The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]

I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"






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InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Singing&Sounding keeps me Sound


and other God-Loving songs

+ another version of Psalm 139
+ Oh Du, mein Gott, ich sehne mich
=latest version:
+ ani kmehah elaikh
lyrics and tune [a canon]:
Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam

1984 & 1986

2012 - 2013

The tune includes all tones within one octave

Wie denn kann ich,

Du All-Einer,


in der Stille

werden inne

Deiner Fuelle
How can I

You All-one


in the silence

perceive of

your full-ness


[See the original context of this song, created between January 14-17, 2010]


Oh you, my God,
I am yearning
to feel into you
with all my being*)
with every breath,
every look~~~~
be one with me,
be YOU my destiny


My , my beloved,
I am hearting you,
my my sister,
you are hearting me,

my bride

*) there is no English or Hebrew word
for "innig" and "inniglich"

but the translation comes close.

"zu fuehlen in dich inniglich":
2010_03_24 -from Rilke's letters p. 819
Das Gefuehlserlebnis tritt zurueck hinter
einer unendlichen Lust zu allem Fuehlbaren

The tune is based on the central song
[Miri with the lyrics
- discovered on May 25, 2012]

in the Israeli TV series
"Me'urav Yerushalmi" , 3rd season

[to see and listen to Miri Mesika
who performs the original lyrics
of a 18 century piyyut from Djerba , Tunisia,
put into tune by Jonathan bar Giora
the creator of the series
scroll to the end of the 12th and last video]

The 2 Hebrew lines in my own lyrics
ared based on Canticum 4:9
[see popular song]

the verb from the noun lev or levav = heart
appears in this meaning only in this one line..
All translations of the Bible, which I checked,
missed the fantastic idea
of making a verb from the noun "heart":
"to heart someone!"

On Febr.16, 2014
another stanza added itself
s. context


On January 31, 2010 I re-discovered a poem which I created in May 1983
following the experience in the Church of the Annunciation in Nazareth.
I visited there for the first and last time in November 1979
for the sake of my deeply Catholic Palestinian friend Leila,
who'd came from London to me in Israel, in order to "visit",
what was once her home: Haifa, and her school: Nazareth.

That experience - the singing of a Protestant Chorale by a group of German students -
was the "sign from Heaven", that I was allowed to start the process of returning HOME,
after for ten long years I had imposed on myself
"to live utsi Deus non daretur, as if God did not exist"
See "The Ashes Pond" and more links there


On January 28, 2010
I had two dreams,
following my desire before sleep,
to wake up like the poet of Ps. 139

" soul knoweth right well....
....while waking up I am still with you..."

Following these dreams I found "the time", on February 3, 2010, to edit another tune to this my favorite Psalm

Psalm 139

In summer 1986 I was inspired to create 2 different tunes to this beloved psalm,
which I learnt by heart in German as a young girl,
and when I knew Hebrew, I learnt the original..
The inspiration came from a biblio-drama workshop - in Germany - half a year earlier.
In summer 1986, I sat at the organ in my bus and recorded the tunes that came to me.
O LORD, Thou hast searched me, and known me.
Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising,
Thou understandest my thought afar off.
Thou measurest my going about and my lying down,
and art acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word in my tongue,
but, lo, O LORD, Thou knowest it altogether.
Thou hast hemmed me in behind and before,
and laid Thy hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
too high, I cannot attain unto it.
Whither shall I go from Thy spirit?
or whither shall I flee from Thy presence?
If I ascend up into heaven, Thou art there;
if I make my bed in the nether-world, behold, Thou art there.
If I take the wings of the morning,
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
Even there would Thy hand lead me,
and Thy right hand would hold me.
verse 14: my soul knoweth right well
verse 18: While waking up I am still with you

Psalm 139

On the page, where I inserted the expanded song,
and the only one, which I kept singing during all these years,
I promised to relate to the passages in the psalm which I omitted.
The words hatred and to hate must be related to.
The professor who taught that Bibliodrama Workshop in winter 1985-86,
and whose first assignment for us students was,
that each one should choose 2 words from the psalm and "play" them,
appreciated the fact, that I was the only one, who chose one word from the "hatred" part.

Right now, on February 3, 2010, I still don't feel like relating to this polarity...



July 1-3, 2011 till January 11, 2012 and still more - till November 17, 2013


Enwrap me, my Shekhinah, in your feeling!
Free every judgment about how
I felt that I don't have a right
to fear or to lack of full-fill-ment...

Free me and enwrap me!
And all my joy is in the very fact that I feel!
And all my joy is in the very fact that I feel!

Enwrap me, my Shekhinah, in Your feeling!
Free every judgment about how
I am feeling right now,
panicky to get away from You!

Free me and enwrap me!
For all my joy is in the very fact that I feel!
For all my joy is in the very fact that I feel!

[see Nourishment>July 1, 2011]

[this stanza needs to be sung,
when I am in situations with people,
which are enjoyable, but lack intensity]



And yet another stanza, on Jan. 11, 2012

And yet another stanza, on March 29, 2012

[the process towards learning the song by heart
was incredibly difficult,
and so was the technical process of recording it.]

This song that has been overdue,
I'll have to sing it ever so often ,
when I feel guilty
for not feeling 100% happy.

"know that the way you feel
is your indicator of how connected you are to Source"

[e-mail quote from "Abraham" on Oct. 25, 2011]

And this is what I want:
to find my JOY in the very flow of my feelings
from breathing in ~ to breathing out
~ to breathing in ~ to breathing out.

[this stanza created itself,
when I prepared for "shamayim-bli-shi'amum",
on Jan. 10. 2012 - see in "Sound"]




June 16, 2013

October 8, 2013

Training myself in finding "the language of feelings"
I created 2 new words in Hebrew:
"lo-baliyut" ["lo ba li", I don't feel like it]

and the contrast between what I want to see as feelings:
'aiyefut versus i-hiradmut,
tiredness versus -not-falling-asleep

See pp30, Avner Shilo's list of 187 feelings, in which the "pale" ones are still missing.
There are more exciting teachings in the library of "2005 Learn & Live", for instance the Mother's advice to learn "the vibrational signature of each emotion"!
"Allow its vibration", not "vibrate it", but "allow its vibration". This is the language of your Will.
To learn it, I might benefit from "sefer hayetzirah",
the "phonetic system" of sounds [s. SOUND] as well as from the teaching about "intuition" in "Nourishment"
[But see what I came to understand the next morning: Surrender to the feeling!]

Somewhere:"Couldn't I fill the numb feeling with something for which I'm grate-full?"
This is easy for me! Grate-Full-ness is close to my heart in all situations."
NO, the very first thing I must do, when I cannot define a "kicking" feeling,
is to quiver, tremble, whine , wail it. How often do I have to repeat that?

November 17, 2013

"Abraham" (1999) e-mail quote on July 18, 2011

Always, when you know what you don't want,
that's when the rocket of desire is born
of   w h a t   y o u   d o   w a n t .
That is the fruit of your experience.
Now pluck it and savor it and enjoy it.
Visualize it, and find the feeling place of it.
And live happily ever after,
once you get the hang of this.

October 25, 2011

"Abraham" (1998)
e-mail quote on October 25, 2011

.....know that the way
you   F E E L

is your indicator

of how connected
you are

to Source .....

When Mika recently composed that desert-picture
on her program "Maya's Secret",
she several times skipped through the subprograms.
Once I said: "I know this tune" (played very fast)
"can you record it for me?"
So she took my digital recorder and recorded it 3 times.
Back in Arad - on the way to the pool -
when and where I always rehearse songs,
I heard this tune and lyrics came to me easily
- except for the last line, which - in its tune - I couldn't get right
though I listened to the tune over and over again.
In the end it became clear, why there was such hesitation:

Some time ago Mika suddenly said: "Please don't mention 'God' so often"!
When I was shocked and asked: "But why?" she retreated from her quest!

I'm yearning for you
I'm thirsty for you
you are loved by me
you are precious to me
come embrace me
in your womb
you're my Shekhina-my God

to former song to next song





She writes "Mika" on a stone which she picked up from the ground

A moment later she enjoys a green fig which she plucked from a baby-tree
2010_05_30-2010_06_03: Mika's and my Heaven-on-Earth
Since 2009_08_01, I employ song-page after song-page for documenting and exploring the evolution of Mika, the youngest of my 10 grandchilden,
who exemplifies to humankind by her own  living-doing, how to  PLAY-FULLY CREATE from moment to moment ZEST-FULLY and FULL-FILLED

"....Manifestation is meant to be a playground
where being and doing are fun..."

[Godchannel, Second Interview with the Folks]


I arrived at Shoham on Sunday, May 30, 2010, at 6 o'clock, brought by my friend Yanina's car.
In the morning I went on with the train Beersheva-Lod to a station, from where she fetched me.

It was a journey of 5 hours, but we hadn't met face to face for many months,
and since I'm at this time dealing with a delicate theme,
vitally important both on a personal as on a "cosmic" level,
I wanted to enlist her professional help

At Shoham I found a daughter-in-love who didn't hide her joy to see me,
and a granddaughter, who played it "indifferent" , as she often does.

It was the same the next day - a good training in ego-detachment! -
but I had the chance to take pictures with her in a crowd of children.
It forever brings tears into my eyes to see such crowds ~ being happy,
that none of these children and young parents has flashbacks like me
to the time in Germany, when I was a kid,
and assuming that there were playgrounds at all,
not a single Jewish child could be found there,
if there even was one that was still alive....

Efrat and I accompany Mika to a performance, organized by the community to celebrate the newly installed elastic floor of the Zohar playground

A clown "rains" over the little spectators on the new floor, while Efrat and some little boy sit on plastic chairs on the side



In the evening I am granted a few lovely moments with Mika and her new, fascinating Crystall Ball , which , when moved, lights up in splendid colors:






On Tuesday , June 1, 2010,
Efrat drove me to another town, Yehud,
where she discovered the kind of sandals,
which I wear and which I needed to replace.
There was only one option and we finished the deal quickly.
While she went to buy Jeans for herself, she left us two alone.
So we made fun with a mirror...


Continuation of Mika's "Heaven-on-Earth" , in March 2010, on the Song page of May 13, 2010