been me who set a condition for the continuation of our friendship

The "RELEASING-TO-GROW" of this dream-day made me stop wavering.

lekh-lekhâ or - since I am a woman - lekhi-lakh

 


At a time of a dangerous rift with the Americans,
caused by dangerous illusions of Israeli politicians,
the Americans who - as former Head of Government, Ehud Olmert, said-
supported Israel steadfastly, but now wish to retreat from the Middle East,
I see a 7 min. video , that brought tears into my eyes.
15 million Arabs against 600000 Jews, 3 years after the holocaust,
and US-pilots save US, Israel.
When the time is ripe, nothing can stop it.
This will be true for the Vision of Tents, too.





"My door is open to all Your surprises"


Reshit's "status" - not addressed to me, but to a friend, a day before we met

Reshit's profile and view and dog on Facebook
I had finally overcome my fright of cleaning up my complex veranda-
- it is almost too much for my back and my hip joint-
and when I reached the stage of sweeping with water,
I said to myself: "I'll use the time until the floor will be dry,
before putting back my tent, the carpet, the tables, etc. etc.
and go down to the place from where I can take a photo."
hoping that the mountains and valleys and creases,
where still contrasting as well as when I came back from the afternoon-pool.

When I reached the place and took pictures along the fence,
a woman with a dog called me from across the street:
"Soon there will be sunset, don't you want to wait for that?"
She even came over to me, and that's how I got invited into her home.
I, who am so careful not to connect with anyone
and in fact, except for my landlords, and my next neighbors
am not in contact with one single person or family at Arad.
And there I find myself sitting at the table and across the frame of the pergula
(Reshit Ariel is a painter, a carpenter, a teacher, a mother of 6 and many other skills)
I see the most beautiful view of those Judaean Mountains,
where I envision uncountable Ohalot/Rihlaat/Pyramidions.

While she brought me herbal tea, her best friend came in, and then another friend,
- 'this woman is very social, the opposite of me!' - I thought and excused myself:
"May I come back in 20 min.? I left my veranda in a mess,
so that my landlord, when he'll come home, cannot park there."

I ran-limped home, put everything in perfect order and ran-limped back.

One friend had left and the other was about to leave, which I preferred,
because I wanted to find out, why this encounter with a new neighbor was staged.
What a name: "Reshit"! "be-reshit", in the beginning created God Heaven and Earth
Reshit is 59, divorced, lived in Rehovot, yearned to live in Arad across the Desert.
Her father and her ex-husband are from Morocco, her mother was from Poland.
Often she accompanied her painting-students on journeys to holocaust-Poland.
"On the other hand" she painted a painting
in memory of Israel's Withdrawal fron Gush Katif where her brother had lived.
The painting is meant to say: "we [settlers] are strong, nobody can overcome us."

She believes, that the Holy-One-blessed-be-He will give you what you want,
and her story about how she got hold of her house with the wondrous view,
is, indeed, as mystical as was my own story with my rented one-room-flat.
It's been only half a year that she is here - living 5 minutes away from me...

Though she is surrounded by many friends, she was in need of talking incessantly.
Even when she mentioned her ex as being an El-Al pilot and I said: "so is my son",
she did not pick up on it to learn anything about me at all.
Or when she talked about the miracle of having been gifted with this view, she said:
"But we know that Sarah gave birth to Yitzchaq, though she had no womb".
Here I interrupted her: "On what biblical verse is this based? This is important for me."
I added, "since I even made a verb from the word "raekhem", womb, >to womb."
She did not hear this addition, nor was she interested in why I wanted to know this.
But she did go to the phone and call a knowing man, who said, it was based on:

[Gn 18:11 the verse only says, that at the age of 90 she didn't have her menses any longer.
I would interpret the post-biblical claim: If Sarah didn't have a womb,
no wonder, that she behaved in so inhumane a way towards Hagar and her son Yishma'el...]
I did enjoy her immense creativity, her goodness, her beauty and her excellent paintings.
I'm invited to come whenever I want, and I'll respond to this, and be it just for the view.

But perhaps YOU have more in mind for me and the vision of the Tents!?????

Move to next page --------2oo2 + 2014

ENVISIONING

Tent-Song - Shirat-ha-Ohalim
I want you to enhance and to not distort,
what the Vision of Tents intends to evolve
the earth of the desert will stay free and pure
and host us humans ~~~~~~ to find ourselves.