The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.i.s.s.
as stated 10 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential PEERS
to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - as holograms - all of Creation!
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2011
and Overview of its main libraries


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As the fruit of becoming whole = accepting all of myself, I desire:
to live and explore and evolve   L O V E   in my personal life
and to play my part in creating the conditions for Heaven-on-Earth
by radiating grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment
on the actors in my individual life-drama and on all human beings!

 

 

Biographical Sculptures

Christian&Jewish - Israeli&German

2002_05_30 ; last update: 2005_06_27
NOT COMPLETED!

but see more about my biography in
The 2004-1010 Introductory Page to my 2 websites,
[esp. the text next to my image in front of the mirror, and the last sculpture]
"The Story of Ya'acov"
my letter to Princess Basma of Jordan in 1998, inserted in "RedSeaPartner-SHIP"
"A Time of Fruition"
in "Bio-Testimony"
in "Noah's Shore History" and in "Breakthrough 2004"
and on the 2009 entry-page to Healing-K.is.s.
also in "My Ordeal" and in "Biographical Background to my Thesis and my Book "
and "Rachel's Modifications of Immanuel's Memories during Masterchef Israel 2011"

On April 15, 1964, I - formerly Eva Maria Christa Guth, now Rachel Rosenzweig,
immigrated to Israel together with Immanuel, born 23/1/63,
since 13/1/64 the legitimized son of Rafael Rosenzweig.
after mother and son had both become Jewish.

So often have I been asked, why I became Jewish and Israeli.
I wonder, if I'll be able to sculpt the answer here.

"After Auschwitz
you cannot write such a sentence!"

 

This sentence,
written on the margin of a paper,
"changed my life",
as the saying goes.
But it was something else,
that this sentence did.
I'll talk about this much later.


Amidst my tears about the Christians,
I saw myself phrasing:
" who are my people too",
and it was then,
that I hurried to add this photo,
with the huge shadow...
to this first sentence
of this uncomplete page.


"We baptized her early,
since war was impending",
I remember from the diary,
my mother wrote then,
it was the sellout of Tchechoslowakia
to Hitler in autumn 1938.

 

I was a student of Protestant Theology at Tuebingen University.
The teacher of the "New Testament Seminary" was Reinhold Mayer.
Each student had to write a paper on a sentence,
written by "Paul, an apostle of Jesus Christ" [1.Cor.1,1]
to the "church of the Thessalonians" [1.Thess.1,1; 2, 14-16]:

... you have suffered .. of your own countrymen, ... the Jews:
Who killed the Lord Jesus
as well as their own prophets,
and have persecuted us;
and they don't please God
and are contrary to all men
...
to fill up their sins always:
for the wrath
[hae-orgae]
is come upon them
to the uttermost
[eis telos].

It is jarring to use the sound-button of the Greek "Amen"
and the red color
as I use to do on this site for text from the "Holy" Books

It was an outbreak of pain and rage on Paul's part,
and from the perspective of his experiences understandable.
He could not know, that his rage would become Holy Writ
and that people would act on it
and make themselves the instrument of divine WRATH
against the people of Jesus.
But on that level of reality on which we are responsible for our actions,
we are responsible for what people might do with what we teach~~~~

2003_05_31

See an application of this in my own present life
in a completely different realm!

 

When Reinhold Mayer gave us this theme for our paper,
I was totally unaware of anything jarring.
Though I had had the rare opportunity of meeting Jews
- a very good English teacher and a pupil in Latin,
8 years younger than me, but much more aware -
I just never questioned the Christian hatred against Jews.

Until, yes until Mayer wrote those words.

Mayer, born in 1925 and scarred by his experiences toward the end of the war,
was shattered, when in a Dutch conference , in 1946, Jews refused to shake his hand.
He has been dedicating his life and work to uprooting Christian Antijudaism ever since.

What had I written?
It sounds quite harmless:
"Bis hierher kam der Jude auch."
"This far came also the Jew."

What I meant in that context, was:
their understanding stopped at this point.
We, the Christians, have a much higher and deeper understanding.

This was not just arrogance against other humans.
This was a pitiable misunderstanding of Paul himself,
who later - in his letter to the Romans -
tried to undo the damage he had caused.
[Romans chapter 9 to 11, especially 11]

But it was too late and too little.
People so badly needed a scapegoat,
and so they created THE Jew,
a mythological figure,
which swallowed up the concrete, real, living JEWS.
And I had used this myth: THE Jew, like any Nazi.

The dialog with Mayer, that started in January 1959,
opened my eyes to what I - fortunately - did not see before.
If I had become aware of what happened
while I was already alive on this planet,
I would have either become crazy or left this life.
Anyway I was on the brink of both from early on.

2009_12_30
When I opened this page to see, if here I had told about my scholarship year in Jerusalem,
and saw, that the story was never continued after the passage above.
I felt, that I had to insert at least some hints,
and now see, what happened after the first lines:


I soon became involved in Mayer's work
for making Germans aware of their past.
First in the "Deutsch-Israelische Studiengruppe" , DIS,
which Mayer took part in founding at Tuebingen exactly then.
Two students, a German and an Israeli, had started a DIS in Berlin.
Now, two weeks after my "awakening"...., they came to Tuebingen.
I was not yet ready, but -owing it to Mayer - I let myself be pushed,
yes, I allowed that I was elected as the "second chair-woman".
I was responsible for the weekly meetings during summer 1959.
This meant, that I had to inform myself and start reading............
In the middle of the semester a law-student, Martin Fincke , joined us.
Martin was among the first group of German students allowed into Israel.
The stormy discussions between him and Mayer accelerated my growth..

One day I had a devastating experience with myself.
(I become aware, that I'm writing this - "by chance" -
after my experience with Avi Dror on Dec. 28, 2009!)
In the news someone reported about some crime.
Hearing, that the crime was committed by a Jew,
my feeling reacted: "of course a Jew!"
How could my patterned feeling say something,
which my mind totally opposed??????????
"If this is the case, I must first heal my feelings,
before I go on with any work for the World!
I must live among Jews,
so that my prejudice will fall away naturally."


Reinhold Mayer was encouraging me to register for a scholarship year
at the Hebrew University in Jerusalem.
I thought, I would do so after the end of my studies.
But when we learnt,
that Martin would begin a scholarship year in the USA in Sept. 1960,
I said: "How can I be without you for an entire year?"
and began the long process of registering for Israel rightaway

The winter-semester 1959-60 I wanted to spend at Bethel Theol. Faculty.
I founded a DIS with 10 students from among the 200 who studied there.
On Christmas Swastikas were smeared on the synagogue of Cologne.
There was an uproar under young conscientious people in Germany.
For the first time the generation of our parents was questioned.

Our DIS asked our faculty to sign a "Declaration of Solidarity"
with the (some 20) Jews of Bielefeld, the town to which Bethel belonged.
We also ordered a documentary "Nacht und Nebel", Night and Fog,
from what was then the predecessor of the later Israeli Embassy...
After the documentary our professors were ready to meet with us.
I witnessed ~~~ the ingrained ~~~Christian anti-Jewish ideology.
Later all members of the group were ordered to leave the faculty.

The summer semester 1960 I spent in Berlin
at the "Theologische Hochschule".
The 3 months, interrupted by 2 long train-travels to West-Germany
(one for meeting the scholarship committee in Bonn),
were overcrowded with activities and experiences.
Most important was my participation in Helmut Gollwitzer's seminary:
"Kirche und Synagoge", Christianity and Judaism,
which led to my encounter with Franz Rosenzweig's widow
and - in Israel - to the beginning of my relationship with his son.

By chance, Martin and I both left Germany on Sept. 6, 1960,
he for USA: Cornell University, I for Israel: Hebrew University
I was one of the first four German students in Israel,
and, together with my mate Gil Huettenmeister, the first
who dared to live in the students' hostel on Giv'at Ram.

Since April 1961, the Trial of Eichmann shattered Israel,
and ~ put an end to my so deeply rooted Christian faith.
See the song about the weeping Mother Rachel




2005_06_27:
It was Reinhold Mayer , who said - at the end of that fateful first meeting in January 1959:
"Do you know Franz Rosenzweig? This is the best world literature I know".
It's then that I acquired Rosenzweig's Letters in an Old Books Shop
(how they survived there, I do not know,
because the great burning of Jewish books, I think in 1935,
included also Rosenzweig's books).

Rosenzweig's Living - as conveyed to me through those letters - was the beginning of a path,
that finally made me Rafael Rosenzweig's wife
and the mother and grandmother of Franz Rosenzweig's grandchildren and greatgrandchildren.

As to Rosenzweig's decisive influence on my Bible work,
and on my perception of YHWH, see
bundle 13 of the German and Hebrew pages of my book: All Israel vouchsafe for each other:


I now searched the Internet for Reinhold Mayer and came up with the following info:
http://www.kuleuven.ac.be/upers/catalogue/book_detail.php?Id=1165
Learning about the edition of the "Gritli-Letters",
taboo during the life time of my mother-in-law, Edith Scheinmann-Rosenzweig,
brings up many feelings.....



2003_07_02

Tomorrow I shall close Healing-K.i.s.s. towards a new lekh-lekhâ.


1981, after the lekh-lekhâ from the security of my marriage and my husband's house

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The grave of my German-Christian mother
on the Templar graveyard
in Jerusalem.

I deviced this integration
and found a blacksmith
who carried out the device.
We paid for it together,
my sister Ursel (died in 2004) and I.
Ursel had come from Germany for the funeral, arranged by me.
They wouldn't allow my mother
to be buried in a cloth as is the Jewish custom.
So my son Immanuel made the coffin.

May daughter Ronnit ponders over the grave
a year later, in 1986.

Exactly opposite the graveyard gate
a famous Jerusalem road begins:
"Rachêl Immênu",
Rachêl Our Mother.

Addition on 2003_09_04:
Once I opened the radio in the middle of an unknown piece of music,
which touched me in a way that I rushed to record it on a tape that luckily was inserted.
I recognized the text as that of "Stabat Mater", an old Latin poem which identifies with Jesus' Mother standing under the cross.
I wished I knew who the composer is.
According to the Internet there are 400 different compositions of "Stabat Mater",
one of them - by Pergolesi - I also cherish very much.
Despite all my musical training I'm not a "music fan" and can live for weeks without music.
But sometimes a piece of music pierces my stomach and heart even after having listened to it for the fiftieth time...