I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
From
Godchannel>grandfather1
The Spirit polarity will redeem all our lost light
and then join with her here in her place ~
making New Heart in Body
here on Earth
our new home in manifestation.
"He is now beginning to find the last of the most lost Will,
the Mother's Body.
And it's happening here,
in these times
on this planet ~
and beginning inside of those
who are willing to risk experiencing first-hand
the intensity of Original Heart's dream,
the complete union of Spirit and the whole Mother ~
as New Heart in manifestation,
and best of all, with peers for companionship. The
Sounding
of five people
Not
from Godchannel, but from an "Angelic Message",
given in June 2003, quoted in puzzle
piece 13
Everyone has experienced panic and these feelings
are surfacing now to be healed.
Emotions heal through flowing.
Use eye movement to relive the tragic event,
if you can remember it.
Relive the memory over and over
until all the feelings associated with it have time to flow.
If
you cannot remember anything, but just have the feelings,
flow with them using eye movement and deep breathing.
These are times when overwhelming feelings are coming up to be healed.
KEEP BREATHING.
Deep rythmic breathing is the foundation of holotropic breath work.
Just as a woman breathes while giving birth,
keep breathing when panic feelings come up.
In addition to deep breathing,
use eye movement
and stay focused on the feelings
for as long as it takes for good feelings to return.
Usually this happens quickly.
Traditionally when panic attacks happen~~~
the old paradigm of shutting DOWN the feelings IMMEDIATELY takes over.
This has been accomplished
through medication, alcohol, diversion, disassociation, denial, magic,
hypnosis, etc.
Break the habit and STAY WITH THE PANIC.
The panic passes in SECONDS~~~
BREATHE and use EYE MOVEMENT,
and use every bit of will power and mastery
to stay with the feelings
and to FEEL THE FEELINGS through.
Conscious
flowing is how feelings heal.
This is important,
everything depends on GETTING THROUGH THE FEELING
and NOT AROUND IT.
Flowing is how EMOTIONS heal, denial just makes them unconscious
and the body stores them as tension and stress in the musculature.
Use
eye movement and deep breathing
instead of giving into disassociation or destructive
acting out.
It is wonderful when panic comes up.
By
healing these emotions, the Divine Feminine Force is healed.
By healing the emotions of the dark dark wounding, the body is healed.
It is like having an emotional bowel movement.
Whether it is fear, anger, hopelessness, suffocation, betrayal, shame,
etc,
this is the healing process at work.
The
next time feelings become unbearable,
stay with the feelings
no matter how painful they are,
use eye movement and keep breathing.
The feelings heal so fast it is amazing.
A
year later, June 2004: I don't wait until "feelings become unbearable",
but do so when feelings or sensations indicate the slightest discomfort,
I let Body feel any and all feelings and let Body take over to heal
them.
and it is then that I get a deep sense of feeling whole as I am,
grateful for being body and being alive.
"a deep sense of feeling OK as I am
with gratitude for having a body
and being alive".
Since it is my goal
with the Jews and the Palestinians in general,
and with the Desert People, the Bedouins, in particular,
that they may heal their victimhood
- their traumas of annihilation (Jews)
or humiliation (Palestinians) –
into self-determination,
and since self-determination must be preceded by self-esteem
and self-esteem must be preceded by self-acceptance,
that sentence about "Breema" felt like the final opening
of a tunnel,
towards which I had been walking for so many years:
Self-acceptance
has to start with Body,
with feeling all I feel in Body.
I've repeated and reported over and over again Godchannel's info, that emotions have
to be breathed, moved, sounded through Body.
And still there was something missing in my understanding and applying:
The ACCEPTANCE of feelings, as the ACCEPTANCE of sensations,
has to happen in Body, with Body, through Body.
so when feelings or sensations indicate the slightest discomfort,
I let Body feel any and all feelings and let Body take over to heal
them.
This is possible
now,
since my Body's Will has become free to feel,
what it wants in any given moment.
It is the bodywork called "Paula",
which trained my Body to remember its Will. [The link to the page"Paula
or Keys to Body", can also be reached
frompp9, "Body ,
the Master Healer of Creation"]
The so-called "exercises" of the sphincter-muscles are but
keys to Body's memory
of how to take care of itself.
All "exercises" of all body methods I've learnt or come
across over the last 35 years
are nothing but additions to Body's reservoir of experiencing its
capacities.
If they are confined to be exercises, they are once more in danger
of overriding Body.
It seems to be the
same with Breema:
though the general assumptions and goals come close to Godchannel's
info,
that Body is the Master Healer of Creation
the Breema "exercises" seem to state, that Body needs exact
instructions
in order to make me feel "OK as I
am, with gratitude for having a body".
Moreover, the one exercise which can be learnt from the Internet,
"Mapletree", asks me to inhale while contracting
and to exhale while extending,
which is just the opposite of what is natural.
Any exercise –
not only a sphincter muscle "exercise" – should be
constructed in a way,
that it stimulates Body
to do what it wants to do,
needs to do in a certain situation,
or is capable of doing.
Any exercise should be a key ,
not a "patent" "against" a body condition, like
fatigue (as in "Mapletree").
I am aware, that even Paula or her followers are not consistent in
this,
and certain "exercises" are recommended
as if they were certain herbs against certain ailments.
This is a regression into the old pattern of fighting Body, "as though illness is some kind
of sabotage by the Body "(Right
Use of Will p.2)
2004_06_06
It dawned on me, that I still haven't hit home.
Feeling the slightest discomfort –emotional or physical –
in Body
is only the beginning of integrating with Body,
of making Body the Master Healer of Creation.
"Home", i.e. being
healed and whole , will be:
En-Joying Body,
delighting in Body in every possible moment,
En-Joying Body's eyes to see and ears to hear
and nose to smell and tongue to taste and teeth and toes
and neck to raiseand
bend my head and
throat
to sing
and speak
and scream
and fingers to grasp and lift and touch
and legs to sit and my
bladder to pee
my heart which beats and my lungs which breathe my
brain which
thinks
and learns
andunderstands
there is no end to enjoy,
and thinking
of Ya'acov Hayat, my wheelchair "twin brother",
makes enjoyment of my limbs a moral imperative.
June 4, 2004
Isn't
the unintended name of my e-mail and local site "joy"?
Am I not meant to BE BODY enjoying every moment of awareness ?
Isn't BEING I N JOY the
true way to redeem Creation?
And isn't it only BODY who can BE IN JOY always,
without denying any contrary feeling or sensation?
It is by feeling
every feeling and every sensation IN BODY,
(like the waft of heat and sweat in this moment),
that the uncomfortable feelings and sensations are
[transformed – I haven't yet found the right term] -
into FEELING WHOLE AS I AM
AND GRATEFUL FOR BEING BODY AND BEING ALIVE.
How does this [transformation?] occur actually?
Does it occur because - when Body feels an uncomfortable feeling or
sensation,-
it naturally vibrates itself towards more comfort, i.e. it breathes,
sounds and moves?
I must learn this now:
to allow Body to en-JOY itself as a whole and in its numerous parts
and functions,
so that it is THERE, ready and skilled to vibrate any feeling or sensation
towards what it en-JOYS.
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