The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.i.s.s.
as stated 10 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential PEERS
to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - as holograms - all of Creation!
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2011
and Overview of its main libraries

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As the fruit of becoming whole = accepting all of myself, I desire:
to live and explore and evolve   L O V E   in my personal life
and to play my part in creating the conditions for Heaven-on-Earth
by radiating grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment
on the actors in my individual life-drama and on all human beings!

 
 

 

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InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Nourishment from Others
December 17-23, 2011: enriched by more nourishment

2007_10_22 (+ 2010_03_19)

How to hold your Aloneness
in balance with
the sense of Fullness
that comes from the Unity with the One

 


Rediscovered: Starchild-Global's e-mail message from October 20, 2006:

Let us begin by saying
that the awareness of separation and individuality
is not in itself a bad thing!


This may sound strange to you,
since much of what is taught today
is about the apparent need to remember that all is One.

This is true.

But we will say, further,
that the essence of All Creation
is an awareness of separation and individuality
that leads or returns one to the WHOLE or the ONE.


In other words,
a mature or master being
is not one that disappears into the ONE,
for that is in effect the process of death.
In life, in the process of individuation,
the Master Soul...
would hold an awareness of both
- the individual and the One.

 

And so, a sense of separation and aloneness is in truth
part of the full meaning of the experience of life.
We feel that only when humans begin to understand this
and accept this and become happy with this,
that they will cease to resist it
and it will become far easier to deal with.

 

Of course, at this point in human history,
the sense of aloneness and alienation is intense,
for people have indeed forgotten how to create communities
and flow the Light of Source amongst themselves
that will assist them to feel that, despite their separation,
they are still part of a Community that is an Organic Whole.
This is what you are now learning in this cycle,
that even though you are alone,
you can become part of a greater whole
that will allow you
to feel that sense of oneness and completion
because you know
that you are indeed part of something that is far greater than you yourself.

And so, as people learn how to function once again in communities,
...
then that sense of alienation and loneliness will become less
and people will learn to balance the loneliness
with the group energy that is the nature of Source.
[But have a look at the warnings against "Belonging to Groups":
Put "groups" in Godchannel's Search!]

 

For, if you read all the stories of how the Cosmos began,
you will always find that you are told
that the Source experienced intense loneliness
and desired to know him/herself
through the creation of Life and Matter.

And, because all life in the Cosmos springs from that Source energy,
the feeling of loneliness
and the desire to explore the self
through your creations
[see the former page about a message from the same source, though channeled on Oct. 13, 2007]
and your relationships with others
is intense and a part of who you are.

The paintings, created by my step-daughter
Dita Liron
were included in her exhibition "walking in the fields"
in Natanya, August 2006.
For me they present "Manifestation" and "Evolution".

This is magnificently described, for instance,
in Godchannel: Original Heart

"Heart realized
in its desire for true, peer level companionship,
the only way to find another Heart ~
required that it somehow split itself apart,
creating two distinct beings
that could never reconstitute themselves back
into the one, Original Heart.
Never, that is ~
until there would be a way for Heart
to   have   a   companion
who   was   just   as   whole,
and yet truly separate and distinct,
not just a part of Self.

"The original explosion
was not a random occurrence
or even a mistake.
It was a very carefully orchestrated act of Love
by an incredibly wise and loving being
who no longer wished to remain whole ~
if it meant being alone."

 

In fact, the more spiritually evolved you become,
the more intense become these feelings of loneliness and separation,
as you fully enter into God or Source consciousness.

Now,
most evolved beings have taken the next step into "bliss"
and allowed themselves
to be at One with the "One"
in its state of Unity and completeness.

 

But this is a temporary state,
and in order to function on the material plane
and to carry out your work as souls
who are undertaking
the exploring and creating for Source,
you need to step back
into that separation from Source and into "self".

Now, as we mentioned earlier,
a true "Master ..." ...
is able to live in that space between Separation and Unity,
and to hold the awareness of the One with the Other.

 

Do not feel that you have failed because you still hold that feeling of separation.
While you are in a material body it will always be there to some extent.
But, if you can cultivate and hold also a sense of the One,
the knowledge that the ONE is always there
and may be experienced in parallel with the sense of the individual,
then you will understand
the true nature of the challenge of material life.

 

And, as we have said, the closer you become to God or Source consciousness,
the more intense the aloneness will become.
For it is at the moment of intense aloneness
that the Source moved into the act of Creation
and brought forth life.
So, in your own role
as emissaries of the Source or Creator,
it is your own God or Source energy
that is being felt as aloneness and separation,
and that will motivate you
to create and relate with others
in the ongoing dance of life
that is the Source's way of releasing its aloneness
and exploring the full potential of its Being as a Creator.


And, we would say,
that the whole purpose of your spiritual evolution as souls
is to reach a point within that consciousness
when the two may be held as ONE completely.
Well, because this is the purpose of your evolution,
it is the goal towards which you all strive,
without understanding fully
that you must of necessity learn to be with the aloneness and the separation
before you can blend it with the Source or God consciousness.

 



When you, as a species, cease to resist the aloneness,
you will find ways of creating the Oneness
that you seek as the goal of your evolution.
At this point,
the forward movement of evolution seems to have chosen
the route of creating soul mate relationships
wherein an individual may experience the Oneness through another person.
This can be achieved already by advanced souls quite easily.


See a similar wording in
Godchannel, Fourth Interview with God

"Nearly all of the extra-dimensional beings
that are presently working with humans on the inside
to prepare them for the 'coming changes'
are doing so under Ahriman's plan
for a Will-less creation.
[God-Spirit used to deny not only the Mother,
i.e. desire, feelings, emotions,
but also parts of himself, for instance his power,
so these denied parts became the two devils, Lucifer and Ahriman]

"If spirits can have what they wish
and do what they like,
why bother with the Mother
and all of her 'bad' feelings and other 'baggage?'
Why be dragged down by her pain and suffering?
Why not just lift out of her Hell,
and simply leave behind
whatever doesn't feel good?
No one wants pain and terror, right?
[This is exactly my problem with "Abraham/Hicks",
who teach "good-feeling thoughts",
see in "Learning-to-want" 2010_10_09]

You and I know the answers to these questions,
but the vast majority of humanity does not, yet.

"And the majority of 'light workers' and others
who are sincerely interested
in creating a better world
are being subtly deceived
on the inside by direct contact with these beings,
and on the outside by their channelings.

"But this is not wrong, either.
All of this will fit together in the end.
There is another plan, much larger ...."



But, the next step would be for those souls
to combine their energy on a permanent basis,
so that they were literally one
and would incarnate as one in their next lifetime.

In this process,
gradually the fragments of souls
that have become multitude in the explorations of Source
would begin once again to blend and come together,
and over a process of millions of years,
all energy would once again return to Source with great joy,
having learnt all there was to know about Separation and Oneness.
This is contrary to logic,
as explained in this very message
about the goal of manifestation and evolution,
it is also contrary to the message of "Right Use of Will"
("returning to Oneness is not the goal")
and to the message of Godchannel
[see the most important discussion "Becoming New Heart"]
(see also the left frame of puzzle-piece 2 and 2 b: "Peers and Companions",and puzzle-piece 21: Oneness and Duality)

On the other hand, it is true and has happened in the past,
that a group of "individual souls" reincarnated as one individuum.

But for now, you are still in the process of learning and exploring,
and you are still learning
how to hold your Aloneness
in balance
with the sense of Fullness
that comes from the Unity with the One.
And you are learning to do this as a species
so that eventually you might all ascend into the light of Source as One.


But, as we have said, this is many millions of years in the future,
and for now there is much work and play
as you explore the Cycles of Existence
and what might be and what could be created.

 


...
It is only with this balanced sense of "I" and "We"
that you can create a Peaceful and Loving society
that balances the needs of the individual
with the needs of the group or community.
And where the needs of the one are the same as the needs of the other,
there is no difference because All are One!

 

 

The ancient Egyptians called this the idea of the "One and the Many"
[already in 1970, when I worked on my PH.D. thesis,
I encountered a book called "the One and the Many" about the ancient Egyptians),
and saw it as a dialectic or flow, rather than a conflict or duality.
The person moves fluidly
from a conscious of the Self or "Many" individuals
to a consciousness of the "One"
or the Source energy that flows through all things.

For they are One,
and aloneness and fullness
are but aspects of the "One" experience,
and can be experienced at different times
along the continuum of experience.

 

The emphasis on duality in your society
has led you to value the "One" state over the "Many" state.
It is only when you can hold them in balance
on that continuum of experience called life
that you will fully experience
the richness and diversity
that is life on planet Earth."



 

to former source of "Nourishment from Others", 2007 and 2011   to next source of "Nourishment from Others" 2007 and 2011



2010_03_19

 

EMERGENCE AND THE ELEMENTAL SYNTHESIS : MARCH EQUINOX 2010

Archangel Michael through Celia Fenn

…you have indeed felt the acceleration of the Cosmic pulse as it is received on Earth. ….
Beloved Ones, the March Equinox will be something of an "Emergence" in the next steps of your spiritual and physical evolution. …. You will begin to notice that you are entering into new perceptions and new and deeper gifts and abilities as your Light Body receives more Light and this is transmitted to the physical structures of the Brain, the Pineal and Pituitary glands and the Heart, especially the Thymus Gland and the High Heart Chakra. This will expand and intensify your ability to see, hear and communicate on the Higher Dimensions and with increased intuitive ability.
This means, Beloved Ones, that you will become able to access your gifts of empathy and telepathy more clearly. You will begin to communicate more with the Heart and the Feelings, with intuition, than with words. As you enter into these intuitive modes of being, you will still appreciate the gifts of language and words, but you will become more aware of the energy behind words, rather than the "meaning" on the mental level only. Silence will become as important as words. The ability to be in silence and to feel the energy of Love in that silence ….

… The Gates of Perception will be fully opened to those who are awakened and ready to emerge to this new level of being and living. Beloved Ones, you are the pioneers, the ones who will access these new abilities so that all humanity might also discover their birthright as the "Holy Grail", the Physical Vehicle for the Light and Love of Spirit.
….
The Elemental Synthesis : March 2010
....
But, Beloved Ones, we would suggest most kindly that more of you took up your responsibilities as Earth Keepers and entered into partnerships and working relationships with Nature and the Elemental energies.
At the March Equinox of 2009, you celebrated the Elemental Reconnection that would allow you to co-create the New Earth in partnership with the Elementals and with Nature. But, so few of you are as yet working with that partnership. In the New Earth, you will find Oneness with plants, animals, minerals, as well as fellow humans. Your gifts of communication and healing will be exercised in partnership with these other beings who share the planet. [March 2, 2011: See my tunes to biblical prophecy about a new biosphere, Oct. 2010 and January 2011!]
... each one of you can create what we call a "biosphere", even in your own home however small that is. This is a "sphere" of energy that is devoted to your relationship with plants, animals and minerals. It can be as small as a pot plant and some crystals, that is your Sacred Bridge to the Elemental Kingdoms, or it can be a Garden that celebrates the dance of the Elemental Energies of Nature
There have been many examples of those beautiful souls who have learned how to communicate with Animals and Nature, and to grow plants with love for pleasure and for food… you see growing trees and plants simply as food or resources. But, these Living Beings were created to experience Joy and to bring you Joy in Sacred partnerships. [See an exemplary page about my "biosphere"
on the Titorah-Hill at Modi'in and in my home at Modi'in in 2002_03]
This will be a loving co-operation
and not an aggressive manipulation in the name of "science". ...
Is it any wonder that this is what you see in the mirror
when you contemplate so-called "natural disasters". ...

Beloved Ones, creating a "biosphere" energy allows you
to create a small sphere of energy
where Nature and Elemental energy are respected and loved….
These various "spheres" will begin to resonate together
and will link up in a grid of love that will provide the foundation
for a more loving and peaceful relationship with nature and the Elemental energies. Each of you can contribute,
and at the March Equinox celebrations
it would be good to invite the Elemental energies
and to celebrate a year of Partnership and Love in the New Earth.


Sacred Union and Partnership
in the New Earth Energy

Beloved Ones, in the next two years you will be increasingly focused
on the energy of Partnership and Relationship,
and especially Sacred Union.
This will be because as you enter the Fifth Dimension of Light,
you will become more aware of what we will call
the "Fractal Pattern of Oneness".
[I re-read my sculpture about a "Figleaf-Fractal",
related to also in pp21b Fragmentation and Fractals > 2002_08_31...]

This is the Original Template of Creation,
where the One becomes Two,
and the Two become One in order to create.
Yes, it is a wonderful paradox
that describes the Pulses and Cycles of the Dance of Life.

So, you will perceive that the Essence of "Oneness"
is expressed in Diversity
and in Co-operation through Partnership.
Only by experiencing partnership
can the Power of the One be achieved,
whether through Inner Partnerships
or between those expressed in the Outer Reality
as a Mirror for the Dance of Life.
So, you will be increasingly focused
on ways to express Partnership on all levels
and how to be in Partnerships
that are a true expression of your Inner Essence of Divine Love.

…and in this upcoming two year period
you will indeed experience a complete restructuring
of the ideas of Union and Partnership
to a frequency of Harmony and Love
beyond that of the old energies of Power and Sexual Exchange.
All partnerships in the Fifth Dimension will resonate
with the "blueprint" or pattern of Sacred Union, in Love, Balance and Harmony.
….
Indeed, Beloveds, this is a Blessed time of great change,
and you are seeing all that you have desired and worked for
beginning to manifest into Physical Form. ...

Comment on December 25, 2011:
After so many years of having used the terms "Partners" and "Partnership" ~~~~ I prefer the terms "Peers" and "Peership"

 

2010_03_19

I feel full-filled if I am One
I am one,
when I accept my Will, i.e. my feelings and desires.
I can accept them, if I do two things in every moment:
I vibrate i.e. breathe-move-sound, what I feel and desire.
I release the beliefs, habits and judgments, which dictate:
"I don't want to feel this!" - "It's bad to feel this!" -"I must do or change something so I won't feel this!"
If I "vibrate" and "release" - the first almost automatic gift is
- feeling   g r a t e - f u l l  for ever so many things.

[On Dec.5, 2011, I learn, that "Abraham" will talk on Radio HayHouse -5 times till Dec. 22:
Emotions Indicate Vibration
Through Esther Hicks, the non-physical consciousness Abraham addresses an audience in Washington, DC in this live lecture.

The more I let myself feel, the more full-fill-ment I'll feel.
The more I feel , the more I vibrate,
the more I vibrate, the more I live.


My present "biosphere" in "my" (=my landlords') garden at Arad.


The gorgeous top of the baby fig plant!

My heart jumps:
finally a tree agrees to be planted by me and live with me!
And a fig-tree for that matter! One of my favorite trees!
What intensifies the joy is the salt-shrub next to it!
This is one of the few wild plants in the desert around
and it has sown itself here! I only began to tend it lately!

One of the five trees, which I planted in my life, was a fig-tree.
It was in the 10 months of my pregnancy
with "Succah in the Desert".
It was, when Yossi Shrira, one of my first "angels on the abyss"
lived as a ranger at Borot-Lotz, 30 km west of the later Succah.
It was there, where we planted that fig-tree together.
But the ranger's cabin burnt to the ground, and with it the fig-tree!

[2010_04_02- The second vine has begun to wake up and bud!]

[2010_10_21: the fig-tree seems to have dried and died,
just like the apple-tree and the pear-tree, and I am grieved....]

[2011_03_02 - Perhaps the fig-tree will want to live after all! ]

[2011_12_25 - Already some months ago the fig-tree died for ever '
the wine survived, but may now be in his winter nakedness]

I planted two small and two big passifloras which all seem to like being with me.
Of the two grapevines which I planted - only one rose up from its winter sleep ....
This disproportion reminds me of my prophecy - a note to "The Time of Fruition":
"that the vine has to move back in favor of the passiflora!" (2003)

[2011_12_25 - only two passifloras survived, but those grew exuberantly!!!]

These are the two "big" Passiflora plants.
They look almost the same, but they are planted 4-5 meters apart.
I'm happy, they feel and grow so well!
[Dec. 25, 2011 - these two plants spread out, produced a blossom now and then
and about 10 fruits, of which have ripened already]
I've been coping for more than a month with the ugliness in "my" garden,
and if I want to be honest, I must show the ugliness too.
On January 30, 2010, three of my "starchildren" planted two trees.

The apple-tree is still asleep, I hope, and not dead like the apple-tree in 1999 and 2005.
The budding of the pear-tree in 2 spots is lovely, even on the disturbing background.
But the "Eckerstein" bricks, which my landlord ordered to cover part of his real estate,
were brought exactly on a day, on which I went an hour earlier than usual to the pool.
Since I wasn't there to show the laborers the place, where to put the two gigantic loads,
they squeezed them in between the newly planted trees, even breaking tiny branches.

Five weeks have passed and Ofir has removed only one third of the bricks for paving his ground.
I know, that the "bad luck" occurred and stays on for the time being, in order to teach me something:
To not get too attached to my "biosphere": See the paradoxical biblical prophecy, put into tune in 2000
D E S E R T
Carefree oasis, tent not-to roam,
{the habitation in the garden}
its stakes for ever-and-ever
and its cords not-to be-cut-off
Biblical Prophesy Isaiah 33,20
V I S I O N

 

2010_03_24
The new biosphere:

And in that day will I make a covenant for them
with the beasts of the field,
and with the fowls of heaven,
and with the creeping things of the ground;
and I will break the bow and the sword
and the battle out of the land,
and will make them to lie down safely
[Hosea 2:20)

tune on October 22-23, 2010-see in SongGAME2007

 


2010_03_25
Today the pear-tree began to produce two blossoms (s. end of the "Desert-Soil" song)
2010_10_23 and 2011_11_30
In August, or perhaps already in July, the pear-tree dried and died.
The same happened to the apple-tree and at last even to the fig-tree.
On the physical level it's clear,
that the desert-soil is overpowering any upgraded soil, killing whatever wants to get rooted.
On a metaphysical level I understand, that I'm not to plant and to reap, i.e. not to "settle".
Boris told me on Nov. 30, that there is a new method of gardening:
not hurting the soil by spades, only pruning what grows anyway,
and that is what I actually do .
And i'm grateful daily, that five trees of the "shitah makchilah"
have "planted themselves" and are bigger as the house already.


Another message from STARCHILDGLOBAL - Febr. 2011 (comments by me)
NEW EARTH RISING - Adventures in the new Consciousness


The New Earth Grids, the Middle East and the Tree of Life energies~~~
At this time we are certainly feeling the changes and transitions as the old third-dimensional grids disintegrate and the Earth makes the shift into the Fifth Dimension. The "crisis" in the Middle East is very much a part of these shifts and changes, and is not something to be feared.

In 2010 I went into the Middle East several times, including Egypt, with the express purpose of working with the new energies and helping to ground the Shekinah Divine Feminine energies in preparation for the manifestation of the New Earth on the Fifth-Dimensional Grids. So, it is not surprising to me, given the intensive efforts that many Lightworkers have focussed on this area, that the energy is now shifting.

My interest, though, is in the way in which the old is being displaced by the new in terms of the energies and and the grids. The Middle East is a key area on the Planet because it is the place that anchors the concept of "duality" and that controls the old third-dimensional grid networks. This is not in Egypt, but in Iraq. It was the Sumerian "intelligence" that established what I would term the "holographic insert" that became "religion" in the Middle East. That was the "story" that there was originally a "Garden of Eden" and that it was in the Middle East. It was here that Humanity became "fallen" into duality, and has had to work to "redeem" itself ever since. What a wonderful manipulation to keep people in the idea of low self-worth guilt and "not good enough".

[Rachel's comment on Dec. 22, 2011: It has nothing to do with "manipulation", but is the result of "Lost Will", i.e. of Denial as the Original Cause in Deity, see the violet and the purple RUOW Books, which I am - at present - copying into the pages of the BlueBook --- This and so many other channelings imply that humankind has been the victim of outside forces! This is not only untrue, it is a dangerous concept, because if there is even a possibility for "victimhood" in this "Creation of Free Will", then there is no chance for the future either. We - as colors of the one rainbow, as waves of the one ocean, did not "know", did not "understand", did not "realize" reality in the past, but through manifestation, and especially through the manifestation in Time and Space WE have experienced the results of Denial and since we now "know" and begin to "undeny" and accept all of ourselves, in each and every moment, there will, indeed, be "Heaven on Earth".]
This has allowed powerful and dominant dictators to control people through religion and paternalistic politics where a strong "father" figure becomes almost "godlike" in his power and control. Now, as the New Earth grids begin to take form, these old stories no longer have the power to shape people's minds. People are awakening, and beginning to see that they have the power to determine their own destiny and future, and to throw off the control that has been exerted for so long through the Iraq Stargate and its holographic insert. The manipulative energy of the Sumerian/Iraq stargate was even able to subvert the clearer energies of the Sirian portal at Giza, and that is why for so long Egypt has fallen under the control of this belief system, despite the powerful Sirian energies that are still to be found in Egypt.

Whenever I visit the Middle East, I am always struck by the stark dualities in this society, where "right and wrong" belief systems have become reasons to oppress and kill. The shadow energy is externalized and becomes "the enemy". This is nowhere more apparent than in the relations between men and women, where women become "black shadows" in their hijabs, carrying the sexual guilt of men. How good it will be when the Middle East is free of this energy, and all can be free to express who they are in a new society.

So, here we are in the birthing stages of this new energy. The shifts and movements in North Africa will also affect the rest of Africa. As the "holographic insert" weakens and falls away, the powerful grid lines that run from North Africa to South Africa will be opened. These grids have remained closed for hundreds of years. When I did grid work with a group of Lightworkers in Zimbabwe in 2009, we were unable to bring the Light any further north than Rwanda. This was because the Ancestral Spirit Keepers had closed access to the Great Lakes that feed the Nile river and connect central Africa with the Middle East. This was to prevent further encroachment into Africa by the energy of the Sumerian Holographic insert. The grids were firmly closed in the 19th century when the wise Spirit Keepers and Ancestral Spirits saw the Colonial Energy coming into Africa and realized that the grids must be closed to protect the energies of Africa. And so, this came to pass, and very few people were able to access the deep Elemental energies of Africa. Africa became the Shadow land of Europe and America, the place where the energies of Lack, Poverty and Darkness would be dumped by the western collective consciousness. But this is all set to change as the Sumerian Holographic insert of duality that powered these belief systems crumbles away. Africa is set to rise once the Sumerian insert is removed, the Sirian portal is stabilized and the African grids are opened again.

 

-2-

The key to the opening of the Grids lies in Southern Africa. The people called the San or the Bushmen in Southern Africa are recognized to be the ancestors of the Human Race. They were the original people or the first people.
[Rachel: See the stanza in the Unity-Song on November 4, 2011, which I created in order to replace the - for me unsingable - stanza in the Lingala language
Oh Africa, Humanity's homeland
O Africa, cradle of the human race
O Africa, let us all embrace you, embrace you ]
In the Sumerian insert, this fact is distorted in the story that they were created to be slaves for the "gods". This of course, is not true, although it makes a nice justification for slavery and apartheid, and has been used as such in the past. The San were the original Keepers of the Tree of Life, and they are its roots. They are the original Keepers of the African grids, and most of them have passed into the Spirit world.

What is left of the Bushmen in Africa? Not much....they are a dying race. They have been pushed off their land and dispossesed. They can no longer follow their traditional way of life and their traditional wisdom is in danger of being lost forever. I have recently begun working with Sean Caulfield, who was chosen by the San Spirit Keepers to be the link between the world and the last remnants of the Bushmen people. We feel strongly that at this time, the roots of the Tree of Life need help if the Tree is to be revitalized into the new Fifth Dimensional grids. These are some of the images of Sean's work with the San people in South Africa

At this time, of the New Moon, and while there is such turmoil of change, we ask you to hold the people of Africa and the Middle East in the Light. The New Earth is Rising, the old is falling away, and Unity Consciousness is being born on the Planet. It is indeed time to celebrate the Birth of the New!~

I would also like to share with you a video that I made in Israel, at the Sea of Galilee in Israel last year. In this video I work with a group of Lightworkers to anchor the Divine Feminine energy and the Magdalene Flame. It is work such as this that has enabled the establishment of the New Earth grids that will replace the Old. I thank all the dedicated Lightworkers who are doing the work that they feel called to do at this time! [see the video on the original page beneath "Adventures in the New Consciousness", February 2011]

 

 

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Arad, Shabbat, December 17, 2011

Comet  Lovejoy
dives into the sun,
yet survives
- marred - but alive

Dec. 16, 2011: "Incredibly, sungrazing Comet Lovejoy has survived its close encounter with the sun.
Lovejoy flew only 140,000 km over the stellar surface during the early hours of Dec. 16th.
Experts expected the icy sundiver to be destroyed.
Instead, NASA's Solar Dynamics Observatory caught the comet emerging from perihelion (closest approach) at least partially intact......Comet Lovejoy began the week as a chunk of dusty, rocky ice some 200 meters in diameter.
No one can say how much of the comet's core remains intact or how long it will hang together after the searing heat of perihelion.

December 21, 2011
the comet's tail wriggles wildly as the comet plunges through the sun's hot atmosphere only 120,000 km above the stellar surface.

 

Arad, Sunday, December 18, 2011
[sculpted on Dec. 22, after my return from Shoham...]

Continuation from "Only through your creations will you know yourself"

Two days before I was to carry out my scary plans concerning Mika's 6th birthday on Dec. 20, 2011,
I was given a wondrous sign, which told me, that for me the time of "az nidberu" would begin now.
The full-fillment of Original Heart's "desire for true, peer level companionship"!

The sign was am e-mail today, from Daniel G., Germany, discovered by me around noon 12:25.
I recalled the name, but not that he had participated in the Walk about Love in spring 2009, where he heard me talking in a circle.
nor that we had a correspondended 3 times from December 2010 till January 2011, but in the end had not encountered each other.

hallo christa-rachel!
ich habe heute geburtstag und bin in arad.
wenn du zeit hast, wuerde ich mich freuen, wenn du mich in das geburtstag-spiel einweihst,
von dem mir die sternenkinder erzaehlt haben...
und vielleicht kann ich dir ja mit dreamweaver weiterhelfen ;)
Sag mir kurz bescheid, ich bin unter 054-... erreichbar.
I called and we fixed for 13:30. He came, we worked, we talked, we worked, we ate, we talked... "az nidberu"...
Daniel (29) is a software engineer and the plan was to fix the bug with synchronizing my local site with the Internet.
"Of course", Daniel just looked at the problem, and without doing anything, anything at all, the problem fixed itself.
We also worked on other issues, which are not only technical, but have to do with how we want the world to work:
not as a monopolistic company like "Windows", but as a cooperative of volunteers like "Firefox" (I've to learn more!}

Dec.12, 2010
Shalom!
ich bin seit heute in Tel Aviv und gerade bei Gal gelandet.
kann ich das Right Use of Will Buch von Dir leihen waerend ich hier
bin? ich suche das schon laenger, war leider unmoeglich zu bekommen.
Ich komme natuerlich gerne vorbei, um es abzuholen und brings auch
gerne persoenlich wieder zurueck :)
Dec.13, 2010 Shalom Daniel,
Das erste RUOW Buch habe ich nicht mehr als Papierbuch.
Es ist - auf englisch - ganz in meiner website integriert.
http://www.empower.co.il/healingkiss/appendices/RUOW%20contexts/Blue-Intro.htm
Ein link ueber der Introduction fuehrt Dich zur Uebersicht ueber alle 8 Buecher.
Ausser dem ersten buch habe ich noch alle in Papier,
aber es hat keinen Sinn, dass Du sie liest
ohne zuerst das erste Buch wirklich studiert zu haben.
Soviel ich weiss, ist das erste Buch auch ins Deutsche uebersetzt.
Ich hoffe, ich konnte Dir helfen.
Dec.15,2010
Nachdem ich mich die letzten zwei Tage kaum vom Bildschrim loesen
konnte habe ich mir jetzt einen Teil ausgedruckt :)
Danke fuer Deine Website!!!
Danke, dass es Dich gibt!!!
Dec.16, 2010
Shalom Daniel,
Danke fuer Deinen Dank.
Das tut dem Ego gut....
Falls Du mehr Fragen zu RUOW hast,
und - Gal hat es Dir wohl davon erzaehlt - zu Godchannel.com,
stehe ich Dir "zur Verfuegung".
Dec.31, 2010 Shalom Daniel,
Shalom!
In ein paar Tagen werde ich die letzten Seiten blaue Buch gelesen
haben; ich reise und lese ausgedruckte Seiten, weil ich nur kurz vorm
Rechner sitzen kann -- ich bin/war Software Entwickler und bekomm sehr
schnell Kopf- und Nackenschmerzen, wenn ich vorm Bildschirm sitze.
Eine gesunde Haltung und Balance zu diesen Maschinen zu finden wird
noch eine laengere Aufgabe in meinem Leben werden.

Wenn Du gegen Ende der naechsten Woche Zeit hast, koennte ich nach
Arad kommen. Zum einen natuerlich wegen dem zweiten RUOW Buch und
weiterer Lektuere. Zum anderen koennte ich etwas Orientierungshilfe
gebrauchen und hoffe, dass ich bei einem Treffen mit Dir was lernen
kann :) Alles Liebe und bis bald
Jan. 2, 2011
Shalom, Daniel,
Im Augenblick sieht es so aus, dass ich am Wochenende in Arad bin.
Was genau in puncto Zeit stellst Du Dir vor?
Und um was genau bittest Du mich?
Jan.4, 2011

Hallo Christa Rachel!
Ich bitte Dich um weitere englische oder deutsche Lektuere, die mir helfen koennte, mich wieder mehr zu verbinden.

Der Plan sieht fuer mich etwa so aus: ich fahr mit dem Bus nach Arad,
treff Dich wegen den Buch/eventuell weiteren hilfreichen Buechern,
wenn Dir oder mir noch was einfaellt findet sich ja vielleicht noch Zeit dazu.

Ich bin gerade recht unstabil und durchlebe wohl so etwas wie eine
allgemeine Sinn-Krise, erlebe deutlich, dass ich nicht mehr wirklich weiss, was ich will und arbeite daran mich wieder zu integrieren.

Ob ueberhaupt und Was ich Dir im Gegenzug anbieten kann, weiss ich
nicht; ich mach viel mit Linux und freier Software, zuletzt besonders
im bereich (Richt-)(Funk-) Netzwerke. Damit bist Du aber ja offenbar bereits bestens versorgt :) Liebe Gruesse

A letter from Daniel on Dec.23, 2011, after my website software "DreamWeaver" again refused to synchronize from local site to Internet and I asked for renewed help.

............Ich hab mal ein bisschen recherchiert und habe folgendes gefunden: DreamWeaver MX funktioniert perfekt unter Linux, das bedeutet, dass Dir saemtlicher Aerger mit dem immer verkorksteren Windows in Zukunft erspart werden kann. Und so wie ich Deinen Computer erlebt habe ist der sehr langsam und wirkt ueberlastet, obwohl Resourcen eigent-lich ueppig vorhanden sind -- leider ein fuer Windows sehr typisches Phaenomen...

Wichtig ist mir dabei, dass durch diese eventuelle "Befreiung" Deines Computers nicht eine neue Abhaengigkeit (von mir) entsteht -- leider kennen sich immer noch wesentlich mehr Menschen mit Windows aus als mit den freien Alternativen, die auf Linux bauen. Andererseits habe ich die Erfahrung gemacht, dass ein
einmal gut eingerichtetes Linux kaum Aufmerksamkeit braucht. In den meisten Faellen, in denen ich Linux eingerichtet habe, lief das 5 bis 8 Jahre, dann war
eben irgendwann die Festplatte voll oder ein Luefter war verstaubt oder sowas in der Art und deswegen gabs dann mal ein Problem. Mit Windows gibt in meiner
Erfahrung auch bei sehr gut eingerichteten Systemen normalerweise ca. 2 mal pro Jahr irgendein ein Software-Problem.

Das ganze ist gluecklicherweise keine Alles-oder-Nichts Geschichte, Du kannst sehr wohl beide Systeme parallel auf dem Computer installiert haben und kurz nach dem Einschalten auswaehlen, welches System Du benutzen willst -- Deine Daten sind ja ohnehin auf der externen Festplatte, das macht es noch einfacher. Es waere ausserdem auch moeglich, das Linux System ebenfalls auf einem externen Datentraeger zu installieren, z.B. einem USB pendrive, dann muss an Deinem Computer gar nichts geaendert werden.

So, das waren jetzt wahrscheinlich viel zu viele Details. Grundsaetzlich geht es mir darum, moeglichst vielen Menschen die Vorteile von Freier Software
zugaenglich zu machen. Mehr dazu bei Wikipedia (was im uebrigen selbst auch Freie Software ist) ............

 

Jan.6, 2011

Shalom, Daniel, Diesmal hast Du mich immerhin mit Namen genannt,
aber Deine Bitte, und noch mehr Dein Nicht-Bitten haben mich so verstoert,
dass ich gestern vor Mitternacht mit Gal ein Gespraech ueber Dich fuehrte.
Wir kamen zu dem gemeinsamen Ergebnis, dass es noch nicht die Zeit fuer Dich ist,
Dich in meine Gegenwart zu begeben, da Dir dies eher schaden als nuetzen koennte.
Sie bat mich aber, Dir zu schreiben, was ich denke, waehrend sie mit Dir reden wird
ueber das, was sie von mir verstanden hat und das was sie selber denkt

Zunaechst die Bitte um Lektuere.
Ich habe nur die RUOW Buecher, vom zweiten bis zum achten.

Aber a) leihe ich die niemandem aus

b) kannst Du sie doch einfach von der Channelerin bestellen
(das link zu ihr , gleich auf der Einfuehrungsseite zu RUOW auf meiner website,
hast Du doch hoffentlich schon geoeffnet.http://rightuseofwill.com/

Ich habe jetzt alle Rubriken dort Deinetwegen durchgeschaut.
Die "FAQs" zum Beispiel sind einfach und richtig!
Neu war mir ihr Buch "Feelings Matter", das mich sehr interessiert,
mir aber nicht wichtig genug ist, um es fuer mich selber zu bestellen.
"Wichtig" heisst fuer mich nur eines:
Es hilft, mein Leben zu bestehen und meine Aufgabe zu erfuellen oder nicht.

3) Ich rate Dir dringend, nicht gleich weiter zu lesen!
Selbst ich, nach 24 Jahren - weiss, wieviel ich noch nicht verstanden habe,
geschweige denn es konsistent anwende.
Die 7 Buecher sind sehr "metaphysisch",
reden von der Evolution der vier Aspekte der Gottheit und also von uns,
und auch von den verschiedenen Schoepfungen menschlicher Typen,
ebenso von gewissen Inkarnationen.
Das scheint mir alles ueberhaupt nicht "wichtig" zu sein fuer Dich, JETZT.

4) Ebenso dringend rate ich Dir, Dich dem Godchannel.com oeffnen,
den Du auf meiner website als "edited Godchannel" findest, alle die ueber 200 files.
Healing-K.i.s.s. ist zunaechst nur entstanden, damit ich die Information gruendlich lernen kann. sie ist - mehr oder weniger - in 70 (die Zahl war nicht beabsichtigt ) puzzle-pieces "verarbeitet": http://www.empower.co.il/healingkiss/PuzzlePieces/pplist.htm

Und nun zu Deiner grossen Not, die mich natuerlich sehr beruehrt.
Wer redet denn von einem "Gegenzug"!
Entweder wir sind einigermassen auf derselben Frequenz oder nicht.
Im zweiten Fall bin ich in dieser Zeit der Welt gegenueber nicht offen.
Nicht weil Du mich nicht interessieren wuerdest, ganz im Gegenteil.
Aber wenn Du kaemst, waerest aber nicht wirklich faehig,
mich als Deinen Resonanzboden zu erfahren,
dann wuerde ich viel zu viel reden und mich nachher schaemen.
Ich bin wie die Kuh, die sehr viel mehr Milch geben moechte,
als alle Kaelber, die ich kenne, trinken koennen und wollen.

Natuerlich brauchst Du das Gespraech (Resonanzboden...)
Aber Menschen wie Gal und Tzippi sind dazu viel geeigneter.
Sie sind wie ich, aber ihre Voltage ist "menschlicher" als die meine.
Wenn Du trotzdem von mir "trinken" moechtest,
dann kannst Du ja mein "Finetuning to my Presence" verfolgen,
und daraus genau die milli-liter entnehmen, die fuer Dich richtig sind.
Ich schreibe Dir schon mal das link, aber bitte mach es erst in einigen Tagen auf,
ich habe eine fuer mich sehr grosse Lektion zu lernen, seit dem 12. Dec.
und ich habe sie immer noch nicht wirklich "im Griff". Learn&Live 14-2005_05_26

Ich denke an Dich: moegest Du nicht zu viel leiden muessen auf der Suche nach Deinem Weg.
Wenn es Dir moeglich ist, schreibe jetzt vorerst nicht an mich. Warte ein wenig,
und dann wird sich vielleicht eine balancierte Korrespondenz einspielen.

January 26, 2011

Shalom, Daniel,
zunaechst moechte ich mich bei Dir entschuldigen dafuer, dass ich Dich mit meiner Verwirrung betreffs "Grenzen setzen" ueberwaeltigt habe. Das Einzige, was ich Dir haette antworten sollen, als Du schriebst: "Ich will am Wochenende nach Arad kommen", waere dies gewesen: "Ich lade Dich ein zu einem Gespraech in meiner Wohnung zwischen 10 und 12 am Freitag".

Nun gibt es eine andre Gelegenheit, Dir eben diesen Satz zu sagen: Am kommenden Sonntag vormittag fah-re ich von Shoham nach Jerusalem,
und bleibe bei Lior und Tzippi bis Dienstag Nachmittag. Das Programm ist gefuellt, aber ich koennte wohl 2 Stunden mit Dir zusammensein,
wenn Du das erstens noch willst und zweitens moeglichen machen kannst. Wenn ja, dann rufe mich bitte am Sonntag gegen Mittag an und wir machen etwas aus.

Uebrigens wurde ich zu diesem Brief "inspiriert" durch eine Seite auf meiner website, wo ich einen wichtigen Abschnitt aus einem der RUOW Buecher kopiert habe. 2005Learn&Live/16-2005_06_06.htm


My response to Daniel's letter on Dec.23, 2011:
danke, dass Du trotz Marathon gleich eantwortet hast. Und natuerlich - zusammen mit Deinem Brief - besann sich auch das Synchronisierungs Programm! Wenn Du trotzdem kommen willst, so passt mir Dienstag gut. Und bitte ermuti-ge mich weiter, etwas ganz Neues - also Freie Software - zu lernen. Dies waere auch ein Symbol fuer meinen eben begonnenen neuen Lebens-abschnitt.
January 28, 2011

Liebe Christa-Rachel!
Ich freu mich von Dir zu hoeren!
Du hast mich nicht ueberwaeltigt sondern mich (zu Recht!) damit
konfrontiert, dass ich nicht wirklich wusste, was ich wollte. Was
Deine Entschuldigung angeht: Ich will nicht dass Du Dich schuldig
fuehlst. Es hat mir nicht geschadet und war voellig in Ordnung. Und Du
musst der Aussenwelt auch nicht auf Anfrage zu jedem Anlass und auf
jede Art zur Verfuegung stehen! Ich kenne dieses Problem nur zu gut...
Grenzen zu finden ist auch eins meiner Themen, ich habe gerade
erstmalig die Erfahrung gemacht, an meine physischen und psychischen
Grenzen zu stossen, waerend ich auf engstem Raum quasi ohne Grenzen
mit einem anderen Menschen in recht extremen Bedigungen zusammengelebt
habe. Nachdem meine Resourcen in dieser recht exessiven
selbst-zertoerungs-phase ziemlich verbraucht waren ("Burn-Out" oder
so) habe ich die Notbremse gezogen und finde jetzt langsam wieder
meinen Weg ins Leben.

Inzwischen kann ich formulieren, wo ich auf Deine "strategische" Hilfe
gehofft habe (und auch immer noch hoffe, dass Du mir ein paar Hinweise
dazu geben kannst):
Oft fuehle ich mich in Gefuehlen "gefangen", wie als wuerde ein Film
immer und immer wieder abgespielt werden. Ich sehe mich scheinbar
Grundlos abstuerzen und kann dem kaum begegnen.
Gal hat mir von deiner Strategie zur Bewegung von Emotionen erzaehlt,
auch oder gerade dann, wenn sie der Geist in den Koerper vertrieben
hat. Das auf eine akzeptierende Weise zu bewerkstelligen faellt mir
sehr schwer, oft finde ich mich im Kampf gegen mich selbst und weiss
dann nicht weiter. Klar, rational weiss ich, dass ich nur akzeptieren
und lieben muss, was da vor sich geht, aber in der Praxis fuehl ich
mich oft einfach ueberwaeltigt.
Auf deiner Homepage habe ich viele Hinweise gefunden, die meinem Geist
helfen zu lernen, akzeptierend mit mir selbst umzugehen. Leider hilft
mir aber das rationale informations-absorbieren dabei nur wenig. Ich
hatte auf Deine Kritik und Dein Scharfsinn gehofft, mehr als Antworten
brauche ich gerade Fragen. Ich verstehe aber natuerlich, dass ich mir
letztendlich nur selbst helfen kann.

Ich bin inzwischen nicht mehr in Jerusalem bei Tzipi und Lior, die mir
schon von deinem geplanten Aufenthalt dort erzaehlt haben. Von Sonntag
bis Dienstag habe ich auch schon Plaene hier in Tel Aviv, die ich
jetzt nicht mehr aendern will.
Ab dem 06.02. werde ich fuer (mindestens) einen Monat in Neot Smadar
bleiben und freu mich, dann endlich wieder festen Boden unter den
Fuessen zu haben. Ich hoffe, dass wir uns trotzdem noch begegnen
werden, ich werde wohl noch eine Weile in Israel bleiben, somit eilt
es erst mal nicht :) Alles liebe und bis bald
January 31, 2011

Daniel,\\
ich versuche mit \lior's laptop zurechzukommen. \
Daher nur dies\;\\\\\\\\\\\\\
\oberstes \prinzip\; \niemand hat die \kraft Gefuehle anzunehmen,
solange er nicht weiss und anwendet,\ DASS Gefuehle - selber Vibrationen -
vibriert werden wollen und muessen, um zu heilen und um Dich den fuer Dich rechten //Weg zu weissen.
Also studiere bitte die folgenden Seiten : Puzzle Piece 17, a,b,c,d,e

und wenn weder gal \9ich finde einfach die shift taste nicht
Dir den professionellen support geben kann,
der Dich Gefuehle bewegen lassen kann, \\\\
dann solltest Du Re-evaluation counseling lernen, ganz systematisch.

inzwischen atme und blinke und probiere all die andern Techniken,
und bitte innerlich darum,
dass zu Dir kommt,
was Du nicht kapierst
\und danke fuer den liebevollen Brief
Rachel


There was no response
and we did not meet in Jerusalem, as I had suggested.
Now , Dec.18, 2011, Daniel told,
that he stayed at Neot Smadar
for 5 months, lived in Hungary with his Hungary-born girlfriend and that then finished his B.SC,
in England.

When we felt like eating lunch-
and by chance I had a nourishing soup and a red cabbage salad ready in the fridge and it was - strange in this season!- warm enough to sit outside -
I sat - with Daniel - for the first time on a spot, which I had prepared under those now grown-up acacias,
after all the plants about which I told above, refused to grow in "my" garden, except for 2 passiflora- vines.


Towards the end of our longwork on Daniel's 29 thanksgivings and 3 wishes for his 30th year - all written-down or even sculpted by me,
suddenly Boris plunged into the room, - he was the one who had told me enthusiastically about Daniel during a short visit 3 days earlier.
It was thanks to Boris and thanks to my computer problem and thanks to the fact, that this time ! my son didn't move in order to repair it,
that this celebration of 'az nidberu' began to expand.
For soon the couple Moshe and Stephanie from Berlin arrived, later than fixed ,
but at the right time regarding the togetherness between Daniel, Boris and me.
Now, in addition to me, the German/Christian Israeli Jew,
and Boris, the Russian Jewish Israeli
and Daniel, the German, almost "Arad-nik" ,
["Arad is the center of the center of the World and whenever I'm abroad I long to be here!"]
we embraced Moshe, a scientist, physicist (solid matter),
the Israeli, who has been living in Berlin for 10 years and has a daughter there,
and Stephanie, the German, the healer, who will soon "go down" to Sinai,
for a workshop which she'll conduct with our friend Margret, now called Sabera.


Boris asked Stephanie the question, which he asks all people:
"What is your dream?"
"To live in a community in Nature and...."
Did she say: 'and work on healing each other mutually'?
in any case - I heard myself relating to what she said:
"Is there anyone among us, who doesn't share this dream?"
What a coincidence with the Archangel's message in 2005 on top of this page!




Arad, Monday, December 19, 2011

I re-read the "Psalm of the Mother", and I had these thoughts.
Leben heisst ...Live means
[see my song on the last page of SongGame]
Life is ~~~ Loving, Knowing, Creating
LOVING all I am, all my feelings and from there all of Creation.
KNOWING all that is, why it is, and what it needs to be lovable.
CREATING  whatever  enhances  my  LOVING  and  KNOWING.

Grate-full for what/whom I love, know, create
zest-full for knowing and loving and creating
full-filled with knowing, loving and creating.

Looking at "Original Cause" (see what I re-study and copy from the violet and the purple RUOW-books)
and what happened before, during and after all the "emergences" from "God"
I can see just this:
"They"=We are trying to understand (to "realize" what's real),
trying to love,
and desiring to create constantly and ongoingly and infinitely.

I now "r-e-a-l-l-y" believe, that creating IS a major part of Zest-full-ness and Full-fill-ing.
I no longer doubt it, as if there could be full-fillment without creating, loving and knowing,
or as I - guilty because of my addiction to creating on Healing-K.i.s.s. - rationalized:
as if only "Feeling begets Full-fill-ment!"

I must also re-learn, what I quoted in "Full-fill-ment in Godchannel's Messages",
especially since Daniel G. suspected- but in a moment, where nobody could relate -
that "acceptance sounds like tolerance"...

no date
From Mother Teachings, Healing Lucifer

Immediate fulfillment
and undenial is the end goal.

"Undenial.
This is very close to acceptance,
but it is deeper and more lasting.
Acceptance borders on tolerance,
which borders on segregation, ..."

on the same page I quote "Channeling Class Discussion"
"As you move
deeper into your wholeness
and your creating,
you and I become more like peers
as fellow universe creators.
And someday it won't be 'as if' we're buddies,
we just will be."

How will Healing Feeling beget Full-Filling
again & again like the movement of the Sea?

I also want to re-learn the quote of Abraham on a former page:



"Abraham" (2001) e-mail quote on November 22, 2011

Before the contrast and before the summoning,
and before the answering of Source Energy,
the Universe was less.
So rather than thinking in terms of time,
think in terms of expansion,
and then you will understand time in the way we understand it.
We never think about how long anything takes.
We are just enjoying the expansion.
And so,   our  now   is always powerful 
in our anticipation of what is becoming.


I'm thinking about endlessly creating.
This somehow frightens me,
What helped me was a sentence by "Abraham",
also on the page of "Full-fill-ment in GC's message" :
"The stability of your Earth exists
because   i t s    c h a n g e   a n d    e x p a n s i o n
does not   o u t s t r i p   i t s   a b i l i t y   t o   f i n d    b a l a n c e ."

That's vital: there's no end to creating,
but there must be balance in what is created
and obviously also balance within the creator!

 

 

Arad, Wednesday, December 21, 2011

The pain of my "lekhi lakh" was soothed by two great gifts from my daughter-in-love:
1- A painting of hers, which she had wanted to discard already, when they moved into this flat,
and which I grabbed and guarded in "my" room at Shoham:
For me it exemplifies the different "layers" of "the Mother"!
Now it found its right place next to a round hole in the wall,
as if hinting at the ominous depth of Creation's "Lost Will".
2- the Az Nidberu blanket, the creation of which was initiated by Efrat for my 70th birthday:
[see how I carried these gifts among all my "Exodus" stuff through the trainstation of Lod]

I sent this double integration in my Arad sanctuary to my daughter-in-love with the titles:
"A new sight from my bed"              and                "A new sight from my loo".
I completed the sculpture in my bathroom by the renewal of two silvery plates,
one with the "yod-yod-yod-yod" : ... the concept of a new economy on earth,
and the other the Unity-Blessing - on a circle upon a triangle upon a square,
What a solution ! for my problem with holy geometry on the former page:
my triangular pyramid and the circle that indicates my new "khugh-lakh".

See this prophecy and my tune on K.i.s.s.-Log 2008 since Aug. 5 till Dec. 31
az   nidberu   yir'ee  YHWH   ish - el - re'eehu va-yaqshev   [YHWH]      va-yishma'
Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other, and he listens      and he hears
yatakaalamuna     allathina     yarau'na-hu , va-yusri        va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander, und er lauscht      und er hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre il entends,        il ecoute

And see "The Unity-Blessing":

"For the sake of uniting
the Holy-One-Blessed-be-He and his Shekhinah
to unite the name YH with WH
in whole union
May all of Israel be wombed in my womb"

 

 

Arad, Thursday, December 22, 2011

While trying to integrate the 24 hours experience away from Arad,
[see the 7 pages about my lekhi lakh from Mika]
and - by contrast - the experience with az nidberu 2 days earlier.
I am touched by the sentence of Archangel Michael in Oct. 2006:
"....to carry out your work as souls
who are undertaking
the exploring and creating for Source,
you need to step back
into that separation from Source and into 'self'."

 

Arad, Friday, December 23, 2011

There was only one relevant program on TV, the third among a doc sequence about the Kibbutz.
Though during many years the "Kibbutzniks" an the one hand and the "Academics" on the other hand
were those people against whom I discerned a strong prejudice on my part,
the phenomenon of the historical Kibbutz still earns my utmost admiration and awe.
I am sure, there would not be any State of Israel without these incredible pioneers.
A sentence from a former program, in which a now old woman said:
"ha-mele'ut hazot" - this full-ness which we felt! this meaningfull-ness!"
But,"of course", the feeling of achievement, accomplishment, full-fill-ment had dark shadows.
I'm sorry for detailing the shadows of the Kibbutz-movement instead of their life-bringing light!

(1)
I'll mention only three:
the Kibbutzim could not deal with the Holocaust and its victims,
neither before the war, nor after the war, when survivors immigrated.
Their behavior must have been so terrible,
that Ben-Gurion declared officially that he was ashamed of them.
They themselves felt utterly righteous by having accepted survivor children.
But - so the comment in the doc - these children were in need of warmth and comfort....
And I add - if the kibbutzniks couldn't give warmth and comfort even to their own babies,
since those had to spend their days and NIGHTS - except for 3 hours in the afternoon -
away from their parents,
how could they feel the tiniest spark of compassion
towards those foreign children and youngsters,
whose parents "had gone to slaughter like sheep",
as Israel-born "Sabres" used to judge them
before the Eichmann Trial at my time (1961) opened their eyes.

The other shadow was,
that - following the attack of Ben-Gurion, or so I understood - there came this terrible split,
the split between those who believed in the Mapai-ideology
and those who adored Stalin
("we had 3 festivals: the festival of the Kibbutz, the first of May and the seventh of November"-?)
the split was so horrid, that not only members within a Kibbutz,
but even couples separated from each other,
"the majority could stay in a kibbutz,
the minority had to leave and find themselves a fitting community elsewhere."

The third shadow appeared when agriculture and Palmach, the pre-army army,
no longer were the only assignments and occupations.
People wanted to have an indivicual vocation and education,
But "THE KIBBUTZ" demanded,
that only a job that was needed in the kibbutz could be learnt outside.
Therefore many kibbutzniks left, including Rafael Rosenzweig, my husband,
of whose stories about his kibbutz Ma'abarot I remember mostly this one:
"They found out, that I was a good writer,
they asked me to write a scetch for some festival,
but I didn't get any free time for this assignment!"
It was not considered "work" and I had to do it in the evenings."
He and his wife and two small children left, I think, in 1953.

The forth shadow was the most direct result of what got lost in time:
the feeling of "full-ness and meaning-full-ness".
This shadow is very relevant to my continuous quest
for how to achieve the conditions for "Heaven-on-Earth":
grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness, full-fill-ment:
The TV doc implied, that "the split" on the one hand
and the "lack of meaning-full-ness" after the war of 1948 on the other hand
caused the Kibbutz to degenerate.
but then - I say it cynically! - thanks to destiny:
the 1967 war brought Israel new land, the Syrian Golan Heights, for instance,
"and there they could do what they were so good at: establishing new settlements!"
Together with this chance there came blood-influx from the international volunteers.
And "in the face of this surrection
the former split and the former meaning-less-ness were a small problem.
They did not know, that this was , indeed,
a negligable problem compared to what lay ahead."
What lay ahead was probably outlined in the 4th program on Dec. 29,,
into which I only zapped during the commercials of "School of Music".
The end of "The Kibbutz" came obviously with privatization [see a video and more via Google],
when the older members found themselves without professions, without jobs- unfull-filled...

(2)
I fell asleep rightaway, only to wake up in the middle of the night.
After a long wake-full-ness I switched on the light
and opened "Speaking to Angels".
There was a passage, p. 101-102, which caused me great turmoil:


"Lilli: "Atmospheric pressure oppresses me~~~"
[The "Angels":] "...use the pressure.
It can become a wonderful ally
if you work not against it, but with it.
Let it press you and you will master it.
It can press you only as far as the ground.
No further.

"... How foolish the human being is!
Like a king who fights against his own people!
But He said: "Love thy enemy!"

"EVERY FORCE IS ENEMY IF YOU DO NOT LOVE IT.

"YOU CANNOT LOVE IT IF YOU DO NOT KNOW IT.

"BECOME ONE WITH IT,

"AND THEN THERE IS NO ENEMY."


The concept, of course, is not new to me.
It's all about self-acceptance, undenial, healing into wholeness.
But a) I had never understood that Jesus-sentence in this way.
On the contrary, I had hated it,
"because it's demanding too much from human beings,
and even You yourself haven't applied it,
see how you humiliated your enemies, the so-called "pharisees" etc."

But more striking was the context in which I read it:
after the input about the 'move'ment of the Kibbutz!
The TV doc had quoted the words of Yitzchak Tabenkin,
considered a spiritual leader of the Kibbutz Movement then,
after the voting of the UN in favor of the partition of Palestine,
which meant both: a Jewish State, and war between Jews and Arabs.
Tabenkin said:
"now we, too, have succumbed to the temptation of becoming ruled"
(it was not mentioned, that his was the horrid fact in ancient Israel:
1. Samuel 8:5 : "now make us a king ... like all the nations.
How sad were YHWH and his prophet because of this Free Will choice...
Everett Fox called his translation of the books of Samuel: "Give us a King" )

I, who has dedicated 40 years to "peace"
always say, that without the war in the Middle East
the Jews from 70 nations and different races would slaughter each other.
It seems to be the "enemy" which makes Israel one functionable nation.
I also keep saying, what Jonathan Jacoby taught me...
the victimized people must first grow strong by fighting the enemy
before being able to try what I have been proposing and applying since 1974::
"being master of ourselves means
to turn a negative dependency into a positive dependency,
i.e. into a "partnership"...."
(3)
Now - inspired by the"Hungarian Angels" - I could see deeper:
If not for the war against myself
I would never have known myself.
I said it clearly- 33 years ago at that conference about conflict-resolution-
creating "partners" means also making my interior adversaries to partners,
(unlike Uri Avnery, from whom - around 1966- I learnt "ribbonut",
i.e. that we, Israel, have to be masters of our destiny,
but who up to this day (he is 88 and I saw an interview with him last week)
does not find it strange, that he can "talk" with any Arab,
but cannot "talk" with most Jews....)

Already then I said, that I have to win over even myself as partner.
But now - for the very first time - I see,
that there was a purpose to having been my own enemy,
Or - to say it in the context of the "myth" of "Original Cause",
that "Deity" , when it/he/she/they woke up to consciousness and feeling,
had to become "enemies", had to deny themselves and each other,
because, just like Jonathan taught me in 1979 -
there is no way to become unique, i.e. separate from oneness,
if I do not see myself as distinct from another.
And I cannot see myself as distinct from another, if I am less equal.
So far in the world, the way to become equal was
to fight the one who seemed to be more worthy.

Now that uniqueness has evolved to a great degree,
I can make this distinction from another in love and joy,
I can let myself be "fertilized", as we say in Hebrew,
or with my own expression,
I can turn the "frightful" into the 'fruitful" {mafria' le-mafrae}



There is again something to celebrate that is right in the World:
Two news from Thegoodnews.co.il:
Free Art in Shanghai and MIT to offer Free Internet Courses

 

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